Chapter 6 Chuckie's POV!
I can't believe Phil's gone. It broke my heart to see the look on Lil's face when she walked in the hospital lobby. I was horrified. But I have no choice to but to suck it up and deal with it. Wow.
A few days after Lil and Phil's sixteenth birthday, (which is also the day he died) I went over to see how Lil was doing. Her mom answered the door, I was surprised to see that Lil came to the door when she was called. She asked if we could go outside and sit on her porch to talk.
I couldn't think of anything to say. So I started out with "Look Lil, I know you're going through a hard time. But we can help you get through this. I loved Phil like a brother and yeah, it's hard without him here, but I know I can get through this Lil, with you."
Then she did the most unexpected thing. She just stared into my eyes, and we leaned in to kiss. She backed away. "I'm sorry Chuckie. I shouldn't have done that. It's just since Phil died, I realized that life is short. And I promised myself that I would live every day to the fullest."
And with every single word she said, my heart started pounding a little bit more, and I started falling in love with her after each word. I don't know how she feels about me, but right now, I feel as if we've got some kind of secret just between us.
"Well I think that's great Lil. But can you explain one thing to me? What's going on with you and Tommy? Because I don't want to start anything that would hurt you anymore than you are now."
Then she says something that explained everything. "There was and never will be anything between me and tommy." She said, spitting venom with every word. "He's the reason Phil died. We went over to Tommy's when me and Tommy had something started, then Phil walked in on him and Kimi making out. I ran out crying but guess Phil stayed to yell at Tommy. When he came out I could tell he was mad. I guess he couldn't see the car coming at him, I tried to yell but it just didn't work. And well, I guess you know the rest." Tears were starting to spill out of her eyes. I wanted to wipe them off. Then she looked up at me with her beautiful eyes that held the saddest expression.
I just felt like I needed to do something to comfort her. I reached my hand behind her back and rested it on her shoulder. She didn't pull away or show that she was uncomfortable. I took that as a good sign and leaned in a little closer. Then it just worked out from there. It went a lot better without my glasses and braces.
Lil told me she wasn't going to be at school for two weeks. I told her I understood and we agreed that I could come over each day to see her.
"So does this mean the two of us are going out?" I asked her when I was getting up to leave.
"I guess it does." She said, giving me the most beautiful, innocent smile I think I'd ever seen. I was amazed by how comfortable she was, in spite of everything.
I saw Tommy at school the next morning. After what I'd recently learned about him, I felt like I had to go talk to him.
"Tommy, how could you do that to Lil? Obviously she would find out you were banging my stepsister some time." I said, slightly irritated at the fact that he didn't care that he hurt Lil.
"Well you didn't find out, so I didn't think she would either. I mean sure she knew that Kimi came up and kissed me that night but we worked that out." He said.
"What are you, stupid? Do you not feel any remorse about hurting her? You know Phil died because he was so mad at you right?"
"Man, why does everybody keep blaming me for Phil's-"
"Look at me Tommy! It was your fault! If you had just been faithful to Lil and not been making out with my stepsister, he wouldn't have been so pissed when he walked into the road and got run over by the car!" I didn't care that everyone around us was staring. I just had to say this once and for all.
"Stop acting like you're a hero Chuckie! You've done some bad things too in your life! I'm sick and tired of all the crap that you've brought on to me." He says. And I automatically think he's high or drunk or something!
"What are you talking about? I'm trying to look after Lil okay, something you DIDN'T! If you haven't noticed, I love her. I'm going to be faithful to her and not hurt her like you did." And with that, I walked out of school, heading to Lil's house, leaving Tommy with a confused look.