Firsts

A/N: The final part of my little smut-fic that contains Haruka's and Makoto's first time ;)

If you don't like smut then I don't know why you are reading this… Anyway, enjoy!

Haruka opened his sleepy blue eyes when the first rays of sun seeped through the blinds. He instantly clawed next to him to feel that familiar warmth that represented his boyfriend but when his hand hit a cold spot, Haruka was confused. Makoto would always be by his side when he woke up and to Haruka it was a biting feeling that Makoto wasn't there. Haruka would never admit how he loved the first cuddle of the day, he would always snuggle up close to Makoto and let himself be held by those strong arms. He would breathe in Makoto's scent and he would cherish the moment until they had to get up to face the new day.

Haruka grumbled as he turned to his side and was faced with the very empty spot next to him. Haruka shifted and when his face fell on Makoto's pillow, he smiled because the pillow had Makoto's scent all over it. Haruka remained motionless for a few more minutes until he decided to get up. It would seem that Makoto wouldn't come back any time soon so Haruka had nothing left to do than get up and face the day alone. With a deep sigh, Haruka swung his legs over the edge of the bed and trudged out of the bedroom. He didn't even bother putting on a T-shirt since the house was comfortably warm. When Haruka walked down the stairs, his nose was graced with another scent that he adored. Haruka increased his pace and he was greeted with the first smile of the day.

"Good morning, Haru-chan," Makoto smiled and Haruka's heart melted a little when he saw that Makoto was wearing an apron.

"Morning," Haruka yawned as he took a seat at the table, waiting for Makoto to produce the most delicious breakfast ever. At least, to Haruka, mackerel was the best breakfast one could ask for!

"It's almost ready," Makoto hummed and Haruka waited patiently. It was the first time that Makoto made breakfast and Haruka would enjoy every second of this event. Haruka knew that Makoto wasn't much of a cooking prince but that didn't matter because to Haruka, Makoto was his only prince.

When Makoto served Haruka's fish, the raven-haired male smiled at Makoto and Haruka loved the little blush that had formed on Makoto's cheeks. Makoto took a seat next to Haruka and he waited patiently until Haruka took a bite. The mackerel was perfect and Haruka hummed appreciatively throughout breakfast, savouring each and every bite. It tasted so much better because Makoto had made it and Haruka simply loved everything that Makoto did.

"You're the best," Haruka said when he shoved his plate away when he was finished.

Makoto blushed once more and he smiled shyly at the raven-haired male. Earning praise from Haruka was rare and when it happened, Makoto felt over the moon.

"No you are," Makoto said while trying to contain his glee. They shared a quick kiss that held enough affection to last the entire morning.

When there is darkness all around me, you're the light I see…

Haruka closed the front door behind him and he smiled when he saw Makoto sitting on the steps with a kitten in his lap. It was so like Makoto to play around with the stray kittens. Haruka sighed contently as he walked down the steps, halting a few seconds when his gaze met Makoto's sparkling green one. The olive-haired male looked so gorgeous that it made Haruka slightly uncertain as he made his way down the steps. They were going to have a leisurely stroll around town and Haruka worried at his lip. They had only been dating for a few weeks now and it was Haruka that demanded that they kept it to themselves, at least for a little while. It meant that neither of them would be able to touch and Haruka had regretted his decision almost instantly when he looked at Makoto. His soft brown-haired was softly swaying because of the afternoon breeze. His skin looked so sun-kissed that Haruka wondered exactly how much time Makoto spends outside when they are not together. Haruka looked away to hide his blush and when Makoto chuckled, Haruka could feel the tips of his ears burn with embarrassment. It would prove to be very hard not to show anyone that they were in fact a pair…

Makoto's soft chatter filled the otherwise quiet atmosphere as they walked by the shops. Many people were just enjoying a lazy day at the beach and Haruka wouldn't have minded a swim in the ocean but he refrained because of Makoto's fear. Haruka would sometimes accidentally brush his arm against Makoto just to make sure the olive-haired male was still there. Haruka could clearly hear him but Haruka wanted more than just that sweet voice. However, the raven-haired male was also scared to be affectionate when everybody was watching. Haruka didn't even know why he was afraid and Makoto had never pressured him into explaining what held him back. Makoto was gentle like that and he would give Haruka the time he needed.

"Hey, have you ever taken your picture in a picture booth?" Makoto asked as he pointed towards a booth that stood in the hallway of the station. The doors were open because of the warm weather and it was like the booth was staring at them, taunting them to come inside.

Those booths were often used to take pictures for your passport and Haruka had never used one before. He would almost choke by just watching how tiny the space in those things was.

"No…" Haruka replied reluctantly and with a loud yelp, he was dragged by the hand towards the booth. Haruka swallowed a big lump when he realised that Makoto was actually holding his hand. A small part of Haruka wanted to retract his hand but the other part wanted more, perhaps even coax Makoto into a hug. Haruka smiled meekly when they stood in front of the booth. Makoto's eyes regarded him with a strange mixture of happiness and giddiness and Haruka wondered how he got roped into this. There was no way they would fit inside that thing. Would this be a good moment to tell Makoto that he was maybe slightly afraid of small spaces?

"You know, we haven't taken a picture since we've been officially dating," Makoto stated and Haruka sighed deeply. The raven-haired male didn't like taking pictures but one look into those pleading and sparkling eyes later, Haruka was sitting in Makoto's lap. The raven-haired male tilted his head as the machine barked instructions at them. Makoto giggled when Haruka looked as if he wanted to punch the machine. Haruka shifted a little until both their faces where in the right place. They took several pictures because Makoto wanted more than just one. He had already thought of setting up a wall of pictures in his bedroom. Haruka pouted when Makoto suggested they take more than one picture and before Haruka could even adjust the look on his face, the machine had snapped. A range of photo's came out of the machine and Haruka eyed them with wide eyes when they were done.

Haruka looked pouty, grumpy, giggly, happy and most of all, he looked in love. There was one picture that even Haruka loved and it was the picture in which he looked deeply into Makoto's sparkling green eyes. Haruka never thought it was possible to capture true love but it seemed that this picture managed to do that perfectly.

Life is just a moment but this love is eternal…

Haruka stretched when he stood in front of the pool. He was glad that Makoto had arranged a little swim practice with Nagisa and Rei. The raven-haired male could use the feel of the cold water against his skin after walking around town for a few hours. Normally, Haruka would jump in the water but something caught his eye and he was momentarily frozen to the ground. Makoto sat on the edge of the pool and normally, Haruka wouldn't be fazed by this. He had seen Makoto like this countless times before but it was the first time ever since they considered themselves to be a 'thing'. Haruka watched the drops of water slide down that perfectly sculptured body and the raven-haired male could do nothing but gape and blink every so often so that his eyes could continue to be glued onto that perfect boy. Haruka felt himself fall in love all over again.

A loud slap against his back brought him back and when he saw the devilish grin on Nagisa's face, he knew it was already too late. With a loud splash, Haruka fell into the crisp and cool water. The raven-haired male kicked his legs and took a few seconds to resurface again. When his head breached the surface of the water, he could hear the giggles that belonged to Nagisa and Makoto. Of course, Makoto had to laugh with that pathetic attempt to make his fall into the water a little more graceful. Haruka gave his hair a nice shake and swam a few laps to clear his mind. Lately, Haruka had been thinking of Makoto in an entirely different way. Makoto seemed so much more attractive and Haruka found himself being turned on almost all the time. They still hadn't taken their relationship to the next level and sometimes, Haruka felt a little worried by that. There were days when Haruka felt anything but sexy and it hurt that Makoto didn't want to have sex just yet. Makoto always said that he wanted to take his time with Haruka but sometimes the raven-haired male felt rejected and while Haruka would never admit it, it made him doubt about everything.

Haruka groaned when he realised he was thinking of Makoto in a sexual way once again. It happened at the most random moments and sometimes, Haruka cursed himself for being turned on so easily. Haruka wondered how Makoto was able to control himself and his body so easily and gracefully. Sometimes, their heated make-out sessions left Haruka dizzy and panting for more but Makoto always kept his cool. Haruka sighed deeply and he closed his eyes to drift on his back. The water was refreshing and cool enough to make his heated skin lower in temperature. Every time Haruka thought of Makoto, he was sure to be graced with a burning sensation that could be felt over his entire body.

Haruka opened his eyes when he bumped into something and when he turned around, he looked straight into those familiar pools of green. Makoto's eyes held so much warmth and love that it made Haruka itch to touch him. However, Nagisa and Rei were bickering and they were too close for comfort. Haruka yearned to touch that gorgeous face but his fear gripped at his heart and the raven-haired male distanced himself a little bit.

Those green orbs wouldn't let Haruka go and the raven-haired male cast his gaze down, hoping that Makoto would get the hint. What if Haruka wasn't able to control himself? What would Nagisa and Rei say? Would they be disgusted? Would they freak out and scream and shout?

Haruka's mind was bombarded with sickening thoughts and the raven-haired male never once realised that everybody would be okay with their relationship because weren't they acting like a married couple already?

Makoto tilted his head as he looked at Haruka. There was a slight hint of worry in Makoto's eyes and Haruka had never meant to hurt him. He just wanted to keep a safe distance between the two of them. Haruka wasn't ready to share Makoto with the world just yet.

"What are you doing?" Makoto whispered and Haruka worried at his lip.

"Just stay back a little," Haruka hissed and Makoto's eyes widened. Was Haruka getting upset?

"What's wrong?" Makoto asked and Haruka shook his head. Makoto always understood what he meant so why didn't Makoto understand this time? Haruka yelped a little when his back hit the edge of the pool. Haruka hadn't accounted for the fact that the pool wasn't endless and that at some point, there would be no escape. Makoto kept closing the gap between them and when Makoto was right in front of Haruka, the raven-haired male started shaking. He wanted Makoto so badly and yet he was afraid of the reaction of his friends. Normally, Haruka didn't give a damn about other people's opinions but now it seemed like it was all Haruka could think of.

"Haru-chan," Makoto started and Haruka finally looked up again, his blue eyes tinged with a hint of fear stared straight into those green pools that showered him with love. Haruka hated himself for not being able to be affectionate in public because it seemed like that was the one thing that Makoto wanted.

"Don't, Makoto," Haruka whispered but Makoto was determined to wash away all the doubt that Haruka had in him. Makoto brushed his soft and moist lips against Haruka's and the raven-haired male did nothing to resist. In fact, it was Haruka who deepened the kiss and let himself be whisked away by Makoto. The kiss seemed endless and when their tongues collided, Haruka could fee his entire body jolt with love and adoration.

When they broke apart, Haruka's eyes looked over at Nagisa and Rei. Their faces displayed a picture of astonishment and disbelief and it was everything that Haruka had feared. He had given his first public kiss to Makoto and it seemed that Nagisa and Rei weren't exactly thrilled to be the witnesses.

Haruka pushed Makoto back and without another word, he lifted himself up from the pool. Haruka ran straight into the locker rooms and he dried himself off in a record time. He didn't even bother to take a shower, he just wanted to go home and be alone…

I put my faith in you, what a stupid thing to do…

Haruka stood in his bedroom, staring at the picture of him and Makoto. Haruka had been upset but he couldn't bring himself to ignore the picture. How could their peaceful day end up so badly? Haruka hadn't heard from Makoto ever since he left the pool and the raven-haired male was afraid to make the first move. What if he had hurt Makoto so badly that the olive-haired male didn't want him anymore?

Haruka gasped when he heard a soft knock on his bedroom door and he made a soft noise to let the person at the door know that it was okay to come in. Haruka knew it was Makoto because every pore of his body was screaming for the olive-haired male and his warmth.

"Hey," Makoto said softly and Haruka kept his back turned towards the olive-haired male. It was the first time that Haruka gave Makoto the silent-treatment. It was hard for Haruka not to throw himself at Makoto but Haruka wanted to sulk a bit more because Makoto was supposed to respect his wishes and boundaries.

"I'm sorry," Makoto whispered and Haruka sighed a little. They had never fought before and it seemed that this day was the day of many firsts in their relationship.

"Why did you do it?" Haruka asked and he hoped that the answer would soothe the gaping wound in his heart. He wanted nothing more than to be free whenever he was with Makoto.

"I just wanted to kiss you," Makoto admitted and Haruka shook his head a little. It was clear what Makoto wanted but why did he want it?

"Why did you want it?" Haruka asked and he turned around to look at his boyfriend. Makoto looked like an angel and Haruka's heart fluttered upon gazing into those soft and apologetic green pools of bliss.

"I love you and I want everyone to know how much I love you," Makoto started and Haruka worried at his lip. He should've known better than to push Makoto away because the olive-haired male didn't deserve that.

"I want everyone to see that we belong together, I don't want to hide our love any longer, it's too beautiful to hide," Makoto continued and Haruka cast his gaze down, embarrassed because he was the one that wasn't sure of their love. Of course their love was beautiful and it deserved to be displayed in public. Why would you want to hide the one thing that you love the most?

Haruka took a small step in Makoto's direction and the olive-haired male let Haruka come to him. Every few seconds, Haruka would take another step. When they were almost touching, Haruka stood on his tippy-toes to give Makoto a soft kiss on his lips. The kiss didn't last very long and Makoto was dazed a bit. The olive-haired male didn't really know how to react and he did the only thing he could think of.

"Why did you kiss me?" Makoto asked and Haruka smiled a little.

"Because I wanted to," Haruka replied and Makoto couldn't hide his smile any longer.

"Why did you want to?"

"Because I love you with every beat of my heart," Haruka admitted and it was like a weight was lifted from his shoulders. It was nice being able to express just how he felt when he was with Makoto. This was what freedom was all about. Their lips met once more and Haruka let himself be swept away by the love of his life.

I lost my way but luckily, you pointed it out.

Makoto lifted Haruka up in his arms and the raven-haired male clamped his legs around Makoto's waist while his hands were clasped together behind Makoto's neck. Their lips were never torn apart from each other, tongues sliding around each other, making both boys swoon with love. Makoto took a few steps towards the bed and then he let himself fall on the bed, cradling Haruka in his arms. Haruka blinked a few times when their lips finally parted and Makoto took a few seconds to drown in the sight of his beautiful boyfriend. Haruka's eyes sparkled and Makoto couldn't help but realise how lucky he was. He had everything he could possible want right here in his arms and maybe, it was time to show Haruka how much Makoto truly wanted him.

Makoto brushed Haruka's bangs out of his eyes and Haruka closed his eyes and leaned into the touch. Haruka loved every touch he received from Makoto, whether it was a gentle or a rough one. Haruka closed the gap between them once more and when their lips met, the kiss soon turned into something heated, tongues sliding around each other and this time, they fought for dominance. Makoto let his hands caress Haruka's back and when Makoto used his nails to scratch softly, soft gasps escaped from Haruka's lips. The raven-haired male pulled back a little to catch his breath, he could feel arousal seep into his system already and he wondered how he would be able to convince Makoto that he was ready for more. He instructed Makoto to sit against the headboard and the olive-haired male obeyed without questioning Haruka's motives. Makoto gasped when Haruka straddled him but he let Haruka do as he pleased. Haruka meshed their lips together once more and this time, Haruka took his sweet time toying with Makoto's tongue. Neither of them cared that their kisses were sometimes sloppy. Haruka kept his gaze fixed on Makoto's face as he let his hands travel under the hem of Makoto's T-shirt.

Slowly but surely, Haruka lifted the piece of clothing until he could take it off completely. The raven-haired male smoothed his hands over Makoto's sun-kissed skin and the olive-haired male couldn't supress a gasp of pleasure when Haruka's hands travelled over his nipples. Makoto knew what Haruka wanted but for the first time today, it was Makoto's turn to doubt himself. What if he couldn't live up to Haruka's expectations? Makoto was also struck with the fear of hurting Haruka, the olive-haired male knew how painful a first time could be and the thought of hurting Haruka was something Makoto could not live with.

"Haru, stop," Makoto pleaded because he knew he was already teetering on the verge of giving in. He wanted to make Haruka his but there was something that held him back. Haruka obeyed and he stopped touching Makoto as he sat back a little to look at the olive-haired male. Haruka wanted to kiss away the doubt from Makoto's lips.

Haruka didn't give Makoto time to think twice. Haruka kissed Makoto roughly with all the passion he had and when Haruka's tongue brushed along Makoto's, the olive-haired male was lost. He didn't want to fight his doubt anymore because there was no need to have any. Haruka was all he needed and he would prove Haruka that he was the love of his life.

Haruka continued to touch Makoto's soft skin and every so often, he would ground their hips together, making them both gasp with want and pleasure. Haruka placed butterfly kisses along Makoto's jaw and he bit down teasingly when he reached Makoto's earlobe. The olive-haired male gasped loudly and let his warm hands caress Haruka's sides, rubbing soothing circles on Haruka's fair skin.

Haruka rubbed his nose against Makoto's and to Makoto, it was infuriating when he leaned in to kiss Haruka that the raven-haired male would pull away. Haruka was so close and yet so far away. Haruka let his hands travel down and he deftly undid Makoto's belt. Haruka watched as Makoto licked his lips and with one swift motion, Haruka swooped Makoto's tongue into his mouth, making Makoto's head spin. The olive-haired male let his hands slip under the waistband of Haruka's shorts and he let his hands rest on Haruka's behind. When Haruka ground their hips together again, Makoto gently squeezed Haruka's behind and the raven-haired male was surprised to hear a soft moan. He hadn't fully realised that he was the one that had moaned until he did it again when Makoto squeezed again.

"M-m-makoto," Haruka gasped and the olive-haired male brushed his lips against Haruka's as if to explain to him that this was perfectly fine. It was okay to let yourself go…

Haruka shrugged Makoto's strong arms away for a brief moment. The raven-haired male gently took off Makoto's jeans and then he climbed on top of Makoto again. The olive-haired male was glad that the headboard was supporting his back while Haruka leaned on him, Haruka's hands roaming over his body. Makoto let Haruka touch him and every so often, Makoto would arch his back to lean into the touch more. Haruka's touches were soft yet determined and when Haruka rolled Makoto's nipples between his fingers, a loan moan echoed through the silent bedroom. Makoto was becoming more and more desperate for more and that was exactly what Haruka had wanted.

When Makoto let his hands travel lower again, stripping Haruka of his shorts and boxers, Haruka felt his heart boom, the beat resembling a bass drum. When Makoto bucked his hips a little, Haruka's breath hitched because the friction between Makoto's clothed length and his own naked one was driving him insane. The shock hit his system when Makoto curled his fingers around Haruka's throbbing problem, jerking a few times. Haruka slumped against Makoto and when their lips met, they made out lazily while Haruka jolted every so often when Makoto teased his sensitive head.

Haruka pried Makoto's hand away and he was relieved when the touching stopped. He loved it when Makoto touched him like that but tonight, Haruka wanted more. Haruka placed Makoto's hands on his behind and then he pressed his groin against Makoto's again. A loud gasp escaped from Makoto's lips and Haruka kept grinding against his boyfriend, making them both gasp and moan simultaneously.

It's more than just knowing you want it, it's knowing how bad…

Makoto fumbled around in the nightstand drawer to find the small bottle he was looking for. Haruka kept grinding against him, making it very hard to concentrate. It was as if Haruka wanted to make Makoto realise how bad he wanted him. Makoto slumped back against the headboard and opened the small bottle. He poured a good amount on his fingers and coated them carefully while Haruka laved his neck with wet kisses and rough licks and nips. Makoto pressed Haruka against him once more, their lengths pressing against each other. Haruka breathed out loudly when Makoto massaged his behind carefully, soothing him. Makoto teased Haruka's entrance a little and the raven-haired male made small whimpering noises. He wanted Makoto so badly and the teasing was maddening. When Makoto slipped his finger in, he did it with care and love. Haruka tensed at the intrusion and he squirmed a little when Makoto stopped moving his finger.

Haruka blinked a few times and was ruthlessly kissed by Makoto as the olive-haired male kept slipping his finger in and out. Haruka panted softly as he let pleasure wreck his entire body. Makoto soon added a second finger and he continued to prepare his boyfriend ever so gently, afraid that Haruka would break. Makoto wanted their first time to be special and he would take his own sweet time, driving Haruka insane with lust and want.

"I-I-I want you," Haruka breathed and Makoto smiled his carefree smile to let Haruka know that he would have his way soon enough. Makoto kept slipping his fingers in and out and Haruka was reduced to nothing but a whimpering and moaning mess. His gaze was hazy and clouded with lust.

Makoto let his fingers slip out and Haruka was quick enough to strip Makoto of the last layer of clothes he was wearing. Haruka trailed rough and wet kisses along Makoto's fine abs and when his chin bumped against Makoto's cock, the olive-haired male let his head fall backwards a little. Haruka kept tracing kisses lower and lower and soon enough, a load moan bounced off the walls when Haruka kissed the head of Makoto's length. Haruka teased the slit with his tongue and this time, Makoto was reduced to a puddle of moans and gasps. Haruka took his boyfriend into his mouth, expertly pressing his tongue against every sensitive spot, hollowing his cheeks to apply the right pressure to make Makoto keen with pleasure.

"H-h-h-haru!" Makoto screamed and Haruka sat up a little to gaze at Makoto. Those shimmering emerald gems held all the want and lust that Haruka could possibly want. Haruka felt hot and sexy to know that Makoto's lust was only for him and no one else. The raven-haired male crawled on top of Makoto again, meshing their lips together into a heated kiss that made them both dizzy and feverish.

"I'm ready," Haruka panted as Makoto made sure Haruka's neck was sporting a purplish bruise that would show the world that Haruka was taken. Makoto held his own length as Haruka slowly sat down, taking Makoto in at his own pace. His entire body felt like it was on fire and Haruka worried at his lip as his insides burned painfully. It was nothing unbearable and Haruka was sure that he would get over it if he was given some time. A loud sigh escaped his lips when he was fully seated on top of Makoto. The olive-haired male rubbed soothing circles on Haruka's thighs and Haruka kept his gaze locked with Makoto's.

Makoto rubbed his nose against Haruka's and the raven-haired male closed his eyes and relaxed. His insides were tingling with anticipation and want and he slowly moved up and down. The pace was slow and Haruka keened softly as pleasure took over his hot body. Sweat was trickling down their bodies as their pace picked up, Makoto pushing upwards a little to meet Haruka half way. Haruka threw his head back as Makoto hit something inside of him that made him see stars.

"M-m-makoto!" Haruka keened as Makoto kept brushing against that special spot, making his entire body sing with arousal. The olive-haired male kept his thrusts soft and shallow, keeping the pace relatively slow, extending their love-making.

"F-f-faster," Haruka pleaded and Makoto slowly pushed Haruka down, until he was on top of the raven-haired male. Makoto's thrusts became more rough and fast and Haruka couldn't contain his pleasure anymore. Their moans picked up in volume and soon the room was filled with the sounds of their love-making. Makoto slipped his hand between his stomach and Haruka's, reaching for Haruka's weeping length. He jerked his boyfriend at the same pace as his thrusts and Haruka curled his toes as that familiar feeling hit his body like a train-wreck.

Haruka came loudly, spurting his seed on his own stomach and Makoto's. When Haruka's muscles clenched tightly, Makoto couldn't hold back any longer and arched his back just before filling Haruka with his love.

Makoto slipped out of the raven-haired male and he rolled onto his back. Haruka quickly climbed on top of him, not giving a damn that he was sliding their sticky stomachs against each other. Haruka buried his face in Makoto's shoulder and he inhaled that sweet yet sweaty scent that belonged to his boyfriend. Haruka had never felt so complete in his life before and it was a feeling that he would never trade for anything else. This was how everything was supposed to be.

"I love you," Makoto whispered as he pressed a soft kiss on Haruka's forehead.

Haruka gave Makoto one of his rare smiles that he only used when he was around the olive-haired male.

"I love you too," Haruka whispered back and their lips brushed against each other again, setting that flame of love ablaze again, igniting the sparks that connected their hearts.

You're with me everywhere. You're my angel, my miracle and you're all I need tonight.

You give me shelter from the rain and you breathe life in me, again.

Please don't stop loving me…

A/N: I am so so so so sorry for the delay! I feel so bad that I took so long to write this! I have to admit that his was the most difficult chapter for me to write. I've re-written it at least six times because I didn't like it one bit. I'm still a bit unsure but I guess it won't get better than this!

Thank you so much for reading this! I never would've guessed it would be this popular… :)

Lots of love!