Hi Everyone!
Here is the new chapter, I hope you like it. Please, let me know what you think.
There will be more about Kurt and Sebastian, of course. Soon, very soon.:)
Sebastian Smythe
Blaine stared down at the name on the screen. Maybe Blaine hated Sebastian but he had to admit that Sebastian had good ideas. Telling him to make a research on the Internet, for example.
Okay, that wasn't exactly what Sebastian had told him, but if he had mentioned Internet and Blaine remembered it, why couldn't he use it to find out more about the couple?
Because it's not normal, Blaine thought.
But Sebastian and Kurt weren't normal either.
So Blaine decided to find out more about them. He had to know who these people really were because that small voice in his head didn't leave him alone, didn't let him sleep or work properly. He had to know what was going on in the neighbourhood.
There were hundreds of articles about Sebastian. About his business that seemed to go very well and of course, about Sebastian himself as well. They all showed him as a great guy. Sebastian supported several foundations, especially those where children were involved. Blaine was surprised to see this side of the man. Sebastian didn't seem like someone who cared about others.
There were a few reports as well and Blaine clicked on the first link, getting through the questions quickly. Sebastian had told the reporter an awfully lot about his great childhood, his perfectly happy family, about his education... everything but his own private life. There was no sign of Kurt in his answers. Blaine frowned. Okay, the article had been written a few months earlier but Sebastian and Kurt must have been together then, if not married already. He would think that if they were so in love, Sebastian would have talked about Kurt a lot. Or at least he would have mentioned him somehow. There were questions about his private life after all, he could have talked about Kurt.
Blaine read a few more articles but he found no sign of Kurt in them. As if he didn't even exist. It was definitely weird.
Kurt Smythe
Blaine waited for the new results and quickly went through a few pages, searching for Kurt. They were mostly the same he had read before, everything about Sebastian but no sign of Kurt. Again. Now that was definitely weird.
Blaine made a few more attempts to find Kurt but it seemed like he didn't exist at all. How was it possible? Kurt surely had internet connection, he had to show up somewhere... right?
He sighed and put his laptop down. He wouldn't find Kurt, unless he found out what his name had been before marrying Sebastian. He had to find out somehow because he needed answers and the voice in his head told him that the Smythes wouldn't answer his questions, not honestly. But he needed to learn the truth.
~ o ~
Sebastian was weird. Okay, he was always weird but what he did lately was completely insane. First there was their agreement about the baby if you could call it agreement. Kurt still didn't want a child, especially not with Sebastian but he had no say in this. If Sebastian wanted something, he had to do as he told him. Sebastian didn't seem to see things like Kurt, though. It looked like he thought Kurt was completely fine with his idea and talked about their future family a lot, much to Kurt's annoyance. Where the nursery should be, how it would look like... Kurt wished he could just shut up and not talk about the baby until it was real and Kurt had to face it. Sebastian surely didn't know how many nightmares he caused his husband. Kurt woke up several times every night, covered in sweat, breathing heavily. Was it how Sebastian's own mother felt when she had been pregnant with her son? Surely she had had similar feelings since she had been in his place before or so he knew. Maybe he should talk to her...
No. Sebastian's mother wouldn't understand him. She had long forgotten how it felt when she was imprisoned, without being able to decide what she wanted. She had accepted her fate and now seemed like she was perfectly fine with it. But Kurt wasn't like her. He hated this life and wouldn't lose hope that he could get free someday. No. He was Kurt Hummel, he was strong and wouldn't let Sebastian break him.
He still didn't know how to handle Sebastian, though. The past few years they had spent together had taught Kurt that he couldn't be careful enough. Sebastian was hard to read and he could never be sure what to expect from him. In the past few days, Sebastian seemed to change, though. One day, he had come home with a bouquet of flowers that hadn't happened in years, not before Kurt had found out who Sebastian really was. He didn't know how to handle it. Sebastian wasn't the romantic type and never cared about Kurt's feelings. So he took the flowers and placed them into the vase, muttering a quiet 'thanks'. Sebastian seemed to expect more from him but didn't say anything.
To his surprise, Sebastian didn't stop there. He ordered Kurt to wear something nice and they went out to have dinner together. Sebastian acted like a gentleman. He opened the door of the car for Kurt, he bought him more flowers, he tried to make conversation in the restaurant... Kurt had no idea why he did this. They didn't love each other and Kurt was fine spending his evenings in the house. He didn't need any of these, he didn't want to play the happy husband. He just wanted Sebastian to leave him alone.
"You're awfully quiet" Sebastian said after emptying his glass.
"I have nothing to say" Kurt said quietly, keeping his eyes on his food. It was good but not good enough to make him forget about his misery.
At least Sebastian seemed to understand that. He tried to talk with Kurt a few more times but since his husband wasn't in the mood, he paid for their food and they went home.
Kurt got out of his clothes without a word. He knew what he had to do. Sebastian wasn't nice without a reason. He surely wanted something special from him in return for the fancy dinner. So Kurt wordlessly got naked and walked to the bed, lying down onto his stomach. As expected, Sebastian joined him soon. Kurt closed his eyes as Sebastian kissed his back, his hand already between Kurt's ass cheeks.
"Turn around, honey" Sebastian said.
Kurt raised an eyebrow. That wasn't how they did things. Sebastian always got what he wanted but there was an agreement between them. They never looked into each other's eyes. Kurt always turned away from Sebastian, trying to imagine something nice while his husband had his way with him, imagining... Well, Kurt wasn't sure what Sebastian imagined when they had sex together. He surely dreamt about somebody else as well.
"Why?" he asked quietly.
"Because I want to see you" Sebastian answered.
"Why?" Kurt asked again.
"Just do it" Sebastian said impatiently.
Kurt sighed heavily. He should have known that nice Sebastian didn't last too long. He climbed into Sebastian's lap and let the man grab his waist and direct him what to do.
"That's it" Sebastian moaned as Kurt pushed himself down onto his cock. "Yes, babe. Keep moving."
Kurt closed his eyes and a second later, he wasn't in the bedroom anymore. He was in Blaine's living room, he held the man down while bouncing in his cock. Yeah, that was what he needed. He moaned, feeling the first sparks of pleasure. Blaine was such a talented young man, he pressed soft kisses all over his skin as Kurt leaned down, holding his wrists tight...
"Open your eyes."
Sebastian had to take it away from him. Of course.
Kurt took a deep breath and opened his eyes, looking at his husband carefully.
"That's better" Sebastian nodded and grabbed Kurt's waist again, pushing him down onto his cock.
"We never look at each other" Kurt pointed out.
"You noticed, too, right?" Sebastian asked. "Don't worry, babe, I know what we do wrong and I will make sure to make a few changes."
"What do you mean?" Kurt frowned.
"We don't act like a real couple. We don't even act like we like each other" Sebastian replied.
"Because we hate each other!" Kurt said.
"That's not true" Sebastian said, pulling Kurt impossibly close. "I agree that the circumstances are... quite unusual but I don't hate you. And you don't hate me either. Admit it. "
"You keep me here against my will" Kurt said.
"You can always leave" Sebastian said, kissing Kurt's lips. "If you don't want to be here, you can go. Noone will stop you."
No, they wouldn't. They would do so much worse.
"See? I knew I was right" Sebastian said, looking down at Kurt's half hard cock. He kept a hand on Kurt's back and grabbed his cock with his free hand. "Don't play the victim, Kurt. You have a nice life with me, so much nicer than what you had in that dirty apartment in New York. I know you like what you have."
Sebastian didn't understand him at all. How could he? He had never been in Kurt's position and he didn't even try to understand him. That was why he could never like Sebastian. They had had a chance when they had gotten together but Sebastian hadn't taken it. Some flowers and a dinner wouldn't change anything.
As Sebastian pulled him close, Kurt's eyes found the window of Blaine's room. He kept his eyes on the man who was getting ready for bed, wishing that he could be in Blaine's arms right now. Because Blaine cared. Because he would have made him happy.
~ o ~
Blaine was just done with his coffee when the doorbell rang. He frowned, not knowing who it could be so early. He quickly grabbed his shirt and put it on before walking to the door to open it. To his surprise, Kurt was standing there in front of him, seemingly close to panic.
"Hey. Are you okay?" Blaine asked in worry.
"Of course" Kurt said with a very fake smile on his face. "May I come in?"
Blaine nodded and got out of the way, so Kurt could step inside.
"I hope I don't disturb you" Kurt said as he walked inside.
"No. I just finished my coffee and was about to work on my song" Blaine said. "Would you like something? Coffee? Or tea?"
"A coffee would be great, thanks" Kurt said.
Blaine frowned again as they walked into the living room. Something wasn't right with Kurt. He seemed so nervous for some reason. Blaine quickly made them coffee and walked back into the living room where Kurt was standing in front of his photos, looking at his young self.
"You were a cute boy" Kurt said quietly.
"Thanks" Blaine replied.
He sat down and waited for Kurt to join him. The man sat down across him, drumming with his fingers on his leg. Blaine had never seen him like this. Kurt was always so calm... Something must have happened.
"Are you alright?" Blaine asked.
"I am. Perfectly fine, really" Kurt said quickly. "Why are you asking?"
"Because you knocked on my door at 7 in the morning?" Blaine offered.
"It's only 7?" Kurt asked in surprise.
"Yes" Blaine smiled. "You're lucky I have to finish this song today and I woke up early. I don't like it when people disturb me while I'm asleep."
"I'm so sorry" Kurt said and stood up. "I-I should go."
"Stay, please" Blaine said before Kurt couold storm out of his living room like the previous time.
"I don't want to keep you up when you have so much to do" Kurt said.
"I have plenty of time to finish that song" Blaine said. "Besides, I really need another coffee. I hate waking up so early."
Kurt smiled and sat back down.
"Me too" he said quietly.
Blaine watched him for a while, trying to figure out what was wrong with Kurt. He didn't know that Kurt practically ran to him when Sebastian had finally left for work, needing Blaine's company like air. The previous night had been awful for him. He had stayed awake for long hours after having sex with Sebastian, crying silently. This new side of Sebastian ruined him completely. He wasn't sure how long he could keep himself together but one thing was sure, he had to see Blaine. He always made him feel better and that was what he expected now, too.
"So..." Blaine started.
"So what?" Kurt asked quickly.
"You seem so... weird today" Blaine admitted. "Is there something wrong?"
"I already told you. I'm fine" Kurt said.
"So you woke up early today and decided that it would be good to visit your neighbour?" Blaine asked with a riased eyebrow.
"Exactly!" Kurt nodded.
"Hm... Okay" Blaine nodded.
"What does it mean?" Kurt frowned.
"Nothing" Blaine replied.
"Why do you think there must be something wrong when I visit you? I thought we were friends. Friends see each other often" Kurt said.
"Calm down, okay?" Blaine said. "You don't have to tell me if you don't want to."
Kurt seemed to relax at that. Whatever was bugging him, he seemingly didn't want to talk about it. Maybe he just needed someone to distract him.
"Do you want me to play for you?" Blaine offered.
"Yeah. It would be great" Kurt said and stood up, leaving his untouched coffee on the table.
Blaine led him to the piano and they sat down next to each other like the previous time. Kurt leaned forward, looking through the window. Blaine didn't know why until he bent down to see what Kurt was watching. The fence between their houses.
"Are you expecting someone today?" Blaine asked.
"No" Kurt said. "I just... I was..."
"Just checking if everything was alright?" Blaine asked.
"That's right" Kurt nodded.
"This is a peaceful area. You don't have to be afraid that someone would break into your room, especially at daylight" Blaine said.
"I always forget I'm not in Los Angeles anymore" Kurt laughed awkwardly.
"Do you want me to show you my song?" Blaine asked.
"Sure. I haven't heard the whole song the last time" Kurt said.
Blaine nodded and started playing, his eyes more on Kurt than on the keyboard. The man was a mystery, always surprising him and never telling him too much... Blaine was dying to know what Kurt was hiding. Because he was hiding something for sure.
At least he helped Blaine get through his trouble with the final notes. As he played his song for Kurt, he finally found those notes he had been looking for for days. He laughed happily, quickly writing them down before he forgot them.
"You just helped me finish this song" Blaine said as he leaned back.
"Really?" Kurt smiled.
"Yeah. I was almost ready with it but I didn't know how to finish the song. So thank you. You saved my life" Blaine said.
"Oh, come on" Kurt laughed. "You would have solved the problem on your own."
"I'm not so sure" Blaine sighed. "I have a meeting tomorrow and I have to present the whole song for the producers. That's why it was so important to finish it today. I'm running out of time."
"So you will be gone for a few days?" Kurt asked, seemingly disappointed.
"Three days" Blaine nodded. "Maybe two if I can get ready with everything faster."
Kurt sighed heavily. Blaine had a feeling that he didn't really like that Blaine left for days.
"You know... if there is something you want to talk about, we can discuss it... now" Blaine said hesitantly.
"I'm fine" Kurt said. God, how many times had he repeated the same words before?
"You aren't" Blaine replied. Kurt couldn't fool him and he wanted to help him before he left. He would be so much calmer if he knew Kurt was alright. Even if he didn't really know the man, he cared about Kurt. A lot. He actually felt like he was falling in love with him, even if he had no chance with Kurt. It didn't mean he wouldn't do everything to make sure he was happy, though.
"Look, Blaine, it's not something I want to talk about" Kurt said.
"Is it about kids?" Blaine asked, remembering that awkward dinner at the Smythes a few days earlier.
Kurt smiled sadly as he looked down.
"You don't want children" Blaine stated. He didn't have to ask, he saw it in Kurt's eyes.
"No" Kurt admitted.
"Then tell Sebastian" Blaine said. "You shouldn't have kids if you aren't ready. It won't be good for them. Trust me, I know. I barely saw my own parents because they didn't care about me at all. Do you want to raise your kids like that?"
"I would learn to love them" Kurt said.
"No, you wouldn't" Blaine shook his head. "It's not something you can learn. I don't even understand why you don't tell Sebastian. You are both young, you have plenty of time to have kids."
Kurt sighed, still looking at his hands in his lap. Blaine didn't get it.
"Sebastian wants a baby, so we will have one" he said quietly. He was so upset that he forgot that he had to be careful with his words.
"Why do you let him treat you like this?" Blaine asked.
Kurt glanced at him for a second but then turned back to his hands.
"It's... complicated" he said.
"You can tell me" Blaine said.
"I won't" Kurt replied.
"Why not?" Blaine asked loudly. Getting nowhere with Kurt made him so frustrated. "Don't you trust me?"
"I do" Kurt replied, now looking straight into Blaine's eyes. "I just... there are some things I don't want to talk about."
"Fine" Blaine nodded. "Let's start with the basics. Tell me your name."
"I'm Kurt Smythe, you know..."
"Your birth name, Kurt" Blaine asked. "How people called you before you got married."
"It doesn't matter" Kurt said. He wasn't looking at Blaine anymore. Blaine didn't let him do this again, though. He needed answers and he would get them from Kurt.
"What are you hiding, Kurt?" Blaine asked.
"I'm not hiding anything" Kurt said.
"Really? Then answer me one question: why couldn't I find a single word about you on the Internet when there are hundreds of articles about Sebastian? Why does it look like you don't even exist?" Blaine asked.
"You... you looked me up on the Internet?" Kurt asked.
"Well, I tried to but I didn't find anything" Blaine replied.
"You have no right to do that!" Kurt gasped.
"Why not? Because I would find out that my weird neighbours are hiding something?" Blaine asked.
"We have nothing to hide" Kurt said.
"Oh, please" Blaine shook his head. "Don't think I'm stupid, Kurt. I know that sometihng isn't right with you two and I will find out what it is."
"No" Kurt said.
"Believe me, I will" Blaine said determinedly.
"You can't!" Kurt said desperately.
"Why not? What are you so scared of, Kurt?" Blaine asked.
"No" Kurt said as he stood up, shaking his head. "I won't tell you anything."
"Kurt, if you are in trouble, I can help you..."
"No" Kurt said, his voice a lot stronger this time. "Stay out of our life, Blaine."
"But..."
"Just leave us alone!" Kurt shouted.
Silence followed his words, only the heavy breathing of the two men breaking it for a whole minute.
"I'm serious, Blaine" Kurt said quietly. "Don't try to find out more about us. Please. For your own sake."
"What does it mean?" Blaine asked.
But Kurt didn't answer. He took a deep breath and stormed out of the house without looking back. Blaine didn't follow him. He wasn't sure if he should. What did Kurt mean with those words? Was Blaine wrong about him? Was Kurt a dangerous man? Would he hurt Blaine if he dig deeper? Or was it Sebastiasn he should be worried about?
So many questions he couldn't answer yet. But one thing was sure, he would find those answers. Starting with the truth about Kurt Smythe. He had to find out who Kurt really was.