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Chapter 6

Dark musings

Natsu sat in his bed. His feet were dangling down the edges and he was intently staring at the desk in front of him. A small frame shuffled a little on his side. He did not even bother to give the figure a second glance. He thought he had already seen enough to feel disgusted. His hands took hold of the pink strand that was falling on his face. He pushed it backwards in an effort to pin it to a well suited place. The strand was stubborn and fell once again framing one of his onyx colored eyes. He huffed his frustration in being incapable of moving that single strand out of his face.

The figure beside him again moved and the sheet covering the figure's body fell to the bed. She sat up, shaking her white tangled hair and smiled at the back of the tan skin in front of her. She touched the back of her partner, taut with the well acquired muscles from his harsh fighting and trainings. Her partner flinched from her touch. She gave a bitter sweet smile and closed her eyes contemplating her past. She was proud of her partner; he was among those people who she had cherished since she was a child. Even till this day she had remembered, those childhood days of their playing the game of faking marriage.

Then one day, she remembered they had got an egg and had decided to parent the child inside the egg. Then the child came out as a small blue colored baby. They had been as proud a parents as little children could be. They had named their child 'Happy' because he had bought happiness in their lives. She wiggled her toes a bit and scratched on the side of her blue eye. They had parented their child for a while, before she thought with a heavy heart. Her eyes drooped in a painful way. Before she was pulled to another planet.

Then once she came back, she saw that everything had changed. She drew a painful breath and she closed her mouth to keep herself from sobbing. She saw that her 'husband', or as he thought him to be, had already started to fall in love with someone else. Her heart ached at that memory.

"Lisanna, when are you going to leave?" she was withdrawn from her thoughts by a very harsh voice. She knew it, she knew it very well that Natsu was not happy with her. But it was her fault. She caught the tear before it fell down. Her fault that she was selfish and had wanted Natsu all to herself. But then again, the thought never made any sense to her, wasn't a wife supposed to always be with their husband?

She knew she was dearly clinging to a past which had merely felt like a joke to a young Natsu. But it had never been a joke to her, for she had always loved him. She had loved him from the day they had promised to be a family with Happy, till this very day. She could not stop herself no that was beyond the point; she did not want to stop herself. She loved him and would keep him for herself and only for herself.

Natsu flinched when an arm snaked around his neck from behind him. He had never wanted these affections. He had always wanted her affections, Lucy's affections. Even till now his heart ached when he looked at her roaming around with that good for nothing Gray. Natsu removed himself from his onetime best friend, Lisanna. She had stopped being his best friend since that day he thought…

*flashback: one year before*

Natsu's P.O.V

It had not been around even a week now since I had started to date Lucy, and I already wanted to shout my happiness to the world. Lucy had always been a medicine to my wounds. She was always there when I had needed her. We had started out as friends, then best friends and now lovers. Yesterday was her birthday; I had touched Lucy for the first time. My cheeks reddened as I remembered our last night.

Lucy was if I had to say, she was beautiful. Not only was her heart beautiful, but her body was beautiful as well. This was the first time I had tried anything like that. Lucy seemed to have known more than me, which I presumed was a product of her many previous encounters with boys. I had got angry, thinking that many other boys had touched her. But then I was shocked when I had seen, more smelled that she was bleeding when I had entered her. She said that I was her first. I was happy, very happy. I had kissed her out of happiness. Our kisses got hungry easily and she had clung to me with all her might when I had pounded into her several times.

Her vaginal walls had squeezed the semen out of me and before I knew it, I had already done the deed. I came into her. I had expected her to scold me but she had smiled saying that it had been her safe day. I wanted to feel relieved but I had felt a bit of unease. I thought that maybe I had secretly hoped for a child with her. Then I had smiled, everything would come eventually I assured myself.

Today I'm extremely early, I thought to myself as I entered the guild hall. There I saw my white haired childhood friend sitting in the bar all alone. I walked up to her.

"Hey Lisanna, what's up? Haven't seen ya around for quite a while." She looked up at me with, should I say malice tainted eyes?

"Well Natsu, who can blame you? After all you had been spending more than enough time with the love of your life. It's not surprising that you have not seen me. You have not been to the guild for around two days if I remember correctly." She smiled sweetly.

Did I just imagine that, Lisanna was not behaving like herself? Did she just, no I must have imagined that. But if I had not, then I am positive that she had just said that entire thing with contempt. What was so scornful in this entire situation to begin with? I could not even understand, what was making her to behave like this? Then I looked at her almost with a decision in my eyes, I did not want to be an objective of her scorn.

"Lisanna, you might want to start with explaining things. I could feel it, you want to discuss some things."I looked at her expectantly.

Lisanna turned her face away from me and opened a bottle of some sort. She drank a portion of the liquid in it, and then before I knew what was happening, she was upon me, her lips locked on mine. Then I felt it, a liquid dropped from her tongue and was into my mouth. A trail flowed down my mouth. Lisanna played with the node on my throat and on an involuntary action; I had gulped the entire liquid. My mind was in a haze after that.

The next time I had opened my eyes, I was in my room with Lisanna lying down beside me. I got up and was horrified to realize that both of us were naked and was that, her blood. Oh no! Her virginal blood. It was on my sheets. Did I? How could I? I could not betray, I would not betray Lucy like that. I looked at Lisanna and with trembling hands removed the sheets from her legs and I saw it, my semen was coating her inner thighs. My entire body trembled with rage, then embarrassment and shame and finally with fear. It was Lisanna. She had done it all. That potion, something was wrong with the entire situation. But why? I had shouted out in my room.

Lisanna woke up from my rage filled scream and looked up at me almost satisfied. What was going on? I was horrified. Even if one part of me had deduced that it was Lisanna, one part of me still wanted my other part's deduction to be proved wrong. But her satisfied face, it has left me with no more doubts. I turned my face to her with rage and mortification.

"Why? Why did you do that Lisanna? What was the thing? And more importantly, what happened to me?" my voice was trembling from my rage and pain of being betrayed. "Answer me dammit." I punched the bed and my fists went through the bed making a hole in it.

The reaction came immediately, Lisanna was scared, she moved backwards and her back came in contact with the wall. She lifted a pointy finger towards me. Her hands were shaking, Lisanna was uncertain about something.

"You Natsu, I did all this just for you. You were the one who had provoked Me." tears formed in the rims of her eyes. "If you had not gone and fallen in love with that Lucy, I would not have done this." The way she had spat out Lucy's name, made me to cringe a bit. I never knew, she hated Lucy so much.

"That girl, she took away everything from me." she had started to cry. "She took away the place that I had in Fairy Tail, she took away my place in sister's and brother's hearts. She even took away you from me. We had promised to marry in childhood. Don't you remember Natsu?" she was shouting right now.

"But Lisanna, those were just fun games during our childhood days. I never promised to marry you for real. Wherever you had got that thought from. I was always your best friend Lisanna. Those were games of our house. We were small at that time and the things that we had promised at that time were nothing but childish whims….."

"No Natsu, those were real promises for me. They were the words which had kept me alive till this day. But when you started to date Lucy, I lost sight of all rights and wrongs. So…" she gave a dark smile "I had made this love potion for you specially. This potion makes one trapped in a dream phase where they get to do what their hearts desire." Her mouth turned into a scowl. "Let me guess, you had been with Lucy all this time right?"

My eyes widened and then I looked up at her with a stunned face, lamely nodding my head. She chuckled very darkly, putting a finger on her lips.

"Of course you would. You love Lucy after all. But that is fine with me. I just want your affection. I don't care if you think that I'm Lucy, or if you dream about her and fuck Me." she drawled at the end very seductively. "That potion had made you to think about fucking Lucy, but in reality you were doing all those things to me. That is the exact dream case I had anticipated."

Understanding dawned on me, that potion had made me think that I was loving Lucy, but in reality it was Lisanna. The rain outside did not help to reduce my frustration. Then I lashed out at my one time best friend.

"I will never allow myself to be trapped in your dream space ever again. I will not drink that potion."

She laughed like a maniac her painted fingers covering her mouth. Tears streamed down her eyes. She removed them with a flick of her finger.

"Oh but you will. If not by the potion, then willingly. Yes Natsu, you will make love to me, willingly." She cooed "if you do not then, I will trap your Lucy in a space where mind and soul looses meaning. I will trap her in a void and you will never get her back, because she will die soon enough of insanity."

My eyes were as big as saucers, threatening to fall out of my gauges. Where had she learned all these things from? I could not recognize the childhood friend in front of me.

"You will not touch her." My voice, I knew it sounded calm and deadly. I was angry and heartbroken.

"Oh, I will. But if you decide to make….."

"I will…" I interrupted her, closing my eyes to hide myself away from her. "I will make love to you." The words came out of my mouth with condemn. I could not bear to betray Lucy like this. "But, I will never love you. My heart, it will always belong to her, my Lucy." I growled out the last bit with fury consuming me and my entire body was covered with flames.

"That will do….." she cooed out darkly placing a finger on her lips and spreading her legs open to show me her throbbing vagina. "I will take your body if I could not have your heart Natsu." She said and pulled me in a kiss.

The next day when I reached the guild, the members did not look at me. They were angry. Seemed like someone had already told them. My head was bowed down in shame. I stopped walking when I noticed that a blond hair with a one sided pony tail bobbed sideways. When I neared the concealed room, my eyes widened. Lucy and Gray, they were kissing. My hands tightened in a fist, fire lighting it and I stormed through the closed transparent door that was separating them from me and punched across the black haired Guy's face.

Gray fell on my feet wreathing in pain. How could he? How could he touch my Lucy? But the next words shocked me.

"Natsu, leave my boyfriend alone. You must want to go back home and attend to your new delicacy." I looked up at Lucy's eyes; they were staring down at me coldly. Dread filled me and I ran from there like the coward I was.

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Next time: a lemony goodness between Lucy and Gray. [go go Graylu fans]

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