I woke up next to Akari, remember what we did last night, i smiled to myself, and when she woke up she gave me a half smile and sat up.

"Morning." I smiled at her and she just stood up and went into the bathroom. I tilted my head a little as i got dressed. When she got out she completly ignored me. I didn't get what was going on so i went to talk to her.

"I'm just not in the mood Chase, sorry." Was her only reply. She pushed her hair behind her ear and went to go eat. I frowned and left going back to my house to shower before work. When i got to work Akari was talking to Kathy who seemed really unhappy. She walked up to me and pulled me aside.

"I thought you said you wern't gonna do anything.." She said depression evident in her voice.

"Im sorry, it just sorta happened..."

"Yea sure whatever." She rolled her eyes and took a deep breath as she tried to calm herself down. I reached out for her but she snatched back. "You betrayed me. You said you wouldn't do anything to upset me and you did." Her voice was like ice and it scared me.

"I'm sorry Kathy, really. I didnt think it would happen..besides she wont even look at me anymore." Just as i said this Akari walked up to me and stared down at the floor.

"Chase...I need to talk to you..."

"Anything you have to say to me you can say in front of Kathy." She gulped and took a deep breath.

"I...I don't love you...I thought i did but after last night..." Her voice trailed off. "Im really sorry but I dont think we can even be friends...It'll...be too weird." Not once did she look up while she said this once she said all she had to say she walked away and left me standing there next to Kathy completly dumbfounded. I was speechless but Kathy went from being depressed to being pissed off. She was quiet but you could tell that she was punching Akari repeatedly in her mind. I laughed silently about it as i trudged back into the kitchen, i kinda lost my way for a while being clueless. My brain wasn't telling my arms what to do or my legs so i ended up tripping alot and stumbling over myself and i did burn myself a few times. Kathy tended to me like the loving mother she was, when she wasnt thinking about seriously hurting Akari that is. After my shift was over i wandered around for a bit and walked into Gil, literally.

"Oww. Would you watch where you're going idiot?" He looked up. "Oh its you."

"Nice to see you too."

"So how have you been?"

"Horrid. You?"

"You said horrid, you're learning big boy words." He laughed, i punched him playfully in the shoulder and frowned. When i looked back up Gil was staring at me, sympathy evident in his eyes.

"What she do now?" He asked in a soft calm voice. If i was a girl i would've fallen for him. But im not. So i wont.

"We..slept together, made love, had sex whatever you wanna call it. The point is she said it was weird and that she doesn't want to be my friend anymore, said it'd be too awkward." Gill frowned.

"What is wrong with that girl.."

I shook my head. "Enough about me, what about you?" Gil gasped in mock surprise.

"Chase is so thoughtfully gracing me with his concern and not talking about himself? Im flattered." I laughed, glad i had a friend like him. "Luna dumped me actually." He said an irritated looking coming off in his eyes.

"Why did she do that?" I questioned confused by this. Luna was clearly not the type to dump someone unless she had a very good reason. Gil shook his head.

"It doesn't matter anymore." He sat down on the grass clearly aggrivated and sighed heavily. I joined him and laid back staring up at the clouds.

"Kathy is super pissed." I told him.

"Yea, its normal for a girl to be mad about something like this, well a girl in her situation." I nodded a little as I watched a cloud that looked like a cat pass by.

"I don't know what to do." I said quetly. "I've wanted to marry Akari for a while now...but...when we cant even be friends how can we get married..."

"You planned marriage?" Gil asked dumbfounded (which he never really is by the way). "That's...not normal for guys to do.."

"I know...but i couldnt help it..I didn't start thinking about it till late last year. I didn't plan it...just thought about it." Gil nodded.

"Alright my mistake, but still..you guys wernt even dating..."

I laughed a little. "I know, stupid right. I should have known better." I looked down.

"You're still wearing the necklace she got you huh..."

"I shouldn't be." I said looking at it reflect in the light.

"Brings out your eyes.

"That's what she said." We looked at each other and started laughing. "Gil, thanks." I smiled at him and he shrugged.

"Its what i do." I chuckled as I stood up.

"C'mon we should get going, can't mope about girls forever now can we?" Gil shrugged.

"We could, plenty of men do it. My dad did it."

"Well yea but he had good reason, your mom died. These girls are still alive and kicking." Gil nodded and we walked away from the tree. I little ways away i saw Akari standing there on the edge of a cliff staring blankly at the water. As we inched closer to her i saw blood dripping from her hands and her clothes were all scuffed up. I started to walk a little faster and Gil had to jog a little to keep up with me, i was starting to get really worried about her. She took a step towards edge and slowly closed her eyes as she took another step. I started to sprint to catch up to her, i didnt want her to do anything drastic.

"Akari!" I screamed. I hoped that this would at least slow her down, but it didn't. She tilted herself forward and plunged into the water. I looked at Gil, worry evident on my face and he stared back with blank expression. I hated when he did that, i hated not being able to tell what he was thinking. I looked down at the water and without a second thought dived in. Akari can't swim! The thought raced through my head as i searched despretly for her. At one point i found the bracelet i had gotten for her, but she wasn't attached to it. I came up for a split second for air and then dived back down i did this about two more times before i finally found her and pulled her to the surface. I took a large breath as i paddled to land. Gil was waiting for me when i got there so i pulled Akari onto the beach, put on hand over the other and pushed down on her chest until she started to cough up water, but even then she didn't open her eyes. I panicked a little at first but then i gave her mouth-to-mouth ressesitation or whatever that thing was you learned in health class and did that thing with my hands again and this time when she coughed up water her eyes fluttered open. I grabbed her and pulled her into a big hug.

"Why did you do something like that..?"

"Stuff...things...I'm just...im sorry Chase...what i said earlier today I...didn't mean..." I held her closer to me and stroked her hair. "Its...things have been going out of control and I...I dunno..." She started to cry so i just let her cry as i stroked her hair. For a moment everything was still, Gil didn't say anything and neither did I we just let her cry, cry as much as she needed to.

"I think...we should take her to the Clinic." Gil said as i helped her stand up. She grabbed my arm to steady herself and i saw them.

"What the hell Akari? Why did you do that?" I asked keeping my voice low and steady,

"Things...you wouldn't understand...no one does." She pulled her hand out of my reach before i attemtped to grab it.

"Says you, why the hell are you doing these things?" I pratically yelled.

"You wouldn't understand! You don't understand me anyway!"

"What the hell are you talking about? If anything i m the one who understand you the most!"

"So you thinkg! You've never honestly understood me! I just acted like you did to make you feel better!"

"You what?" I grabbed her wrist and squeezed it.

"Stop! You're hurting me!" I was so angry i couldn't let her go. "Stop it Chase! It hurts! STOP!" Coming out of my daze of anger, i let her go and she rubbed her wrist. It was then that i said something I shouldn't have said, something I didn't mean to say but in my fit of anger I did. Something even after she forgets it will still haunt me.

"I keep forgetting you don't love me. You don't care about me. I should've just let you die." She looked at me and froze up, tears welling up in her eyes.

"You should have! If you had I wouldn't be here right now! If you had i wouldn' be miserable anymore! If you had I wouldn't have to deal with any of this anymore!" She darted off I stared after her. Gil punched me in the face, hard. I stumbled and looked up at his glaring figure.

"What you just did. Was uncalled for, rude and disrepectful. Go after her. Now." I did as I was told and darted after her, i forgot how scary Gil was when he was mad. I ran and ran until finally I found her with a piece of glass held up to her neck. She had her eyes closed and she was saying something, to herself.

I want to end it all...im so very tired...if only life would end...

I waslked up to her slowly trying not to make any sudden noises as to startle her.

I wish I could apologize...i was so mean and hurtful to Chase...I didn't mean what I said...I...I love him...

I stopped, stunned by these words and just stared at her she drew the shard closer to her neck as tears tumbled down her cheeks.

Im sorry...

I ran up to her and knocked the piece of glass from her hand. She opened her eyes and looked at me.

"Idiot!" I almost hit her, I was so angry that she would want to take her own life that I came so close to hitting her.

"I hate it here Chihaya..." She never said my full name... "Im so miserable and...I just..." It was apparent that she had cut her neck before I had even gotten there because she fainted, and when i caught her i saw the blood trickling down her neck. I raced her to the clinic. That dad...was...it was one of the scariest days of my life and it was about to get worse...

A/N: So I Changed the name of the story because as of right now, the name isn't as fitting as it once was. I didnt think it would turn into this big thing when i started typing it a year ago...roughly. But I hope you enjoy it, more to come...sooner or later. Please R&R and tell me what you think and about what i did wrong and what i can improve. Oh btw Akari wasn't acting out of character, you'll just have to wait till the next chapter to see why she was so wigged out.