We all got to the beach party and Nick dashed for the water almost immediately. Nick was like a little kid when it came to the beach. I always wanted to be so happy that something good could make me act like a kid again but I never was a kid. The only time I've ever been to the beach was with my cousin. Selena stood next to Joe and I and stared at Nick who was already in the water. I knew she wanted to be with him. She's liked him for years but she will never say it out loud.

"Go for it Selly!" I smiled at her.

"Are you sure?" Selena asked looking at me not wanting to leave me alone.

I nodded. "I'll find something to do I'll be okay don't worry have fun!" Selena hugged me and went over to Nick. I admired what they had with each other. This beautiful friendship and a blossoming into a love for each other, the best part is they respect each other as people. The greatest two people I know.

"They are something else." Joe and I laughed at Nick and Selena.

"At this rate we're going to have to lock them in a room and force them to talk about their feelings." I said staring at them before glancing over at Joe.

"Sounds like a plan." He said as we turned around. "Do you want something to eat?"

"Yeah that'd be great." We went to get some food. We grabbed hot dogs. I think he wanted to feed me. It made me feel bad that he probably still thinks I have an eating disorder. I guess I could prove that I didn't by eating the hot dog.

"Here you go." Joe said passing me the mustard.

I loaded my hot dog with mustard and ketchup. "What?" I asked noticing Joe was making a weird face.

"Mustard and ketchup together." Joe was grossed out at the combination. He had just mustard.

I laughed. "It's normal."

"Nothing is normal about it." Joe said as he bit into his hot dog.

"It's very normal." I shook my head and ate my food.

The xanax wore off I was so scared of something bad happening. The anxiety was too much. I wanted to cut but I knew I couldn't. We finished eating and went back near where we left Selena and Nick. They were still near the water. Nick was in the water and Selena was laying on the sand taking a break but watching him. They didn't notice us.

"Want a drink?" Joe asked me looking at the collection of alcohol.

"Yes please." I needed something to numb my pain so I took it. I've never drank before but I'm not sure he knows that. He's drank with Nick a few times so I think he assumes we all drink at parties. I don't go to parties so I don't drink. I've seen many people drink to forget all the time. There's no reason why I shouldn't do the same thing I'm tired of being the good girl. I'm afraid of my dad or stepmother finding out I was here, I was scared Chelsea would make a scene if she saw me with Joe and if anyone sees my body. I needed to be drunk.

"Hey, I'll be right back I have to use the bathroom." Joe handed me his drink and left. I downed my drink before grabbing another one. I didn't want him to catch on that I wanted to be plastered to forget this painful life. At least for one night.

Joe walked back and I handed him his drink. "Thanks." He said.

"So what now?" I asked him.

"Do you wanna dance?" I was surprised as he asked me to dance.

"Isn't that a thing couples do?" I asked Joe raising my eyebrow.

"Maybe it is, so what?" Joe winked and took my hand as we started dancing. He held me in his arms while we swayed. I thought I was dreaming or drunk this wasn't what I expected tonight to be at all. This felt like a date. I've never been on a date but this is what I picture one to be. Joe wasn't treating me like the way a friend does. It felt like we were dating.

We danced for a couple songs with a few drink breaks.

"You look so good tonight." Joe smiled at me. "So pretty like always." He added rubbing my arm gently.

I blushed. "Thank you." I was wondering what had gotten into him. Joe has been treating me so good and there's no way Kevin influenced all of this. I wanted to know what was going on in that head of his. I was beginning to get sloppy the alcohol was hitting me hard. Joe was maybe buzzed but I was full on drunk. We kept dancing and having fun. I noticed Selena burning her eyes into the bed of my head. She was so confused that made two of us. I wanted to get out of here the last thing I needed was Selena questioning me. "Let's go for a walk." I knew if we stayed in this spot any longer she would be right here.

Joe and I went off into a quiet area and talked, laughed, drank. I felt so close to him. I felt so safe. What did this mean? I wasn't really sure what it meant, maybe I was too drunk to know. It was all very new to me. I was so nervous and scared of my feelings and what he's thinking.

He appear like a dream to me.

"Tonight was great." He said taking a sip of his beer.

"Yeah it was. I really needed it." I said looking down remembering reality.

"Is everything okay?" Joe asked worried we both knew I was going through stuff from that outburst in the cafeteria yesterday.

"Yes I just want to go swimming." Wow I was really drunk.

"Okay let's go dork." He laughed and took his shirt off.

I was fidgeting he looked so good. I downed my drink and ran into the ocean. It probably wasn't the best idea but it sounded fun, I'm a different person when I drink clearly. I feel good for once and I wanted to go with the flow tonight maybe it was exactly what I needed.

"I've never done anything like this in my life!" I yelled over the waves.

"Me either." Joe smiled at me pulling me close to him.

"I'm not so sure of that." I mentioned. I figured Joe was a regular beach goer especially with his dates.

He laughed. "I think you'd be surprised at how awful my dates usually go." There it was the word date.

We swam I almost drowned once he kept me afloat. "Thank you for keeping me from drowning." I laughed.

"Miss Lovato I had no idea you could have this much fun." He smirked and it turned into a laugh.

I smiled. "Me either." I almost slip half my head going under water.

Joe pulled me up "Whoa there you're okay." He held me closely so I wouldn't go underwater. I looked into his brown eyes.

"This has been so nice." I smiled and he stared at my lips before placing his on me. I kissed him back and he pulled me closer. I wrapped my legs around him and grabbed his neck. Joe kissed my neck and I giggled. He kissed my lips again and deepened it. We were full on making out in the ocean. I was so drunk that I barely even knew what I was doing and I didn't this was my first time doing this. We pulled away before this got too heavy. "Wow."

"You want to get out of the ocean?" Joe laughed.

"Yes." I smiled. We got out he helped me because I was way too drunk to swim We got out of the water and Joe went to hold my hand.

"Let's go back to my house to dry up." He suggested.

"Yeah good idea." We walked to his house.

Author's Note:

Next one get's interesting hahaha! Thoughts?