Title: All I've Ever Wanted
Author: Readingmama/Vampiremama
Beta: AcrossTheSkyInStars

Disclaimer: I do not own Twilight or any of its characters. No copyright infringement is intended.

Continuity: AU—Set after Breaking Dawn
Rating: M for sexual situations and violence.

A/N- Thanks to Tanya who did a stellar job with this piece, I guess Rose and Emmett cause me to make more mistakes.

Chapter 6

Emmett held his small son in his hands; he could hardly believe such a tiny thing could be such a big part of him. He and Rosalie had named the baby Joseph Carlisle McCarty, but as with the rest of the family, it would change to suit the current identity of his coven. That was, when they were ready to return and if they were accepted back.

Rosalie approached Emmett and her son carefully. She had been walking on eggshells since the day Joe was born three weeks earlier. In her mind, she had done the right thing. It's what she would have wanted and yet Emmett couldn't see that. He thought that anyone in Violet's situation would have asked for death. It was unfair not to let her change. They were still working on agreeing to disagree.

Rosalie's pride was also a major part of the problem. When Emmett had returned to find Violet's neck snapped, he was furious and his reaction caused Rosalie to believe that he'd loved the mortal girl. Her self-esteem took a hit, couple that with Emmett's guilt and it was going to take time for them to trust each other again.

When Joseph saw Rosalie, he reached out his arms. He rarely spoke even though he'd being doing so for two weeks already. Emmett let out a deep sigh before transferring the baby between them. Of course, JC could have walked as he had started just a day earlier. Rosalie kept her eyes on Emmett and he kept his eyes on the baby.

"I'm going to hunt," Emmett said blankly.

"You don't have to leave," Rosalie protested.

Emmett didn't say another word; he just disappeared into the woods. When she could no longer see him, she looked down at her baby. With dark curly hair and big brown eyes, JC was the spitting image of his father. There wasn't a trace of Violet anywhere in him and therefore any likeness to her was omitted. It didn't bother her though, the baby was a gift. Well, maybe not a gift, as she had plundered and destroyed to get it. No, he was not a gift, but the greatest treasure, worth fighting for, worth killing for.

The phone in the house rang and Rosalie gathered JC in her arms, moving quickly to answer. When she arrived, she stared at it, suddenly unsure of whether to answer it. They hadn't spoken to the family since JC had been born and she was nervous about Alice. She didn't know what she would do if Emmett and her were no longer welcome home. Would they hate her for what she had done? The price was suddenly very real to her.

She listened to the phone ring, unable to pick it up. The ringing haunted her as it echoed through the room. When it stopped, she let out a small breath, knowing that she needed to fix what was between her and Emmett before she could even consider facing the family.

Joseph cooed in her arms and she snuggled the baby close to her chest. His eyes, closing with sleep, suddenly flitted open as sleepy words poured out of his mouth, "I'm glad you're my mommy." The simple sentence made Rosalie want to weep with joy as well as pain.

Smiling at the little blue onesie with a bear on it, she tucked him into his crib and sat down next to it. She finally understood Edward's former obsession with watching Bella sleep, although her sister-in-law was not nearly as dear as her son. Also, she was pretty sure Bella hadn't blown spit bubbles in her slumber.

Emmett was quiet when he returned but Rosalie heard him. While her son was sleeping, she had spent the time dissecting her intentions from the last few months. She hadn't wanted to admit things to herself because they opened a wound she thought had mostly healed. But she knew she would have to tear it open if there was any chance for her and her husband to reconcile.

"Emmett," she said softly as she entered the living room. He looked at her but said nothing. "Can I talk to you?"

"I don't know if it will help," Emmett replied warily.

"Please, you don't have to talk, just listen." Emmett nodded. "I know you must think terrible things about me. In the last three weeks, I've thought them of myself. You are mad that I killed Violet, and I get that but I want you to know why I really did it. I knew she would tell me to kill her when I asked. I used that as an out for my actions; but I didn't murder her for the reasons you think. I won't deny that I was jealous of her; I think we both know I was, but I also was extremely grateful to her. She was providing us a service that was so great that she will forever have my love. But in that service, I took from her. I stole her chance at a family, at a normal life, I did to her what Royce and his friends did to me."

"No, Rosie," Emmett denied but Rosalie kept talking.

"Yes! I took her life from me, and in the end, I tried to give her a way out. I gave her what I would have wanted. I couldn't let her exist in a world where she couldn't be with her child; even I'm not that cruel.

"So, I just wanted you to know my reasons, and I know they are flawed, but so am I. I am so broken, Emmett. What kind of person would allow her husband to sleep with another woman just to get a baby?"

"I participated willingly, Rosie, this is my fault too."

"No, Emmett, you would do anything for me and I used that. I was horrible to ask you to do this and yet I love our son so much. The feelings inside of me are so conflicted. I just…I need to know, is there any way that we can be fixed because Emmett, I don't want to do this without you. You have been there for me since the day you woke up into this life and I've never really thanked you for that. I love you so much. I need you to be there with me and our baby, I need Joe to learn how to be good and you are the one that can do that." As Rosalie spoke, she walked cautiously towards Emmett, the unknown of how he would react made her body shake.

Emmett's eyes remained blank as Rosalie told her story, his mind working overdrive to detect any falsities. She seemed so broken and yet he knew that he was not the one to break her, she had done it to herself.

"You don't have to forgive me today, but can you at least let me know if it's possible?" Her voice shook as she stood there with her arms limp at her side.

He gazed into her eyes and saw the fragile woman he remembered from the past. The one that had shown him glimpses of meekness and trust, although now he was getting far more than glimpses. Rosalie was laid bare before him and he had a choice to make.

Taking two steps towards her, Emmett gathered his wife in his arms and kissed her. It was less than the frantic style they had always had and more than the fragile touch that he had adopted after being with Violet. It was explanatory of his love for her, firm and passionate. Rosalie gave of herself but didn't try to dominate, she was open to him, giving him what he needed while accepting what he had to offer.

Joseph's cry interrupted their moment but neither of them felt any loss. There would be more time for caresses later. There was still much ahead for them to face, the rest of the family were likely to be disappointed in them but now they would face it as a team. They had made mistakes but the product of those follies was so beautiful that they couldn't imagine anyone staying mad at them too long.

Emmett took his wife's hand and led her into the nursery. Joe was standing in his crib smiling at the sight of his parents together.

"Are you done fighting?" he asked.

Rosalie looked at Emmett and he flashed his dimples as he answered.

"Naw, but we're done fighting each other."

The End.

E/N- Thanks to everyone who took this journey with me. I hope you enjoy the conclusion. If you don't already have me on author alert you are going to miss my B/E fic coming soon and that would just be sad.

I'm going to offer Reviewers a sneak peak of my new fic.

Anyone who read The Peanut Butter Sandwich Man, I am happy to report the sequel one shot is coming along great and I would imagine it will be up in a week or so.