Shepard

I watched the video footage of me attacking Miranda for the third time tonight. Even after three times I still couldn't belive I could do such a thing even if the person I had attacked did kind of deserve it. Even as i watched I still couldn't belive that I had acted as nothing more than an instinct driven animal and had more or less molested Miranda after forcibly takeing her blood.

"EDI tell Joker to set course for Purgatory so we can recruit our convict."

"Of course Shepard will that be all?"

"Yes that will be all"

With that settled I got up and went to have a much-needed chat with Garrus. Hopefullly chatting with an old friend will help me deal with all these problems or at the least it will distract me for a while.

As I had heard from Jacob I found Garrus under one of the main guns his hands working at amazing speeds as he switched from tool to tool as he worked.

"So this is how you relax? working on a big gun you haven't changed a bit."

He lets out a few soft laughs before crawling out and I see the damage he had got from the strike. The right side of his face was a mass of scars and raw flesh but even with all that he still managed a smile.

"You mean beside my face looking like a horrible mess yeah I look great and you look perfectly fine after that hit. So tell me what's secret?"

"Apparently when I was brought back to life by Cerberus they turned me into a monster that has to drink the blood of others to survive."

To hid credit he didn't take a step back or reach for a weapon instead he just let out a low sound which must have been the Turian equivalent of a whistle before he lets out a small laugh at my situation.

"Damn and here I thought you just had some really good doctors on this ship, but I get the feeling there's something you're not telling me Shepard."

"Well that's the thing I really don't want to drink blood but every time I try to resist I wind up torturing myself until my body is at the limit. Apperently after the attack Miranda pushed my body to the limit and in a instinct driven need for blood I attacked and nearly had my way with her until Moridon shot me in the back."

After a moment of silence he suddenly erupts into a giant laughing fit before groaning and clutching his face.

"Still hurts when I laugh"

"It's not funny Garrus"

"It's pretty funny Shepard, you a hardened solider who I have personally seen tear her way through Geth and krogan alike is having trouble with a food problem"

"Garrus I'm serious, I don't want deny myself what I need and risk losing control"

"Let me guess you're worried that if you do actually feed from someone you'll enjoy it so much that you'll lose control and kill them is that it?"

What he says is true, blood has such a powerful taste it awakens something primal and dark inside of me. From what I saw in the video if I hadn't been stopped by Moridon I probably would have drained Miranda of all her blood. Killing someone on the battlefield I can live with but killing someone just because I lost control of myself is something I couldn't live with.

"Yeah that's basically the problem Garrus."

After a couple minutes of silence he suddenly snaps his head up.

"Alright I have a solution to your problem. Whenever you feel that you have to feed just have somebody near you ready with some tranquilizers in case you start to loose control of yourself. That way you can feed without worrying about killing the person in the process."

It wasn't the worse idea I've ever heard but seeing no other options I nodded at him before leaving and returning up to my room but not before stopping of at the good doctors lab where I found him standing by the window looking into space.

"Moridon by any chance do you have more of the drugs you used on me?"

But when I don't get a response from him I get a bit angry but I calm myself down and try again.

"Moridon can you hear me?"

I start to get nervous after that seeing as this was the only time i've been near him and him not try to talk my ears off. As I start to get near him I start to notice some things scattered around his office. His papers were on the floor some devices were knocked over and the worst part was that he didn't seem to have moved an inch in the time I've been here. As I start to focus something happens to my eyes like back when I took down the blue suns gunship. My vision when crazy and I could see a red like aura around Moridon along with the blood flowing through his veins. Although there was something off about the aura around him, most of his body had the red hue but a small part near his right shoulder changed from red to a sickly looking yellow. I had to know what was going on so after a moment I crossed the distance to find that something was on his shoulder something bug like. It only took a second to reach out and crush it in my hand. The moment the bug was dead Moridon fell into me out of breath.

"Thank you Shepard thought I had a breakthrough with the protection against the collectors."

With one hand I help him up before takeing a seat myself and waiting for him to continue.

"I see you're still a ways off."

"Yes thought using your blood as an antitoxin would help prevent stasis. Still I didn't become immobilized for zero point nine five seconds after the inital bite progress at the least."

"Well at least you're making progress but speaking about my blood you happen to have more of the tranquilizers you shot me with I might need them later on."

"Yes had to correct the dose after your attack, should bring you into control next time you happen to loose control. They're over there on the table."

I take the vials and head up to my room where I prepare for our upcoming mission while sending messages to two people.

"Shepard, it appears Miranda and Miss Chambers are on their way up in the elevator."

"Thank you EDI"

It wasn't long after that when they arrived. Miranda looked to be a mixture of embarrassed and hesitant not surprising after what happened last time we were alone but kelly on the other hand looked mainly embarrassed and timid.

"Thank you both for coming up here on short notice."

"You said in your message there was something you needed to discuss with us Shepard?"

"Yes Miranda the first thing I need to say is I'm sorry for attacking you."

"No Shepard although I hate to say it that was my fault I shouldn't have tried to force you into something and I got what I deserved because of my arrogance."

"RIght and Kelly I need to talk to you as well."

As soon as her name was mentioned she stats fidgeting with her hands and looking at everything other than me until I grab her hand and get her attention.

" I've had some time to think about this and after a talk with Garrus I've decided that I can't keep fighting what my body needs. So if you're willing and aren't to afraid I'd like to take you up on your offer that is if you don't mind."

"She would love to Shepard it's one of her jobs after all."

"It might ber her job Miranda but I'm not going to make someone do something that they don't want to do. So Kelly I'm asking you not as the captain of this ship but as one person to another are you okay with this?"

"Shepard I'm not going to lie and say that a part of me isn't a bit afraid, but if I can help you in any way to stop the collectors then i can bear with the loss of my blood now and again."

I pull her in for a quick hug before I hand the tranquilizers to Miranda.

"Use these on me if things start to go bad I don't want to do something I'll never be able to forget."

Miranda nods and begins to load them into the gun that came with it while I turned my attention back to Kelly. With one hand I tilt her head to the side exposing her neck and with the other place it gently on her shoulder. Being this close to her I couldn't help but hear how loud her heartbeat was or that she smelled like peppermint making me all the more hungry. My jaw opened and my fangs descended and impaled themselves deep into the side of her neck causing a flood of blood to gush into my mouth coating my tounge and teeth with the taste of her blood. Kelly was letting out moans of pain and pleasure as I fed which made me want to drink more and more of her sweet blood. After what felt like forever of feeding something inside of me started to crave more and I pulled her a bit closer as the blood flowed down my throat.

"Shepard I think that's enough"

Reluctantly I detached myself from her and took a couple careful steps back as I try to focus and calm down as Miranda applied some medi-gel to Kelly's wound.

"Thank you Kelly take some time to heal and relax and Miranda tell Jacob and Garrus to meet me in the shuttle so we can recruit Jack"