I'm sorry guys, I wanted to update this chapter earlier, but I just couldn't finish it. But I realized the last time I updated was a month ago, so I did my best to give you the sixth chapter today (Well, here in Brazil is still September 28th so...)!

Okay, it's been really diffcult for me to write this story. I acctually have a lot of ideas in my mind, some of them really random, but I just don't know how to get there. But I'll keep trying and do my best, because I don't want to give up on this fanfic. :)

Thanks for everyone that reviewed the last chapter, you guys are always so supportive I can't even!

Ps: I didn't have time to revise this chapter, so I'm sorry for any mistakes that may appear. :/

And as I was saying, I also didn't pick any songs this time.

I'm sorry - for the millionth time -.

Here it goes, hope you like it. :)

"Sam.." Mercedes groaned as she felt his lips on her skin. "W-What are you doing?"

Sam smiled and placed kisses all along her neck until her lips. He licked her bottom lip and slipped his tongue in her mouth, and she left a moan scape the back of her throat. He held her waist and slowly pushed her into the sofa, leaning on top of her without breaking the kiss.

Mercedes' fingers stroked his hair, and his hands cupped her face. The kiss grew hotter and deeper, and suddenly she was unbuttoning his shirt and pulling it down his arms. They kissed again and Sam's hands squeezed her sides and thighs. He was about to unclasp her bra when she stopped him and pulled away.

"Sam I.."

"Oh shit, I'm so sorry." Sam got up and ran his hand through his hair. "Cedes, I didn't mean.. I didn't want.."

Mercedes adjusted her clothes and sat up, watching his concerned face.

"You didn't want me?"

"No!" He shouted and kneeled between her legs. "Of course I want you Cedes. It's just.." Sam caressed a curl lock of her hair and looked into her eyes. "I didn't want you to think that I'm this kind of guy, you know. We are not togheter just because of this, but because I want you in every possible way I can have you. Physical, mental and emotionally."

Mercedes smiled and kissed his cheek.

"I want it too, Sam, and I could never think such things about you. I guess I'm just not ready for this."

"Hey, no problem." He grabbed her hands and kissed both. "I'll wait for your time, and I will never force you to do something you don't want to. So let's just enjoy, no pressure."

"No pressure." She repeated and pulled him into a kiss, but was interrupted when her phone rang.

"I'm sorry" Mercedes apologized with a chuckle.

"It's okay, I will make us popcorn, than we can watch a movie. What do you think?"

"Great!" She smiled and Sam kissed her soft and quickly, before headed toward the kitchen. She then grabbed her cell phone."Hello?"

"Mercy?" Kurt's concerned voice echoed through the phone. "Where are you? Are you okay? You didn't show up to glee club today so-"

"Calm down, Kurt. I'm fine." She smiled and played with a lock of her hair. "I wasn't feeling very well so I asked Sam to take me home. Thank you, but no need to worry."

"Oh, thank God." He sighed in relief. "And talking about Blondie, how did it happen between you guys? C'mon girl, tell me everything!"

Mercedes laughed and rolled her eyes. She could listen the pops that came from the kitchen and the low melody of a song Sam was hapilly murmuring.

"I would love to do that, but right now I just wanna watch a movie with my boyfriend. If you want to, I can show up at your place after school tomorrow."

"What?! Mercedes, I was the only male you used to watch a movie and cuddle with!" Kurt sounded ofended, and she tried not to laugh. "How dare he take my place?"

"Really Kurt?" She shook her head and chuckled. "Sam didn't take anyone's place. You will always be my best friend, you know that. And hey, I never said we were going to cuddle!"

"Won't you?" Mercedes could imagine her friend rolling his eyes. "It is, if you don't end up in your bed."

She gasped and blushed, remembering that if it wasn't for Kurt be talking to her right now, maybe they would just forget what they've just said and start the hungry kisses all over again.

"Oh my Gaga!" His voice brought her back to reality. "You are already in your bed!" He claimed.

"Kurt, no!" She slaped her forehead lightly. "Listen, I promise you tomorrow I'll tell you even the smallest details about what happened this weekend, but I can assure you right now, that I didn't have.. you know what with Sam!"

"I hope you're telling me the truth, Mercedes Jones. Because if I find out that-" Kurt was completely ignored when Sam entered the room with a bowl of popcorn, the DVD and a bright smile.

"Okay, bye Kurt!"

He didn't get the chance to say it back because Mercedes had already hung up and placed the cellphone on the coffe table.

"Who was it?" Sam asked and handed her the bowl, then headed for the DVD player.

"Oh, just Kurt." Mercedes smiled and ate a popcorn. "He wanted to know if everything was okay, since I didn't show up at glee club. He seemed worried anyway, so I think I'll spend some time with him and maybe Quinn too tomorrow."

"I didn't even think of it, we should have told someone that we were leaving." Sam shrugged and sat beside her, and wrapped his arm around her body.

She smiled and looked up at him, admiring his beautiful green eyes that stared down at her. She caressed his cheek and lips with her thumb, then replaced her finger with her mouth. It was a quick but lovely kiss.

"So, what movie did you choose?" Mercedes asked, finally turning her atention to the TV screen.

"Avatar!" His exciment was clear and Mercedes chuckled as he pressed start.

"Are you serious? You're already showing me your geek side, it won't be too long until I figure you out Sam Evans."

He grinned and kissed the top of her head.

"You're right. Because I have nothing to hide from you. I'm yours, complete and entirely."

His words made her heart flip into her chest and she had to take a deep breath, because the air was suddenly insufficient to fill her lungs. She stared at him watching the truth expressed in his green eyes, the truth that somehow cherished her and made her feel warm inside.

She finally exhaled the air she didn't even know that had been hold and smiled.

A sincere and hopeful smile.

And the most beautiful Sam had ever seen.

"You know you can't do this..." She closed her eyes and held him even closer, resting her head on his chest and her hands around his waist. "Say this beautiful words when I'm not prepared."

Sam sighed and stroke her hair, running his fingers from the top of her head to the tips of her long and curly locks.

"So let me know when you are."

"That's the matter, I don't think I'll ever be." She felt his chest rise and fall, as he seemed to be facing the same trouble as she had seconds ago. "You're about to make a mess out of my life, I can feel it."

Sam bent over her and kissed her nose lightly.

"You'll get used to it. But what I can feel right now is that unfortunately all my atention will be directed to that movie." He chuckled and pointed to the screen, where the first scenes of Avatar started to appear.

"Are you picking a movie over me?" Mercedes looked up at him and frowned. "Oh, it hurts!" She pressed a hand against her chest, trying to sound ofended.

"I adore you, Cedes. But it's Avatar!"

"Just shut up!" They both laughed and decided to watch the movie.

Despite himself, after thirty minutes Sam didn't even glance at the TV, his eyes were too busy shut closed as he felt Mercedes' mouth against his.

The next day, Mercedes was feeling much better as she walked into the school with Sam and throughout the whole class period.

When the movie finished the afternoon before, she baked Sam some cookies before he left. The rest of the night she spent walking around the house while thinking about their relationship with a bright smile on her face.

"I'll pick you up at five than we can go to the hospital." Sam told her as he pull out into the Hummel's house. They had agreed she would have her first terapy session today, but only if he came with her. She didn't felt comfortable alone, and she would feel much more safe and calm with him.

"Okay."

She replied with a smile and grabbed the door handle, but Sam reached for her arm and she turned her head back at him with a raised brow.

"I think you're forgetting something, Miss." He grinned and leaned towards her, capturing her lips in a tender kiss.

"I better go before we get carried on." She said once they broke appart.

"Yeah, I think it is." He chuckled and pressed his lips together one more time before letting her go.

Mercedes got out of the car and waved for Sam, then headed to the door and knocked. It didn't take more than ten seconds for a excited Kurt appear in front of her.

"Hey!" He throw his arms around her neck and hugged her, pulling her inside the house. "Quinn is already upstairs, let's go."

Kurt grabbed her hand and refused to let it go until she was standind inside his room with Quinn kissing her cheek.

"Can we please talk now? I need to know everything before Sam take you away from me again."

Mercedes rolled her eyes and sat on the edge of his king size bed. Quinn sat beside her and Kurt laid on his back, resting his arms behind his head.

"It's no big deal, Sam and I are together now, just it." Mercedes shrugged.

"Just it? You guys barely talked to each other!" Quinn shook her head. "Something must have happened."

"My confession happened." The room fell in silence and Mercedes sighed. "Later that day he showed up at my place and... Let's say he prefered my mouth on his than talking about my past."

Kurt looked at her and Quinn and smirked.

"Yeah, I'm pretty sure he made you forget your fucking name with that big mouth of his."

"Hey! It's my man you're talking about!" She giggled and threw him a pillow.

"Sorry, not sorry!" He laughed and Quinn interrupted their fun. "You have to tell us the details, right from the start!"

"Okay, okay." Mercedes sighed and rested her hands on the pillow over her lap. "Actually our first kiss was the one at the party."

Quinn looked a bit confused,and her brows were deep frowed as she stared at the mattress, like trying to remeber the moment her friend was talking about.

"I think you were too drunk to remember anything Quinnie." Kurt rolled his eyes and she shrugged.

"Whatever." Mercedes smiled. "That kiss was the first contact we've ever made outside glee club. But something about the way he was staring at me after that made me feel nervous. I could swear he was eye flirting me, if this even existes."

She paused for a moment to remember the scene and her friends made sign for her to continue.

And she did. Mercedes told them every detail about how Sam had found her bleeding the next day, until the make out session they've had the previous day. None of them interrupted her and just listened to the story carefully.

"Okay.." Kurt sighed when she finished and looked at her thoughtfully. "But, for what you've told us, it didn't start because of your confession."

"He is right." Quinn agreed. "Sam was into you before he could possibly knew about your 'secrets'."

Mercedes bit her bottom lip and looked up at her friends.

"Yeah, maybe. But I still think that revealing my problems influenced him somehow." She shrugged and smiled. "But I'm really happy guys, I've never had someone who treated me like he does. Someone who cared about me and wanted to be near me anytime."

"Ouch, it's good to know that we mean nothing to you." Kurt looked at her and at Quinn and huffed.

"You didn't let me finish. And I've never had someone who would kiss me the way he does." She laughed and threw herself on him. "You're so cute when you're jealous!"

Kurt chuckled and tickled her sides, and Mercedes let a loud laugh scape her throat. Soon Quinn joined them and the trio spent the rest hour they had singing and gossiping, until Sam appearead at the door, letting a frustrated Kurt and a happy Quinn behind, and taking a lovely Mercedes with him.

"Hello, I'm Doctor Cesaroni, but you can call me Valerie!" The woman happily stood up and reached out to the couple, as they entered the room. Mercedes had been taken aback and smiled shyly, thankfully Sam was more polite and greeted her with a handshake.

"Good afternoon, Doctor. I'm Sam and this is my girlfriend, Mercedes."

They complimented each other and everyone took a seat, Doctor Martin in a modern grey armchair behind her desk and the couple in simpler red ones on the opposite side.

"I'm glad to meet you both!" Valerie smiled warmly. "May we get started?" She looked over at Mercedes, who slightly nodded, still unsure of what she was doing there.

She watched the woman curiously. She had deep caramel eyes and her black hair gleamed against the weak light of the room. Her lips were small and delicated, and the tip of her nose was lightly bowed up. The woman was short, perhaps the same height as Mercedes, and she wore a cream dress, which became slightly wider at the bottom that reached her knees. The smile she kept on her face made it able for Mercedes to see her perfect aligned and white teeth.

"So, Mercedes, I will ask you some simple questions. If you don't feel comfortable to answer them, let me know, okay?"

The black girl inaled deeply and felt Sam's hand squeeze hers gently. "Okay."

"Right, let's start." The doctor cleaned her throat and rested both wrists on the desk. "Why are you here?"

Mercedes gasped and blinked a few times. She opened to answer when she realized she didn't know what to say. Whay was she there? Acctualy, she hadn't thought about it. It was Sam's idea, she just agreed. None response reached her mind, so she shrugged and sighed.

"I'm here because of Sam." Her answer attracted a questionable look from her boyfriend and a curious one from the doctor. "He wanted me to feel better, and he thought I needed profissional help."

"Do you?"

She looked up at Valerie, who was staring at her with an expression she wasn't capable to read.

"Maybe."

The woman backed away and reclined in the chair, letting out a low sigh.

"Sam, can you give us a minute please?"

The guy looked at Mercedes, unsure if he should go or stay. He knew she needed him there, but there were things she had to face on her own. But he promised to be by her side..

"I don't want him to leave." Mercedes claimed and hold his hand tigher.

"Mercedes, I need to have a conversation with you only. It won't take too long." Valerie secured her and looked to the blonde. "Sam?"

He looked back at Mercedes and held both of her hands in his. "Cedes, I think you should listen to her. You have to open yourself, she knows how to help you."

"Sam-"

"I'll be outside, if anything makes you uncomfortable, you can only call me. I will be right there." He pointed to the door and kissed her forehead. Sam gave her one last smile before heading to the door. "Remember Cedes, she won't judge you. Believe me." He winked at her and stepped out of the room, closing the door behind him.

Mercedes rolled her eyes and turned back to the doctor, who was weirdly smiling at her.

"I know this may be unusual for you, but I need you to speak Mercedes, or I won't be able to help you."

"What do you want me to say?"

"What do you want to say to me?"

"Can you please stop aswering me with more questions?" Mercedes huffed testily.

Valerie put her hands up in an act of surrender. "Just tell me about how you feel. What thoughts you have, or what your mind says to you. Anything."

"I feel broken and confused. Because I can't find any answers for my questions, I'm always wondering why people leave me and when things start to get better, I feel scared of losing it and I push everything that is good away." She rubbed her temple and looked at the doctor. "What's wrong with me?"

Valerie shook her head and chuckled softly. "There's nothing wrong with you Mercedes, you're just afraid of yourself."

"What do you mean?" She frowned and straightned herself in her seat.

Doctor Cesaroni bit her lip and was lost in thoughts for a moment.

"Mercedes, imagine you just put a boiler full of water on your stove. After a while, the temperature will be hot enough for the water boils."

Mercedes frowned as she listened to her doctor. When she first entered this room, she thought that she was the crazy one, but now she had her doubts. Despite herself, she simply nodded and let the woman continue.

"When it happens, the particles of water begin to stir and bump against each other. It's like the chaos. And somehow, it reminds me of you."

"What does chemistry has to do with my mental healthy?"

"These particles are your atoms, Mercedes. You're torn, because a part of you wants to believe in yourself and finally accept happiness, but your other half keeps fighting it and telling you that you are not worthy. Am I wrong?"

Mercedes swallowed hard and looked away from the doctor's stare. This was exactly how she was feeling. Her mind was destroying her and her thoughts weren't agreeable. Everytime she tried to find a solution for her problems and her sadness, another option would come along and make her thing again. And again, and again. It was a cycle. An infinite and awful cycle. And Mercedes was stuck in it. She was tired of thinking, but she could never find an exit. How was it even possible someone be so happy and so sad at the same time? When she looked at Sam and her friends, all she could do was smile and think about how she was doind great by now. But there were still some long and sleepless nights when she would cry silently with her face buried on her pillow, and every single thing she could blame herself for would come back to her mind. And she was tired. She was so fucking tired of never being able to let go of her past and move on.

Mercedes sighed and looked back at Valerie.

"No, not at all."

The woman smiled. "Well, I think that's enough for today. I don't want to rush things, and I need to earn your trust. So, we can have our sessions every Tuesday and Thursday, what do you think?"

"That's good." She smiled and got up. "Thank you, doctor."

"Oh please, call me Valerie, I've told you that." The woman gestured with her hands in a sign to just shake it off and stoof up. "See you soon, Mercedes."

Mercedes nodded and grabbed the door handle, stepping outside the room. She was just about to close the door when she heard Valerie say one last thing to her - well, not exactly to her -, "And say thank you to your boyfriend for me, please. I like him already!"

She chuckled and closed it, then looked around. Sam was sitting in a chair in the waiting room, and by the time he noticed Mercedes he got up and approached her.

"So, how was it?" He asked and put his hands in his pockets, then shrugged lightly.

"Normal, I think it'll be okay." She smiled and wrapped her left arm around his waist, leaning her head onto his chest. "But she said she likes you already, and not me."

"I can't help it, I'm just awesome." Mercedes chuckled and hit him playfully. "But well, I think I like her too."

Sam pulled her even closer to him as they walked out of the hospital, making their way to his car.

"I want to know her better, maybe we can learn how to get along." Mercedes sighed and entered the car. As she tightened her seat belt, she looked through the window and then at her boyfriend and smiled widely. She felt peaceful. It was a simple feeling in her stomach, but it was already something. With baby steeps, she would get there.

Well, I hope you guys liked. Please let me know your opinions about Quinn, Kurt and Mercedes friendship. Yeah, I know Cedes it's being a b*tch with Valerie, but it'll get better XD I would appreciate to know your opinions! Thank you so much for the support guys, love you!