Bella's P.O.V
"Listen… I know that I am probably stepping over your boundary that you set up for me by picking you up, but I just wanted to see you. So, I'm not going to apologize for wanting to see you," Edward said while he started up the car to take them to school. "I just thought I should tell you."
After he said his little speech, there was a comfortable silence that fell between them.
"OH MY GOD! What am I going to do?" I reflected as guilt gnawed at my insides. "Maybe I should tell him…It is his right to know, even though we're technically not together."
"Edward…I have to tell you someth-,"
"Bella, love, I can't take this. I can't take being away from you," he cut me off. "I just want you to know how I feel. I love you; you are my life. These last couple of months has been horrible…. I just stood by while I seen you drift further and further away from me. And I could do nothing about it. But, I'm willing to change and I just wanted to let you know. I realize that you're not going to make a choice right now or anything, but I just want to put in my two cents before you make up your mind."
Edward looked over at me and he just had on the most sad, pathetic attempt for a smile on that I just started to giggle.
I started to chuckle and I reached up my hand to try and hide my mouth. I guess it didn't work because Edward just had this depressing emotion past his eyes and it made me stop in my tracks. "Oh, no, no, nooo… I'm not laughing at what you said or you… well, yeah I'm laughing at you. But it was just you're smile that you had on. It was such a puppy dog look and it was adorable. I'm sorry," I finished my giggles. I reached for his hand and grasped it.
He slowly looked down at our intertwined fingers and raised my hand up to his mouth. He kissed my hand; it was so gentlemanly that I almost swooned. The touch, that was so familiar, made me feel like there was an electrical shock running through my hand all the way through my body. The feeling was phenomenal.
"I never get tired of the special things that he does because they make me feel so womanly and wanted," I thought lightheartedly.
The rest of the twenty minute ride was so serene. The classical music was the only thing to be heard and it was wonderful. I felt completely at home and that was something that I haven't felt with him in such a long time.
Edward helped me to unpack all of my things and left me all alone in our dorm room. He said that he wanted to give me privacy and time to think, so he is going to stay next door in Jasper and Alice's room. But, I know that he is giving me more space and time to think about what he said.
I sighed, "Because I do have a lot to think about. Edward wants me to give him another chance and all Jacob wants is his first chance to prove to me that he is right for me…But I honestly don't think that Jacob is right for me. He loves me and all, but… to be honest, I could never look at him as anything more as just a friend. I know that it will crush his heart, but he needs to know the truth before he is crushed by be again."
I lay awake for hours, thinking about Edward and what I was going to do about that whole situation. Should I get back together with him? If yes, then when? Sooner or later? Should I tell Edward about what I did with Jacob? Or will that just break his heart needlessly? I looked over at my digital alarm clock and saw that it was 3:45 in the morning.
I groaned, "I have to get up in a little over 3 hours…I really need to get to sleep."
Three weeks later
I was sitting the cafeteria all by myself, studying for my Calculus test when Rosalie stopped on the other side of the table and leaned over the table towards me.
"So… When are you going to stop being a bitch towards Edward and stop leading him on?" She snapped.
"WHAT? Where does she get the right to come at me like that?!" I thought non-to-gently to myself.
"Rosalie, this is none of your business. And I would kindly appreciate it if you got out of mine and Edwards business," I calmly stated.
"You think you're so damn special don't you?! You act like you are just some prim-a-Donna that can do what ever she wants…. God, you're stupid. You're breaking his heart and you don't even CARE!! You don't deserve him and I don't even know why he is waiting for you because you're just vermin that walks around pretending to be a female. You're despicable!" She raged at me.
"If she only knew what I thought about myself…" I thought. I looked into her eyes and saw nothing but love for Edward. And I immediately felt horrible because I realized that was she was saying was one hundred percent true. Everything she said was true.
"She's just sticking up for him Bella. Keep it together. Don't cry in front of her… don't give her power…" My eyes started to mist.
"HA! I'm right and you're admitting it!" Rosalie gloated.
I started to grab my book and papers when Edward and Jasper walked over to the table laughing. They went to go put their lunches down at the table when they noticed what was going on.
"What's going on," Edward asked.
I ignored him and hastily brushed past him to get to the dorm room. "Why are you crying...? Bella!" He questioned while trying to keep up with me. Before I got to the steps to go up, he grabbed my arm. "What's going on love? Tell me what Rose said to you."
"She didn't say anything that I didn't know already! She only said that I don't deserve you and that I pretty much shouldn't be alive. Nothing that isn't true. Now please just leave me alone," I broke down and sobbed. I tried to rush past him but he caught me and tightly hugged me.
"Bella, you deserve the whole world and I know that I can't give it to you, but I'm trying. You're beautiful, caring and inspiring. Don't listen to her because her opinion doesn't matter to me. She doesn't have any bearing on us what so ever," Edward confirmed.
I nodded my head against his chest just to appease him.
"Oh Edward, don't try to cheer me up. You shouldn't be wasting any more time on me because I am a horrendous person. But since you're changing, I want to change too. I think it's past time that we got back together, officially. I love you and I've missed you."
Edward held me out at arms length and looked deeply into my eyes and said, "Thank you but can't you go up to our room right now. I have something that I want to take care of." He turned around and stomped out of the hallway, back into the cafeteria.
I stumbled up the stairs, through my tears, and finally reached my room. I walked to my bed and fell into a troubled sleep.
Edward's P.O.V
After I heard what Rosalie had said to Bella, I was appalled by her.
"Who the hell does she think she is? I didn't tell her to stick her nose into my business and go off on Bella. If she really had my best interest at heart, then she would have been trying to get Bella to go back out with me, not hate me…I'll get to the bottom of this," I stormed as I rushed over to where she sat with Jasper but now she was also joined by Emmett and Alice too.
"Who the hell do you think you are… going off on Bella like that? Where do you get off telling her that she is worthless? THIS IS MY RELATIONSHIP!! STAY OUT OF IT!!" I yelled at her. "Don't talk to me, don't even come near me. Do you understand me Rosalie?"
"I was only sticking up for you since you won't do it!" Rosalie glared at me.
"You were trying to stick up for me by destroying the one relationship that I truly cherish the most? How is that helping? It sounds to me like you are just sabotaging my chance for happiness!"
"Oh, puh-lease. Don't flatter yourself so much. I don't thin about you enough to want to sabotage anything of yours. Whatever… I'm out of here. I know when I'm not wanted," she got up and strutted out of the cafeteria.
I glanced around at everyone else at the table. "I'm sorry that you had to see that but she said some unreasonable things to Bella and I had to straighten that out. I've just been… so stressed lately," I sighed "and that just put the icing on the cake pretty much." I sat down next to Emmett and he slapped my back.
"It'll be fine. Trust me, Bella will turn around and see you the way she did not to long ago. You guy are in love and she can't ignore that fact," Emmett said comforting me.
I started to laugh, "Oh my god, I should be thanking Rosalie right now. If it wasn't for Bella and her fight, Bella probably wouldn't have told me that she want to get back together with me," I smiled. "At least one good thing came out of this."
Everyone around the table started smiling and congratulating me.
"I knew that everything would work out. I could just sense it," Alice stated. "Um… Edward… didn't you say that Bella was crying about what Rose said?"
"Yeah…?" I said confused.
"Um… maybe you should be upstairs comforting her… especially since yah'll are now dating each other again!" Alice raised one eyebrow.
I jumped up from where I was seated. "Oh, I almost forgot. I'll catch you guys later." And I ran up four flights of stairs to my love. Once I reached the door, I paused. I knew what she said to me about us being together but I was scared.
"Does she still want some space to get back into the groove of things or should I just jumped right back into our relationship and comfort her in her time of need?" I thought nervously. I timidly knocked on the door.
"Bella, love… Can I come in?"
I heard a shuffling noise and the door cracked open. I saw the most beautiful face ever; even through the red, puffy eyes and running mascara. She backed up from the door, wordlessly, and let me in. I felt instantly relieved and I pulled her into my arms and snuggled with her on her bed… excuse me, our bed.
Bella fell asleep and I stayed up, for I was contented on just watching her sleep. "I'm so thankful that we are back together. I'm not going to let anything get in the way of us ever again," I sighed contentedly "Nothing can go wrong."
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