Seven Is My Unlucky Number

by GoogelehGoo

Saix joins the Organization with a puzzling past, all of which revolve around his unlucky number 7. He's deemed Xemnas' favorite person even though he can't do squat. Humor! XemSai pairing!

6. Chapter 6

Dun dun dun! Another chapter for my fans! Nice and long, too! Hope you enjoy!

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Marluxia walked behind Zexion without moving his eyes from the man's back, ignoring Luxord's words and the entire tour. He didn't care about the castle or what else was going on, why it was built, or why they were even there. None of that mattered to him. What interested him were the people and why they wanted to gain their hearts back. If they had these powers without hearts, who needed emotions?

"You'll find our handbook in the library on the main table. If you're curious or confused about anything go ahead and take a look at it. Every page should have footnotes to help interpret everything easier." Zexion continued to talk and turned down a hallway, "And now we're at the living corridors. Luxord, you're number X. Marluxia, XI. Your numbers are on your doors, as are everyone else's numbers….well…aside from Saïx."

"And why doesn't he have a number?" Luxord questioned. He saw the door that lacked VII and winced as he got a better look. Seemed like the number WAS there at some point.

"Saïx has a severe superstitious background and believes that 7 is his unlucky number. If he encounters it he seems clumsy and gets hurt."

"Isn't seven supposed to be a lucky number?" Luxord questioned.

"There is no such thing as luck or bad luck," Marluxia replied for Zexion. "Saïx must have had something bad happen to him when seven was around, whether it be the number itself or a materialistic object that had seven entities."

Zexion nodded, "Well…he did in a way. He's confused about his past, actually. That doesn't mean you won't remember your pasts, but it doesn't necessarily guarantee you'll figure them out, either."

"Eh, not like I care that much. I remember I like to gamble and play cards. That's all I need to know!" Luxord remarked chipper.

"How wonderful for you," Marluxia mumbled as he glanced behind him. The petals had followed him there, leaving a trail to where he had gone. He'd be easy to find if anyone wanted to get a hold of him. How pathetic, though. It made the game of hiding and isolating himself from everyone harder. Oh well, he liked a challenge. "Is this the end of the tour?"

"Yes. You can do as you please for now."

Marluxia walked past them and arrived in his room, the petals cascading about as he walked. His eyes fell upon the bedding and everything else. It…didn't feel satisfactory to him. This place, it was plain with its darkness. He wanted some spice to it, to make the darkness seem a lot more than just an empty void of space.

He flicked his hair and watched the vibrant colored petals litter the floor. That's what it needed. Some plants, perhaps.

His hand lifted up and with ease plants started to wrap themselves about and sprout from the floor and walls, covering the area in greenery. As each flower sprouted it gave a wonderful new scent to the room, and gave it color.

Marluxia went to the window and opened it up, leaning out slightly to get a better view of the grounds.

Not too far off Xemnas watched the pink-haired figure from his window. He tensed and relaxed. Saïx was busy cleaning, he would be unable to visit Marluxia right now…

But…that couldn't stop himself from going, right? He was curious to see what Marluxia remembered…

He moved from his room to the hallway, making his way to Marluxia's door. He knocked on it and opened the door, noticing the floral arrangement, "I see you've got a grasp on your powers already."

"I wanted something nice to look at…though, flowers can only do so much." Marluxia replied, low voice alluring and seducing. He turned to face Xemnas, "You came here for a reason?"

"I wondered how you were doing," Xemnas replied, letting the door close behind him, "You seem less talkative than Luxord."

"To each his own." Marluxia moved toward Xemnas and stopped before him, "How well do you know Saïx?"

Xemnas shook his head, "Why do you want to know?"

"Curious."

"Better than most I suppose, though Saïx will always remain a mystery to the Organization. He's hard to understand a lot of the time."

"How so?"

"He's temperamental when he shouldn't be. We can't feel emotions, yet he expresses them to the point he actually thinks he's feeling them."

"If rage fuels his powers, how is that a bad thing? You need strong members, right? Than let him be furious."

Xemnas opened his mouth and closed it. He would never promote such things. It just…seemed irrational to act that way. "Letting Saïx play pretend will only hurt him in the long run."

"If you think it's right, and it feels right, why bother pushing it away?"

What a thing to say! It was like talking to Saïx…except a smarter version of the man. "Are you insinuating something? Do you feel like you should be experiencing something now?"

Marluxia undid his cloak, "Is that what I'm saying?"

"What are you doing?"

"Undressing."

"Why?"

"Why not?"

Xemnas watched as Marluxia pulled his boots off, losing his shirt, and soon his pants. "I don't understand…"

"What's there to understand?"

Xemnas moved to leave, but noticed the door was covered in vines. "You want to keep me in here? Your plants won't bind me."

Marluxia got on his bed, "I never said you weren't allowed to leave." He closed his eyes as if taking it all in before smiling, "But…why refuse such sweet temptation?"

Xemnas stared at Marluxia's body with the petals around him. Was he suggesting that he…have sex with him? It did seem that way…but why? "Sometimes temptation can kill you."

Marluxia nodded, "That's the best kind."

"Why are you even suggesting such things?"

Marluxia glanced at Xemnas, "I haven't suggested a thing…you find me suggestive, is all. My actions seem provocative to you. All I did was undress…you're the one thinking about sex."

Xemnas gapped and closed his mouth quickly, "Enough. I'm leaving."

"Try to enjoy yourself for once."

Xemnas glanced back before letting the vines move. He exited Marluxia's room and saw Zexion lounging in his room reading. "Zexion, go keep Marluxia company. He says he's bored."

Zexion sighed and stood up, moving to figure out what was wrong with him now. When he entered he didn't see that Marluxia was even undressed. "Did you need—" he saw his body and he covered his eyes, "Oh, I'm sorry!"

Marluxia chuckled, grabbing Zexion and throwing him onto the bed. He got on top and messed with his hair, dragging his tongue against the boy's neck, "Tell me about Saïx and Xemnas's relationship. I'm curious." His hand dove toward Zexion's pants, toying around with him.

Zexion gasped and tried to think straight. Who were Xemnas and Saïx again? "They…uh…they sleep together. They're not…um…very open about…their relationship..but…mmm….they've got something going on."

Marluxia thought it over. As he suspected. They all treated Saïx different…but he didn't know why until now. It's because Saïx was Xemnas's little bitch.

"Good boy," Marluxia mumbled to Zexion before getting up, "Now fetch me Saïx. If you do as your told…I'll reward you," Marluxia ran his fingers through Zexion's hair, giving him a kiss on the lips.

"O-Okay…." Zexion whispered and walked off to do his job. He found Saïx still sweeping up the petals. "Saïx…uh…Marluxia wants to talk to you…he's in his room."

Saïx noticed how disheveled and roughed up Zexion looked. Did this guy just get laid or what? "Okay. Here." Saïx handed the broom to Zexion and went to figure out what was going on.

After awhile Zexion's senses came back to himself. Wow…that was weird. The flowers must have really over-killed his processing…he wasn't sure why he so easily agreed to….

To…

Oh shit.

Saïx and Marluxia might do something if they get together! Crap! Then Xemnas would send some serious whiplash on him! Zexion threw the broom down to go separate the two.

Sooo, Marluxia wants to talk to me? Does that mean he remembers now? I…hope so. It seems pretty logical that he'd figure these things out faster than I had. I mean, he was the smartest of our group. Not that it was THAT hard to outdo everyone. We all were pretty stupid, if I remember correctly. But…I don't remember correctly, do I? My head is still fucked up with our stupid lies. Ugh.

Saïx opened the door and walked in, "Marluxia?"

He came forward, hesitating near the bed. "I'm…here? You sent for me?"

Marluxia came out from the bathroom and grabbed onto him, whipping the man around and shoving him onto the bed. He got on top, but this time didn't play seducer. "My little Lamb."

Saïx smiled, "You remember?"

"I do…but I'm curious to know…why you don't remember me."

"I do remember you, Flower…"

Marluxia shook his head, "No…you forgot me…" he stood up and covered himself with a bathrobe, "you wouldn't be with another man if you remembered me."

Saïx stood up, "Marluxia…" he hesitated, "I…" Saïx was stumped. He didn't have a way to back that up. "Xemnas…refused that I ever see you again.."

"And you followed the rules?"

"What…was I supposed to do? If I didn't obey him he'd harm you!"

Marluxia laughed, "Oh…you know so little…" His hands grabbed Saïx's face, gently caressing his jawline and playing with his hair, "If I was murdered…and he threatened to murder me…how do you think the story really ended?"

No. Xemnas wouldn't kill Flower…not when he knew how much I cared for him. That's impossible. That would be…betraying me. "I…I don't think he did it."

"Is that what you think?" Marluxia moved away, "I never knew he was good at brainwashing…but you're a given that he's got complete control over you. Tell me…how many times have you had sex?"

Saïx shook his head, "Once. It was nothing, though…"

Marluxia flicked his hand. Vines wrapped around Saïx tightly, grasping around his throat and rendering him powerless, "You think you love him."

"No, Marluxia—"

"Saïx. You can't have me…but you can't have him, either."

"What are you talking about?"

Marluxia smirked, "Remember your cute little journal?" He strode forward, getting his face so close to Saïx's they were only an inch apart. "I lied. Everything was real."

Saïx kept staring into those blue eyes before he felt his rage start to rise, "Why did you lie to me?"

"Because I didn't want to die by your hands. And besides…I wanted to fuck. You did, too. Why push silly matters in the way of having some fun?" He let a finger trace Saïx's 'X'-shaped scar.

"What's…wrong with you? You're not the same person I remember…"

Marluxia chuckled, his low voice making it seem so cynical, "You make it seem like you didn't change. Do you even remember who you used to be? A cute, shy boy who wanted someone to be around. God, weren't you just the most pathetic thing around. And you came to me to ruin that innocence. It's what I do best."

"Then…why change what we had?"

"Oh Saïx….why dwell on what we had? It wasn't that great."

Saïx glared, "What?"

"I want to play a little game…but you're going to have to guess what it is." Marluxia let the vines go and he moved for the bathroom, "You can go now, I'm finished with you."

Saïx watched as the door closed. Slowly he rose and moved out of the room completely confused. Why…was he so different?

Flower doesn't even exist in Marluxia anymore. It's as if a different personality took his body…and Flower's mind is lost to the darkness. Did…that happen to me, too? And of the others?

Saïx made his way down the hallway when Zexion ran into him. "Watch where you're going," he snarled.

"Saïx! Uh…did…you go see Marluxia?"

"No. Why bother with someone like him?"

Zexion watched the angry member keep walking leaving him completely stumped. If he didn't go see Marluxia…why was he so angry? Ugh. He quit. He'd just stay in his room and hope Marluxia never resurfaced.

Saïx burst into Xemnas's room and found the man staring out at the window. "Xemnas…"

Xemnas didn't move from his spot, "What is it, Saïx?"

"Are you…busy?"

Xemnas shook his head, "No. What do you need?"

"I wanted to talk to you…" Saïx moved over and took a seat in Xemnas's comfortable chair, "It's about Marluxia."

"What of him?"

"Well…he's…"

"Your boyfriend."

Saïx shook his head, "No."

Xemnas moved his head to get a better look at Saïx, "No? How surprising. You slept with him but you don't claim he's yours."

Saïx glared, "Weird, you slept with me but you don't claim me. That wasn't even what I wanted to talk about."

"Then start talking."

Saïx sighed, "Flower isn't Marluxia. It's his body but whatever is going on with his mind isn't him…isn't the same person I remember." He hesitated, "It's as if someone else has his memories and are interpreting them as they see fit."

"So, you talked to him."

"Well…yeah Zexion told me Marluxia wanted to talk…and when I went in there he was…just…different."

"Zexion…"

"Yeah. Have you talked to Marluxia?"

"Only for a minute."

Xemnas moved and leaned against the desk, the two able to look at each other better. "He undressed himself in front of me and suggested to have sex, though he denied he was even suggesting it."

Saïx sighed, "Great."

"Perhaps it's best that you forget about him? It's evident that he's not who he used to be. Why bother with the past when the person isn't even the same?"

Saïx nodded, "I…wasn't going to go back to him anyway. I believe that…what we have is..better."

Xemnas smirked, "Is that what you think?"

Saïx nodded, "Yeah."

Xemnas pulled Saïx from the seat and led him to the bathroom, "I think what we both need is to relax."

Saïx raised an eyebrow. Relax in the bathroom? Wha? But then he saw the hot tub. Oh yeah, totally forgot that Xemnas had one of those. "You want to have sex in your hot tub?"

Xemnas smirked, "Why not? It'll be a wonderful experience."

Saïx shrugged, "I wasn't saying no." He stripped along with Xemnas and they both got in the steaming water. "Hmm…last time we did this I tried to drown you."

"Yes, but that was in my bathtub."

"Yeah. Good times."

Xemnas pulled Saïx closer, the two of them enveloped into a kiss as Saïx wrapped his legs around Xemnas's hips.

Xigbar, who was in his room, had been walking out when he smelt the soft roses hit him. His eyes went down the hallway and could faintly hear a shower going on. So, Marluxia was showering? And where was Saïx? He looked around and saw that Xemnas's door was closed. Oh boy, again?

He headed in that direction and noticed Zexion was snoozing with a book covering most of him. What a dork.

Before he could reach Xemnas's door Demyx jumped in front of him and gave him a hug, "Hey, Xigbar! How's your morning going?"

"Eh..busy."

"Cool, cool. Want to play?"

"Not right now, kid, uhh…go bother Zexion. He loves playing games."

"Okay, cool!" Demyx walked off happily and found Zexion asleep. He went over and sat on him, "Zexion!!"

Zexion woke with a start, "I'm awake, Superior!!" He hesitated and saw it was Demyx, "Uh. Oh. Hello…Demyx…"

"Hi! Xigbar says you like playing games! Want to play with me?"

Zexion almost died. WHY did everyone make him do STUPID things? Oh go be mind fucked by Marluxia, Zexion, go bathe the man, Zexion, go play with Demyx, Zexion. GUH. His brain was going to murder itself if he had to put up with this for long! "What do you want to play?"

"I dunno. We could ask Luxord if he wants to play strip poker."

Zexion almost cried but held it in, "W-Why do you…want to do such things?"

"Why not? It'll be great! Come on!" Demyx got up and shoved the book on the floor, dragging Zexion along.

"I didn't ask for this!" Zexion hissed to himself.

Meanwhile, Xigbar had knocked on Xemnas's door and entered. "Superior! Where ya at?" His eyes went to the bathroom. Hmm…to go in or not to go in?

Xemnas heard Xigbar's voice and he grabbed onto Saïx, "Stop, Xigbar's in the other room."

Saïx frowned, "What?"

Xemnas grabbed him and shoved him under water as the door opened up, "Hmm?" He looked at Xigbar as if he wasn't doing anything wrong. "Oh, Xigbar, I didn't hear you."

H'o my god, he's drowning me!!

"Superior! Hey, I was wondering where Saïx was at."

"Not here."

"So I've noticed. I was hoping to get him and the other newer members to go train. All the idle movement has me antsy. We're fighters, right? Need to work that into their minds."

Aaaugh!! Auuuugh!

"Oh absolutely. Perhaps, you know, pair them up and have them fight each other? It'll be a good workout."

"Sweet. I'm sure they'll like that."

"Of course."

Xemnas!! I'm going to freaking bite you!! I can't hold my breath any longer!!

"Oh, one last thing…" Xigbar looked around and leaned against the side of the hot tub. "I think Marluxia's scent is killing Zexion."

"What do you mean?"

"Well, the guy gives off flowery aromas. I mean, I left my room and I could smell him from my spot. When I walked over here Zexion was passed out. I don't think it's just because he's a teenager, too. He's never really been one to act his age."

"If the odd behavior continues I'll be sure to talk to Zexion on the matter." Xemnas then yelled, "Ow!!"

"Uh…what?"

"Ow..uh…nothing…leg cramp!" Xemnas hissed and went to grab his 'leg' which was to actually pull on Saïx's hair really hard.

"Ah. Well, hope that fixes itself. I'll talk to you later. If you see Saïx anywhere be sure to send him to the gym."

"Indeed."

Xigbar soon made a portal and disappeared. Xemnas let go of Saïx and watched as the man surfaced and coughed for air. "Sorry about that."

SORRY? I'LL FREAKING STAB YOU!! Saïx coughed and gasped for breath, unable to speak for the first few seconds. Finally his breathing went to a more normal state and he snarled at Xemnas, "Seriously? That wasn't necessary to almost kill me!"

"Oh hush. Get dressed, you're to fight with the others."

"Right NOW?"

"Yes. Xigbar is putting all of you up for a training session. It'll be fun, trust me."

Saïx pushed his hair out of his face, "If I die from this I'm blaming you."

"Mmm." Xemnas pulled him close for a few kisses before letting the man leave. Ah. Time to himself. Felt nice!

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I'm not sure what I hate more. The fact that I had to have really quick sex with Xemnas before he drowned me, or the fact that I'm out here about to fight a bunch of losers. Seriously, Axel looks like he'll break on impact if you touch him, Demyx won't shut up about winning strip poker, Luxord looks like he's missing a few screws, and Marluxia…is just a whore.

"Sorry to interrupt all of you from your…things…" Xigbar spoke. He mostly meant seeing Zexion and Luxord being put to shame as Demyx had beat them. He never wanted to see Zexion that unclothed ever again. And Marluxia? Oh boy. That was a different story altogether. The man didn't seem to have any modesty because he could really care less. So Xigbar got to watch him dry his body for five minutes before even bothering to cover himself. Saïx, for some reason, was the only one he couldn't find but had arrived here on time. How dumb. Eh, whatever, he was assuming the guy was boinking Xemnas and was just good at hiding from him. "This session is very important, though. We need to test your powers out and get you comfortable with them. Some of you may already seem adjusted to them, but we need to push you further and explore how far your powers can go. There are limits to what you can do, but that shouldn't stop you from trying your hardest to work around those limits."

The man came forward and started to walk past them, getting a good look at every single one of them, "We're going to start off with Saïx fighting against me. It'll give you something to watch, at least, and perhaps help the rest of you begin to strategize a better way to fight. Watch his moves and mine, and start to plan out how you would battle if you were in his spot."

Why me? I can't even fight correctly. I snarl and scratch, that's about it. If Zexion and I were a team we'd be nicknamed Scratch and Sniff Stickers. I'm so lame, even my own retarded jokes are starting to make myself irritated. Maybe I should stop thinking so much? That would be nice.

"A forewarning for all of you; Saïx's ability is Berserk and he draws his powers from Kingdom Hearts and other moons. When Saïx is in Berserk mode, he has no control over his body and will often become irrational in his movements. He may attack you. If he starts to head toward your way, I suggest leaving the area as soon as possible. Use a portal and return to the meeting area, that's your safest place in the castle."

Marluxia flicked his hair, petals dropping to the ground, "There's no moon here in the gym."

"We're going outside, Princess," Xigbar remarked, "If we battled in here we'd destroy the castle. Any more comments?"

No one spoke.

"Good. Let's go, scouts!"

Demyx clapped his hands happily, "Oh! I love Boy Scouts!"

Axel snorted, "Don't ever say that ever again."

"They give you cookies!"

"So do strangers in vans."

Demyx blinked and frowned, "Hey, wait a minute…"

They stopped as they found a wide area that was somewhat destroyed. It seemed previous battles had gone on around there.

"All right! Fight is starting, dudes, get ready for some action!" Xigbar commented and pulled out his weapons. The guns gleamed brightly in the moonlight.

Saïx brought out his claymore, the spikes jutting out, blood still covering them from his previous kills. He felt himself rise up as his eyes glowed yellow, "I'll show you power."

He fell under the rage of Berserk and was unable to tell what he had done until he slipped back into consciousness. His eyes caught sight of Xigbar hanging upside down.

"Reload!" the man hollered and started to fill his guns back up.

Saïx's eyes went to the moon. A cloud had moved in the way of it. Shit, I'll have to rely on my own strength. He dashed and somersaulted in the air, claymore hitting the ground. Rocks shot up and pelted Xigbar making the guy flail slightly. "Whoa! Wasn't expectin' that!" He disappeared. Saïx frowned. What the hell. He didn't even portal. He heard a click behind him and felt a shard stab right into his shoulder. A snarl escaped him, his eyes starting to glow again as the moonlight recovered from its small cover. A laser then hit several of the crystals, and hit him directly in the chest. He fell backward, but at that moment he went right back into Berserk mode.

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"You look like you're in a bad mood," a voice broke the silence around me. I didn't look up from my spot, though, as I've already guessed who it is. I didn't bother replying, either, my eyes staring at the book in front of me. It was familiar, the pages bent and pictures cascading around it. I wanted to make it memorable, but I wasn't sure how to do it. "Not talking either? Such a shame." He sat down, picking up the photos to glance at them slowly before setting them back in front of me. Why was he even bothering to visit me? It wasn't like I was in the mood to talk to him. "Nothing at all?"

"Why are you here?" I broke over his words, trying to stop him from talking.

He brushed his hair back and a small sigh escaped him, his lean body hunching over so that he could support his arm against his leg, chin resting on his hand leisurely. "I was curious about your state of mind, Lamb."

"Don't call me that."

"Why not? You make it sound like I'm hurting you."

"You are…"

Silence fell between us again and nothing else was heard besides the fan downstairs that was running. The window creaked slightly when the wind blew in, but nothing else interrupted our quiet behavior. Finally he reached over and grabbed my arms roughly. "Stop acting like this." He closed the journal roughly and gave it a toss, letting it skid to the dresser, "You're possessed by this feeling that you're cursed. It's stupid."

"You don't understand…just like everyone else."

"I do understand, I just don't…want it to be this way. Why else would I break up with you? You're stuck dwelling on your bad luck, you never lighten up to do anything else but pity yourself. It's hard to sit here and watch you do that to yourself, especially since you refuse to let go."

I looked away. I didn't want to hear it anymore.

"Stop writing about it. If you don't remember in a few days, or even a few years…then it isn't important. Live now, not in the past."

I looked him in the eye, seeing his stern look. "If I did…would you take me back?"

His eyes became saddened, and I knew his answer. Why did I even press it? I already knew what he was going to say. "I can't do that."

I shook my head and pulled away from him, "Then leave me alone. Get out of here."

The figure hesitated before standing up. His footsteps hit the ground softly before he disappeared out the door, and the house went silent again. I picked up a picture of us, and felt myself start to cry. I screamed as loud as I could, getting out all the anger, the sadness, the hatred and love from me in one blow.

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Saïx's scream echoed the empty fighting arena before he fell to his knees utterly weakened. He gasped for breath and spit blood onto the ruined gravel. The surge of rage hazed his mind, but he tried to focus on what was going on. He noticed his own powerful destruction to the area, but didn't find a single soul in sight.

Where…did everyone go? How long have I been out here? Did I…hurt anyone? He held his head as he felt the blood pulsing through him in such a rush, his breathing still heavy from the continued rage. Xigbar did say everyone was to leave if he went out of control…

I…hate my own ability. I can't do anything right…I've been a failure my entire life…and now I'm a failure in this afterlife. My ability isn't a haven for me, it isn't a way to seek revenge. My memories haunt me each time I go deeper into Berserk mode, and each night I sleep my dreams become terrible nightmares of the past. I want to let go finally, I wish I could pretend none of it happened, but they plague me like a sufferable disease. I can no longer tell who lies to me and who hasn't. Marluxia…Flower. Which memories are real and which are false? Why is it the darkness toys with my mind because of that stupid journal? Was it ever real, and if it was why did you lie to me? And now…you belittle me and scorn what we had. I feel cheated in so many ways. I told Xemnas I'd stay loyal to him…and yet I'm not even sure I can trust him anymore. He said my powers, in time, would fix themselves with use. Each time I use them, though, I feel a bit of myself become lost and ruined. Was he lying to make me trust him? How can I trust a man that has possibly killed my previous boyfriend? Is it…possible he really did kill Flower? Why? And more importantly…if I confront him about it…would he deny doing it? If he lies to me again, it would show that he is only playing around with me so that he can use my power, as they've been doing for so long. I'm a guinea pig to them, and whether I die or live…means nothing. They want my power, but they could replace it quickly with all the new members they've gained. What…am I? What have I become?

Saïx felt rain start to come down upon him, the water coming down quickly and without warning. It thundered, and a flash of lightning struck here and there. Saïx, though, did not budge from his spot as the blood began to wash away and the searing rage calmed with the cold rain. His eyes rose to Kingdom Hearts, watching the frivolous moon blossom behind the dark clouds, only to be covered as if shy when he looked at it.

"I am…a monster."

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As the storm hit Xemnas looked out the window curiously before dragging his eyes to everyone that had resigned themselves to the meeting area…which was still, unfortunately, the kitchen. Their normal meeting area was still closed off, as it wasn't operating for some reason. He wondered if it was because of the amount of people in the Organization. Was there a magic number before the room itself would start to work?

He had finished his hot tub experience sometime around a half hour ago. When he entered the kitchen to get coffee was when everyone else showed up. He wasn't sure why they had, they all kept silent for the longest time until Xigbar appeared. And even then Xigbar shrugged it off and just said training was taking a small break due to weather events. Though, at the time Xigbar pronounced this the weather was still perfectly fine.

"Hmm. Seems you're right about the weather," Xemnas commented.

Xigbar perked and gave a slight nod, "Yeah. The clouds looked pretty bad."

Xemnas continued to sip at his coffee before he finally registered why they were being so silent. They were training the new members, correct? Then…

"Xigbar. Where's Saïx?"

Xigbar gave a small smirk before losing it to a frown, "Um. Outside."

"And why, might I ask, is he still outside?"

"He went CRAZY!" Demyx blurted out. He covered his mouth at the remark and shook his head, "Uh, I mean…no not crazy at all. Yeah."

Marluxia sighed, "Why bother covering it up? Saïx was in Berserk mode and he went completely out of control. Our orders were to come here if things got bad, so we did."

Xigbar tilted his head down sadly, "And he wouldn't come out of it, so I left. He was either going to kill me or me kill him, and I didn't think either was good. I'm not sure if the dude has cooled down yet or not, Superior."

Xemnas put his coffee mug down, "Why didn't you say anything before?"

"Uh..well…didn't want you to worry about it?" Xigbar stated.

Xemnas got up, "If he's rampaging about that means he could leave castle grounds again. As if I need a Berserking Saïx to suddenly go MIA."

Xigbar shrugged, "He knows how to get back."

Xemnas shook his head, "Not if he's stuck in the mental state he's in right now."

Axel watched Luxord play with his cards, "Sooo…he just…gets stuck? Like when those talking Furby's get stuck making that annoying noise when they freeze from low batteries?"

Everyone stared at him.

"Um. Okay, maybe none of you had a Furby." Axel mumbled before redeeming himself, "I mean like, if you push the 'on' button it just stays on."

Xemnas shook his head, "It isn't always like this."

Demyx nodded, "Yeah. He came out of it the first time, remember?"

"Well, maybe the continued use of it causes him to get 'stuck'?" Axel suggested.

"I wonder if he even knows what's happening to him?" Marluxia questioned as the cards were passed out. It seemed they'd be playing poker for awhile.

Xemnas moved a few steps and looked back at Marluxia, "Perhaps you can ask him when I return with him?" He went off with that, not posing any more questions. His footsteps reached the door outside and he noticed he could hardly see past 5 feet. His mind reached out for Saïx's aura, feeling it not too far away. He opened a portal and went through, arriving out into the pouring rain. His eyes searched the area, at first not seeing Saïx at all. But he tensed when he heard the scream. Xemnas slowly took his steps over to the area, eyes still searching for Saïx. Finally he spotted him not too far off gazing up at the moon. His steps halted, wondering whether he should interrupt or not. Was it…rightful of him to intrude? Saïx's words didn't reach Xemnas's ears, he couldn't read his lips either as the rain covered it all.

What was he thinking? Saïx would get sick if he stayed out here any longer. He moved over and watched as Saïx's eyes registered his movements.

"Saïx?"

Saïx moved his head to look directly at Xemnas, "Yes?"

"Are you all right?"

"No."

"Let's get you inside, okay?"

Saïx didn't move, as if the order didn't make sense to him. Xemnas held his hand out, "Come on. I'll help you."

"I have to ask you something…"

"Can it wait until we get inside? You're going to get sick if you stay out here for too long."

"I…" Saïx hesitated, voice clamping up. He closed his mouth and shook his head, "Okay."

Xemnas pulled him up and supported the boy as he faltered in his steps. They reached inside and together they made the journey to Saïx's room to get him dried off and into dry clothes. Then they went to the kitchen. Everyone watched as they entered, their small game of poker was now being watched by the entire group.

"What happened?" Zexion asked curiously.

"We'll discuss it later," Xemnas replied as he let Saïx take his seat. "Zexion, go get him something warm to drink. I'll be right back, I'm soaked."

Zexion stood up and went into the kitchen and returned with coffee, not sure what other warm substance to give Saïx. "Here," he mumbled as he set it before Saïx and moved Xemnas's cup to the side. "It's coffee."

"What a wonderful thing to give him," Vexen retorted, "Give the psychotic more energy to burn."

Xaldin groaned, "Vexen, now is not the time to give him crap."

"There is no 'crap' in this. Only truth."

Zexion glared, "I don't think you need to comment. He's not feeling well, and I'm doing my best to help out."

Vexen chuckled, "You're such a wonderful maid. Now all you need is the outfit! Marluxia, are you a tailor? I wonder if you could make something for our Schemer here."

Marluxia set down his cards, "I don't remember if I can sew or not."

Zexion glared at Marluxia and Vexen before turning to Saïx, "How are feeling?"

Saïx didn't reply, didn't even acknowledge his words. Zexion bent down to look Saïx in the eyes, noticing how drained his eye color was. It was almost…pale yellow, much different than the yellow they normally were. "I think he's actually sick."

"How can you tell?" Axel asked as he threw down his set of cards, failing at winning.

"His eyes are…different."

Xigbar and Xaldin leaned closer to look, falling back as Lexaeus grabbed Saïx's face to get a look himself. "Sick? More like powerless."

"Some moonlight will fix that up," Vexen chuckled.

"The moon won't be out for awhile," Luxord remarked, "Not in this stormy weather."

"Then we'll just have to wait it out, dudes," Xigbar concluded, taking his seat.

"I suppose…" Zexion mumbled.

"If we wait too long he'll become permanently damaged," Lexaeus boomed, his powerful voice never being heard this much before. They all exchanged looks wondering what he meant by this. "His mental state is wavering. Keeping him like this will only hurt him."

"We should tell Xemnas, then," Demyx pouted, "Saïx needs to get better so he can hang out with us again!"

They're talking right at me, but they make it seem like I can't respond. Which…in an odd sense, I really can't. I'm…not sure as to why. I think I'm just too drained from the fight.

When Xemnas returned he listened to everyone's concerns about Saïx's health. "Indeed, he does seem drained. Though, earlier he did respond to me. I'm not sure why he isn't now."

"Maybe he's being moody again?" Vexen remarked.

"I doubt he'd be playing moody right now if he's in any type of sickly state," Zexion rationalized.

Xemnas looked down at Saïx, "His silence seems uncontrollable to me."

Xigbar leaned over and moved his finger before Saïx's face, everyone watched his eyes slowly follow before focusing on something else. "Maybe let him nap a bit?"

Xemnas took a sip of his own drink before facing Saïx again, "Would letting him sleep, though, cause worse things to happen?"

"What could be worse than this?" Axel questioned.

"Well…he might not wake up. Or he might dream too much…which could cause disorder in his thoughts."

"Do you really think letting him stay awake will help?" Xaldin remarked.

All eyes landed on Saïx for a minute in deep thought.

I've…I've got to say something. "Do…you remember?" Did I just say that? "The moon? It was….New Year's…" What am I saying?

Everyone didn't know what to say. How did anyone respond to something like that? It…didn't relate to any of them, did it? Marluxia glanced at Saïx. He had a feeling the question was asked toward him.

"Yes, you." Saïx remarked, though he didn't physically point anyone out.

"I don't remember," Marluxia responded finally. Xemnas tensed at this. What was going on? He remembered reading about the incident on New Year's…when they kissed.

And now what? What idiotic thing will I say now? "I…didn't think you would."

"Why are you bringing that up now?" Marluxia questioned, unfazed by his words.

"The moon was beautiful that night."

Xaldin raised an eyebrow and glanced toward the others, though no one knew what he was talking about. Xemnas continued to stand there before gently grabbing Saïx's arm, "You're not feeling well, you should rest…"

Saïx shook his head, "I don't want to sleep anymore…I'm sick of it."

"Tired of the nightmares?" Marluxia questioned.

More silence ensued over the group. Saïx nodded, "I'm sick of seeing the truth." God, none of it was true, was it? What's making me decide it's true now? I…don't even know anymore. "You're a whore."

Xigbar blinked, "He is?"

"Am I?" Marluxia questioned.

Zexion nodded, "I'm going to have to agree with Saïx." They stared at him and he noticed the slip up. "Well, not that I personally know or anything. I mean, I really wouldn't know on a personal level or any other level. I'm just agreeing with Saïx because it seems like a good thing to do."

Demyx frowned, "Did you sleep with him?"

"N-No! I wouldn't do such a thing here!"

"So…you'd do it somewhere else?" Axel questioned.

"No!"

Marluxia glanced at Saïx wondering if it was his quick and snide comments that had put Saïx into this mood. He was, in a way, two-faced. Everyone together saw the better side of him. But alone? Zexion had witnessed how cruel and manipulative he could be. So had Xemnas, and also Saïx. His personality could switch and mask itself so easily, just to accommodate those around him. "Well?"

Saïx shook his head, "I'm done."

Xemnas looked down, "Are you going to rest now?" Saïx nodded. What more can I do? I can hardly stay awake. Saïx pulled himself to stand, having Xemnas help him.

"If I'm a whore what does that say about you? You're the one sleeping with Xemnas."

The entire room fell into utter silence. A pin drop could have been heard at that given moment, all of their breathing stopped and their eyes widening as they prepared for a violent reaction from someone.

Xemnas stared at Marluxia, almost astounded at his words. The man was accusing him of having sex with Saïx and the man had just arrived at the Organization. How could he have already guessed something like that? "You believe I'm sleeping with Saïx?"

Marluxia pointed at Zexion, "He told me you were."

Zexion almost died. How did this turn on him? How?? "No, Superior, I didn't say anything like that!"

Marluxia nodded, "Yes you did, I asked what type of relationship they had and you said 'they sleep together'."

Zexion shook his head but no words came out. He couldn't deny it.

Xemnas's eyes were on Zexion now, "Is that what you said?"

Zexion froze up. He was on the spot and he couldn't deny his words, but he couldn't say anything to safeguard himself either. He tried thinking before his thoughts caught him. He pointed at Marluxia, "He MADE me say those things! He manipulated me into lying!"

"And how did I do that? I can't force you to talk," Marluxia replied casually.

Zexion looked down and then back at Xemnas, "I shouldn't have to defend myself on such an issue. I respect your authority, why would I go against something like that?"

"Authority has nothing to do with this," Marluxia interjected.

Zexion glared at Marluxia and stood up, "I don't deserve this treatment! This isn't even important! Saïx needs to get some rest, who cares what Marluxia's done or what he's accusing me of saying? I think having Saïx recover is more important than this conversation."

Xemnas sighed and supported Saïx better, "Follow me, Zexion."

Zexion looked from Xemnas to around the table and back to him before lowering his head and following him. Oh god, he was a dead man. He was going to be slaughtered.

They went off down the hallway. At first it was silent until Xemnas spoke up, "You told Marluxia, didn't you?"

"Superior, I—"

"Don't bother lying."

Zexion choked up but nodded, "I didn't mean to. He….just…I could hardly think straight when he asked me."

"Xigbar told me you were sleeping today. He has suspicions your odd behavior is because Marluxia's scent is rather strong."

"I….think he's right. The flowery aroma just…kills my thinking."

"Understandable. But, considering you've raised the issue of whether I do sleep with Saïx, I suppose we'll have to put the theory to test. And so," Xemnas opened Zexion's door, "You'll be taking care of Saïx for now. I'm sure you don't mind."

Zexion gapped and shook his head, "But I thought I was supposed to watch Marluxia and you watch him??"

"Plans have changed. I have to prove to everyone else that your 'lie' is nothing but that. A lie. Give me any updates on whether he improves."

Zexion watched Xemnas leave the room before laying his eyes on Saïx. The man looked so ill and uncomfortable. "Sorry, Saïx."

I…can't believe it. Why was Zexion supposed to watch Marluxia? More importantly, Xemnas was supposed to watch me? Were they thinking I was going to cheat on Xemnas or something? God…I feel miserable…in more ways than one. The fact that Xemnas refuses to claim me…makes me feel sick to my stomach. If he didn't lie to the Organization…would it even matter?

Saïx closed his eyes and sighed, pushing the thoughts out so he could get some sleep.

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Three days had passed and no one questioned the Xemnas Saïx affair. They believed if they kept silent on it, the matter would fix itself. No one bothered to ask about Saïx's condition, either. The man, though, had worsened as the moonlight was blocked for three days, the rain continuing its terrible weather for the longest time. Zexion hardly knew what to do half the time, and each time he tried to make things better he felt like he was making everything worse. He shouldn't have tested the Superior…he shouldn't have told Marluxia a thing.

The thing was…Xemnas didn't even bother to see how Saïx was fairing. It made Zexion start to panic. Was there a reason for the Superior to avoid the man? Was it only to prove they weren't sleeping together? But…this was awful. It was isolating Saïx from contact. Zexion wasn't able to talk to him or make sense of what he wanted at all.

At one point he left the room to find Xemnas, going to his room and knocking on the door. He hesitated before opening up the door. He noticed Xemnas was asleep with Marluxia in his bed. Zexion panicked and closed the door quickly and silently. What was going on? How did that happen? Was he not paying attention to those two? Had they been sleeping together for long? WHY was Xemnas fucking everyone??

Xigbar walked up and nudged him, giving him a curious look. Zexion waved for Xigbar to follow him, and the two entered into the dark room where Saïx lay.

"How long have Marluxia and Xemnas been sleeping together?"

Xigbar blinked and hesitated in talking before shrugging, "Uh…I think the day Saïx got sick."

"How?"

"Well…Xemnas came back to the kitchen and called Marluxia out. They left together. I, being the sneaky bastard I am, followed because it's what I do. From what I saw, Marluxia only had to remove Xemnas's cloak and say 'I can satisfy you more than Saïx could ever dream of' and the two were in his bed roughing it up."

Zexion gapped, "He just…slept with him so quickly?"

"I guess he didn't expect us to think they'd do it right then and there after Marluxia said he was banging Saïx."

"So…his relationship with Saïx is just to…fuck, right?"

"Must be. Especially if he's screwing with Marluxia, too."

"Why is he screwing people? I don't understand this!" Zexion argued.

"Well…." Xigbar looked back at Saïx to make sure he was asleep before resting his hand on Zexion's shoulder, "Xemnas wants them to trust him…so giving in to what they want…inevitably results in trust. We've seen how obedient Saïx gets around Xemnas because of what they've been through. He only wants to gain their trust so we can harness their powers. You know…satisfy your people to get their vote type of thing. If he can make Saïx and Marluxia powerful and obedient….he'll hardly have to lift a finger when he wants world wide destruction."

Zexion sighed and put his hand to his head, "God. This is so messed up. Saïx is going to just….kill someone if he finds out."

"You're not going to tell him I hope."

Zexion shrugged, "I don't know. I feel terrible for him. If I hadn't said anything to Marluxia would he be cheated on right now?"

"Uh….yeah. Especially if Xemnas wants Marluxia's power on his side. He doesn't even care about Saïx, he just wants to use them. It's what a leader is supposed to do. Don't start thinking this is a touchy feely relationship type thing. Only a moron would fall for that."

Zexion shook his head, "No no, It's not like I find it like that. It's…Saïx…who might."

Their eyes landed back on him before turning away. Xigbar shook his head, "Shit. You're right. The guy's screwed, man."

"We're all screwed. If Saïx finds out he'll hate all of us. And I really don't want to be on the end of Saïx's claymore. It was painful enough the first time."

Xigbar rubbed at his chin and snapped his fingers, getting an idea. "What if we befriend Saïx enough to the point he won't feel like he has to rely on Xemnas so much. And if he finds out about Xemnas…we play dumb and try to support him. You know, the whole 'I can't believe he'd hurt you like that' type thing. He'd trust US then! We'd still have the advantage of having Saïx in the Organization!"

Zexion shrugged, "I suppose it's worth a shot."

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Buzzing. Soft buzzing. Eerie lights and harsh winds. Turning and turning, over and over. Stopping quickly.

There I am, lying on the ground lifeless as the grass sways in the wind, the heat of a burning damaged car not too far off from behind me. The blue sky turns a meek gray as the birds fly off from the tree. My face stings terrible and my limbs feel broken. Blood soaks my entire vision, and my eyes start to burn.

"Seven…"

My words are hardly above a whisper. The number which vexes my life has come around again. I can see it in the clouds, brushing in the grass, against my body and all over the earth. It's everywhere and anywhere that I can see. When I close my eyes, it appears brightly and burns into my mind.

"Help…"

I start to choke, a cough trying to escape my body but can't. I have no energy and everything about me is shaking, shutting down in terrible shock. Noises. Lots of noises begin to surround me and I hear a scream, others trying to communicate to me about what has happened.

"Am I…dead?"

I can't tell anymore. The feeling is so…friendly…even if it's cold. It's peaceful. And the feeling is so strong that it makes me want to embrace it, let myself sleep in this feeling.

"Stay awake!"

Who yelled that at me? Who wants to take me away from this feeling? Then there is more movement, blacking out and coming to, fainting and awakening several times when at last I awaken in a bed.

White. Everything is white. Gloomy. The sound of my heart beating starts to fade as I look for a face to familiarize with, for a person to confide in.

"Do you remember…" I began to whisper, "the moon…it was New Year's…"

I felt someone grab me, my ice cold fingers warming up as they were clasped. I could feel their numbness reside and touch the tears from someone.

"I remember…"

"I still think you're beautiful…even though…I didn't think you would…understand…"

"Shh, don't talk so much."

My eyes tried to focus on the figure, but I couldn't, "You broke my heart."

"I'm—"

Saïx awoke with a start as he panted for breath, shaking as his entire body was freezing, yet he was sweating at the same time. His muscles were tensing and everything about him was sore. He snarled, feeling his teeth grow in his mouth and his vision begin to blur with yellow.

"Saïx! Saïx!"

He coughed and he felt something slide up his throat, thick and slimy. Saïx sat up and felt it come right out. Blood, everywhere, soaking his front and the person in front of him. He moved away, trying to stand up, but the movement caused him to faint.

"You're alive?"

I turned my head and saw that displeased look across his face. Him again. It was as if he never left me alone, as if he lived to ruin me.

"Father," I mumbled.

"Wrong. Good guess, though. You probably wouldn't remember me anyway. You haven't seen me in a long time."

I tried focusing harder, trying to make the face make sense, but it wouldn't. "Who…"

"I brought you a gift, hope you like it."

My hands touched something. It was a box. I lifted it and noticed it had decorative band-aids in it. "Thank you..?"

"I thought you'd need it…after what happened."

"I don't remember anymore…"

"You wouldn't…you won't remember this day, this meeting, or who I am after I leave this room."

"What do you mean?"

"You hit your head too hard…"

"I hit my head?"

"Yes. They did surgery and everything to fix as much as they could, but they can't do much about brain damage."

"I…damaged my brain?"

The figure patted his hand, "It's okay, you'll get to live and remake all of those memories you had. How's that sound?"

"I'm…not sure that I understand."

"Your doctor can explain later. I've got to go, don't want to drag this out much longer than needed."

Saïx shot back up, struggling against someone who was restraining him. He snarled again, his cry beastly and harsh. His hands tried to push away what was going on, unsure of what was real and what wasn't. Something hit his arm and a painful scream escaped him, his hair rising on end and his teeth starting to gnash in anger. His growl was deep, and he felt his fingernails dig into someone's flesh before the world blacked out again.

Back in bed, but this time I am sitting up, propped against pillows as a figure is sitting next to me. "Hi."

"Hey…"

"Are you my brother?" I don't have a brother. Why did I ask such a thing?

"No, I'm a friend of yours. I brought you something to help you remember…who you are."

"I know who I am, don't I?"

"Well…these are specific things about you. You wrote them in this journal a long time ago." The journal was put into my hands, and it looked the same as usual.

"I like the pictures," I replied once I opened to the first few pages. "What does it say?"

"That…we were friends. And it says our names under each picture."

"Which one are you?"

"That one."

"It's a nice picture."

"I…"

Everything started to blur, and I felt like I was falling. Things changed, and I was lying down again, this time I couldn't move or see. My eyes were closed, but there were people around me that I could hear. Their tones were soft and saddened.

"The damage is getting worse. We'd have to remove parts of his brain that will stop all of his functions."

"Which functions?"

"He will no longer be able to eat solid foods, his movement will be limited, his speech marred and possibly irreparable. He'll need help going to the bathroom, getting changed…any basic necessity."

"What are…his chances of surviving such a surgery?"

There was a pause before I heard the doctor speak again, "Very slim. There's a possibility his entire brain will shut down once the surgery happens…and if we leave him as is he'll bleed to death and it'll kill him."

"Can we pull the plug?" a deeper voice, which I recognized as my father, had asked.

"In this particular situation…yes, you have that option."

"Give us time to think…"

Why are they doing this to me? I can hear them, I'm still here…I'm still…

"Saïx?"

He opened his eyes slowly and tried to focus on the person, finally being able to see Zexion sitting before him. The boy was covered in blood, and he looked absolutely terrible. Had he done that to him? "Zexion?"

"Thank God you're better. You've been going insane for the past hour or so. The moon's finally out…"

Saïx glanced at the window, seeing the moon lying across his stomach, "It…it's so nice."

"No shit. I've never been so happy in my life to see Kingdom Hearts," Xigbar mumbled and rubbed Saïx's shoulder, "You've been out for quite a few days, eh? Didn't think you'd ever come around."

Saïx nodded, "I…I felt like I was dying…"

Xigbar frowned, "How so?"

"Just…the dream…"

Zexion shook his head, "Sometimes dreams are just that…dreams. What you might think are memories could be anything but a memory."

Maybe Zexion is right…and my mind is just deceiving me. I should listen to him…he would know better than me, right? "I hope it's just a dream…"

"What was it about?" Xigbar asked casually.

"My parents were pulling the plug on me…because I was brain dead. But what I don't get was…the fact that I wasn't. It was…hard to deal with."

The two members glanced at each other before returning their eyes to him. "You probably dreamt that one up. You were, in fact, so weak from fighting that it might have caused you to think that way."

Saïx nodded, "Yeah…" He started to sit up, "I'm feeling much better."

"You should keep resting," Zexion warned but watched as Saïx stood up without troubles, his ailments completely gone. "Saïx…"

"I'm fine." He stretched and looked at the time, "Where's Xemnas? I want to go talk to him."

Xigbar stiffened and gave out a slight laugh, "Xemnas? Who the hell knows? Why don't I find him for you, and then you can….go see him. Since I mean, I can find the Superior quicker than anyone else!"

Saïx didn't catch the stalling and rambling, just nodded as he turned his head to Xigbar, "Thanks."

Xigbar moved out of the room and travelled back down the hallway, wondering if Xemnas had left his room yet. It had been one hell of a day trying to stop Saïx from his odd behavior…Hell, he didn't even know how long that lasted! It was long enough! His footsteps stopped before the ominous door and he gave a quick whack to it before yelling loudly, "Sup! It's Xiggy!"

There was a moment of hesitation, a dull silence falling all around Xigbar before he heard, "Come in."

He opened the door and entered hoping that Marluxia wasn't going to be there, but the flowery scent hit him hard and he almost staggered in his steps. "Hmm…smells…fresh in here. Been using a new air freshener?"

Xemnas shook his head as he sat at his desk, the chair pushed in close. "No, not that I know of. What do you need, Xigbar?"

Xigbar paused as he looked at Xemnas's appearance. His hair was a bit messed up, the cloak wasn't all in the right position, the chair was way too close to the table that it made him suspicious about….about…

"Oh you know, I stopped in to check on Saïx and he's finally better! He's standing up and everything!"

He cracked his back, which was his secret way of scoping the area, and saw the Superior's pants were halfway under the bed. At least…he hoped those were the Superior's. "He said he wanted to see you."

Xemnas faltered in answering, "Well…" he then let out…did Xigbar dare think it? He let out a small gasp of pleasure, but it was so slight that Xigbar tried to deny that it happened. "Well I'm busy…he'll have to wait….I'll send for him when I'm prepared."

Xigbar nodded a bit and stepped back, "I'll make sure he gets the message." His eyes caught a few flower petals were around the end of Xemnas's desk. OH GOD. Was Marluxia under the desk? Oh….freaky. "Um….so yeah. Later, Xemnas."

"Indeed."

Xigbar closed the door behind him and almost gagged before rushing back to Zexion's room, noticing the two were tidying up Zexion's room since it had gone through a lot of Saïx abuse. "Heeeey, Saïx. Sorry to say, but the Superior is busy right now."

Saïx blinked before smiling, "So I can bug him, right?"

"NO." Cool, shout at the guy, make it sound like the Superior is dying, "Noooo. He's actually busy and can't be interrupted, he was angry enough that I showed up. He said he'd send for you when he's ready, eh?"

Saïx frowned. What's that supposed to mean? I'm not allowed to see him? Oh, maybe he's setting up some ultra sex thing? Oooh, I'd like that. It's been awhile since we've been together…well okay, three days wasn't actually that long ago, but still! He probably can't wait to get his hands on me, that protective and clingy ho. "All right."

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Eight hours, three minutes, 34 seconds. I've been sitting in my room counting how long it'd take for him to send for me, and now I'm kind of thinking that he's not going to. His business has never lasted this long. Whatever he's doing it must be really complicated. Like…making a replica of the castle out of Styrofoam and gluesticks. It better be something that complicated or I'm going to be pissed.

Saïx tapped his foot before standing up for the hundredth time, pacing the floor as he looked around for any hopeful signs that Xemnas left him a note that said he should get naked and get on top of him. There were no such messages, and he was starting to crave getting naked more and more.

What the hell is he doing? Is he not prepared for sex? Maybe he's having a deep cleansing experience to make it that much better? Or maybe he's off in a different world getting me a gift? Oh yeah! I forgot that he owed me a gift! I should go find him right now!

Saïx stopped his pacing and moved for the door, pushing it open with one hand. His eyes swiped the area before heading toward the kitchen. Hey, he hadn't eaten anything for the longest time, he deserved a snack before he went to his boyfriend.

As he entered, though, there was Xemnas sitting with the others enjoying the night with snacks. His entrance caused everyone to stop their talking.

Why…would he deliberately lie to me like that? No, don't get offended. He probably forgot, that's typical of Xemnas.

"Whoa, Saïx," Axel muttered, seeing the man look so different. It seemed the man had lost a little bit of weight in the three day starvation period. "Why don't you…join us?"

Marluxia looked back at Saïx and smirked, "Yes, you should get something to eat and drink. You look famished."

Saïx hardly listened to them, only stared at Xemnas as the man ignored his presence. Saïx gave up on getting a response from him and slowly sat down in chair number 7, holding his breathe and tensing his muscles as his bottom touched the seat. Nothing happened. Yet.

"Saïx! You look great!" Demyx yelled happily, blowing bubbles while he talked, which was a really odd ability to have. "We should hang out now that you're better!"

Xaldin, although, shook his head, "Saïx is still in a shaky setting, Demyx, he probably needs a bit more rest."

"No." Saïx's words were crisp. "I feel fine. I'm just in a bad mood."

"How typical," Vexen snidely remarked and put his drink down, "But let's not make you any grumpier than you already are. Everyone is right, you should try and enjoy our company."

Saïx grumbled as he snatched up a cup and stared at the contents, "What is it?"

"Apple cider," Marluxia cooed as he picked up a cherry and delicately ate it.

"Marluxia made it," Demyx added before finishing a cookie he had on his plate.

"Don't tell me he hand picked the fruits and made the cookies, too," Saïx growled.

"Actually…" Xigbar started.

"He did," Lexaeus finished.

Saïx sat back and crossed his arms over his chest, deciding eating could be put off for a bit longer. No matter how tempting it all looked, he'd rather refuse associating himself with that pink-haired twit than conforming just because he knew how to make food.

"Lost your appetite already?" Axel questioned as he picked at his grapes and devoured them.

Saïx didn't reply, only sat there. The other members exchanged looks at his intolerable acts but ignored him as they went back to eating.

Not a single word from him. Is that it? Does he just not care about me anymore? I fascinated him at one point…but now…I don't fascinate him. Why is that? Does it…have to do with Marluxia? Saïx's eyes glanced over at the man who was gently wiping his fingers on a napkin, finishing his meal. He got up and smiled, "I'll take anyone's plate that's done."

Slowly he grabbed up any plates he could, leaning near Saïx as he took Axel's plate from him. Demyx, at that moment, got up and rushed past to go play outside, but he bumped Marluxia. Everyone stopped breathing as the plates and cups crushed down upon Saïx littering him with cider and some fruits.

Marluxia paused as he stepped back wondering what Saïx would do. He had seen the man's powers, he knew not to push his buttons, but what could he do in this particular situation? "I'm sorry, Saïx, Demyx bumped me."

His eyes grew dangerously yellow but it subdued as he calmed himself. Come on, Saïx, it was a mistake. Demyx is a retard, and not even someone as graceful as Marluxia could avoid that. Besides, you're in seat number 7, you should expect such a turn out from such things. "Don't worry about it." He started to pick up the dishes, not noticing the crowd of eyes upon him. Though, after awhile the feeling started to get at him and he looked. "What?"

"You controlled yourself," Xemnas finally spoke, staring right at him.

Saïx set the dishes down, "So?"

"It's…a good thing."

"I'm hardly impressed," Saïx replied, getting up and noticing how drenched he got. "I'm going."

"Where?"

Saïx's eyes looked back at Xemnas. Did he seriously just ask me that question? "To Beast's castle so his tableware can wash every inch of my body. Where do you think?" He flicked his hand and a portal appeared, going through it to his room. He quickly threw his clothes off and into the dirty hamper. Well that wasn't worth it. Saïx moved for the bathroom and noticed how messy it still was. Not that I mind messy, considering this will forever stay this way. He got in the shower and let the water blast him. All the things that he thought he cared about right now…not so much on his caring list anymore.

Only a fool would have thought anyone could sleep with the Superior. I am clearly that fool .We fucked and we gave up after my intolerance to control myself. I'm a lost cause and Xemnas knows it. He's obviously moved on, or else he would have at least had the decency to talk to me. I'm a failure.

After a long shower Saïx exited and dried off, wrapping the towel around himself and going toward the window to peak out it. He wanted to do something besides stay inside. But…he'd have to put clothes on if he went anywhere.

Wait, was it really an order to wear clothes if he was going outside the castle? He didn't read up on any of that, nor was he lectured about such things…

Saïx dropped his towel and put on his boxers before opening a portal and disappearing through it. He found himself on the roof enjoying the view. Wow. Everything looks different from here. I feel like I'm king of the world or something! And…there's Kingdom Hearts. Saïx smiled up at the moon and felt how direct the powers came to him at this spot. Without clothes on, it felt even better, more powerful…

"Hmmm," he glanced below. "Long drop." But….looked almost…invigorating.

Saïx backed up and ran for it, taking a tremendous leap. His heart pounded (was that his heart?) as he descended the skies. He let out a laugh, which at this momentum sounded absolutely hilarious. It kind of struck him that….did he know for sure that portals would work if they weren't on a flat surface?

Ahaha, great way to die you idiot.

As the ground closed in he concentrated on making a portal, and it appeared right below him.

He landed on his bed with a crash.

Ow. Fuck. Note to self, make that a softer landing. Saïx got up and looked at the cracking bed. He had obliterated his room rather nicely. Fuck yeah! I want to do that again! He opened another portal and disappeared through it, back on the roof tops.

Vexen heard the crash and dropped all of his papers. After cursing up a storm, he opened Saïx's door but didn't see a person in sight. "Where in the world has that buffoon gone?"

Zexion exited his room to figure out where the noise had come from, "Did you do that?"

"Dropping papers doesn't cause explosions, Zexion. I think Saïx is up to something he—" Vexen then saw Saïx falling to his death…LAUGHING. "GREAT SCOTT!" Vexen dashed over to the window and summoned a portal.

Saïx saw it summon, "That's not—"

He went through and landed on Zexion, crushing the poor guy, "Miiiine?"

Zexion about died. That was a bit too close for comfort, and also it was very painful. "Ugggh, my sternum," he coughed and rubbed his chest, "Your elbow just jabbed my kidney!"

Saïx continued to lay there for a minute on top of Zexion, "Oh. Did you want me for something?"

Vexen went over and slapped Saïx across the face, "What are you, apeshit insane???"

The commotion had caused others to gather, and soon the entire Organization was in Saïx's room waiting for an explanation.

"I'm confused, are we curious as to why he was on Zexion?" Xigbar whispered to Xemnas.

The man hushed him before coming forward, "What happened?"

Vexen pointed at Saïx, "He was falling to his death! I saved him!"

Zexion rubbed his body, "And tried to kill me."

Saïx shook his head, "Whoa whoa, let's not get so hasty. I was clearly free-falling after I jumped off the building. That's not necessarily falling to my death." Silence. Okay, so maybe it is. "I wasn't going to DIE for Pete's sake! I did it before, I just used a portal right before I hit the ground and landed in my bed."

Vexen frowned, "Is that what that terrible cracking noise was?"

"That was my body making contact with the wood. It was a great experience."

"You fool! So you jumped again?"

Saïx shrugged, "Seemed like something to do."

"While you were naked?" Axel commented. More silence. Saïx looked at his boxers. They were still clearly on him, so he wasn't naked.

"You should seriously try it."

Xemnas shook his head, "No more of this ridiculous nonsense! Saïx, you could have gotten hurt—"

Saïx laughed, "Oh, as if that matters NOW. I'm still alive, who cares what could have happened?"

Xemnas glared, "I do! If you HAD died I would have been down a—"

"Slave in your diabolic plan? I'm sure another worthless worm will drag themselves out of the darkness and abide to your will. Everyone else seems to be glad to be under your orders! What's another? And hey….it's not like we're actually alive anyway."

Saïx shrugged and moved near the window, "Stop worrying about something you can't change."

"It WILL change!" Xemnas went over and whipped him around, slamming him against the wall, "That's an order."

Saïx sighed, "Of course, Superior, I almost forgot how you worked with your subordinates."

"Drop the attitude."

Saïx rolled his eyes, "What do you want me to do? Quit speaking?"

"Quit acting like a fool! Don't you have any common sense? Jumping off of buildings is stupid, but talking back to me as if you're in the right is much worse than that."

Saïx sighed before crossing his arms over his chest, "Fine, Superior, you're right and I'm wrong…as usual."

Xemnas let go of him and glared before returning his eyes to the group, "We're finished here."

Axel sighed, "Damn. I was hoping for something steamy."

Saïx laughed, "Done? I'm just getting started."

Xemnas glared, "I said—"

But Saïx had created a portal and vanished through it before Xemnas could finish his sentence. The man's fist balled up and he clenched his jaw, ready to scream but kept it down. Swiftly he turned to face the others, glaring at them. "I'll be back. Everyone leave this room."

The people dispersed quickly while Xemnas concentrated on the whereabouts of Saïx's powers. "You will pay for this behavior," he muttered to himself, knowing that Saïx couldn't hide forever.

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Oh fuck fuck fuckity fuck. Why did I just do that? I played wise ass and now I'm going to get it IN the ass. And I picked the most obvious place to go, too. Then again, I've never been to any other worlds, so how else would I know how to get away?

Saïx ran into a room and glanced around at the womanly features of the place and how it smelled pleasant. His eyes darted to the armoire and he opened it up, pushing the clothes aside, and got in. As he closed the door he could hear Xemnas walking down the hallways.

Don't come in here. Don't come in here. Don't come in here!

"Saïx!" Xemnas growled, opening the door and glancing around, looking under the bed, "Where are you?"

Clearly not in the armoire. Or shall I say…armoooooiiiire? Oh god, don't laugh, keep it in!

"Saïx!" Xemnas approached the armoire when it started to move, giving out a loud yawn.

"Saïx? Never heard of him. Oh my, who are you? What are you doing in Belle's room?"

Xemnas stepped back as the armoire started to talk to him, "I'm looking for someone…he came in here."

"He did? I didn't see him, but my eye sight is probably going," the armoire casually talked and gave a soft chuckled, "You look pretty cute. What type of friend is this? Tall, dark, and handsome?"

Xemnas winced and thought over how to describe him, "Well…he has yellow eyes, blue hair, and he's only wearing boxers."

The armoire chuckled, "Now that's the type of man I like! If he comes in here I'll give a holler, darling, how's about that?"

Xemnas nodded, "All right…thank you."

That…was odd in so many senses. I'm inside a talking piece of furniture!! Saïx heard the door open and close, held his breath a little while longer as the footsteps died down the hallway, and he touched the door to open it up. It started to jumble and dance around. "Shh!! Shhh! Don't say a word!"

The door opened and he felt a drawer slam into his back and shove him out. "How in the world did you get in there??"

Saïx smiled, "I…went in while you were sleeping?"

She glared, "Oh boy, your friend is looking for you. Just wait until I give a holler—"

"No no! Shh, please. He can't find out, not yet." Saïx was in the middle of explaining when Belle opened her door to enter and covered her eyes.

"Oh my, what's going on? Why aren't you decent?"

Saïx looked down at his boxers. Eh. So that's why it was important to wear clothes all the time. "Uh….long explanation?"

"Who are you? Why are you in my room??"

"I can't really explain—"

Xemnas entered back in and his eyes locked on Saïx with a glare, "There you are! You're going right back to the castle, Saïx!"

Saïx laughed as he backed himself up against the window, "Hey, let's not be so pushy—" Xemnas slammed him into the glass and it shuddered with the force, "Ow, okay okay, I'll go back."

"I'm sick and tired of your little games that you keep playing! Do you find it funny to go around and risk your life when I have deliberately told you not to do such things?" Xemnas shoved the window open and leaned Saïx out it, "Perhaps you don't understand the reality of this situation.

Belle gasped and dashed off as this went on, the armoire basked in the corner at the interesting fight.

Saïx saw the dizzying heights as he was leaning out the window in a choker hold by Xemnas. Oh wonderful. Juuuust great! He always wanted to die like this!

"You disobedient dog," Xemnas growled, "Your immature behavior will end now."

Then Xemnas yelled in pain and let go of Saïx. The man felt himself start to slip, but a giant claw came out and clawed into his stomach, pulling him in by his flesh. It hurt like hell, but was better than falling. Though…his portal trick could have come in handy.

There Beast was towering over Xemnas ready to strike him again. Saïx could see that fear, the fear he was so used to seeing whenever he got angry because everyone expected to see his ugly side. He swiftly moved in front of the man and saw Beast's expression change.

"What are you doing?"

"Don't…hurt him…" Saïx mumbled, "I…I brought him here on accident. We'll be leaving…sorry, Beast."

Beast glared but backed away, "Then leave now."

Saïx nodded but looked down and noticed his entire front was dripping with blood. "Ugh, crap!"

Beast glanced back and noticed the problem he had caused. He couldn't really send them off like that, Saïx looked pretty wounded from his claws…

"Go left and down the hallway….you can fix him up there," Beast grumbled before slinking off, pushing Belle to follow him.

Xemnas looked at the mess and sighed, "Fine…come on." He grabbed onto Saïx and they went to the designated room, finding it as just another bedroom but with a personal bathroom. Saïx stiffly sat down as the claw mark got worse and kept silent until Xemnas returned with the needed medical supplies.

"How's it look?"

Xemnas shrugged as he dabbed at it, "Not too terrible." They fell in silence until Xemnas asked a question, "Why…did you jump off the roof?"

"I told you I was bored. I really wasn't trying to get in trouble."

"Well…why did you argue with me?"

Saïx looked away, "You didn't bother seeing me today, so I was upset."

Xemnas gently rubbed ointment into the wound and looked up at the upset member. His actions really had upset him…how intriguing. "I didn't mean to ignore your wishes, but…I was busy…"

"With what?"

Xemnas had to think quickly and said the first thing that came to mind, "The arrival of our newest member."

"We don't have any new members…"

"Not yet, but I know another is coming soon."

"Another one is always coming…how does that trump seeing me?"

"Don't act so cheated, Saïx, I would have saw you sooner or later."

"You had a snack time instead of seeing me!"

Xemnas nodded, "Yes, because Marluxia made us food and it would be considerably rude to refuse. I believe when you made me eat zebra for dinner I didn't decline your cooking."

"You didn't know it was coming, though. And besides…Marluxia's just…just…"

"Just what?"

Saïx crossed his arms over his chest, "I don't know. He's not who he's pretending to be, and it's really annoying. I can tell he's up to something!"

"Up to something? I highly doubt he's doing anything out of the ordinary."

"How would you know?"

"I've talked to him while you've been asleep."

Saïx glared, "You shouldn't trust him!"

That was when it clicked to Xemnas why Saïx was acting this way. Acting out for attention, taking it so that Xemnas had to keep his eyes on him. "You're jealous."

Saïx felt heated but couldn't refuse. He's right, I'm beyond jealous about Marluxia. If he's been talking to the Superior, what else could they have done while I've been out? "So what if I am?"

"I would say you're acting ridiculous, but I suppose you have a right to think that way. You're so used to having my attention on you it offends you that I'm paying attention to someone else."

"What have you two been doing while I've been gone?"

Xemnas paused but went back to his job, "Nothing. We talked."

Saïx sat up, grabbing Xemnas's hand, "You wouldn't lie to me, would you?"

Xemnas stared into those big eyes but couldn't find a way to say that he wouldn't, nor that he would. "Of…course not."

Saïx shook his head, "Liar. You've done it before, what would make this any different?"

"Oh please, you're acting out for no reason."

"What did you two do?"

"We did nothing, I already told you that."

He won't even look at me when he says it like that… "Did you sleep with him?"

Xemnas looked away, shaking his head, "That's none of your business."

"It is my business! Before Marluxia was here you seem interested in me, but as soon as I close my eyes you're fucking him like what you said to me didn't matter! I might not have feelings, but I still have memories, and I know what you're doing is wrong, and I know how much it really hurts." Saïx stood up and let his yellow eyes glare into Xemnas's, "Do you think it's entertaining…that you treat me like I'm a monster? I kept denying it…but today when I saw the look on your face when you saw Beast….it reminded me of the way you looked at me every time my powers started to take over in the slightest. You and everyone else…refuse to see past that."

"I'm not trying to personally destroy you, Saïx, that isn't my intention."

"Your intentions are to USE everyone that shows up at the castle doors!"

Xemnas crossed his arms over his chest, "To put it in better terms, I'm trying to have the entire Organization trust me as a responsible leader that they can confide in when needed. A leader must have the respect of his subordinates to be able to do anything! To even…call myself a leader."

"So you sleep with everyone? That's great. I'm sure that just makes me trust you so much more than before. Thanks for lying to me!"

Xemnas sighed, "Saïx! That wasn't what I was going for! You were different…"

"Marluxia must have been different, too! How convenient for you."

Xemnas slammed Saïx back into the seat, grabbing onto the arms angrily, "You kept asking me for it, and every time I refused you pushed yourself farther away from me. You couldn't trust me at all, and you didn't want to if I kept saying no. I gave up and gave in because I knew you wouldn't fight it, and you'd become more obedient if I threw away my own comforts to satisfy you." He let go and stood up straight, arms returning across his chest. "You weren't supposed to know about Marluxia."

Saïx glared, "You'd think I'd just not see it? Why do you always think I'm so stupid?"

"Because it's the way you are, Saïx."

Saïx fell silent before feeling the hatred build up in his mind, the thoughts making him tense. "Why Marluxia?"

"You were bound to return to him."

"You think because I was with 'Flower' that I'd just as easily return to his Nobody? The man's completely different! He's a compulsive liar and a whore!"

Xemnas sighed, "Odd hearing that from you. Considering you slept with Flower and then came begging for more to me."

Saïx rose again, knocking his chair over, "I gave up on Flower as soon as you accepted me. You don't even have the decency to do something like that. You saw what I did with Flower and you were jealous, I know you were. Don't deny it, I can tell what you're thinking!! You wanted that experience more than anything, and when you killed him you knew it meant I had no one to turn to but you…in case I did betray you. But…that's not enough for you, is it?"

Xemnas shook his head, "I didn't want you returning to him under any circumstances."

"So you slept with him?"

He snapped at Saïx finally, "Yes, I did! I saw the way you talked about him, the way you described every detail about him! The looks you had when you spoke, or even the emotions you thought of! I wanted that…and he offered all of those things to me. How could I refuse?"

Saïx looked down, "I could have…offered the same things…"

"No, you couldn't. You want something you can't have. What Marluxia and I have…is not bound by feelings or silly ideals about being a couple. We do what our bodies want, not what our minds have told us to do! You wanted an actual relationship….and that, Saïx, is impossible."

He never wanted me. Those words, he's been tainted by Marluxia's powers. He's been convinced I am nothing and I'm the one who's off the mark.

Saïx felt tears slide down his cheeks and he glared at Xemnas, opening up a portal, "Yeah. Everything is impossible in your mind. That's why you will never remember anything, because you're too weak to do it. I'm going, and this time don't follow me. It'll look like you're 'caring' and that's impossible for someone of your stature."

Saïx went through and closed the portal quickly, arriving back at his house. It was silent and dark, his parents weren't home. His room was messy for some reason, but he chose to just go with it for now. He rummaged through the closet and got some clothes on him before concentrating hard on a new place. He wanted to see a different moon tonight…one that didn't remind him of what a monster he really was….

A portal formed and he went through, escaping the house to a new area.

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It was a two full weeks that the Organization heard nothing from Saïx or his whereabouts. At first no one was worried because it was Saïx and the man always had his moody issues. But as the days continued to pass they started to wonder if he was seriously injured and they had overlooked the situation too soon. The man was pretty accident prone, he could be half dead by now….or completely dead. Still, no one bothered to look. They wanted to have Xemnas order them into the situation, to know that it was something he wanted. The more they waited, though, the more they knew Xemnas wasn't going to bother with the issue. It was easy to tell that Xemnas was disturbed and upset with the prolonged departure, but he refused to lift a finger or bring up the subject at any of their meetings. Xigbar believed it was because of his new interest in Marluxia, and the others readily agreed with him. Perhaps it was a jealousy war that none of them had known about? Or maybe it pained them too much to bring it up? Either way, it was starting to get on everyone's nerves.

As the beginning of the third week without the Luna Diviner kicked off, Xigbar had to bring it up at their newest meeting.

"Xemnas, shouldn't we be thinking about Saïx right now? He's gone missing for awhile, and we've all failed to say anything about it until now."

Xemnas glanced over to Xigbar before letting his eyes swipe across the members, "Is…this true?"

Everyone nodded.

"Well…Saïx ran off and I've been unable to locate him. I assume he'll come back…"

"What if he doesn't?" Demyx asked with a pouty bottom lip.

"Yeah, Xemnas, he's obviously the least stable of us all…I think he could go off the deep end if none of us try to intervene," Axel put in his two cents.

"He only gets hurt when other people get in his way." Marluxia flipped his hair gently before glancing at the others. "The man is indestructible unless you approach him. Let him play around until he tires himself out."

"That's a stupid idea," Zexion remarked. "Saïx doesn't know when to stop himself, he just keeps going until he almost dies."

Marluxia looked over at Xemnas. "What do you think?"

Xemnas didn't even think it over, just nodded a few times before he spoke. "Yes, I believe Marluxia is right. He'll be fine."

Zexion glared but stopped from yelling at him as Lexaeus gently placed his hand on him. There was no point in arguing. Xemnas always agreed with Marluxia no matter what the circumstance was.

"I'm glad we had this discussion, now, let's—" Xemnas was interrupted when the doors creaked open and caught their attention. There stood Saïx before them. He looked tanner and joyful, as if the vacation had brightened his mood considerably. His eyes were gleaming brightly as he came forward and leaned against his chair.

"Another meeting? Did I miss anything good?"

Demyx jumped up and grabbed onto him, "Saïx! You're back!! We thought you died!"

"Died? That's impossible for someone like me."

As Saïx took his seat Xemnas sat up more and leaned his elbows onto the table, orange eyes staring at Saïx's features. "What have you been doing during your absence?"

"I was in Agrabah."

"Doing what?" Vexen hissed, conjuring terrible images about the heated place.

"Learning how to belly dance."

Silence ensued as they thought it over. They wouldn't put it past Saïx to do something that dumb for two weeks straight.

"I'm joking. I was pillaging and stealing. It's actually really fun." Saïx pulled up a bag from his side and dumped it onto the table. It opened up and items of all sorts spilled across the table. "I met the King of Thieves, too! I didn't know he was Aladdin's father."

Axel blinked, "He is?"

"Yeah. Ironic, right?"

"Yeah…weird."

Xemnas interrupted the small talk, "You stole for two weeks? That's it?"

"Not really. I fought Jafar with Aladdin out of boredom, but that's only because I had arrived right in the middle of the entire thing. The Cave of Wonders collapsed on Aladdin and me. I was going to offer to help him, but then he conjured a Genie."

"Oh cool, did you get to ask for any wishes?" Demyx questioned as he leaned forward with fascination.

"No, Aladdin was the master of the lamp, I wasn't."

Xigbar smirked, "Would have been cool if you got your hands on that sucker! What would you wish for if you did?"

Saïx thought it over and shrugged, "I don't know. A bottle of shampoo that never goes empty?"

Xaldin gave one loud laugh and that was it, making Xigbar and Axel snort and giggle. It was so random to hear Xaldin laugh at the dumbest things.

"Aside from going on an adventure…what else did you do?" Xemnas interrupted the fun one more time.

"I tanned."

"….Aside from that?"

"And trained."

Xemnas was now curious about the conversation. Training from Saïx could mean some type of productivity, right? "Oh, how often?"

"Everyday. There isn't a whole lot to do there. Besides, you have to be strong to fight Jafar, the all powerful Genie…"

"He turns into a Genie?" Vexen asked quizzically, pulling out his notepad to take notes on the matter. He didn't know ordinary people could become genies so easily.

"Yeah, he got a hold of the lamp and turned himself into one, and then when we thought we had it covered he ended up getting loose and trying to destroy us all. It was wonderful."

Xemnas spoke up, "So how was using your power? I'm sure you didn't only fight at night…"

"Oh no, we fought mostly during the day."

"So you went without Berserk?"

"Not entirely. During training I didn't use it, I just absorbed the moon's power as much as I could. Then during the day when we were fighting I'd use it in intervals."

"Intervals? How? Normally as soon as you use it you waste the whole thing," Vexen remarked, which was what Xemnas was thinking.

Man, no one has confidence in me, do they? Not that I expected them to, these guys can hardly trust themselves, why would they trust me?

"I can control it much better than I used to."

Xemnas looked overjoyed on that statement, "Stupendous! The training must have helped you break into your power."

"Yeah, which is why I went to Agrabah. It has a day and a night, plus plenty of Heartless to destroy."

"How many did you kill?"

"I don't know…over a thousand?"

"Total?"

"Per day."

Marluxia shook his head, "I don't believe it."

Saïx glanced over at him, "Why not?"

"I don't think it's physically possible for you to continue fighting non-stop without exhausting yourself."

"I trained during the night…the moon is out…I can fight without getting tired."

"But a thousand? Don't you get bored mercilessly killing things? Even if it is training, that number seems rather high even for someone who has energy nonstop."

"There's 12 hours of night, it shouldn't be too hard to execute."

"You said you never used Berserk during training, that would mean you'd have to kill them all by using only your weapon!"

"Yeah, I know."

Marluxia glared, "If you're so much stronger, maybe you should show us your progress?"

Xemnas perked. He would definitely like to see how Saïx fought now, especially with his headcount on Heartless. "Indeed! A battle is absolutely necessary. I think all of us want to see how strong you've grown…and perhaps it'd motivate others to do the same?"

Saïx shrugged, "Sure, why not? Who should I fight?"

Zexion spoke up before even thinking, "Marluxia." He watched everyone's eyes fall on him. "Well, Marluxia was curious on the matter, and considering he is the newest member and doubting Saïx's abilities…perhaps it'd help show how far Saïx has grown from when he was a newcomer?"

"Ah, a comparison chart will be needed! This idea is brilliant," Vexen remarked.

"I believe Zexion is right in his choice. Putting him up against one of us wouldn't show as much growth as it would comparing him to what he used to be," Xaldin jumped on board.

Xigbar only nodded his head in agreement. Was it weird that all of them wanted to see Marluxia in terrible agony?

"Then let it be so," Xemnas made the final decision. The entire group went outside and noticed the gloom that hung above, ready to rain for another day. Kingdom Hearts was hiding behind some cloud cover, but it did shine down in small areas.

"Let's have a good, clean fight!" Xigbar roared and the battle started.

Marluxia, the Graceful Assassin. I remember Zexion telling me that nickname one day, how it caused me to shudder just hearing those words. He would take down anyone if it meant him being on top, wouldn't it? But not for long. He believes Xemnas belongs by his side, maybe even underneath him! I won't have that. I've spent too long away from Xemnas and I'm going to show him what I really am…what I can really do when I focus.

"I hope you're ready," Marluxia hissed as his scythe came out as petals showered around him.

Saïx smirked at his words and felt his claymore form into his hands. His eyes went up to Kingdom Hearts and watched as the clouds uncovered its beauty, showering down upon him. "Give me power," he whispered softly. His eyes glowed, but he did not go into Berserk mode, he only mustered the rage and fought Marluxia with his weapon, avoiding the man's plants and flowers. Marluxia was good at disappearing and reappearing, using his speed against Saïx.

Concentrate, Saïx. He may be quicker, but you are smarter. Hone in on his pattern. Saïx blocked an attack and watched Marluxia disappear again. There, he'll appear there! Strike! Saïx's impulse caused him to strike the ground and the rocks flew up. As Marluxia appeared he was hit with the flying debris and lost his balance. Saïx then let Berserk take over, and watched as he easily landed hits upon the pink-haired figure. Marluxia escaped the hits and disappeared once again. Saïx felt himself calm down and reabsorb the moonlight.

"You run away a lot," Saïx commented before blocking another attack, brushing petals off of his shoulders.

"Odd, those words coming from you. I seem to remember you were the one who ran away all the time. Or have you forgotten already?" Marluxia shot vines at Saïx and watched them grapple onto his legs. "Were you jealous that you weren't getting attention? That seems to be the only reason why you're sticking around here. You like it when everyone has their eyes on you."

Saïx smirked and went back into Berserk, destroying the plants with his power. He surprised Marluxia with his quick actions, landing a good hit on the lowly ranked member. "I'd hate for the spotlight to be on you, it goes to your head too much." He smashed his elbow hard into Marluxia's face and watched as blood spattered across his arm, knowing he had hit a sensitive spot. "Besides, you get attention by pulling down your pants and bending over. Don't you think that's a bit skanky?"

Marluxia glared as he wiped the blood away and swiped his scythe at Saïx's head, though the Diviner ducked before it hit him. "You're jealous that Xemnas wants me more than you. It eats you up inside, doesn't it? That I, the newest member, can satisfy Xemnas better than you! He was only using you because he wanted your power, not your body."

Saïx laughed and watched their weapons strike together, sparks flying off at the contact, "And what makes you believe he isn't using you, Princess? He wants your power, too. And he knows that toying around with your idea and pretending to be on your side is how he'll gain your trust. Isn't it great feeling used? But the best part is…you don't even know it."

Marluxia snarled and tried to strike him, recklessly fighting as he got angered, "I'm different than you!"

"No you're not. You're exactly like me…and that's what makes this so funny. You keep denying it, which makes you blind to the truth. He's not interested in you, Marluxia, he just wants your trust and power. He's willing to give you sex if that's all it takes to make you beg at his knees."

Marluxia felt the claymore strike him hard and he fell to the ground, scythe falling out of his reach. His eyes widened at this. Had be been defeated? No, he wouldn't let that happen.

About time this fight was over. He gets boring to fight after awhile. I feel like I'm dancing more than fighting. Saïx's weapon disappeared and he began to walk over to Marluxia. "That was a nice battle."

Marluxia formed a thorny vine and lashed it hard at Saïx, watching it strike Saïx across the face. Quickly Marluxia got up and let his scythe return to his grasp, "It's not over."

Oh fuck, that hurt! I think he cut my eye open! Saïx glared over at him, "If that's how you want to play…fine." He rose up and felt Berserker mode take full affect, "Then let's see how you really fair against me."

His speed and power devastated Marluxia, and without even reaching his peak he had defeated the man to the point Marluxia could hardly get up. "We're done."

Marluxia spit blood onto the ground and wiped at his bloody mouth, glaring over at the figure, "The battle has just started."

Xemnas hadn't heard any of their remarks to each other, they were too quiet to be heard and their battle was too enticing to listen to their conversation. Finally he walked up and smiled, "That was a stupendous battle! Axel, help Marluxia to his room. He'll need some help with those wounds. And Saïx…indeed, you've improved rather well."

Saïx stretched and began to move for inside. Xemnas grabbed onto his arm, the contact made each other stare wondering what the other was doing. "Yes, Superior?"

Xemnas hesitated. What was he doing again? He shouldn't be acting this way, yet…he couldn't exactly stop himself. "Where are you going?"

"Inside, Superior."

"Well…no need for that. I wanted to talk to you."

"Out here?"

"Outside, yes, in this exact spot…no. Follow me."

Saïx watched the group disperse, Marluxia's glare burning right into him. Like I said, Xemnas was just using him…the way he used me. Together they reached the city and the clouds had moved on, the gloom of the night had disappeared. They were silent as they walked, but Saïx could tell Xemnas was rather pleased with the entire performance. "Something on your mind, Superior?"

Xemnas glanced at him, "Why are you calling me that?"

"It's your title."

"Well…you don't have to use it when we're alone."

"If that's how you want it…"

Xemnas stopped and faced Saïx now, his orange eyes resting on Saïx's scarred face, "You've changed. Where's the snarky comments or the lewd remarks? I'm not used to you being respectful."

"I'm only 'snarky' when I like something," Saïx replied before returning to walking. I hope that hits him hard.

Xemnas felt something odd, but knew it was only his mind trying to comprehend his words. He started to follow again and fell into step beside the Luna Diviner, "You've lost interest over the last two weeks?"

"Well, I thought about what you said to me. It took awhile to sink in, but you're right. It's only my mind making things up, I'm not feeling anything at all. So why worry over it? After awhile of being alone in Agrabah, it all started to make more sense. I guess the jealousy was nothing but thought. I can't love, nor can I hate. So why act it?"

Xemnas shook his head, "No, that's not what I meant—"

"I should be more focused on our goals. Once Kingdom Hearts grants us our hearts we can move on from this place and depart our separate ways. We are only together to get them back, that's all. It has no relation toward couples or feelings. We have the same objective, and with that objective we need to help each other reach it. I'm sure the life beyond this one will be more suitable than now."

Xemnas stopped walking and looked away. What did he do to Saïx? The man was…talking the way he had wanted him to talk in the beginning. But now…it wasn't what he wanted. "Saïx…"

"Yes?"

"The actions I took to gain your trust, to get you on my side were wrong, and I fully regret that. But the way you're talking now, the way that you're acting…it's not what I wanted from you. I shouldn't have hurt you the way I did…I apologize."

Saïx blinked, "Hurt me?"

"Being with Marluxia over you. This entire fiasco has turned upside down. I didn't know what I was doing to you, nor did I know what I was doing thinking sleeping with you or Marluxia would help my situation…I suppose it's because I don't have any memories on how to act in such situations."

Saïx turned to face him, "So now what? Are you giving up on Marluxia?"

"Yes, and it's because I know I don't love him. I will never love him, whether I have a heart or not. But…you…"

Saïx laughed now, "You think asking me to come back now is going to go so smoothly? Don't hold your breath Xemnas! If I had returned and sat down and said I did nothing you'd still be fucking Marluxia right now, but that's not what happened. You saw my power, you saw what I could do and you're thinking 'oh, how useful he is! If he can only work harder for me, if I can get his trust again I will have my heart back soon!' Ha. I think not. If you cared in the least, or even THOUGHT that you cared, it wouldn't happen like this. You wouldn't dismiss everyone and push me out here in the cities to talk, you wouldn't cover it up and pretend that affection is such a terrible thing and the others shouldn't see. If you want me back…you're going to have to do it in front of everyone." Saïx smirked, "But I doubt you'd do anything like that, no matter how much you crave my power. I'm done killing Heartless, you'll have to have the others do the dirty work for you."

Xemnas almost felt like he was shot. He knew that Saïx wasn't stupid, and yes the main reason he was trying to get back with him was because of the man's power… But he still felt like there was a connection between him. Marluxia did give him pleasure in bed, but there was nothing beyond that. No talking, no joking or enjoying each other's presence. They just had sex and that was it. With Saïx it was much more… "They'll think I'm playing favorites, Saïx…I can't destroy the Organization—"

"Then when your heart returns you'll feel how broken it is. I don't think the Organization revolves around your sex life, Xemnas. As long as you're a good leader and you know when you should fool around and when you need to focus on other matters I think they'll let you do as you please. If we're all going for the same goals why would anything else matter?"

Xemnas thought it over and wondered what else he should say. Saïx was right…but…out right declaring he wanted Saïx before an entire group of people would be nerve-racking. Especially if Saïx might decline the advance…and that would be embarrassing in front of an entire group of men.

Before he could say anything they both heard and felt a portal forming, and together they watched as lightning struck down and created one before them. Forgetting their current issue they went over and Xemnas noticed it was an opening for a new member.

"But…" he mumbled before watching as a blonde figure immerged, the lightning striking once more near them before disappearing completely, the portal closing. The girl fell into Saïx's arms gently.

"A girl?" They both stated before letting their eyes meet.

"Let's…get her inside…" Xemnas mumbled and Saïx followed. He'd have to deal with his feelings about Saïx later…

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Hmm, will Xemnas and Saïx get back together? Who knows! Until next time! And yes, another chapter will be coming soon.

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