ohm goodness.
Its been a very long time.
I am so sorry.
Lol.
Life's been crazy.
Chapter 6
Caught Myself
Edward. Point of view starting out.
"Bella, I don't know… whether, to be worried, or just…" I didn't know what I was trying to say, but I felt like I needed to say something, we had been laying motionless like statues for hours. The sun was beginning to rise, and she just gazed at me.
"Shhhh…" she placed her index finger on my lips, and laid her head on my chest.
And I was quiet.
I ran my fingers through her hair, and kissed her forehead.
"Love, I'm really worried about you…" I whispered lightly in her ear.
"I know, I know…" she said raising her head up.
"I don't know either, I mean the more I think about it, its not a big deal, then I think about it some more, and it is a big deal. You know, I think maybe I need to leave. that's the conclusion I'm get-" I interrupted.
"Don't, don't say that. I don't want you to leave Bella."
"It happened once it will happen again. I need to go off to gain control. Or your going to get busted and we'll all get killed…and."
"Now you shhhh." I said putting my hand over her mouth, "you don't have to leave, we can handle this, its not that big of a deal, we're just worried that's all."
"I don't want to be a burden… I can resist blood, I can make it on my own." she said with doubt in her tone.
"You might can make it on your own, but I don't think I'm strong enough to make it without you." I admitted.
We went silent for a minute.
"If it happens again, I'm leaving."
"If it happens again, I'm going with you."
She gave me a look, and I simply smiled at her.
"I love you. And I will protect you." I whisper in her ear.
"I probably won't go back to school," she whispered back, "oh, and I love you too." she said, throwing herself on top of me, and kissing me forcefully.
I kissed back, as she ripped my shirt off, then I start tearing off her blouse. Luckily we had a closet full of clothes, because ours never survive when we make love.
We stayed in the woods, way longer than planned. We ran as fast as possible into the house, and into our room. If I were alive my heart would be beating a thousand beats a minute, even though I'm dead, when I'm with her I've never felt so alive.
"Do you know that you are the most beautiful person in the whole entire world?" I say putting another shirt. On.
She looks away from me, biting her lip. "thanks, did you know that you're the most amazingly handsome person I have ever seen in my life?" she turned back to face me with a questioning look.
I go over and kiss her, without a word, and our clothes are ripped to shreds again.
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BPV
I need to leave. I want to protect them. Their in constant danger when I'm here, because I can't control my damn "gift" or curse. Unfortunately for them, I'm not strong enough to leave… not now. Its nice to know Edward is with me no matter what, but I can't let him separate himself from his family. Its just not right.
I argue with myself, for what feels like hours. I decide I am strong enough to leave. I think a few seconds about leaving, I decide I can't. I want Edward way to much to leave. He's a part of me now, he goes, I go. I go he goes. Two people, one heart.
We're laying in the bed, he finally speaks.
"Tell me, what are you thinking?" he murmurs softly in my ear.
"Whether to leave or not…" I can't believe I just go out and say it.
"Bella, we've been over this… I swear, with all that is in me, we will get through this." he says.
And I believe him.
"I just hate feeling like I keep you in danger…" I whisper.
"I feel guilty everyday of my life, for taking yours away from you. I look at you, and I see your happy, and I love you. But every second we're together, I know that I am responsible for what has happened to you. I killed you, and yet, here you sit." he says in astonishment as he caresses my cheek.
"Here I sit…" I say, thinking of leaving.
I stare at him, when someone bursts through the door,
I know its Alice without even looking.
"What Alice?" Edward says in a agitated tone.
"I need to speak with the two of you downstairs, its important, so if you could, please get down there in a milisecond." and she was gone.
I look at Edward, scared, shocked, worried, curious.
this can't be good. I thought.
SORRY ITS BEEN FOREVER!!!
And this probably sucks but I haven't been in this story in forever.
Ive been doing a lot of reading lately and I've been busy with softball and basketball.
Well basketballs over and I quit softball so I have some time on my hands…not a lot. But some.
And if you have any ideas on where to take this I'm open ears.
Lol. I'm so lost.
Thanks for your patience if your reading this.
-Shelby.