"Jaken," she damanded, she looked into his eyes in a way that would cause a shiver to run down your spine.

"Go fetch water"

"Yes Mi'Lord!," he squealed

"Uh, but from where?" he questioned nervously

"Go." she commanded, releasing most of her frustration in that one word. Jaken's eyes widened and he broke into a cold sweat

"Y-yes Mi'Lord" he stuttered before running off into the forest, she heard him trip, but he immediately got up and scurried down a path where he had hoped water was.

Rin waited until she assumed he was far enough away so she could let her emotionless mask slip and allow pain to replace it. She fell to her knee's and put one hand over her face.

"I can't believe what I did," she began, trying to keep in the tears that stung her eyes

"why...?" she asked herself. Sesshomaru stared at her, wide-eyed.

"Rin," he began

"you let your emotions control you, you must learn to have more control" she looked up at him, pain in every inch of her eyes.

"What?" she questioned, but her voice was weak.

"When you got frustrated it helped you gain control of your power, but after the first strike you let the power control you, you gave into it because your emotions where overunning your mind." She blinked and looked up at the sky, she wished it could tell her the way out of this mess.

"Sesshomaru, I had fun killing that demon, but now that it's done, I feel like I should be the one to die," She looked down at the ground letting silver strands hide her face.

"I have never hated myself this much since...," she closed her eyes tightly, as if trying to hide her thoughts from the memory

"since I sat there and watched my parents die." Sesshomaru stood there, silent, until he found something to say "Rin, you can cry" he assured her and with those words hot streams poured from Sesshomaru's golden eyes. He went up to her

"Rin, you are not a bad person, the strong powers that you have been given are hard to control when emotions over come you." the way Sesshomaru said the words wasn't cold like they usually were, they had a slight hint of pity.

"How will we ever change back?" she said in between a sob, Sesshomaru tried to make his voice reassuring, but he sounded as if he had something lodged in his throat

"I know a man in the next village, he will tell us how." Rin looked at Sesshomaru and gave a faint smile

"Thank you My Lord."

he said nothing, just looked out into the forest. Rin sighed and got up patting the small stains of dirt off of her lord's kimono. She felt a tinge of guilt for commanding Jaken so harshly, but she needed to be alone with Lord Sesshomaru, just for a little while. He seemed in deep thought, as if he had shut the world out. She sighed gliding to a nearby tree and sat down letting the firm trunk support her. Although she wasn't tired she closed her eyes to rest, she wanted to escape the world for awhile.

Sesshomaru payed no mind to her, or anything for that matter. He was deep in thought, replaying the events that had just occurred a few minutes ago. Rin had been normal the first time she had gained control of the poison claw and elegantly flew through the air and struck the demon in the chest. He had been impressed, she had done it almost perfectly, but then he sensed something. He had seen a faint pink mist cloak around her, it was hardly noticeable with his human eyes, but he saw it. Rin took her hand out of the demons chest, and the thick red flowed off of her razor sharp hands. All of the sudden her hand started to glow again, fiercly. She lunged for his throat, she contiusly pushed into his throat until her arm was elbow deep into the putrid purple flesh. The pink mist was thicker now, easily noticeable, although when he faced Jaken, he seemed oblivious to it.

He had moved slightly to catch a glimpse of her face. As it came into view he felt his eyes widen, her smile was wicked, she enjoyed the feeling of the demons life slipping away at her will. Her eyes started to turn as red as the blood coming from the demons wounds and her pupils at narrowed into a deep blue.

Rin is losing control of her humane soul, she's letting her emotions get the better of her, and if she does that the demon inside will cause her to go on a killing rampage, and eventually destroy her soul.

Before he could seriously start to worry the smile dropped. Instead a self-loathing and pain streaken mask replaced it. She closed her eyes tightly, fighting the demon inside, and suddenly the pink had thinned until it was gone and when she had opened her eyes, they were a beautiful gold, tinted with sadness and despair.

He snapped out of the memory and gave a sigh.

Rin, if you give into your emotions again you could destroy everything along you with yourself.

A flash of her smiled flew through his mind, and the memory of when she had been in the flower field.

She laughed gently as she ran through a sea of pink and blue flowers, she seemed so free, as free as the wind itself. She kneeled down to the flowers and began picking them, he could tell by simply watching her from a shady tree, her heart was content. He closed his eyes to enjoy the peace, and he could smell that she was nearing him with flowers in her hands.

"Lord Sesshomaru?" she said a bit louder than normal to get his attention. He opened one eye and she beamed.

"Yes Rin?" he'd asked emotionlessly. She looked down at her hands, obviously battling with her thoughts until she shyly held up the flowers she had picked and gave a faint, unsure smile.

"I picked these for you." He had just closed his eye and blocked her out. He heard a sound of dissapointment from inside her throat, as her steps grew further away into the flowers.

'Thank you' he had thought to himself.

The sound of pain had awoken him out of his daze and he turned his head to Rin, she was in a sweat and seemed to be in pain, perhaps it was a nightmare? She squirmed around restlessly until finally she opened her eyes, except they weren't a beautiful gold anymore...

They were blood red, with deep blue pupils and the desire to kill.