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A/N: There are new chapters of Ella Enchanted and Back At The Start up. I won't be updating Back At The Start until I have some reviews. This chapter will be mainly about Blaize trying to deal with her cancer and a new romantic interest for her.
Chapter 6: If I Die Young
Blaize's POV
Chemo's a complete bitch. It's only been a week since I started and I throw up what seems like every ten minutes and my hair is falling out by the second. As always I sit in my usual chair and plug my headphones in whilst the toxic chemicals do their work. I barely notice when someone taps me on the shoulder.
"Excuse me?" a voice says. I jump and pull my earphones out. No one has ever taken any interest in me while I've been here. I turn in my chair to face a cute boy. I can tell he's a patient like me because he's lost all his hair but he has cute eyes.
"Do I know you?" I ask.
"No. But I was hoping to get to know you. I'm Avery Blackmoore" he says.
"Blaize Hummel-Anderson" I say.
"Newbie?" he asks.
"How could you tell?" I ask.
"I've been here for two years and I only saw you today" he says.
"How come you came to talk to me?" I ask.
"It's been a while since I've seen a girl this pretty" he says shyly.
"I'm flattered but I don't think pretty is the best way to describe my current state" I say.
"Are you kidding? You're gorgeous" he says.
"Well thank you" I say blushing.
"So what are you here for?" he asks.
"AML" I say.
"APL" he replies.
"You here for chemo too?" I ask.
"No. It's arsenic therapy for me today" he says as a nurse hooks him up to an IV.
"Arsenic?" I ask.
"Yeah. It kills the leukemic cells apparently" he says.
"So how do you do it?" I ask.
"Do what?" he asks.
"Get through all of this. I've only been on treatment for a week and I'm already depressed" I say.
"I'm not going to lie, it's hard at first. But you just need to concentrate on the end goal. Going into remission" he says.
"But you're not in remission and you've been here for two years" I say.
"Actually I was in remission. The bad thing about cancer is that it has a nasty habit of returning" he says.
"So what number relapse is this?" I ask.
"First actually. I was in remission for almost a year" he says.
"Well I hope this is your last" I say.
"I hope so too. But I am looking forward to seeing you here" he says.
"You don't even know me" I say.
"Well let's change that" he says.
"Okay then. My dads are gay" I say.
"Are either of them here?" he asks.
"Over there" I say pointing to my dad.
"And listening to your every word so keep it clean" my dad says looking up from his Vogue.
"I promise sir. Nothing more than friendly conversation" Avery says.
"My name's Kurt. Sir makes me feel old" my dad says.
"Your turn" I say to Avery.
"My mom died of the same leukaemia I have" he admits.
"I'm sorry. How old were you?" I ask.
"I was seven" he says.
"At least you knew your mom" I say.
"You didn't?" he asks.
"My mom was a surrogate my dads hired. She visited me for a few years, then decided her career was more important than me. She came to visit me last week and told me that she was planning on having another kid with my dads. So basically she's replaced me and I never want to see her again" I say.
"B your mom is not that bad" my dad interjects.
"No one asked for your opinion dad" I say.
"Maybe you should try again with your mom. If I could have just five more minutes with mine, I would take it" Avery says.
"I'll think about it" I say.
"What do your dads do?" he asks.
"My dad over there is a choreographer and my Papa is an actor" I say.
"Have they been in anything I might have seen?" he asks.
"That depends, do you frequent Broadway regularly?" I ask.
"Not so much" he says laughing.
"Go on then what does your dad do?" I ask.
"Accountant. Nowhere near as interesting as your dads jobs" he says.
"What do you want to do?" I ask.
"I'm not sure yet, you?" he says.
"Cancer research. Kind of ironic, isn't it?" I say.
"Did you decide that before or after you got cancer?" he asks.
"Before actually. Like I said kind of ironic" I say.
"What do you like to do when you're not here?" he asks.
"Sports. Oh and singing. You?" I say.
"I'm usually waiting for something that brings me back. But other than that I like to roller skate" he says.
"I'd love to try that" I say.
"I'm not sure that's safe Blaize" my dad says.
"I have cancer dad, rollerblading is not going to make it any worse" I say.
"Have you ever been?" Avery asks.
"No. But I've ice skated. My dads take us to Central Park every Christmas" I say.
"Well maybe we could go rollerblading together sometime" he says.
"I'd like that" I say grabbing his hand.
"What are you doing?" he asks.
"Writing down my number. So you can call me" I say grabbing a pen from my bag.
"I'll try not to wash this hand" he says.
"Don't worry, I can always put it in your phone next time we see each other" I say.
"So we will? See each other again that is?" he asks.
"Well I don't know about you but I reckon I'll be coming here for a while. So yeah I think we will" I say.
"You mentioned you like to sing" he says.
"Why do you?" I ask.
"I've been known to sing a little. Any particular favourites?" he says.
"I love The Band Perry" I say.
"Then I think I know the perfect song for us to sing. Your Ipod please. I'm sure you probably have it" he says. He takes my Ipod and scrolls through the songs until he finds the one he wants. I hear the opening chords and smile.
"This is the perfect song" I say and start to sing.
Avery:
If I die young, bury me in satin
Lay me down on a bed of roses
Sink me in the river at dawn
Send me away with the words of a love song
Uh oh, uh oh
Blaize:
Lord make me a rainbow, I'll shine down on my mother
She'll know I'm safe with you when she stands under my colours, oh
And life ain't always what you think it ought to be, no
Ain't even grey, but she buries her baby
Both:
The sharp knife of a short life, oh well
I've had just enough time
Avery:
If I die young, bury me in satin
Lay me down on a bed of roses
Sink me in the river at dawn
Send me away with the words of a love song
Both:
The sharp knife of a short knife, oh well
I've had just enough time
Blaize:
And I'll be wearing white, when I come into your kingdom
I'm as green as the ring on my little cold finger,
I've never known the lovin' of a man
But it sure felt nice when he was holdin' my hand
There's a boy here in town, says he'll love me forever
Who would have thought forever could be severed by….
Both:
…the sharp knife of a short life, oh well?
I've had just enough time
Blaize:
So put on your best, boys, and I'll wear my pearls
What I never did is done
Avery:
A penny for my thoughts, oh, no, I'll sell 'em for a dollar
They're worth so much more after I'm a goner
And maybe then you'll hear the words I been singin'
Funny when you're dead how people start listenin'
Blaize:
If I die young, bury me in satin
Lay me down on a bed of roses
Sink me in the river at dawn
Send me away with the words of a love song
Avery:
Uh oh, (uh, oh)
The ballad of a dove (oh, uh)
Go with peace and love
Gather up your tears, keep 'em in your pocket
Save 'em for a time when you're really gonna need 'em, oh
Both:
The sharp knife of a short life, oh well
I've had just enough time
Blaize:
So put on your best, boys and I'll wear my pearls
"You have a lovely voice" he says.
"Thank you. My dad taught me to sing" I say.
"You have a wonderful daughter, Kurt" he says.
"I know" my dad replies.
"Avery you're free to go" the nurse says taking his IV out.
"I'll use that number you gave me" he says.
"Make sure you do. See you soon Avery" I say.
"See you soon Blaize" he says.
"It's B. My friends call me B" I say.
"Okay then. I'll see you soon B" he says kissing me on the cheek.
"See you soon" I say.
"Are you sure you're ready for a new boyfriend?" my dad asks.
"I'm not thinking about that dad. It's just nice to have a friend who understands what I'm going through" I say.
"He likes you though" my dad says.
"And I like him. All of the best relationships start off as friends first though. Like me and Eric and you and Papa and Aunt Rachel and Uncle Finn" I say.
"I just don't want you to get hurt B" he says.
"I won't. Avery and I are just friends. For now at least" I say.
Chemo may suck but at least I have a friend now. Coming here may not be as bad as I first thought.
Elena's POV
My phone beeps with another text from Austin. I try to ignore them but there's no point. If I do then he just hunts me down. He'll do whatever it takes to get his fix.
-I'm feeling hungry bitch. Come give me my fill –A
-I can't. I'm in classes at the moment Austin. –E
-Then I guess I'll just have to come and get you. Wait for me in the cleaning closet –A.
-Fine. Be here in ten or I'm leaving and I swear to god Austin, I'll tell people what you're doing to me. –E
-You know if you do that I'll have to kill you. –A
I excuse myself from class on the pretence of a headache and wait for Austin in the janitor's closet. A few minutes later there he is.
"You couldn't have found some other girl to satisfy yourself with?" I ask.
"None that satisfies me as much as you baby" he says.
"I don't have to take this Austin. What you're doing is disgusting and wrong and I can end it with just three buttons on my phone" I say.
"But you won't. Because you want this. You need this just as much as I do" he says.
"I don't want or need to be raped" I say.
"But you're going to take it anyway. Like you always do" he says.
"Not this time. You can't make me do anything" I say.
"Now Elena you know that's just not true. I can make you do whatever the hell I want. Now stop talking. You don't want us to get caught do you?" he says.
"You take one more step and I swear I'll scream so loudly that someone will come running and arrest your ass" I say.
"You will do nothing" he yells grabbing me round my throat and squeezing.
"You're hurting me" I choke out.
"Good" he says. I am just about to pass out unconscious when the door to the closet swings open.
"Ade?" I say shocked that someone is actually here to help.
"Get out Elena" she says pulling me out of the closet.
"And you, stay the hell away from her" she yells at Austin.
"I'm going to get you for this. Both of you!" Austin yells storming out of the building.
"You want to tell me what's going on or can I figure it out for myself?" Ade asks.
"I can't tell you. I can't tell anyone" I say.
"Who is he?" she asks.
"Natalie Stevens' brother" I say.
"Who's she?" she asks.
"A friend of mine from when I was younger" I say.
"He raped you didn't he?" she asks.
"How did you know that? No one knows that. Not even my parents" I say.
"I figured if you didn't want to tell me he abused you in some way or another. Rape seemed like the most obvious option" she says.
"You can't tell anyone about this ever. He'll kill me and you if he's found out" I say.
"You can't live your entire life afraid of him" she says.
"He'll move on to someone else eventually" I say.
"And if he doesn't?" she asks.
"Then I guess I'll just have to take it" I say.
"You don't have to do anything Elena" she says.
"Yes I do. I have to save myself and the only way I can do that is by doing what he wants" I say.
"You're making a huge mistake" she says.
"Maybe. But it's my mistake to make. I can't have you or anyone else dragged into this. So don't tell anyone okay?" I say.
"You have to at least tell you parents" she protests.
"No one. You have to promise" I say.
"Okay I promise. I won't tell anyone" she says.
"Guess what?" I say.
"What?" she asks.
"This conversation never happened" I say walking away. I'm going to have to be more careful from now on. I can't let anyone else find out my secret.
Later that night I hear the window to my room open. I grab the lamp from beside my bed.
"Who's there?" I ask trying to sound more confident than I am. A large hand grabs the lamp I am holding and throws it to the floor and switches the light on.
"It's me bitch" Austin says. He smashes the lamp on the floor.
"What do you want?" I ask.
"What I've wanted all along. Sex" he says.
"Not now. Not here in my parents house" I say.
"I wasn't thinking here. Put your hands behind your back" he says.
"Is this some kind of new sex game because I'm not okay with it" I say.
"Just do what I say" he growls. I put my hands behind my back and he cuffs me.
"I didn't think you were into that sort of thing" I say.
"Less talking more walking" he says pushing me towards the window.
"I can't climb down the drainpipe with these around my wrists" I say.
"Looks like you'll have to fall then" he says and pushes me out of the window.
Luckily I manage to land on my feet and the drop from my window isn't too far.
He grabs me and pushes me into his car boot. "Where the hell are you taking me?" I ask trying to stop from screaming. I'm scared of small spaces ever since that first time in Natalie's closet.
"That's for me to know and you to find out" he says slamming the boot of the car shut. It probably wasn't a very long journey but it sure feels like that.
Austin drags me out of the back of the car and into this small, ramshackle hut.
"What is this place?" I ask.
"My secret sex den" he says. I scan the room. There on the floor, gagged and handcuffed is….
"Oh my gosh. Ade?" I say.
Adrianna's POV
(A/N: Some scenes in Adrianna and Elena's POV's are rated M)
I try to speak but I can't. The gag is tied too tightly round my mouth. All I can do is sit and watch as Austin slams Elena down beside me.
"No talking. I prefer my whores to be silent" Austin snarls.
"We are not your whores!" Elena screams.
"Ooh bitch got feisty. I like that" he says pulling Elena towards him. I try to scream but the gag stops me so I stick my leg out so Austin falls flat on his face.
"You messed with the wrong guy" he says slapping my face. I can feel the angry red mark rising beneath my skin. He pulls the gag from around my mouth.
"You deserve to rot in jail you ass" I yell.
"Shut your mouth, or I'll shut it for you" he says.
"I'd like to see you try" I say. He places a crushing hand on my mouth.
"Stop it Austin. Let her go, it's me you want" Elena cries.
"I think you've started thinking too highly of yourself bitch. She told the authorities about what I've been doing to you for the past four years. She needs to be punished" he says.
"I told you not to tell him. Look what you've done now" Elena yells at me. If she wasn't handcuffed then she probably would have taken a swing at me too.
"The time for talking is over" Austin says.
"So what's the time for now?" I ask.
"I think you know" he says in that creepy, trying to be sexy voice of his.
"I think you know that's not going to happen" I say.
"JUST SHUT UP!" he yells. He pushes me to the floor and his mouth viciously attacks mine. My eyes catch Elena's but there's nothing she can do. I shut my eyes but he forces them open. He rips my pajamas off, then undresses himself.
"Time for me to have my fun with you, whore" he says.
"You're the whore" I whisper.
He slaps me round the face. I struggle against him but his strong arms pin me to the floor. "You'll never get away from me" he says. I kick out my legs to try to get him to move away from me but he doesn't. I can't stop myself from crying. This was not the way I was supposed to lose my virginity. Austin ignores this of course. He forces his way inside me. I try to scream but every time I try his hand clamps over my mouth. The pain is endless torture.
"Let me go!" I scream.
"Not until I'm done" he says. It feels like hours pass, but it's probably only minutes. My hands throb from being held in the handcuffs. "Never cross me again whore" he says withdrawing from me.
"I p-p-promise" I stammer. I think that's it. That it's over. But he grabs me again. And he presses his fingers against my throat. He starts to squeeze until I am dying for air.
"Please stop" I manage to choke out. He releases the pressure but I see stars in front of my eyes. The room is spinning. He clocks me on the back of the head and I fall to the floor. Just before the world falls into darkness I whisper two words for Elena.
"I'm sorry"
Elena's POV
"I guess it's your turn now bitch" Austin says turning towards me.
"She did nothing to you! Nothing! And you almost killed her!" I scream running forward and trying to tackle him. A little difficult whilst in handcuffs but I thought I'd try it. He pushes me back easily and laughs.
"You think you could hurt me little girl? I'm going to have more fun hurting you" he says.
"You've done enough!" I scream.
"I'll say when enough is enough. Not you, you little whore" he says. I crawl backwards to try and escape him but he grabs me.
"It would be better if you didn't try and resist this" he whispers in my ear reminding me of the first time he raped me.
I scream as loud as I possibly can but he puts his hand over my mouth. "Be quiet and keep your eyes open whore" he says.
I kick him as hard as I can but he doesn't budge. He pins me down and he hits me as hard as he can, over and over again. He tears off my pajamas with his teeth. He starts to bite me. I keep hoping that he'll stop but he doesn't. His tongue crushes mine. I kick my legs out again in desperation but it's no use. He's much stronger than I am.
"Just give in Elena" he says. It's the first time he's ever called me something other than bitch or whore and it's very unsettling.
"Never" I whisper.
"Have it your way then" he says. He continues to hit me, scratch me, bite me for hours. He throws me back onto the back wall of the room.
"Now it's time for me to have my fun" he snarls. He thrusts himself inside me. It doesn't hurt so much this time, it's like I'm numb to the pain because I've felt it so many times before. I can't see him anymore, I can only see the many times he's raped me. They're on a reel, playing over and over in my head.
He finally stops and I think that's the end of it. But of course it isn't. With Austin it never is. He pulls a knife out of his pocket and slashes wildly. He doesn't care where it hits me he just cares that it hurts. And it does, more than the hitting, the punching and the kicking combined. He punches me in the eye.
"Please stop it" I say tears running down my face.
"If you ever tell a soul about this, I will kill you. That I can promise" he says. His leg comes flying towards my head and I crumple to the floor. My vision has gone black but even through my haze of unconsciousness I can hear him say his last words to me.
"Goodbye whore".
A/N: The song used in this chapter was If I Die Young-The Band Perry, performed by Avery Blackmoore and Blaize Hummel-Anderson. All rights go to owners. The next chapter of this should be up soon. I have planned a new chapter of Back At The Start which I will post soon as it doesn't seem like the last chapter will get any reviews. I'm having a bit of writer's block for Moving On: Senior Year so that may not get an update for a while. I am also planning to write a new Finchel story but I need to get an idea for it first so that may not be up for a while.
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