DISCLAIMER- Nope don't own Twilight or the character. Anyone want to bring me a cookie before I cry? Didn't think so. ( walks away pouting but yells)" GO AHEAD AND READ THE CHAPTER ANYWAY BECAUSE I STILL LOVE YOU AND YOUR LOVE." ( Before she walks out)
EPOV
On my way to La push beach I wasn't thinking about my girlfriend. Nope, Instead I couldn't get Bella out of my mind. The way her hair blew in the wind. The way we looked into each others eyes. It was almost as if she could see my very soul. Read all of my thoughts and knew exactly how I felt. I could get lost looking into those eyes. I would give anything to be the one she wrapped her arms around. The one she wants to spend the rest of her life with. Because even tho we are only 17, I would give anything to be with her for the rest of my life. Relationships never last at our age. If I told her how I felt and by some miracle she felt the same way "which I know she don't" I added mentally, It wouldn't last with going away to college and in the end everything would be ruined including our friendship. There was no way I could do that.
So as always I will keep my feelings to myself and remain her best friend for life. As I got to La Push beach I realized Tanya was no where around. I pulled out my cell phone and dialed her number. There was no way I was going to sit here and wait for her. I don't even want to see her. I only came because I knew if I didn't she would start all kinds of problems I just don't want to deal with.
"Hello Eddie." I heard after the fourth ring.
"Tanya, Where the hell are you at? It's starting to rain and I won't stand her much longer wanting on you. By the way I have told you a million times DO. NOT. CALL. ME. THAT!" I all but yelled into the phone.
" Oh sorry Eddie." She replied as I loudly exhaled and rolled my eyes.
"Such a ditz." I muttered to myself.
" I um got caught up, I can't make it. Sorry." I heard her laugh right before I heard a loud boom noise.
"What was that Tanya? Where are you?"
"Oh it was nothing thunder I think. I'm um...I gotta go. Bye Eddie." I heard her reply before the line went dead.
"Uh that's it I HAVE HAD IT!" I yelled to the gloomy sky.
I quickly dialed the pixies number hoping like hell she would answer because walking home doesn't sound like fun right about now.
"Hey Edward whats up?" I heard the chipper sing song voice on the other end.
"Alice can you come get me from La Push beach please?"
"Uh sure but where is Bella? I thought you two were having a 'friend date' today?"
"Please no questions, Just come get me kay?"
"Be there in 10." I heard right before I closed my phone.
I walked over to a big rock a couple feet away from me and sat down to wait on my annoying pixie like sister. I started to think about how I was going to make this up to Bella. I should have never left. She will always be more important than anybody but I couldn't let her know that. Of course she knows she is important to me but only in a best friend way. She can't know shes more important than anyone or anything to me because then she would know I am completely and irrevocably In love with her. Nope can't have that.
I was pulled from my thoughts when my phone rang. I pulled it out of my pocked and checked the caller I.d. It was my dad. Wonder why on earth he would be calling me when he is supposed to be at work I quickly flipped my phone open fearing something was wrong. In no time at all, my worries were confirmed.
" Son, An ambulance just arrived. Bella has been in a car accident of sorts. She is unconscious and banged up pretty bad. I think you should get here as soon as you can."
I don't remember much after that. I fell to the ground in complete and utter shock. The next thing I know I was at the hospital standing over Bella as she lay unconscious in a small hospital room with nothing but a bunch of machines stuck to her and the sound of her heartbeat filling the room with a beep here and there from the machines.
To hear her heartbeat was a relief. It meant she was going to make it. The heart that I wish was mine for all of eternity still has blood pumping through it. It was music to my ears. I lightly took Bella's hand as I spoke softly directly into her ear.
"Bella if you can hear me please find a way to let me know. Squeeze my hand, Blink your eyes, anything. Please do something sweet Belly I can't take this."
After waiting a few minutes I realized she couldn't hear me. I sighed and did the only thing I could think of. I spilled everything to her. If she would have been awake I wouldn't have done it. But I needed to get it out there. So with Bella sleeping safe and sound right next to me, I told her everything.
" Bella, " I paused taking a shaky breath. " You are my world. We have known each other all our lives. I love you more than anyone or anything. More than life its self. I would give anything to be in your place. I would give my life to take the pain from you. Bella without you I would have nothing. You are the sun in my sky the air I breathe. The light that lights my path. Do you get it Bella? " Of course not she can't hear you, idiot" I mentally yelled at myself. " I am completely and irrevocably in love with you Bella. I will never leave your side again! Someone will have to kill me before I let that happen!"
I looked up from Bella's hand to her face and as I stared at her blinking back the tears that were threatening to spill over, Bella took a deep breathe and reached up to her face. I took a shaky breathe and watched as I prayed she didn't hear what I said. She opened her eyes and looked at all the wires on her body. She looked...confused?
"BELLA! YOU'RE AWAKE!" I couldn't have been happier the moment she looked at me. That was until I noticed she was looking at me with panic written all over her face. She looked like she didn't know where she was. She opened her mouth to talk but because I knew she was in pain I stopped her before she could say anything.
"Bella do you know where you are?" I asked.
At first she didn't say anything. I just wanted her to shake her head yes or no. I was beginning to think she didn't know what was going on. She opened her mouth, coughed a few times then managed to say in a deep hoarse voice,
"In a hospital I assume?" That was it. She had no idea what was going on. I started to internally panic.
"Do you remember what happened?" I asked my still very looking confused best friend.
"Um no..Please enlighten me." Hey at least she still has the sarcasm down I thought to myself.
"Do you know who you are?" I asked. I couldn't take the time to answer her. I had to know how bad this was. Growing up with a father who is a doctor I knew the signs of amnesia and was really panicking now.
"Yes the names Bella. And yours?" I wanted to jump out of my chair, scream , and cry all at this moment but instead I calmly said, "You mean you don't know who I am?"
"Again with the questions and no answers. What is this, A game of twenty questions? No! I wouldn't have asked your name if I knew it would I?" She replied in a very sarcastic tone. I could tell I was really annoying her now.
Since I'm not an actual doctor I couldn't actually tell her what is wrong so I knew I had to go get my dad. And take a breather because I knew I was going to have a break down any moment and it's just not cool for a guy to have a break down. Especially in front of a lot of people including the girl I am madly in love with. " Who has no friggin idea who you are!" My internal voice just had to point out to me again.
I replied with a quick "Sorry Bella. let me go get the doctor." And left her room as fast as I could. Okay so I know I said I would never leave her side again but I knew she needed to see my dad and I wasn't technically leaving I was just going to find a quiet place to calm down as soon as I got my dad to her room.
I sat in the stair well and cried. Yes I Edward Anthony Mason Cullen cried my eyes out for a good ten minutes. I had almost lost my best friend also known as the love of my life, got her back, only to lose her again because she has amnesia. After ten minutes of freaking out completely my phone rang. I pulled it out of my pocket and groaned when I saw Tanya's name flash across the screen. I opened it and very rudely said, "Tanya not right now! My best friend is in the hospital for god sake!"
Her reply was not what I expected. " Hello Eddie boy. Oh I know all about Miss love of your life being in the hospital. She shouldn't have crossed me. You are mine and I will not lose you to a boring,short, unattractive, clumsy twit like her! Just thought you might want to know. So if you have any plans of getting with her or turning me in remember that's not the worse I can do and I will also ruin you. This is a promise NOT a threat!"
I couldn't talk, I couldn't move, I couldn't comprehend what she had just told me. When I finally came to my senses I could do nothing but yell. Thank god this place is soundproof.
" WE ARE OVER TANYA YOU GOT THAT! I HAVE NEVER LIKED YOU, YOU ARE A STUCK UP, CRAZY LUNATIC, BITCH AND YOU WILL GET PAYBACK DO YOU UNDERSTAND!"
Before I hung up the phone I heard " Just remember Eddie I wouldn't do anything crazy if I was you. I have more power than anybody in this town so I would rethink that statement you just made." I heard her laugh and I slammed my phone shut.
I sat there a little while longer thinking about what Tanya had just said. I can't believe she actually ran Bella down. What a lunatic! This is all my fault. If I wouldn't have left her if I would have just stayed and told Tanya what I really wanted, none of this would have happened! But what do I do now? Do I turn her in? I would love nothing more than to see Tanya get what she deserves. But I can't. She wasn't lying. Being the mayors daughter, She gets away with everything! And she already did this to Bella I can't let her hurt her even more. I also can't let her tell Bella how I really feel. My love doesn't even remember us being best friends, she would surely run for the hills and my life as I know it would be over. COMPLETELY OVER! NO! I won't let that happen. I will just stay with Bella, twenty four seven if I have to. I will make sure she will forever be safe! If friendship is the only thing I can have with her even if I have to work to get it back, then I will gladly take it with open arms. I just can't lose her for good.
I slowly stood up and made my way back to Bella's room. I slowly opened the door but thought better of just walking in so I softly said " May I uh...Please come in?" I wasn't sure she would want to talk to me being as she has no idea who I am anymore. I was surprised to say the least when her response came back. "Sure."
"Why do you look so depressed? Or are you still not going to actually answer my questions?" She asked me. I looked at her for a minute trying to figure out why she would be worried about me. She is the one laid up in a hospital because my crazy ex ran her down. After a minute I thought I better answer her. After all this is all my fault, I owed her at least that much.
"Sorry about that Belly I was confused, and scared, and well you get the point." I replied.
"Still not answering my questions." She replied looking a bit irritated.
" Not to mention you are confusing me even more. Why would you be confused and scared and whatever else and why are you calling me belly?" She continued.
I lost my cool and felt my feeling for her bubbling inside me fighting to get out,"Because Bella, You are my best friend. This is all my fault!" I answered. My voice shooting up a few octaves. I need to get control of myself but it seems harder and harder every time I am with her. Not to mention I am keeping the biggest secret anyone could ever keep from their best friend.I started pacing again and I heard her chuckle.
"What are you chuckling at?"
"Oh besides the fact you are pacing around my room like a crazy guy who has no idea where he is. Kinda like me besides the pacing part. Oh and the being a guy part, that would be a bit awkward." She replied. That got me to smile. My Bella ( as I like to call her) will always be able to do that. She can make me smile no matter what. It is one of the uncountable reasons I love this girl so much.
"So I'm your best friend huh? Glad you remember." She chuckled. I could tell she was trying to lighten the mood. Things seemed a bit tense and awkward at the moment.
"How could any of this possibly be your fault?" She asked me looking confused yet again.
"Because I should have been with you. I should have been the one who got hurt not you! I started shouting. I knew I should be quiet but I was getting more and more pissed as the time went on. I really just wished I could be the one to give Tanya the payback she deserves. I hate seeing my love laying here in pain. This wasn't right.
"Well for one please keep your voice down I do have a bit of a headache you know. For two you or anyone else for that matter can't be with me all day every day Edward it's just not possible." I could tell she was trying to make me feel better. Shouldn't that be the other way around?
"If I wouldn't have answered my damn phone, I would have been with you. And to make it worse I answered it and left you only to be stood up and you to get hurt and not even remember me! Bella I will NEVER leave your side again." I stressed. Okay so I couldn't exactly tell her the whole truth but I had to tell her as much of it as I could. I could not stand here and completely lie to her.
"You gonna turn into the crazy stalker guy I don't know who follows me around like a lost puppy and gives me those creepy looks like you can read my mind?" She asked offering one of her amazing smiles.
Everything went quiet for a minute and I could tell she was thinking. I walked over to her bed and slowly sat down beside her. She looked up at me with that amazing blush on her cheeks but tried turning her head really quick so I couldn't see. I wasn't having that. She is so gorgeous and at that moment I just wanted to look into her eyes. I wanted her to see just how sorry I really am so I caught her face with my finger just under her chin and turned her face back to mine. I felt the same tingles I have all these years every time I touch her and I noticed she started breathing a little bit faster. I started to think maybe I was scaring her so I took a deep breath and prepared myself to say the one thing I swore I never would.
"Bella I L..." was all I got out before her head went limp and she screamed "OH MY FRIGGIN WOW!" Before she passed out.
The only thing I could do was start screaming. I ran out of her room screaming for my dad. I can't lose her. Not now not ever! She is the love of my life dammit!
Dun dun dun...okay so chapter 6 is done. wow 3 updates in one day. Crazy right? I thought ya'll deserved it since I have deprived you of this story for so long hahaha. hope you all like. Please remember to review. I love every last one of you that read my story, review, select it as a fav of yours and/or add it to your updates. But reviews actually let me know what you think so please REVIEW REVIEW REVIEW! You know I love your love! =) Reviews are better than fresh chocolate chip cookie dough! =p ooo now I want some of that too..anybody want to bring me some? hehehe