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Wincing at the confused and freaked out tone Harry was using, Severus watched Draco make the same face. He pulled away quickly and turned to face Harry, a guilty look came over his face without his permission. "Harry this not…"
"What it looks like." Draco finished for him, quickly wiping his mouth with the back of his hand.
Harry shook his head and frowned, "I think I know what this is…"
Severus moved to step forward to placate Harry but the young man, held his hand up and shook his head urgently and backed a step up, "No…Just stay away."
"Harry…" Draco implored Harry in a nervous voice.
"Just…Stay away from me." Harry gave them another disbelieving look and turned to walk away swiftly.
A hand gripped Severus's arm and he let out a low exclamation, "Bloody fucking hell."
"Did…We just ruin any chance that we had with Harry?" Draco asked in a small voice.
"We might have." Severus answered.
"It can't end that way Severus. We have to explain!" Draco's voice was growing stronger with every word he spoke. And he had a fierce, determined look on his face.
"We will but he won't listen to us at the moment, he's confused, we just have to let him have space to clear his head."
Draco looked ready to argue but stopped when he saw the look on Severus's face. He didn't want to believe that they had hurt Harry so much. Dear sweet, beautiful Harry, the man who had only wanted to just make other people happy. The way he'd stared at them with such distrust and disbelief. It had only been a few hours before and they'd been kissing.
He must have made a distressed noise because Severus's arms came around him and tightened. The tip of his ear was kissed and then his lover was whispering, "We'll explain okay? He'll understand."
With a nod Draco whispered back, "I hope you're right Severus."
"Me too."
*
Two days later, Draco was pouting across the table at Severus who looked mildly annoyed. "He won't reply too any of our owls!"
"Yes I am aware of that Draco, there's no need to shout."
"Yes there bloody well is! I want him back, like before all of this got fucked up!"
"Stop acting like a petulant child!" Severus growled across the table at him, his dark eyes flashing.
"You know you miss him so stop treating me like I'm a pouting child just because I express it." Draco snapped loudly, slamming his tea cup onto the table and breaking it.
Severus stared at him in surprise, his dark eyes glittering black. But he just looked away after a moment and tried to joke, "All of a sudden you're forceful and…wise. When did that happen?"
Draco let out a deep breath and grabbed his wand. He pointed it at the tea cup and murmured, "Reparo."
When he looked back up at Severus he felt a twinge of guilt, he knew that Severus felt just as bad as he did, he just didn't show it. He reached across the table and stroked his hand, "I'm sorry. I just don't like that we hurt him. We should have just told him from the beginning that we were together. The things he must be thinking…"
"You're right."
"I know you said that we should wait…But I just feel like the longer we stay away, the more it seems like we're just hiding from him, and it's making us look guiltier. We need to talk to him."
"Okay."
Pleased that Severus was agreeing with him Draco continued, "I'm going to track him down tomorrow. Convince him to have dinner with us, so that we can explain."
"If that is what you think is best."
"It is." Draco stood and put his dishes in the sink. He braced himself against the sink and watched the water flowing out of the spout. He heard Severus push out his chair and step behind him. Then an arm reached around him and turned off the water.
He leaned into his warmth and let out a low breath. Severus's arms wrapped around his waist and he closed his eyes, "It will go alright wont it?"
"I don't know."
"I guess we'll find out tomorrow."
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"Harry just, listen to me please!" Draco followed Harry into the men's room and resisted the urge to turn him around and make him listen.
"Just leave me alone!" Harry snapped at him, finally turning, his green eyes burning with anger.
"No. You need to understand!" Draco met his gaze evenly, even though inside he was resisting the urge to wince and back away.
"Understand what? That you and your lover decided to play seduce the man you both hated?"
"That is not what we were doing!"
"Right." Harry rolled his eyes and shook his head, "I don't know what I was thinking trusting the both of you…Must have been off my bloody rocker."
"Would you shut up and let me explain?" Draco raised his eyebrow and blocked the door.
Harry scowled at him, "I could curse you away from the door."
Draco gave him a droll look, "Harry you would not."
After a moment of looking frustrated Harry let out a low frustrated sigh, "Only because I'm a better person than that."
"Well good then. So listen up." He leaned against the door and crossed his arms. "We, meaning me and Severus, did not try to seduce you to play around with you. We didn't even know the other was seeing you until a few days ago. And well…We both wanted you. To join us not just sex. We really like you Harry, really."
"Join you? What do you mean?" Harry frowned, the anger fading from his eyes, only to be replaced with confusion.
"Our relationship."
"I don't…Understand what the hell you're talking about."
Draco made a little groan and rubbed his fingers through his hair, "Severus can explain this better. Come to dinner at my flat. He and I can explain."
"Do you think I'm stupid? That I would just go over to your flat with the two of you?"
Rolling his eyes, Draco frowned, "Honestly what do you think we would do to you? Seduce you? Drug you? Harry, some part of you knows that you can trust us."
Harry searched his eyes deeply and stepped forward, just a step, "Be honest, why are you both doing this? Pursuing me so aggressively?"
"Because Harry we are attracted to you, and not just your looks, your attitude, your mind and your grace and kindness. We want you to be with us, the three of us together."
Harry looked down, "If that's true…I suppose I can meet you at your flat. But not for dinner, I just want to hear your explanations and go home. That's all."
Tingling happily Draco smiled softly, "Thank you Harry. You don't know how happy that makes the both of us. We just want to talk to you and tell you what we meant."
"I'm not saying that by the end of that night, I will still feel the same for you both Draco, understand that. I don't know that I can trust you and I don't know that I want to give you both another chance. Don't get your hopes up." Harry was looking up again and speaking harshly.
A shiver of sadness and desperation rolled through Draco but he nodded. "I understand."
"Pass my message onto your lover too."
"I will tell Severus."
"When am I coming over? And it can't be tonight. I have plans."
Draco looked up sharply and scowled, "What type of plans?"
"That's not really your business Draco."
Fuming at the idea of Harry being with another man and frustrated at the fact that he really had no reason to be jealous as Harry wasn't his, yet, Draco huffed out a breath. "Fine. How about tomorrow, after work."
"Fine. Can you move now?"
"What's the magic word?"
"Expelliarmus." Harry smirked, twirling his wand threateningly.
Smirking Draco leaned forward, "I could take you."
"You wish." Harry's lips twitched and he moved pointedly to the doorknob.
Draco moved and reached out to brush Harry's shoulder hesitantly. The brunette stopped and gave him a leveled look. Silver eyes met green and Draco whispered, "Please believe me Harry, I miss…We miss you so much."
"And you think I don't?" Harry tightened his jaw and looked away.
"Please just give us a chance."
"I'll do what I think is best Draco."
"Okay, well I'll see you tomorrow." Draco moved and Harry opened the door, giving him a sad look and then walking away.
After he was gone, Draco leaned back against the door and let out a deep breath, "Well that wasn't too bad. At least he listened to me."
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Harry looked wearily up at Hermione and Ron's house, he had been wandering around London, thinking about the dinner he was supposed to have with Draco and Severus that night and not thinking much. But apparently his subconscious had led him to a level headed friend, (and he meant Hermione because Ron was still wigging out about the fact that he was seeing men, though it was getting better, he just didn't think that his friend could handle the Draco, Severus dating thing). Hermione would know what to do… But he was shy about seeing her. How would she react to the new relationships?
He rocked on his heels and bit his lip, deciding to bolt. He didn't get the chance too because, the front door opened suddenly and Hermione looked out at him in amusement, "you coming in sometime soon Harry?"
"Er…Yeah." He pushed open the gate and walked through the luscious garden. Out of the corner of his eye he saw a gnome scuttle under a bush and start making obscene hand gestures at him. He chuckled despite himself him. He met Hermione at the top of the steps and leaned in to hug her lightly, her pregnant belly, soft against his abs. "How are you Mione?"
"I'm good despite the fact that one of my daughters throws eggs in my hair and the other is kicking my ribs in." Hermione laughed, her face glowing with happiness.
"Is little Rosie acting more and more like Ron every day?" Harry grinned, taking off his jacket and throwing it over the edge of a chair.
"She is most definitely his daughter." Hermione grinned. She walked past the living room and pressed her finger against her lip, nodding into the room.
Harry looked around and grinned at the sight of Ron and his firstborn daughter napping on the couch. Ron's limbs were tossed haphazardly all over the couch and Rose the two year old was sleeping on his chest in a little ball, her face was hidden by bushy brown hair, but he could see that she was sucking her thumb and drooling on her father.
Hermione tugged on his arm and pulled him into the kitchen, "Cup of tea perhaps? And then you can tell me what's on your mind."
"Thanks."
He watched Hermione move slowly around the kitchen, and listened as she happily chattered about how their last doctor's appointment had gone and how fast Rose seemed to be learning new things. When the tea was finished she put it in front of Harry, dropped heavily into the seat next to him and smiled, "Okay so what's going on Harry? Why were you pacing outside our gate for ten minutes?"
"Well you know how I told you I was seeing a few people?" He waited for her to nod and steeled himself to continue, "Well um… Those two people are Malfoy and Snape."
Mouth dropping in shock, Hermione was silent for a long moment and then she let out a weak noise and got up to shut the kitchen door. she sat back down before speaking again, "Huh…Th-The both of them?"
"Yes."
"Draco Malfoy 'and' Severus Snape?"
"Yes."
"Uh huh…And you're not just…Friends, you-you're dating them? The both of them?"
"Well kinda…"
"What do you mean kind of?"
"Okay, see we were dating. I saw romantically seeing Severus and Draco. But Er, I'm not really seeing them anymore."
"Why?"
He took a deep breath and launched through the story, how he'd seen both Draco and Severus in the Ministry and felt such a deep, intense attraction to them. At first he'd hesitated in flirting with them, but after awhile it just seemed natural. He blushingly described the heat he felt with the two of them, his confusion about how he could be so drawn to two different people and the guilt he felt had felt at times when he was with one of them. He told her about the day he'd finally kissed Severus and Draco, how great and it exciting it had been in the beginning, only to end in shock and hurt when he discovered their secret relationships.
"So you see I'm confused! Draco invited me over to dinner at his place with him and Severus, so they can explain what they were doing with me." He huffed out a low breath and took a drink of tea, taking in Hermione's expression.
It was still startled and now held a hint of concern. She cleared her throat and let out a small, "Wow…That's intense Harry. You can never have just a simple life can you?"
She started laughing and Harry joined in, saying, "No I guess not."
After a moment she stopped laughing and looked back up, "What did you say to him when he asked you to come over to his flat?"
"I told him yes. I told him I would come over and hear their side of the story. Do you think that was wrong?"
Hermione bit her lip and looked away before answering, "Harry, from what I'm hearing you really like them and have feelings for them. But…Harry its Snape and Malfoy. Don't you remember what they were like to you in school? They did everything they could to make your life a living hell. Sure now Draco say's they regret not telling you that they are together, but…If they really feel for you the way they did, why wouldn't they tell you that they were together and knew that the other was seeing you?"
Harry's face fell and felt his body grow cold, "I…Don't know."
She gave him a sympathetic look, "I'm not trying to hurt you Harry, but you have to remember who they are and what their motives can be. I don't want to see them hurt you by humiliating or manipulating you. They might be attracted to and just want to sleep with you. I don't want to see you get treated like that again."
Wincing at the horrible memories Harry nodded, "I understand." He shrugged like what she was saying didn't hurt. It hurt not because he thought she was saying it to be cruel, but because she was being honest. And if you knew Hermione, well she was often correct.
Thinking that Draco and Severus just wanted him for sex or to humiliate him, made Harry's heart hurt and he didn't want to believe it. But he knew that Hermione wasn't completely wrong, Draco and Severus had never said a kind word to him before they saw each other again. And why wouldn't they have just said that they were together from the beginning? If they really cared for him the way they said they did, why wouldn't they tell him?
The only logical answer was that they were planning something, to have sex with him for their own games or some other cruel reason. He winced again and nodded, "You're probably right…I don't know what I was thinking."
Hermione got an alarmed look on her face and reached across the table to rest her hand on his, "Are…Are you going to be okay Harry?"
"Yeah I'll be fine." Harry nodded slowly
"Stay for dinner with us Harry, Ron and Rose would love to see you."
"Okay I will."
The rest of the night he tried to be happy and not worry Hermione, he put on his best smile and pretended nothing in the whole world could ruin his happy moments with his friends and their child. He acted like there was nothing he would rather be doing and no where he would rather be. He spent the night laughing, joking with Ron, talking to Hermione about her pregnancy and playing with Rose. But inside was a different story.
On the inside he was trying not to fold inside himself and just cry from the pain. He couldn't do that, not in front of Hermione, she would just get more worried about him. He had to be strong and try to forget about Draco and Severus. It would hurt like hell and he probably wouldn't trust anyone for a long time after but it was what he had to do.
Even if it meant putting on his happy go-lucky smile and pretending to be happy and it's not like he hadn't already perfected that art was it? Harry could do it again, forever if he had too.
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Severus watched Draco pace around the living, often picking stuff up and staring at it critically or just staring at the clock. It was almost eleven o'clock and Harry hadn't shown up to Draco's flat. At first Draco had been elated and slightly nervous at the idea of Harry coming over to talk out there issues, to listen to him explain what had really been going on. But as the time had slowly passed the more drawn and tense he'd become.
He hated seeing Draco in pain, or stressed out. He liked him when he was happy and shining. Of course he also hated the idea of Harry being in such pain. And oh yes he had no doubt that the boy he'd come to adore and need in his life was in pain. And unlike Draco he had the ability of hiding it well. He was something he'd noticed over the years, Harry's 'I'm happy even though the world around me is falling apart' façade.
Draco wasn't as apt to hiding how he was feeling. When he was happy, he would smile happily, his eyes twinkling, when he was stressed, he would purse his lips and frown, and when he was mad…Well he tended to rage, scowl and curse stuff. Like he was now…
He flicked his wand at a crystal vase on the fireplace and it exploded. The blonde turned and scowled, "Why didn't he show up?"
"Because he doesn't trust us." Severus said simply, even though inside he was just as disappointed and hurt as Draco.
"But he said he would! He said he would give you the chance to explain!" Draco looked ready to explode more of his expensive trinkets, so Severus stood and grabbed his forearms. Silvery eyes blinked up at him miserably and the blonde whispered, "He's gone now."
A hint of pain, rattled through Severus at the pained look in Draco's eyes and he pulled him closer. He held him close and ran his fingers through the silky blonde hair soothingly, "Draco…He's not gone. H-he'll figure out how much he wants to be with us too…I promise."
"No he won't!" Draco pushed him away so roughly that Severus fell back into a chair and stumbled. He stamped his foot. "We ruined it! He hates us now!"
Hissing at the pain in his leg where it hit the chair, Severus stared up at him and frowned, "No he doesn't!"
Draco looked at him in surprise and moved closer, "shit, Severus I'm sorry, I really am." He ducked down and kissed the spot Severus was rubbing, "I didn't mean to hurt you. I'm just so fucked up right now."
With a small smile at the man who was on his knee's rubbing his aching leg and reached down to stroke his cheek, "I understand Draco, I do."
Silver eyes blinked up at him, "I didn't even think that you might be hurting too…" he stood and wrapped his arms around Severus's neck, "Are you okay? You want to break anything?"
"Does it make you feel better?" Severus asked, smirking in amusement.
"For a second." Draco smiled.
"A whole a second?" Severus acted like he was considering and ran his finger tips down his spine.
Shivering, Draco leaned in, "I need you to touch me and make me feel better."
"I can do that Severus whispered, already unbuttoning Draco's shirt.
They undressed slowly, leaving a trail of clothes to the bedroom. Draco stood in front of the bed and studied Severus's naked form, "I still have you. You're all I need."
But even as sweet as his words were, Severus could hear that Draco was trying to convince himself that he didn't need Harry. He felt the same way and leaned in to kiss him, "You're all I need to." He lay back on the bed, "I'm yours."
He watched Draco do a widening and lubrication spell and took a deep breath when the man straddled him. Draco leaned down, grinding their cocks together, and lapped at his nipples, his hands running down his sides. Severus sucked in breath and pushed up against the other mans cock.
Draco sat up and let out a small moan, "Need you…" he pushed up with his knees and positioned himself above Severus's cock, "Severus…"
As soon as his tip was inhaled, Severus's hands tightened on Draco's legs and he groaned lightly, wanting to push up into his warmth and comfort, but at the same time wanting Draco to be in control. The blonde took him in slowly, inch by inch, his face strained and his eyes squeezed closed. When he was finally sheathed on him, he relaxed, his eyes opened and he ducked down to kiss his lips lightly.
When he pulled back, Severus watched, a peculiar look came onto Draco's face, even as he began rocking up and down, Draco was wearing a serious and sad expression, and Severus asked "What's wrong?"
"Just…Tell me you'll always be with me, even if we don't get Harry."
"Of course I will be! You're mine Draco and I'll never leave, even if we don't get him!"
Draco nodded and began moving in earnest, pushing his hair back from his face and moaning low in his throat. Severus began pushing back up into him and let himself go, to feel his lover's heat moving on him. It was slower and gentler than they'd ever had sex before, but they didn't need carnal at the moment, they just needed comfort and reassurance from each other. And this was the only way they could think to get it.
Severus watched through passion filled eyes as Draco whimpered above him, his face showing the same pleasure he was feeling. The blonde arched his back and tossed his head back as he came, a strangled yell spilling out, and his cum spraying across Severus's chest. Feeling his lover's walls tighten and watching the extreme emotions passing over his face, Severus groaned loudly and pushed up, completely sheathing himself inside Draco. His orgasm, rushed through him like a wave rushing around him. He felt his cum fill the blonde and slumped down.
Draco pulled off of him and leaned up to kiss him deeply, "You're the only thing right in my life."
With a buzz of affection and something deeper for Draco, he kissed the top of his head, "And you're the only one who can make me smile."
The curled around each other and felt a surge of comfort. Even as they felt each other's warmth and knew they were where they belonged, they both couldn't help but feel like they were missing a piece of themselves, they were missing a third warmth curled up with them. And they didn't know how much they could be completely happy without Harry.
They just needed him and wanted him there. He had to feel the same way didn't he? He would come back to them…He just had to!
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A/N: Sorry it took so long to put up!! Enjoy! And make sure to check out my other fics!
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