6. When you find the love

It's raining and a storm is coming to New York. She has packed a lot of her stuffs in a bag and she's walking along the street to find a cab to reach the airport to go somewhere. She's confused and angry. She felt hurt and lost her mind. She actually yelled to him all her desperation, all her fear. He insisted to get laid with her again. He was weird to her. He thought only to himself more than usual, forgetting her feelings. He seemed angry about something but he couldn't admit what with her. He took her body with more strength and no respect. He still doesn't understand that she belongs to him, she's always been, before Nora, before this affair, before their past failed relationship, before his feelings to her, maybe before to met him. They are two sides of the same medal. The umbrella 's remained in her apartment so she 's completely wet now. Her phone rings a lot of times. She puts it in a bin and past over. Her friends are looking for her. She knows. She loves them so much. She doesn't want to see them in this conditions. She doesn't love herself like that. She doesn't want to be shattered by Mr Stinson like lots of stupid bimbos in his life. She can change her mind. She can forget him and go on with her life. She wants to find a new job, a new country to live, a new life with different people. People don't know her so much. People who she can lay again to pretend to be the most strong and brave woman in the world. A woman that doesn't falling in love with a jerk. A woman able to put herself first of all. A woman that doesn't believe in men, in love, in happy family. A woman that doesn't believe in Barney Stinson eyes when he says that he takes care of her, when he says that he can understand her, and when he says that when he let a day go by without talking to her, that day is just no good. He is the most sweet and gross person he knows at the same time. The most gently, lovely man, with blue eyes, nice suits, the most funny and generous. Sometimes the bad cruel stupid idiot in the world about her. She's cold and she feel lonely this time. Without him her is like a little child without parents and this is weird and hard to admitting. She's crazy. Sure. She has to forget him as soon as possible. Then she takes a cab and goes to the airport knowing nothing about where she wants to go or what she wants to do.

Barney Stinson is really worried now. She's actually gone. His friends doesn't were able to find her and two days are passed. It's all his fault. The joke isn't funny so longer. He wants to see her fine. He wants to apologies for being so jerk and stupid with her. He's so sorry. He doesn't want to hurt her, but he always does. Maybe him is the worse man for her. That is just why he wanted let her goes on with her life without him. He couldn't able to be with her like he have would to be. But he can't denied to himself that she is the woman of his dreams. Her long straight brown hair. Her perfect and sexy body. Her elegance. Her smile. Her funny sense of humor no typical from a woman. Her bravery. Her fragility. Her red soft lips. Her big expressive eyes. God. He miss her so much. And it's raining all day long for the storm. What if is she somewhere alone and afraid? She never admitted that but she often is. What if does something bad happen to her? She's very able with guns and she's like a warrior sometimes. But she was so bad when she left. He's freaking out about her. He needs to find Robin before something bad happens. She's alone and confused. She doesn't knows neither that he broke up with Nora yesterday, follows Lily's advice. He can't marry another woman. He can't to be fine with another woman. And he can't love another woman in the same deeply way he loves her. He never said to her. Stupid. He have to. She is somewhere alone and doesn't know what he feels inside his heart to her. Lily is angry with him and cry all the time for her best friend. This doesn't help him to feel better. He cleared things also with Ted. He tried again with Robin, but she didn't want to get together again with him. Barney didn't understand but the last time he saw her he was furious about that kiss, and jealous too. He knows how good boy Ted is. He knows he can be better for her. He doesn't hurt her so much. He doesn't act so weird. He doesn't make her cry. He takes care Robin a lot too. Maybe he loves her. "But Robin doesn't love Ted." Lily said angrily "She loves you. Idiot." He nodded sadly and realizes suddenly how bad he has been with Robin in the lasts months.

She didn't take the plane two days ago, The storm was really bad and it can't leave. She thought to go away, very far, maybe in Japan or in another country where she could find an interesting work as a journalist, or she could go home in Canada but then seem to her really weird ideas. She waited a lot in the airport, then she takes a cab again. She didn't come back anyway because she couldn't. She couldn't see him again. She just past storm dangerous time in an hotel room, alone. Eating some chips in front of boring television programs between a black out and the other. Without cell phone or other contacts with the rest of the world. She said at work that she went to her parents in Canada and they believed her, so they didn't looked for her. Sure her friends did but they can't know that she was in that hotel. She feels depressed and doesn't know how she can come back like nothing's happen. She's too pride to admit that she feels lonely and wants to be with her friends during this storm and after her problems with Barney. She asks herself suddenly how does he feel about her disappeared. Maybe he's worry about her. She hopes so. It's what he deserves. Suddenly she desires to hear his voice says her name, softly. A tear falls on her sweater. Then she fall asleep. After two hours she wakes up feeling bad. She feels sick, she probably got the flu, she feels cold and her forehead burned for the fever. That's no good to her that night, in that sad hotel room, alone. While the rain is beating against windows without stops. She starts shiver and thinks that something awful can happen to her. Nobody knows where she is. Suddenly this scares her a lot. God. She miss him so much.

Mister Stinson is able to resolve mystery and find solutions to hard problems. He always has his means. She can't be vanished. Planes didn't flay from a few days because of the storm, so she's still in the country. She's just hiding herself in some secret place. She's just lost her phone maybe. And surely doesn't have a pc. He tried to write her e-mails and on web a lot of times without answers. She's probably alone because all her friends and co-workers seems don't know where she is. Better, some of them think that she is back in Canada for a while but he tried to call her family and nobody heard her from a lot of time. He looked for her in all places her prefers and anywhere they went together when they was a couple. But nothing. He calls the hospitals in the city. Nobody has heard her name luckily. He can't surrender until he finds her. Suddenly he remembered the night they come back together from the bar, he's going to marry Nora in two months, she tried to seduced him. He tried to resist a little but after her third seductive smile he surrendered to her and kissed her. They were in a cab along the street for his flat but he couldn't want to go there because maybe Nora could find him in. So she saw a little hotel at the right corner in the street and suggested that place. Who knows the reason, maybe to be sure that it all was perfectly wrong in their affair, also the place.

She is lying in bed staring at the ceiling trying to sleep when she hears his voice calls her. It's impossible. But the voice is getting much loud now. She thinks about she's dreaming. She feels knocking at the door. She opens her eyes and with difficult tries to stand up from bad. She's on the point of falling cause of she's tired and so sick. Slowly walks towards the door. It's true. He's calling her behind the door. How the hell has he found her? She's weak and trembling now. She needs to see him in spite of he's wrong and she was really angry with him. But doesn't matter now. He's finally here. He found her. He takes care of her. She hold the handle and turn the key, the door is fast opened. He stares at her with an expression very worried in his face, maybe shocked and surprised finally to see her in that place, in that way. He noticed her pale skin, puffy, wet and red eyes, that she's laying on the door to be able to remain stand up in front of him. But she seems very tired and weak, on the point of falling. He can clearly see that she has cried alone in that room, suddenly he feels all his fault, and he needs to help her now, that she seems so upset and sick.

"Robin, I looked for you everywhere and finally here you are. I was so worried about you. All of us were."

She can't able to find the words. She just says "Yes, I'm here. How did you find me?"

"I remembered our first night after Nora, this is the same room of that time. You know."

"I know. It's a little bit sad, doesn't it?" She seems embarrassed now.

"Don't you want to come back with me? We all miss you. I'm really sorry for…for all things happens between us..It's..it's all my fault." It's hard to admitting mistakes for him.

"It actually is." She says with a little smile on her lips.

"Ehi! Don't try to take advantages to my apologies Scherbatsky." He jokes.

"Eh he he..no, no, I don't. I can't come with you now anyway."

"Why? Are you still angry with me?"

"I'm always angry with you. You're an idiot. I can't come because I need to rest just now."She smiles again then she seems actually of the point of falling on the floor for the tiredness.

He grabs her arms and hugs her tight, she sighs and leans her head on his chest. His closeness seems to relieve her. Then he comforts her caressing gently her hair. She's trembling a lot. He put his jacket off and put it on her shoulders. She closes her eyes. Then he hold her hand.

"You really need the bed Robin. Now" He says. He kisses her forehead then disbelieved says "You burns!".

"I'm from Canada. We are strong people…you know…" She weakly says.

"Yes, I know but I also know that you need to rest and some cares," He insists.

He carries her to bed. "You need a doctor, I can go to call him. And I have to go to take medicines for you."

She seems afraid now. "Don't go."She whispers.

"What?"He asks.

"Please don't go. I really need you here."Finally she doesn't be ashamed to admit that she needs him.

"..but you're really bad, I have to do something…"He says confused.

"You can just remain with me…close to me…" She seems like a child on the point of crying now.

He thinks a lot then says" Ok, honey, I'm here. But you promise me that tomorrow morning I can call my doctor to visit you in my flat. And tonight I remain here if you take a pill for the fever that I'll give you. What do you think? Deal?"

"Deal. Seems ok." She says, then smiling add " You called me honey…I hate nicknames but…this sounds sweet…maybe because I'm sick…"

He smiles back. "Why don't you try to sleep a little now?"

She looks at him with a silently request. He understands without other words.

He put himself laying close to her, under the blankets, he hugs tenderly her, a hand on her head, the other around her waist holding her hand, his face near her head, their body so close that she can feels better, very comfortable and warm. She turns her face towards him, she looks into his eyes and says an honest "thanks" and put a little kiss on his lips. Then she falls asleep, she seems really quiet and peaceful now. He look at her for more of that night, she seems so beautiful. He really can see her just sleeping like that for all the rest of his life. It's good thinking about his good effect to her. It's good when you are so important to someone. Better if is someone you love too. He still doesn't say to her that he broke up with Nora. He still doesn't say to her how much he loves her. Then he feels tired and involved in that contact with her, the sweet smell of her skin, the soft touch of his hair, the warm of her hand, her weak breathing, her heart beat near his heart. For the first time in his life he can feel happiness exists, he can believe in miracles.

Then is sleeping and dreaming about her. She's smiling and holding his hand, they are walking around the city, she seems happy. He actually wants to make her happy. He can be a different man. A better man for her. He only want to take her safe and protected.

When he wakes up they are still hugged, she's smiling during the sleep, he gets closer to her and whisper in her ear " I actually love you, Robin Scherbatsky, I don't want to stay with nobody else, just with you. I broke up with Nora." She seems hears him and turns a little her head, she answers maybe a little sleepy.

"It's great. If you marry another woman I'll have to kill you. You know" She practically jokes.

Then she says "I love you too…you always known…"

"I didn't know"

" Ok, you know now, but don't expect from me that I can say it more than one time".

"I'd like to hear you say it again…"he's smiling.

"I don't think so. It's enough."She laughs.

"Ok…but just for now Scherbatsky, because you're sick. I want to make you so happy that you'll want to tell me again what you feel deeply in your heart"

"I really hope you'll do, Mr Stinson."

Then He hugs her like if she can be the only one in the world for him.

And actually she is.

The storm is over.