"Xetruu, what's wrong?" I ask as we enter the meeting area… Place… Thing. I still don't know what to call that room.
Saix calls us over to him.
"You two will go to Destiny Islands and defeat the Invisible. You are to leave immediately," He demands, opening a dark portal for us. We walk through and come out on a beach with a pom tree that is almost on it's side, creating the perfect sitting place.
I blink a few times and then look at the pom tree again. For some reason I saw that black haired boy again. I don't like these stupid flashback things. They're so infuriating.
"Come on, let's find this damned thing. I want to take a nap," I grumble and wander off along the beach. We wander for a few minutes and come to group of teens defending against three Invisible. Damned Saix lied, there's not only one! Liar.
I unzip my cloak and let it fall to the ground, stupid thing is too hot anyway. I look over to Xetruu and she had taken her cloak off. Guess it's too hot for her too. We lock eyes and nod, summoning our keyblades and running to the teens to aid in their helpless attempt at defending themselves. While Xetruu fires Shadow Roamer's little diamond things, I go in for a shot at the head, making contact and destroying it in one hit.
Now leaves the other two. Instead of hitting one of the other Invisible, I'm hit by an arrow in the shoulder. That hurt. I turn around and find a girl slightly taller than me, brown curly hair, brown eyes, and glasses. I get a quick glimpse of her laughing.
"I'm trying to help you, stupid!" I yell, glaring at the girl. I turn back to the Invisibles and there's only one left. Xetruu had taken care of one on her own. Nicely done. I go in for a strike at the last Invisible and it hits me with its sword. I go flying backwards about six feet. I throw Dream Sweeper at the Invisible and it strikes its neck. Then the Invisible is gone in a puff of black smoke, and my keyblade comes back.
I sigh and slump over, my shoulder hurts. A girl slightly shorter than me points her sword at me. She has long brown hair, brown eyes, and glasses. She looks scared. She races towards me in an attempt to hurt me. I block with Dream Sweeper and hit her with my fist. I don't want to hurt these people. So why are they trying to hurt me?
Axel told me about a kid that had spiky blond hair… I think his name is Roxas. And there's a kid with spiky blond hair running at me with a keyblade. I jump out of the way and hit him in the back with the blunt side of my keyblade. He's knocked to the ground.
"For fuck's sake! Why are you all trying to kill me?" I say, getting frustrated. I'm exhausted. I look over to where Xetruu was, and she's behind the group grinning. Seriously? She's in on this too? Damnit!
"The only person that can hit with that much strength, and that wields Dream Sweeper… Is Rhea! Who are you?" The girl with the bow asks.
"I don't know who the hell this Rhea girl is! My name is Xerah. Who are you people and why do you keep trying to hit me?" I answer. At this point I just want to sleep. Not be in a fight. This is not fun in the slightest.
"Wait… You're a nobody aren't you?" The kid I knocked down asks. I'm going to call him Roxas now.
"Yeah? What of it?" I ask, glaring at everyone. I'm still holding my keyblade defensively.
"Stay here. Don't go back to Castle Oblivion," He says calmly.
"Why?" I ask. This is confusing me.
"Xemnas will destroy you and use you. Don't let Saix or anyone drag you into that. I'm serious, Xerah. Don't go back if you value being your own person. And you," He turns to Xetruu, "I'm guessing you're a nobody too. Don't go back. Either of you."
"But-" I'm cut off by a sudden searing pain in my head.
I drop Dream Sweeper so I can hold my head. I crouch on the ground trying to get the pain to stop. I see the boy with black hair again, he's holding my hand. I can hear him. He keeps calling me Rhea. I'm not Rhea… I'm Xerah… I remember his name on my lips. I don't know how, or why, but I remember it.
"Blake…" I mutter. The pain fades and I look up. "Who's Blake?" I ask, I'm scared to actually know who this guy is.
A boy a full head taller than me, with black hair, brown eyes, and glasses, comes out from behind everyone.
"I am." He glares at me. Did I do something wrong?
"Xetruu, we need to get back… This isn't right…" I say pushing myself to get back up. I stumble over to her.
"I'm not going anywhere. I don't trust the Organization as it is. So I'm staying. Besides," She grins at Blake, "I like these people."
"I… I don't know what to think about all of this… I'm so confused!" I say, gripping my head again. Another headache is making itself known. "Silver, Kiki, Madi, Roxas, Blake, Sora… Who are you people? Why do I know your names? Why do I remember you, but I don't know you? Just… Please tell me why?" I can feel my head beginning to spin. I'm panicking. Shit.
"Xerah, calm down…" Roxas says walking closer to me.
"Stay away from me! Just explain it!" I shout, resummoning Dream Sweeper and pointing it towards him.
"You're getting your memories, from when you were a somebody, back. You do know us, you just can't remember why or how," Roxas explains. I blink a few times and look at all of them. I spot one face I definitely remember.
"Silver…" I whisper as I feel tears well in my eyes. I run to him and through myself at him in a desperate attempt of a hug. He stumbles, but hugs me back.
I pull out of the hug and stare at him. Then I look around to the faces of everyone else. I'm beginning to remember them. But very slowly. My head starts throbbing again, and the edges of my vision go black. Then out of no where that sharp pain in my back begins again, and I pass out.
I wake up hours later? It's dark now, so I think it's safe to say that it's been a few hours. I don't exactly know where I am, but I know I'm probably still on the island. Because I'm not in a white room. That's fine. This is actually more comforting. I slowly get up. I'm laying in someone's bed. And I'm alone in a room. Okay, that's strange.
Time to get up. I sit up and swing my legs over the edge. I look around the dark room. It's messy, like really messy.
"Enter Menu." I say aloud.
"Access denied."
"What? That's weird… Enter Menu," I repeat.
"Access denied. Repeat command."
"Odd… But whatever. Enter Menu," I repeat again.
"Access denied. To enter, say, Enter CM."
"What? Okay? Enter CM," I say, shaking my head.
"Access granted. Enter command."
"Status."
"Status: safe. Area: clear."
"Alright then… Close CM." I stand up and look for a door. I spot it on the far side of the room. I walk towards it and grab the handle, slowly opening it.
"She's awake!" I hear a man say. I walk out of the room and I'm immediately embraced in a hug. I just stand there awkwardly, until the person lets go. I look up and it's Silver. Oh, alright. Okay, that's alright. At least he's knows I'm still me, I think. Wait, if I'm still me, then I'm still Xerah. Why do I feel so comfortable around him? I've only known him for like four hours tops.
I follow him into a living room area sort of thing. I rub my eyes, and yawn. "What happened?" I ask, after yawning again.
"Well, you flipped out then passed out," Madi said.
It's strange how fast things come back to you. I remember all of them now, but it's like the memories aren't mine. It's like I'm seeing the memories threw someone else's eyes. They're my somebody's memories. But me being a nobody, that's all I've got.
Memories of a person I used to be. Well that just sounds depressing.
Not my intention. Anywhosle, let's get back to reality. At least, what's supposed to be reality.
I look over to Xetruu, and she's sitting close to Blake. Too close to Blake. I feel jealousy swell in the pit of my stomach. I don't like this. I'm a nobody, therefore I shouldn't feel jealous. For fuck's sake what is going on?
I go to sit by Madi, but Silver pulls me into his lap. Alright then, this isn't that bad.
"Okay, so what's on the agenda?" I ask, snuggling up to Silver. Let's just say this is not only comforting, but making me feel special. I glance at Blake and he's glaring at us. Why is this making me feel successful? Whatever, I'll figure that out later. I glare right back at him and he takes on an offended look.
Really? He's offended? He's flirting with another girl! Let alone a girl that I feel like is technically part of me! Wait… I shouldn't be jealous… But I am… I HATE FEELING. I don't want to feel, I shouldn't feel. Can I just give up on feelings and not feel? No that's a bad idea. Scratch that idea. I just hate being jealous. Envy is an ugly feat.
Since when was Xetruu a part of me? Questions later I guess. My head hurts too much to answer them.
Xetruu stares at me with an evil grin. I glare at her and she just smiles triumphantly. This is just making me angry now.
"I thought we could all play a game," Xetruu suggests.
"What game?" I ask flatly.
"Well, why don't we play a game on how to get to know everyone? Because you and I are still gathering memories, we don't know anything about anyone. Except what little we've pieced together from scattered memories. Sound alright?" Xetruu suggests. She sounds sincere. But I'm not so sure I like it.
Everyone agrees, so I guess I have no choice.
"Can I start?" I ask, having questions for everyone. They stare at me expectantly. "Well, can you guys explain why the hell you attacked us? Me specifically? I mean, come on guys. My shoulder still hurts like hell from that arrow," I rub my shoulder instinctively.
Kiki rubs the back of her head. "Sorry… I had formed the thought that you were going to turn on us after you finished off the heartless… Sorry, again…" She looks away.
"Well I guess that's reason enough. But, Roxas why did you say that Xetruu and I shouldn't go back to the castle?" I look at him, confusion written all over my face.
"Ah… Right… About that… Xemnas is a very evil man. He wants all of you to become him in a way. And he's trying to create this 'Kingdom of Hearts'. Or something like that. Have you gone on a mission to recover hearts yet?" He asks.
"Um… Yeah… How did you know?" I ask. This is making my head hurt again.
"He's having all of the keyblade wielders of the Organization collect hearts. In order to create his Kingdom Hearts, he needs hearts. Of course no one will ever know that. And if you become a copy of him, then you'll have the same intentions that he has. And you'll just start doing what he wants, when he wants. Look at Xigbar. Golden eyes, and that streak in his hair? He's already pretty much a copy. I only know all this because Axel told me. Anyway, if you go back, then he'll use the power you have over Dream Sweeper and only use it to his advantage. And same to… Xetruu? Yeah. That's why it would be safer for you to stay here," He explained. He actually seems worried about us. Should I feel happy? I honestly don't know what to feel about this whole ordeal to begin with. I don't think I can feel.
"Hey… Can we change the subject? This is kind of a boring topic," Madi giggles.
"I agree with Madi. It kind of is," Kiki chuckles. Have you ever realized how many words there are for a laugh? Giggle. Chortle. Chuckle. Laugh. Guffaw. Snicker. Honestly there's to many.
Anyway… "I think we should. Anyone else have any ideas?" I ask, looking around the room.
"I have a question for Xerah," Blake asks, staring pointedly at me. I'm uncomfortable under his intense gaze, it's me squirm slightly.
"Okay… What is it?" I ask, avoiding eye contact. He seems angry.
"First off, what is your relation with Silver? You two seem awfully close," He asks incredulously. Yeah he is definitely jealous. But why? I thought he didn't like me. Er, Rhea thought he didn't like her… Which I guess is the same thing as him not liking me? I don't know. This whole Rhea and I being the same person thing is a hard concept to grasp.
"Well… From what I can remember, Silver and Rhea, or me, or us… Or whatever. Silver and US are just incredibly close friends. Not like together though… More like platonic lovers… Okay that doesn't sound right… But it is… We cuddle and all that stuff, but we don't want to like make out or anything…" I can feel my face heat up. I'm staring at the floor throughout this entire explanation. I look up through my bangs at Xetruu and Blake and I see her scoot closer to him. She is way too close to him. That makes my blood boil. I swear that from the last time I looked, she's moved closer. I don't understand why that makes me so incredibly angry. Are my jealousy issues even my own? Or are they remnants of Rhea's memory… My memory… Fuck this is annoying. I know Rhea liked Blake, but does that mean that I like him too? I think I do have feelings for him… But I can't figure out if it's actually my own feelings for Rhea's… I hate feeling.
"I have to ask something of Xetruu," Blake comments, interrupting my train of thought.
"Ask away, dear," Xetruu answers, a cheeky smile on her face. Cheeky? What the hell does that mean? Whatever, I keep using words that I don't understand, but somehow they work? I don't know.
"So we all know that Xerah is Rhea's nobody… Who's your somebody?" He asks curiously. That is a fantastically brilliant question.
"Oh… Well… I don't really remember… I remember a boy saying Tueur though…" She said, placing a hand over Blake's.
This is just making me see red.
I'm fuming, and I catch Blake take his hand away from Xetruu's. "I remember Rhea telling me about a girl that is sort of like a split personality…" He explains.
"So, like me and Xion?" Roxas asks.
"I think? She just said that she had white hair and turquoise eyes. And that she was the reason Rhea went all psycho when fighting the heartless. I think she said her name was Tueur?" He scooted a bit farther away from Xetruu. I looked at her, and she just had a look of realization. Horrified realization.
"No…. I'm my own person… I'm real… I'm me… I can't be part of her…" She spits at me. I don't think she likes me anymore.
"I don't remember having a split personality… Maybe you're not." What Blake said isn't true. At least I hope it's not.
"But… I don't have memories…" Xetruu said, putting her head in her hands. "This is a lie. It's all a lie." She stands up and storms out the door.
"I should probably go after her... " I say, standing up. Silver grabs my hand. I look down at him and he just shakes his head.
"Let her be," He sighs.
"But… I can't just let her go off on her own! What if she just needs someone to be there with her… Or for her…" I say, looking down at the floor. I yank my hand from Silver's and run out the door.
When I'm out of the building, Xetruu is no where in sight.
"Xetruu!" I call. No answer. "Xetruu! Please, where are you?!" I shout to the empty night.
"Go away…" I hear from my right. I turn and find her in a tree, crying. "Just leave me alone…" She sobs into her hands.
"Xetruu, please… Come down from there…" I say. I guess you could say that I'm pleading. But that sounds kind of pathetic.
"No! Now leave me alone!" She shouts, summoning Shadow Roamer and shooting shards at me. I jump back as they stick right in the sand where my feet had been moments before. "I don't need you…" She cries and Shadow Roamer evaporates.
"Xetruu… I'm sorry… I don't think you're just a split personality. If that's any consolation. I think you are your own person and that you were never part of me. So please, don't be mad at me…" I sigh. There's no use getting her to believe me. I can already see she won't. I sigh again in defeat and walk back inside. "She won't come down from the tree. She hates me now, I think… She shot her little diamond shard things at me…" I sit on the floor by the door. Everyone is staring at me. I squirm a little under the attention. Goddess how I hate attention. I swear it's going to be the death of me one of these days.
I feel a hand on my shoulder. It starts rubbing little circles in my upper back. "Hey, it's going to be okay. She'll get over it and you guys will be fine, as if nothing ever happened. So cheer up, will you?" Blake's voice… I feel my heart flutter. Or where my heart should be feels all floaty and weird. I turn around and hug him. Out of no where. I have no idea why I do this.
He stands there for a few moments, probably shocked that I did that. I start to pull away, but then he crushes me against him. For some strange reason, I swear I can feel something. But nobodies can't feel. We don't have hearts. But I swear I'm feeling something. Part of me is feeling something.
How though? How am I feeling? That can't be possible.
Blake's still holding me. Why?
"Uh… Blake? I kind of need to breathe…" I whisper into his chest.
"Oh… Uh… Sorry…" He says, letting me go.
"It's okay…" I mutter. I wish he was still holding me.
I clutch my chest. I have this searing pain where a heart should be. I hit the ground in a slump. I grab my head with my other hand. I keep getting flashes of people. These people in the room. And Blake. His laugh, his goofy (yet adorable) smile, his caring words… Him.
I hear someone behind me whisper something.
"Wake up."
I shake my head to clear it. Bad idea, that just gives me a headache. Ow.
"Open CM," I say, through gritted teeth.
"Access granted. Enter command."
"Status." I hold my head with both hands in hopes that it will stop hurting.
"Status: safe. Area: clear."
"Fuck," I say as my vision starts going dark again. I grab Blake's pant leg and pull. He crouches beside me and places a hand on my shoulder.
"Are you okay?" He asks, his voice full of concern.
"Find Xetruu… Help her… And help… Me…" I finish before I pass out.