Ok so thanks to everyone who reviewed and told me if I was going to fast or not. And everyone said that I wasn't going fast enough. It made me smile. Lol. So, I guess I could step it up a notch. Here is chapter 6!
We walked on the beach for a good 20 minutes before we went back to the house. I loved the ocean. Well, the sand and the water part. The smell of salt and seagulls up above wasn't the biggest thing that I loved though. But the feeling of the sand between my toes was awesome. And what other way would I want to spend the first time walking on the beach? It was good. Everything. We even flirted. I was surprised that she was flirting back with me. Hell, who am I kidding? I called it the first time I talked to her that she was into me.
When we got back up closer to the house, she squealed at the song that came on. "I love this song." She smiled over at me. She started to sing with him, "How do I breatheeee? How do I breatheee? Feels so different being here—what?" I guess I shouldn't have stared at her while she sung. She has an awesome voice
"Your voice is really good." She smiled and turned away shyly. She is way too cute.
"Shut up. No it's not." She looked back over at me and she started to hum along with the song
"Hey, take the compliment; I don't give them out very often." I smiled at her and we both sat down on the porch steps. She's still humming along with the song and she is really cute. I kind of want to kiss her but I know I shouldn't. She would probably flip out. You know, being with the whole Catholic thing your whole life and learning that being gay isn't the right way to go. Yeah, I should just stop thinking about her like that.
The song ends and she sighs, "I loved that song." I chuckle
"Yeah I know. You told me." The next one started and her eyes got brighter and her smile grew, "Lemme guess, you love this one too?" She laughed
"What gave it away?" She smiled at me and that's when I noticed just how brown her eyes are. They're a chocolate brown. They look like the eyes that can just see right through me and can read my mind. Like, they already know my whole past and everything I love and hate. It feels like I've stared into these knowing eyes before. I just can't place it.
"Sing it." I smile at her. I can tell from the moonlight that her cheeks are turning a light shade of pink
"Really?" I nod and she groans and starts it, "…You are another kind. You mean to me what I mean to youuu…" Her voice is amazing. Like, I really hate hip hop and she makes it so much better, "… oh! Im into you and girl no one else would do cause with every kiss and every hug you make me fall in love…" she is just amazing. I've decided that I like her. A lot. And I can't control who I like.
A couple more people came outside and watched her sing. She didn't notice them or else she would have stopped by now. Im glad she didn't notice them, I really like her singing. Or rapping. Or whatever you call it. She ends the song and a couple of people clap and her eyes go big and her cheeks go red. "Oh my god! Why didn't you tell me there were people here!" She playfully punches me on my arm
"You were too good to stop." I tilt my head and smile at her. Usually this makes girls go crazy. I wonder if it'll work on her.
"Shut up." Her cell phone starts to ring and it plays another hip hop song that I don't know. It has a soft beat to it though and I kind of like it. Oh my god, what is she doing to me! Im not supposed to like hip hop. I love punk rock. There's no question about it. "Oh my god, is he? Crap. Ok im on my way." And she hangs up her phone. I wonder what that little burst out was about. She turns to me, "Ok, that was my sister. The principle is looking for us." Shit. Yeah this isn't good. I still never got to make my move!
We stand up and we start walking fast through the house when a slow song comes on. I stop at the door and she looks over her shoulder and noticed that I stopped. "What are you doing?" She starts walking towards me
"One dance before we leave?" I send her a soft smile now
"We're going to get in—" I know I do this a lot. But sometimes it's just required to do it. You know, how remotes require batteries.
"In trouble. I know. That's all you worry about you know that? Live life on the edge! Paint the town red! The grass—" She puts her hand over my mouth and I smile into it.
I guess I had that one coming huh? "Ok ok, if I dance with you, will you shut up?" She laughs a little with a smile as she takes her hand back.
I smile bigger, "Yes." I offer her my hand and she takes it.
I lead her into the living room where everyone is slow dancing. Last time I checked though, parties don't have slow songs. They must have read my mind. This is like, the only time that I really want to dance to a slow song. I put my arms around her waist and she puts her around my neck. I noticed that she is a little taller than me. And I could so kiss her right now. But I won't, because I don't want to scare her off.
I stare at her though, and I notice that she is staring back into my eyes. And when she notices me staring back at her, she smiles softly and turns away shyly. I pull her closer to me and she adjusts her arms to be more comfortable. Now we're about 3 inches apart from each other. I can feel the heat coming off of her. She looks at me again and it's the perfect moment because she just looked down at my lips. I kiss her.
She kisses me back too! But then she pulls away quickly. Like, all the way away. We aren't even dancing anymore. That whole kiss lasted about 5 seconds. I hear her mumbling under her breath, "Oh my god, oh my god. What did I just do?" I stare at her for a second and I realized just what I did and how wrong it was for me too do that. I shouldn't have done that. And why the hell am I acting like this? Usually I never regret kissing another girl. But right now, I feel so freaking bad. I run after Ashley who just walked out of the front door and is now making her way down the driveway and onto the road.
She walks really fast so I have to run to her. I grab her arm, "Ashley im sorry. I didn't mean—" She turns around
"I can't believe I just kissed my best friend." What the hell?
I let go of her arm, "Ok I only danced with you. It doesn't mean that im your best friend." Why is she staring at me like im insane? I never even said anything about being friends! How the hell did she get best friends out of one night of hanging out!?
She backs up a little, "You have no clue who I am do you?" What kind of question is that? I don't kiss girls I don't know. Im not a skank.
"Um yeah. You're Ashley." Duh.
"Yeah. And you're Spencer Carlin. And you have no clue who I am but I know who you are." Ok, I don't see where this is going.
"Um you never told me your last name… so I guess I don't know you?" She's getting all weird on me again
Ok now she's walking towards me again. "Davies, Spencer. It's Davies." Whoa. Wait just a god damn second. Davies? Do you think she's related to R—whoa! Wait a second! You mean… I just kissed… oh god this so can't be happening. No no no.
"No no no. You aren't her. My Ashley doesn't have a sister. No." Oh my god. No, this is so not happening. It can't be. No. please don't let this be my Ashley.
I start to back up and apparently im freaking out, "Spence, it's me." Why the fuck is she acting so damn calm!
"No it's not. No. You aren't her." I turn around. I so have to get away from her. Why is she acting like my Ashley? Why is she claiming to be her? No it can't be her. No.
"Spencer!" She grabs my arm and turns me around, "It's me ok? What can I do to prove it?"
"Leave me alone. You're not her." Maybe if I keep saying it, she will just go away. Why are there tears in my eyes? Why does this have to be her?! Why did I kiss my ex-best friend? Why? Im walking away from her because she's a fraud. She's not Ashley Davies. She's not. She just isn't. ok?
"Your birthday is September 7th. You thought Ken was ugly. You lived in a big farm house at 1418 south elm, Ohio. You lived up the street from the creek we always hung out in during the summers. You're terrified of spiders. Your favorite color was orange and your birthmark is on your butt." Oh my god it is her.
I turn around and look at her. She starts walking back to me again, "If you knew it was me, then why didn't you say anything?" Ok so im allowed to be a little mad
"I wanted you to figure it out on your own! I did." Oh yeah did you?
"You knew my last name! Why didn't you ever write or call?" That's not something to bring up now.
"I did!" No she didn't. She's a liar. "You never wrote or called me back!" Is she really trying to turn this around onto me? She can't do that!
"I never got your letters nor your messages. So apparently, you never wrote or called." I need to get out of this place. I need to go back home where I actually belong. I need to get away from her.
I walk past her, "Spencer don't leave." She runs up next to me and stops me again, "Listen—"
"I don't want too." I shrug her hand off of my arm. It doesn't belong there. It isn't allowed to be there. I continue walking.
"Why do you always cut me off?" I stop and turn around
"Because all you care about is not getting into trouble. You've been in that hell hole for too god damn long! You've changed so much." Ha! What am I saying? I've changed way more than her
"You think I wanted to change, Spencer? You think I wanted to go to a catholic school where I didn't know anybody? You think I moved because I wanted to hurt you?" She's next to me again. Holding my hands. Again. Her thumb, it's her. I know it is. "I hated my parents for making me move. And guess what, Spence, right after we moved to LA, my father died in a car accident. And guess who I got to live with? My mom. The only person in the whole world that I hate." It's true. When she was little, that's all she ever talked about. How much she hated her mom. "I wrote to you every day it seemed like. I waited for the mail to come every day just to see if you've written back. You never did." She lets go of my hands and they instantly become cold.
The moonlight is shinning on her face just right that I can tell that her eyes are filled with tears. "I knew I had the right address because I knew your address by heart. I knew your phone number by heart. And every time I called, no one answered. It would ring 3 times and just stop." And I feel even worse right now. Because I don't even remember any of this. I hardly remember her before she left. I only remember her after she left me because I didn't have her in my life anymore. The one thing that I actually woke up for every morning and got out of bed and dressed for moved away.
"I… didn't… know." I say it really quiet. I really didn't. I was really young. I was 8 years old. I don't remember anything from my childhood really.
"Of course you didn't. You know why? My mom is a bitch." Whoa, she just cussed. "And this is why I hate her! She took me away from the only person that I got out of bed for every morning and got dressed just to see every day." Aw. She better be talking about me.
"Ashley…" And that's all I could say because really, what else could I say? I like my ex-best friend and now I know why we never stayed in touch. So, I do what I do best in this type of situation. I mean, it's not like im in this exact situation all the time. I just meant the sad and depressing situation. So, I kiss her without thinking. Why the hell am I kissing her? Because there are no words to say what im feeling right now and apparently for her too because she's kissing me back. I never would have thought about this moment right now. You know why? Ashley Davies use to be my best friend.
And now look at her. She's the most popular girl in school. Everyone either loves her or hates her. They either want to be her or kill her. And she's really just all fake smiles and laughs, covering up the hurt of her terrible childhood. Her dead father and her bitch of a mother who I believe is behind this all. And I will find out as soon as I figure out where she lives because she is so getting a word from her favorite person in the whole wide world. Spencer Carlin; new and improved: With special combat fighting techniques and a higher vocabulary. Cuss words are included. Caution; will bite, yell, kick, scream, punch, stab, shoot if necessary.
Anyways, since you guys thought that I was moving too slowly, I sped it up. A lot. Lol. Tell me what you think! What do you think will happen? What do you want to see next? Or anything you want to say!