DOUBLE UPDATE AS PROMISED AND AS AN APOLOGY FOR THE LOYAL PEOPLE WHO READ THIS!

Naruto dropped the letters and remembered that there was one behind it. Fear forced him to pick it up. He had to see it through, he had to see what else she had to say. He almost felt like he wasn't supposed to read this. Her words seems to be talking right to him, asking questions he had no right to answer. She was sitting on the bed with him, hair cascading over her shoulders and arms to the bed. Looking right through him, he spoke about him like she knew so much about him. She saw him so deeply he felt naked and exposed to her. She leaned close to his side although not touching him he imagined that soft expression on her face but mixed with hurt.

"I know that I'm still crushing on you. I know that I love you as much as you know that you want to be Hokage"

"But hime how can you say that knowing who I am?"

"What do you dream about? Who do you imagine being with you when you achieve the title of Hokage?"

"I thought I would also be alone up until that point. I never expected to get friends and people to respect me. I thought…I thought I had to become Hokage first," Naruto says, voice cracking at the realization that he was being selfish to his own dream.

"I can love you why don't you understand," Hinata said, her face turning angry and standing up suddenly from the bed.

"Am I not strong enough? The ideal woman for you? I thought breasts and hips were womanly but I guess not. Maybe I don't get it at all," Hinata said sarcastically turning around and crossing her arms

"Please…please hime no…" Naruto begged, eyes watering at the realization that it was too late. The letter was ending and with it his chance to explain. He wanted to tell her he was sorry for being ignorant. He wanted to say that he could learn to understand her love and to not give up on him yet.

"I guess I can't help the way that you feel like you can't help mine. Naruto," Hinata writes in closing, and the Hinata his mind projected turned with a bittersweet smile and tucked a strand of hair behind her head.

"H…Hinata, I…"

Hinata shook her head at him and then faded away smiling and with it the heartache set in for Naruto. He would go back and force Killer Bee to help him, he would finish his training, and then he would go back and find Hinata.

"I know its too late, but I'm still going to try," Naruto thought running his sleeve over his eyes and cheeks to get rid of the tears. He placed the letters under his bed and walked back out of the door. Little did he know Hinata was thinking about him too, but not in the same way.

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"Oh no! Oh no! Oh…Oh no! Where is it?!" Hinata screamed in her head opening every drawer she had in her dresser and then looking under the bed.

Hinata knew she placed those letters in the dresser after she finished writing them on her desk. She wanted to write another because she found them therapeutic and when she thought of Naruto it was easier to get through if she wrote it down. Now she can't think of anything because she can't find the other two letter.

"Hanabi!"

"Y…yes one-chan?" Hanabi askes innocently with a slight flush to her face as she rounds the corner into Hinata's room.

"D…did you happen to see the letters that were on my desk?" Hinata asks sitting on the bed in thought as to where they are.

"Yes, a…and I gave them to Naruto because he deserves to know how you f…"

"W…wha….why…how…nani?!" Hinata whisper-yelled at her younger sister.

"He should know! You don't deserve this and I told you before" Hanabi exclaims, face turning red to hold back tears.

Hinata lifts her head to look at Hanabi before closing her eyes and standing up.

"I will be back"

Placing a hand on the window sill, Hinata pushes open her window and then jumps through bouncing gracefully across the estate and then atop the gated entrance. The guards glance up and then suddenly look down, not wanting to be caught gawking at the heiress. She jumped onto the tree line and then made a bee line for Naruto's house. Even with his new popularity, he loves his original apartment and finds himself there more than his new place. Hinata bit her bottom lip and continued moving through the trees and finally landed on the stairwell to his apartment.

"Please be here…please"

Hinata walked down the hall, running her fingers along the graffiti walls and reading the words 'spawn' and 'demon'. She wondered what it was like to read this day and after day and washing it off only for it to return. She wished she had the courage then to help him. She wished she wasn't an heiress and bound to her estate because she would have helped him she believed. Hinata walks up to the door and knocks, stepping back and holding her hands behind her back.

Moments passed and Hinata contemplated using her Byakugan to see through the apartment and maybe he was sleeping.

"No that's weird Hinata," she mumbled to herself

She waited again and after ten minutes another elderly woman passed behind her with her groceries.

"Sweetheart, he is gone," she said politely smiling at him and pressing her keys into the lock of her door.

"Is he at his other location?"

"No child, he's on a mission. He left a note on my door so I knew not to make him dinner," she said handing Hinata the note.

Hinata held the note with shaking hands and then as soon as the elderly woman shut the door she activated her Byakugan looking through his apartment for the letter but finding nothing.

"He took it with him," Hinata said, eyes watering at the realization that he would know. He would see her deeper than she was prepared emotionally and what he could possibly say after.

She wanted things to stay the same and her romantic feelings to fade. Now she will lose him completely.

"No…."