A/N: Hey! I'm not gonna write who catches Jamie yet, but I'm gonna introduce another very important character in the story now and hopefully it should all start making sense, if not now…soon! I'm slightly concerned with how this came out because it seemed better in my head at the time haha, but please let me know what you think. Thanks to:

Jay, 0littlestar0, Manjit, Asha and sunrisejli for reviewing, they are what have made me carry on writing *hands out cookies*! And a special thanks to Rosie and Jay for beta'ing =3

Chapter 6

The sky darkened as the night closed in and the first stars were appearing; bright and shiny in the clear navy blue sky.

A single leaf twirled through the air as it followed the wind and landed in front of a young boy who sat on his doorstep deep in thought. But before the leaf touched the ground, the boy put out his arm shakily and the leaf hovered in mid air. He moved his arm towards him and the leaf followed the arm as if it were being attracted to a magnet. The leaf was hanging motionless before his eyes until he dropped his arm, when it then landed on his lap.

He stared at the leaf for a moment before running his hands through his hair and paused to catch a clump of it in his fist.

Alex's POV

I need some answers. I need to find a way to break away. I've had enough of this. Thousands of tiny thoughts circled my head as I shut my eyes and tried to look into the darkness: images flashing in my eyes.

Suddenly a memory starts playing in my head like a movie, where I'm being led out of a hospital by my mother. Everything seems to be in black and white, but the memory was as clear as if it happened yesterday.

I look up past her and into the grey clouds that are slowly floating into the sky.

'Mommy, did the doctors save daddy? Is he coming home now?'

She gently squeezes the hand that's holding mine, and we sit down onto a wooden bench near the car park. I slowly swing my legs but still keep the grip on my mum's hand.

Her normally twinkling eyes look different somehow.

'Mommy, your eyes look different.'

'My eyes?' she asks. She quietly sniffs and wipes her eyes. Oh, I see why they are different now. They're glistening with tears.

She pulls me closer to her and wraps her arms around me, and we gently rock backwards and forwards.

'Honey, the doctors weren't able to save daddy completely, do you understand?'

I look up at her in confusion and meet her eyes which let out the tears that cascade down her cheeks.

'Well, where is he now then?'

She hugs me closer to her and I automatically lean my head into her soft brown hair. It smells like roses and makes my nose tickle slightly.

'You see honey, the doctors decided that the best thing to do was to put daddy to sleep. That way he won't be in any pain anymore. But he'll always be with you, no matter what.'

I can feel some tears falling onto my head. I lean up and wipe them away with the sleeve of my jumper. She smiles at me shakily, her eyes puffy and pink.

'Is he going to be asleep for a long time?'

She nods and gently runs her hands through my hair. I think I understood. We stayed in that embrace for a long time until I saw my grandparents come out of the building to take us back home.

Some tears escaped my eyes as I bought myself back to reality. I was five years old when my father passed away. Life didn't seem the same again. But I never told my mother. I looked out for her. After father passed away I tried to put myself into his shoes and look after her like he did. It tore me apart to see her crying at night by herself, so I'd be the one to be there for her; hug her and tell her that she's not alone. She'd do the same for me too. This was the unwritten bond that neither of us talked about, but knew exactly what to do. We were never completely alone though because my grandparents were always there for us, which is why we decided to move in with them after a few years.

This was the cottage that we all lived in. Sitting here on the doorstep reminds me of all the things we did here; both when my father was alive and after he passed over. But there's nothing left here now. Ever since I was attacked in the forest, I never had the will to bring myself back here. I knew what I had become, and how dangerous it would be for me to come back here. How I would put my loved ones in risk if I did. I wouldn't be able to live if I harmed any of them.

So here I am 25 years later, sitting on the doorstep of an abandoned house. I have no idea where my mother and grandparents are now but all I can hope for is that they are safe. I've somehow managed to adapt my life to being a vampire and have restricted myself to eating animals instead of…people.

I hate this though. I hate what I've become. What those despicable vampires made me. That memory too, is a vivid one but I use all my physical strength not to remember what happened when I transformed. It is another painful memory I'd rather not relive to anyone. Even myself.

It's not fair. Why me? Why did they bite me? I would do anything to get my old life back. To see my mother. To be with my friends. To be like everyone else. To be normal. What's life without sharing it with the ones you love? I think about her, my mother, every day and pray she's okay.

I've tried everything to end my life. Everything. But it doesn't work.

So here I am, still stuck in my 15 year old body. I guess I really am immortal now.

But I've heard about a coven of vampires who live their lives as normal as possible. They call themselves vegetarian vampires. I need to see their leader. Maybe he could help me?

I made my decision and stood up into the now dark night. The roads glowed orange in the lamppost lights and a few cars drove by. I knew where to go so I decided I would have to hunt tonight if I were visiting a hospital tomorrow.

I guess I have an appointment with Carlisle Cullen now, even though he won't be expecting me.

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