A/N: Let's see what Bella thought of the "moment"! ENJOY!

BPOV

"I swear there was a moment, Irina, when he wanted to kiss me and for one achingly sweet moment, I wanted it too. But then it was gone and I was left feeling horny, guilty and alone." I flopped back on the couch, my breath coming out in fast huffs. "It's just pregnancy hormones, right? I'm in my second trimester, I haven't gotten laid in forever and Edward is just too down-right sexy for his own good." Sighing I gave voice to my darkest fear. "Maybe I'm just a replacement for his dead wife," I muttered

Closing my eyes, I waited for Irina to confirm that I was just horny and needed to go a few rounds with a good vibrator. But when a few minutes of silence had passed- I cracked open an eyes to see her looking thoughtfully at me.

"What?" I asked her feeling frustrated that she wasn't helping me sort out how I felt about Edward.

"I want to ask you something, and I want you to be completely honest with me and with yourself. Can you do that?" Irina pinned me with her gaze.

I nodded my head, "Of course."

"Don't think about it, just say what comes to your mind."

Again, I nodded.

"How would you describe Seth to a stranger?"

I snorted, did she think this was going to be hard for me?

"Sweet, kind, considerate, warm. He was always willing to help, an all-around wonderful person."

"And how would you describe your relationship with him?" I didn't understand where Irina was taking this, but the serious look on her face told me to play along.

"It was great. We worked well together. It was warm and safe. He was my best friend. I loved him and he loved me."

Irina smiled. "Now, close your eyes and remind me how you felt when you wanted Edward to kiss you."

"Why?" I retorted back growing weary of whatever she was trying to do.

"Trust me." It was her only answer. She held my gaze and I knew there would be no point in arguing.

"It was intense. My stomach was doing belly-flops and I felt like all the breath had been stolen from my lungs. Time felt as if it was standing still and my body felt alive. When he pulled back, there was a moment of sadness that I wouldn't find out if his lips were as soft as I had imagined."

Finished, I opened my eyes to find Irina regarding me carefully. "One last thing, Bella. Do you remember your first kiss with Seth?" I just nodded. "Good. Close your eyes and describe it to me."

Rolling my eyes, I did as she asked. "It was after our first date, he had walked me up to my door and we were saying goodnight when he pulled me closer. I was nervous about kissing him. But when his lips brushed mine, it was warm and sweet and so very gentle. It made me feel cherished."

"Wonderful, Bella. I think we are done here. I have some homework for you." I watched as Irina busied herself putting a sheet of her yellow legal pad into an envelope. "Before our next session, I want you to write a list of words describe both Edward and Seth. What you think of them, how they make you feel- just anything. Then open this. Can I trust you not to open this until you've done your part?"

She held the envelope just out of my reach. I was puzzled as to what she was doing, but trusted that she only had my best interests at heart.

"Yeah, you can trust me." She gave me the envelope and I tucked away in my purse.

"See you later, Bella and remember, its ok to feel how you feel, even lust." She winked at me and then walked me out of her office and into the lobby. I made my next appointment in a daze. As I drove home, I tried to figure out the meaning behind her assignment. It wasn't often that she gave them out, so there had to be an important lesson to be learned. But when I arrived home, I was pretty exhausted, so I gave up trying to understand Irina and crawled into bed. My last thought was wondering if Edward liked to cuddle.

A/N: Hmmm... wonder what her homework is... thoughts? As always, leave me some love! See you soon!