Carlisle jumped up and ran to the window, I barely had time to realize he'd moved when I heard him laughing.
"What is so funny?" I stood up putting my hand on my hip. My heart was still racing with desire for Carlisle and now fear for what was going on. He walked over to me, at human speed still laughing, and put his hands on my waist. I wanted to lean forward and wrap my arms around his neck and continue with what we had been doing, but I wanted an explanation more. I folded my arms in front of me waiting.
"Bella, it's okay, it was just some kids. They probably dared one another to touch the house or something and settled with throwing a rock." I had to admit, it was kind of funny. Why other people were afraid of the Cullens, I would never understand. Edward explained it as their natural defenses telling them there was something to fear but everyone knew this house was supposed to be empty; had it become a "haunted house" now? I relaxed, unfolding my arms and looked at the broken window.
"How are you going to get the window fixed? If you call someone they'll know you're still in town!" This sudden realization came to me and I was curious to see if Carlisle had planned on staying in the dark, figuratively speaking, or if he planned to go public about his stay. And if he decided to let people know, what was he going to say about us, and was there really an "us" yet.
"No, I can't do that, at least not yet. There will be too many questions of which I don't have answers to at the moment. I'll probably just have to fix it myself, or let it be, I'm not sure yet. Are you still hungry? I think there may be some food left in the kitchen." I really was hungry and I hadn't even noticed it; I couldn't remember the last time I ate, sometime yesterday since it was now morning. He placed an arm around my back as he walked me to the kitchen, there was peanut butter and jelly left and a loaf of bread was still good. If I planned on coming here often, there would be some grocery shopping to do. As I ate, I began thinking about what was going to happen now. Carlisle wasn't supposed to be here, and he didn't seem to want anyone to know that he was back yet. There was also the matter of what was going on between us; I didn't know what to expect of Carlisle and he seemed to know that something was bothering me.
"Is everything alright, Bella?" I didn't know how to answer, should I talk to him about my worries? I didn't know if I could bring up the subject about "us" and I actually wasn't sure what there was to talk about. He had admitted to having feelings for me, but hadn't elaborated on what that meant. I decided to go the safe route.
"Yes, I'm fine." I didn't dare look at him, fearing he'd be able to see right through me.
"I guess there are some things that we need to discuss." Fortunately, he'd seen this too, and brought it up first. "I'm not sure if I want people to know I'm here, like I said, it will raise too many questions that I have not prepared answers for. Now, about you and I." Oh god! I stopped chewing and stared at the table. I wasn't sure if this was going to be good, or bad.
"I believe I've already made it clear how I feel about you; I'm not sure if it's the right thing, especially considering Edward and Esme, but at the moment neither one of them seem to want to be in our lives. I don't think this will be easy, and I don't now how it will work out, but I do want to try this. To be with you."
My cheeks flushed, and my heart picked up a few paces, I knew I wanted to be with him to. He was very confident and comfortable about the way he felt, but I wasn't. I peered up at him from under my eyelashes to find him staring intently back at me. He reached across the table and took my hand my heart fluttering a little more. I lifted my head a little to look him full in the eyes. I was surprised at what I found; he seemed to be hurt by my hesitation, not something I would have expected from Carlisle. I always saw him him as strong and sure of himself, I now realized there was an even softer side. I knew he was gentle and considerate but I wouldn't have guessed him as sensitive. I made an effort to soften my expression, since I wasn't sure I could voice how I felt, and squeezed his hand, which was all he needed. He leaned over, placed his free hand on my face and pressed his cool lips against mine. He smelled so good and I inhaled deeply but it kind of sounded like a gasp with my nose pressed against his. I freed my hand and tangled my fingers in his hair pulling him closer. He surprised me by wrapping his arms around my waist and pressing me against him, then parting my lips with his cool tongue and pressed it against mine. Edward had never kissed me like this before but I also knew that Carlisle had much more self control than any vampire that had ever existed, still, I pulled away.
"Oh, I'm so sorry, I didn't mean to make you uncomfortable." He was kind of panting as he said this, another surprise since I'd never expected to have this kind of effect on him.
"No, you didn't make me uncomfortable, I've just never been kissed like that and wasn't expecting it." Oh my god, I was panting too. I took a deep breath to steady my breathing and closed my eyes to try and relax my heart. I don't think I had realized exactly how different things would be with Carlisle until now and I understood that many of the boundries I had fought against before, would most likely not make presence here. I opened my eyes and took one last deep breath before pulling him close to me again, he quickly closed the distance and our lips met. Heat and passion consumed me as his tongue pressed against mine, I shivered as his cool hands slid up the back of my shirt and pressed me closer. I was too shy to move my hands from his hair, he seemed to understand this and didn't move his hands any further than just touching my back. We sat there for a while just kissing and I became thoroughly embarrassed to find that my panties had become moist, something I'd never experienced. I pulled away, both of us breathing heavily, even though it wasn't necessary for him.
"I really need to go, Charlie won't be happy that I stayed out all night without telling him." I hoped there wasn't some search party going on. I stood up and checked my reflection in the mirror realizing I still had the bandage on my forehead and other cuts and bruises. I thought this was perfect because I could make up some story about falling down and getting hurt then waking up this morning and going to the hospital, of course I'd have to fine tune it before I got home. Carlisle walked me outside to my truck and kissed me once more pressing my back against the car, I was really going to enjoy being with him.
"I'll come see you tonight, and, uh, I guess I'll come through your window since I can't have Charlie know I'm there." I fought back the urge to laugh at the similarities, but I'm sure he wasn't aware that that's how Edward came to see me. I climbed in my truck and watched him in the rear view mirror as I drove away.