DISCLAIMER: FOR SOME RETARDED REASON, I CAN'T OWN STAR TREK, OR JIM KIRK ( damn ). I DO THOUGH OWN LILLY TILL, MARKUS AND TULLAH TILL, BUT THEY AREN'T AS GORGEOUS AS JIM. damn. THE CHAPTER NAMES ARE SONG LYRICS BY THE DOWNTOWN FICTION, BEST I NEVER HAD. THAT"S MY AWESOME DISCLAIMER. AND THE LAST CHAPTER'S TITLE IS FALLING DOWN BY BREAKING POINT, THIS ONE'S IN IN THE AIR TONIGHT BY PHIL COLLINS.

That night, I was cold. I hardly slept and my head throbbed, yet I knew it had nothing to do with my recent head 'injury'. As morning dawned, I slowly hoisted myself out of bed and changed quickly, so as to avoid my room mates. I shivered on my way out and my headache seemed to refuse to go away. Although I hadn't gotten my hopes up, I was still a little sad when I didn't see Jim at breakfast. I had been acting so out of character lately, that it almost seemed like it was an evolutionary process in my life. I ate my breakfast in silence, trying to figure out my weird personality change, and then I thought about the one think that could get my blood pressure up in a second. Markus.

Tossing my food into the trash can angrily, I turned and headed towards the door, but a familiar face appeared in front of me, " Well you can't be that mad I wasn't there," he said cockily. I groaned, " Of course I was," He smirked.

" What's up, what's with the anger?" I silently debated whether or not to tell him, it was a stupid reason, and a stupid moment anyways.

" Oh, nothing, just, you know, stuff," I said trailing off. I think I would've sounded less stupid to just tell him rather than mumble like an idiot.

" Yeah, and I'm a monkey," he said sarcastically.

" Well thats arguable," I said dreamily.

" Mhmm and so is your lame excuse. What's your duty time today?" I glanced at my watch to check the day.

" Nothing, I've got a free day, what's yours?"

" 7:00 to 2:00" Kirk replied.

" In the morning?" He nodded," Why are you up then?" I asked, shocked.

" Didn't sleep," he said and shrugged.

" Welcome to the club," I said slowly, watching his eyes. He laughed and I grinned broadly.

" Well, you want to go take a walk with me?" He asked me.

He had taken me to a small storage room that I never knew existed, had you been a passerby, you never would've suspected that this little closet would boast the greatest view in the whole ship. As Jim had explained to me, it was a meeting room, where Spock, himself and any admiral or high ranking official would meet if need be. The room was small, but it had a proportionally large window in the corner. Although the window looked out onto a garbage disposal, the stars that twinkled in the distance were pretty amazing. It reminded me of my skylight in one of my childhood houses, it was right above my head when I was asleep at night, and there would be those few perfect moments each month when the full moon would shine right above my face and the stars around it were scattered like pixie dust. I took a chair at the long table that pertruded from the left wall. It was a comfy chair, and the star light bouncing off the walls made it glimmer. I smiled and sighed, only this time, I was once broken and fractured girl that I once was, seemed to melt away, and in it's place grew the Lily for which I was named, yet, only, only in the warmth and comfort of his very presence. I looked over at Jim, and I knew right then and there, that he was not the first, but the second person to break my iron barrier, and I knew in that moment, that I was not going to let him hurt me, ever. I stood up. Quickly and forcefully enough that the chair, which seemed to be bolted into the ground, wobbled precariously. I walked meaningfully over to Jim, " Promise me one thing, you'll never have to promise me another if you give me this, just give me this one thing," I said, my voice a mixture of sheer terror, that someone had broken my wall and therefore had the possibility to hurt me, shock, that the most infamous womanizer of all time had cracked me, and hope, that he would listen to me and wouldn't hurt me like my father and Markus had. " Promise me," my whole body was shaking with a fury, " that you won't hurt me. Because to be honest, I am sick and fucking tired of letting myself go just to be hurt, and frankly, I'm not going to let it happen again." I spit the last word out, still hoping that I had worded it right, still hoping that I wasn't about to ruin everything, still worried that the petal's of my lily weren't about to be torn off. Jim looked at me, and his blue eyes seemed to cool my soul, my anger.

" I promise I won't hurt you," and so there it was. Had I just tamed the biggest player in the galaxy? No. That wasn't possible.

" R-really?" I stammered, my breath sharp and quick.

" Yes," I nearly fell backwards. I think I had just cooled the fire that was Jim Kirk, and his fire had melted my wall. A harmony in a symphony, and raindrop in a snow storm.

[[ Sorry it's so short, I wanted to give it a BANG, and I'm happy, because for the first time in 2 weeks, I'll sleep tonight. Feel Free to Review, I'll love you forever and give you a teddy bear - points to teddy bear stand-.

Thank you, for reading, I really am thankful!

Georgie]]