Chapter 6: Who am I
Lucy's pov
Sirius took me to a room and I sobbed into his shoulder for a good long while. When I started to calm down I felt Sirius rubbing my back and he was speaking softly to me. I pulled away and he wipped away the last of my tears. "You feeling ok now love?" Sirius said to me softly. I rubbed my eyes a little before I spoke. "Not really." I said in a horse voice to him.
I was still sitting in Sirius lap. I would move back but I felt to weak. "Want to talk about it Lucy?" Sirius said softly to me as he moved some of my hair out of my face. "Where do I start?" I said softly. "Where ever you want to start at." Sirius said to me. "I just found out that my whole life was a lie." I said to him. I saw his eyes grew a little wide.
"What do you mean love?" he said to me as we looked into each other's eyes. "The people I grew up calling mom and dad aren't my real parents. . ." I said to him. He looked at me confused. "They they aren't your parents then who are they?" Sirius asked me. "They are my aunt and uncle. They took me in when my parents was killed by the dark lord." I said and he had fear in his eyes. "I'm so sorry Lucy. How did you find this out?" Sirius asked me.
Then I told him what I over heard the Slytherin's an then went to look to see if that was true. "That is how I found out everything." I said to Sirius. "Wow. That is a lot to deal with. If you need anything Lucy just ask." Sirius said as he kept on rubbing my back. I put my forehead against his chest and took in his scent. It relaxed me and I like his scent. He smelt like winter, rain and fall all mixed together.
I started to feel cold and Sirius put his arms around me. When he did this I felt safe and warm. "Do you want to head back to the commonroom?" Sirius asked me. "Can we stay like this for a while longer?" I asked not wanting to move. "Yes love we can stay like this as long as you want." Sirius said as he held me closer to his body. I closed my eyes and just took in his scent and the warmth.
I don't really remember when or how we got back to our commonroom. Sirius and I said good-night and I went to my room. I fell asleep and didn't have any dreams at all. It didn't feel like I slept at all, cause the next thing I knew is that Lily is waking me up. "Come on Lucy its time to get up." Lily said as she shook me more. I growled as I sat up. "I'm up Lil's you can stop shacking me." I said with a laugh now.
Lily looked at me and smiled. I smiled back as I got up and started to get ready. Bran sung while I got ready. For some reason I felt empty like there was something huge missing from me. Bran looked like he knew I was down. He jump on my shoulder and nuzzled me with his head. "Its ok Bran I'm fine. I will see you when my lessons are over." I said before I put him back on my bed post before I left for my lesson.
I was the first one to get to my class. I sat down in the back cause everything feel fuzzy. Like I'm in a dream that is fading. I don't know how long sat there staring at the black desk. Cause then every one started to come into the room. Soon class started and it went by in a blur. I don't remember much of the lesson.
All day I was like this and it felt like I was falling down deeper into the darkness. It was dinner time and I just went back to my room and did my homework, with Bran singing into my ear. Even with his song I wasn't getting out of the dark part of my self. I laid down after I put my work up.
3rd person pov
Lily and the others noticed there is something wrong with Lucy. Even Bran noticed something wrong with Lucy as while. Her letter's aren't as happy as her first one. He tryed to ask her what is wrong but Lucy just wouldn't answer him. Winter holiday is coming up and Sirius and the others noticed that Lucy lost a lot of weight. It took a lot to get Lucy to eat something. They got her to eat once a day and that was mostly dinner.
Lucy wrote to Jack and asked if she could come back and stay with him durning the holiday. He said yes and Lucy told Lily about going home. Lily is happy that Lucy is heading home. When Lucy is around the others they can feel her sadness and they don't know why she is sad for. Lucy has be trying to figure out who she really is.
Who Lucy thought she was with her aunt and uncle. How did her real parents where. How did she live and her parents didn't. Was she like her parents? Who is she really? Lucy barely got threw school. Even the teachers noticed the bubblely Lucy changed over night. Lucy is having a very hard time trying to figure out who she is. Sirius had enough of this. So before dinner he pulled Lucy into a class room.
"Lucy what is wrong? We all know there is something going on with you. We are worried about you." Sirius said to Lucy. Lucy looked at him before she looked back into the black space she's been staring at since this started. "Lucy!" Sirius yelled a little as he shook her. Lucy looked back into Sirius gray eyes. "Sorry Sirius. But I don't know." she said to him. Sirius didn't understand what she was saying. "What don't you know love?" Sirius asked her. "Who am I?" she said to Sirius. He didn't know what to say to her. Sirius want's to help her but he didn't know how. How can you help a friend find who they are when your 11?