Chapter 6: Who I Am Hates Who I've Been (Song Title)

The next morning, Sapphire woke up bright and early. She brushed her blonde bedhead hair straight, brushed her teeth, washed her face, put on a sparkly blue tang-top and yellow-green caprise, and went to the guest room to check on Randall. She quietly opened the guest room door and looked inside. She was surprised when she saw the guest bed empty and made. Sapphire closed the door in confusion. She looked at her watch. 8:30 in the morning.

"How early did he get up?" Sapphire asked herself and went downstairs.

She looked around, but she didn't see the purple lizard monster.

"Randall?!" She called, recieving no response.

She went into the kitchen and looked around. Everything was completely clean. Her eyes led to the table and she saw a plate of eggs, bacon, and toast and a glass of fresh squeezed orange juice. There was also a note. Sapphire picked it up and read it.

"A perfect day, starts with a perfect breakfast. Enjoy Sapphire. - Randall."

Sapphire laughed and sat down at the table to eat the delicious looking breakfast Randall had made for her. She was astonished by how good everything tasted.

"Jee Randall." She shook her head. "You sure can cook."

Sapphire finished her breakfast and washed her plate and glass. She put the dishes away and sighed.

"Now, to find that reptilian monster." She said to herself. "But where could he be?"

Sapphire went outside and looked around, she saw no one.

"OW!" She heard the voice of Randall. "Stupid hammer!"

Sapphire went around the house. She gasped when she saw Randall by her tractor with tools. He was also singing as he worked.

"Who I am hates who I've been." Randall sang.

"Randall, what are you doing?" She asked him, startling Randall into banging his head on the metal pipe.

"OOOWWW!" He cried out in pain and came out from underneath the tractor, rubbing his head.

"Oh my god! Are you ok?" Sapphire bent down to him.

"Yeah, I'm fine." Randall looked at his hand. "I'm not bleeding or anything."

"What were you doing?"

"Well, I heard that you were having trouble with your tractor, heard that it's not working right. So I decided to fix it up for you."

"Jee, thanks Randall, never knew that you were so good with technology."

"Well, it's a gift. I'm also pretty good with cooking."

"Yeah, thanks for the breakfast. It was really good."

"You're welcome. I use to cook alot..for an old friend." Randall went under the tractor and went back to work.

"So... what was that song you were singing?" Sapphire asked.

Randall stopped working and sadly sighed.

"Just a little something I came up with." He answered.

"What's it about?"

"It's about the new me hating the old me."

"Why would you hate the old you?"

"Because the old me has done something terrible." Randall came out from underneath the tractor and stared at Sapphire. "Years ago, I kidnapped a kid to take her screams using one of the inventions I made called a Scream-Extractor."

"Take her scream?!" Sapphire cried. "That's terrible! What if she was in danger?! She wouldn't be able to scream for help!"

Randall's fronds flatten against his head. He did not like the way Sapphire was yelling at him.

"I didn't want to hurt the kid." He began to explain. "I just wanted to show that Mike Wazowski that I could be better than that Sullivan!"

"... Huh?" Sapphire was confused.

"Mike and I were old friends in college. I was a lonely nerdy shy guy... I barely had any friends. I tried everything to make Mike my friend. I even made my famous cupcakes and wrote 'Be My Pal' with icing. Mike and I finally became friends, and I tutored him to be better in school. But then, Mike and Sully, who were rivals at the time, got thrown out of the scaring program. They joined Oozma Kappa and went to the Scare Games to get back in. It was heartbreaking for me to find out that Mike had replaced me with Sully as his new best friend."

"No, no Randall. I'm sure Mike didn't replace you."

"He did! He said that Sully was his BEST friend! ... I'M his best friend! I met him first! I became his friend first! What did that big blue hairy guy have that I didn't?! Then it came to me. ... He was a better scarer than me. So, to show Mike that I could be better than Sully, I kidnapped Mary Gibbs and tried to steal her screams... thus having me banished into the human world. And I realized, that I can't get my friend back by trying to be better than Sully. I just have to ask Mike to take me back as a friend."

"Mary Gibbs?" Sapphire asked. "As in... Maria Gibbs?"

"Yeah. ... Do you know her?" Randall asked.

"She's one of my childhood friends who lives in California."

Randall's eyes opened wide. Everything suddenly went silent. Even the horses in the field stopped nieghing.

"Well... this is awkward." Randall nervously laughed.

"You tried to steal my friend's scream!" Sapphire angrily shouted.

"I didn't want to hurt her! And I'm ashamed of what I tried to do! That's kinda what my whole song is about." Randall sighed, then started to sing his song. "I watched the proverbial sunrise, coming up over the Pacific. And you might think I'm losing my mind. But I will shy away from the specifics. Cause I don't want you to know where I am. Cause then you'll see my heart in the saddest state it's ever been. This is no place to try and live my life."

"Randall." Sapphire began.

"Stop right there! That's exactly where I lost it. See that line?" Randal drew a picture of the human world and the monster world on each side of a line. "Well I never should've crossed it."

"Randall listen."

"Stop right there! Well, I never should've said that it's the very moment that I wish that I could take back. I'm sorry for the person I became. I'm sorry that it took so long for me to change. I'm ready to be sure I never become that way again. Cause who I am hates who I've been. Who I am hates who I've been. ... I talked to absolutely no one. Couldn't keep to myself enough. And things bottled inside. Had finally begun to create so much pressure that I'd soon blow up. And, I heard the reverberating footsteps. Syncing up to the beating of my heart. And I was positive that unless I got myself together. I would watch me fall apart. And I can't let that happen again. Cause then you'll see my heart. In the saddest state it's ever been. This is no place to try and live my life."

"Look, I'm sure Mary."

"Stop right there. That's exactly where I lost it. See that line? Well, I never should've crossed it. Stop right there. Well, I never should've said that it's the very moment that I wish that I could take back. Stop right there! That's exactly where I lost it. See that line? Well, I never should've crossed it. Stop right there! Well, I never should've said that it's the very moment that I wish that I could take back. I'm sorry for the person I became. I'm sorry that it took so long for me to change. I'm ready to be sure I never become that way again. Cause who I am hates who I've been. Who I am hates who I've been. Who I am hates who I've been. And who I am will take the second chance you gave me. Who I am hates who I've been. Cause who I've been only ever made me. So sorry for the person I became. So sorry that it took so long for me to change. I'm ready to be sure I never become that way again. Cause who I am hates who I've been. Who I am hates who I've been. ... Who I am... hates who I've been."

(If you want to see the music video of Randall singing this song, go to and type in Randall- Who I Am Hates Who I've Been in the search box.)