AN: well, here comes the fifth chapter of this fanfic. i hope u guys enjoy it.
Disclaimer: CCS does not belong to me, nor the characters. they belong to CLAMP
Chapter five: the Rain of Tears
Syaoran:
How are you lately? I miss you so much.
In these three years, I wrote millions of letter, but you never write back. Are you alright in Tokyo? Is it because you are too busy to answer so you couldn't write back? It doesn't matter, I won't cry. I won't trouble you. I will wait patiently for you, but at least give me some news, OK? Even it's only a few words, let me know, you had received my letters, and know about my yearning for you.
Do you know how it feels to yearn for another? It feels as if there are billions of bugs biting you. It's itchy, it's rough and it hurts but I don't know where to scrub to stop it itching. I think, maybe those bugs will disappear on the day I see you standing before me again.
I didn't mean to trouble you with those words. I only want you to know I miss you everyday. I miss you so much. Everyday, I miss you until my eyes go red and my nose goes sour. I lock myself in your room, looking at every thing you had used before, imagining that you are still by my side. I didn't cry, really, I swear!
I now grew to learn to be academic; don't you want to see my changes? Syaoran, when are you coming back? I won't be stupid; I won't do anything to trouble you. If you come back, I will listen to every word that you say. I won't make you angry, please come back, please.
It was raining these few days, that's really annoying. Why does God have that much water, it wouldn't even finish pouring down. My birthday is near, but since you were gone, I had never received any more birthday presents. I won't forget I lost you on that day. Every time I thought about this, my heart started to ache and it makes me breathless…
A few days from now I'll be eighteen. I hope it won't rain that day, please, just once, don't rain this year. I really hope that that day, you will be by my side.
I believe, if I keep on praying, one day, God will hear my request. I will wait patiently, if not this year, I will wait for next year, if not next year, I will wait for the year after and the year after……
Because you said, if the rain stops, you will come back, and take me out to play, right?
Lately, Father's health has worsened. The doctor told us to prepare for his funeral. Even though Father didn't say anything, but I know, he misses you too. Brother, found a time and come back, if later, maybe you won't be able to see Father for the last time…Don't you care?
Sakura
Half month before birthday
A few days had past, just like before, this letter had no sign of replies.
These three years, he had never replied to any of them.
In the first year, she had waited with hope for him to come back suddenly, to carry out his promise, take her away.
In the second year, she only wished that he would come back to see her, even one glance is enough for her.
However, her wish didn't come true. The third year, she didn't dare think about that. She only wished that he would spare enough time to give her one phone call, one letter, just one word to let her know that he had not forgotten her.
Everyday she waits by the mail box for the postman but the only thing she ever gets is disappointment. She began to guess, did he not receive the letters? That many letters, not even one of them? Or is it because Mother had forgotten to send them out?
She didn't know which school Syaoran goes to, which suburb he lives in, which street he lives in. Even when she wants to leave, she didn't where to go.
She couldn't ask Mother, she's scared that Mother will get angry, and her mood will lose control again.
Father's health is decreasing faster; it seemed that he only had one breath left. She knew Father really want to see brother again for the last time.
She had thought about it for a few days. She stole the key when Mother went to hospital to see Father. She remembered that all of Mother's important things were locked in the drawer in the closet. She found Syaoran's address in Tokyo in there.
She knew clearly that if she goes to see him and if Mother finds out, she might beat her to death but she doesn't care, she misses Syaoran so much that she knew her heart would shatter into a million pieces if she did not see him again soon.
She felt if it carried on like this, she might die with Father.
On her birthday, the rain was pouring and she didn't care about anything. She left this home and went to the city that he lived in.
In the train toward Tokyo, she felt afraid, she had never been to any places this far from home, to a place completely unknown to her but she told herself as long as he's by her side, there's nothing to afraid of…
The train had pasted lots of stations, ones she knew and ones she doesn't pass in front of her eyes, every time she passes a station, she had leave home further and went nearer to him. If she keeps on thinking like this, she could wait.
The train station in Tokyo was larger than what she had thought, there were many people, the platform was really messy and it was totally different from Tomoeda. It made her felt dizzy, she had asked many people, got onto heaps of wrong buses, and finally reached where Syaoran had been living.
It was an old building; she doesn't know if Mother had remembered to send Syaoran his daily fees, it must be tough living in such a big city. He has to pay the tuition fee, rent and all the daily uses…
But it doesn't matter; she had graduated from high school, in these three years, she was working while studying so she had a lot of work experience. She doesn't want to study higher, study is not her interest at the start, she will help earning money and she won't give Syaoran any trouble.
She pressed on the door bell, but there was no response, she thought, Syaoran is probably still at school, he is a student who studies really hard.
Never mind, she will wait.
The rain is still pouring down, didn't have any sign of stopping, she is now soaking wet, shivering from cold, but Syaoran didn't come back.
Three hours, four hours, five hours……she didn't know how long she had waited, the sky is turning dark, the rain hit her body, she is lost her senses from the rain. Then she sat down against the wall until she saw this familiar but unknown image, forming slowly in her blurring eyesight...
"People these days, they have good food, good place to live in, do one proud, their heart had already corrupted. There are bad people since time started to run. Now in the 21st century, there are people who doesn't want to soak through and dare to steal people's umbrellas. Where is the common sense…?"
"Enough now?" Syaoran is already too annoyed because of the sudden rain, and now he had to listen to his roommate's complains, who can afford that?
They only lost an umbrella, does it really matter that much? And it is his umbrella, he didn't even complain, what is he doing over there?
"Syaoran, this is what you didn't know. Most of the time, we can see what's hidden behind it through little things. We are soaking is not really important, but this means that the common sense of people is decreasing."
"Ok now, what is common sense doing here?" I give up; he made out this big argument from just a lost umbrella. It's quite amazing!!
"Why not? We are only going in there to buy something to eat, but when we came back the umbrella was gone. Just think how fast this person is on stealing things. And the worst thing is that we are already poor. Why didn't he steal other people's things? Why did it have to be ours?. Stealing from a person who's even poorer than himself? Don't you think that we should do something about it?"
Syaoran gave him a glance. "I told you to bring an umbrella this morning and it's you who thinks this too troublesome. See the irony there?" They would still get wet even if they didn't lose their umbrella since they still have to use the same umbrella. Now the umbrella's gone there's no need to complain.
"Who knows that your sixth sense is really accurate today? It rains since you said so." Muttered Eriol Hiiragizawa
"There's nothing to do with my sixth sense, my experiment told me that every year on this day, and it usually rains."
"Did you run out of stuff to do? Otherwise why would you care if this day rains?" Eriol looked at him strangely.
Syaoran didn't know what to say, his mind flied away.
He looked into the rain, calculated the distance, deep breath, he want to run across this street at once…
He need some rain, to get him back to normal.
"Wei!! Le Syaoran, wait for me!" Eriol hurried off after Syaoran.
At about 100 meters away from home, Syaoran suddenly stopped, which made Eriol nearly bumped into him.
"Le Syaoran, what's up with y…" following to the direction where his eyes had focused on, Eriol whistled loudly.
"Wow, this girl is so beautiful! I think this explained why you stopped…"
The next minute, the "so beautiful" girl Eriol was talking about ran straight to them, and hugged him hard.
"Brother!!"
The rain had soaked them all, Syaoran stood in surprise, and his mind was empty.
"Wah, Syaoran-kun, this is so unfair, you didn't tell me that you had a sweet little sister. If I knew this earlier, I won't have to go into a sea of girls; I can just go straight to your house and make an appointment…"
Syaoran lean against the door losing his mind, look at the little sister he hadn't seen for three years, he had never thought that she would come to Tokyo to see him until she's sitting in his room, in dried clean clothes, drying her half wet hair. He still couldn't believe she is really by his side!
Three long years no see, she had changed a lot, when he left, she's still in intermediate, like all the other students, short hair not even touching her shoulder, acting like a child. But now, her hair is up to her waist, the round cute face in his memory had changed into a meticulously pointy face and included a new sense of adult beauty…
She had changed a lot. Only that pair of big watery eyes didn't change, when looking at him, it was a type of engrossment which feels like that there's only him in the world…
His heart aches; he closed his eyes, not allowing himself to think more.
When he chose to go, the only reason is to stop her from thinking he couldn't and he does not allow her to have any wrong dreams…
"Wei, I though you two haven't seen each other for a long time, there must be a lot of things to say. Ano…Syaoran-kun, do you have something to say? Or Le-imouto-chan…?" Eriol felt the atmosphere is a strange type of silence.
"My name is Le Sakura." She told him silently.
"Why don't you tell me earlier? I am happy to remember beauties names till the end of eternity."
Sakura laughed from his words. "Syaoran, your mate is so funny."
"It's my pleasure to get praise from beauties." Eriol kneeled down in front of Sakura dramatically, holding up her hand and willing to kiss. "Young lade, nice to meet you; my name is Eriol……"
A hand came across to Eriol's kiss, Syaoran took Sakura's hand away, not allow her pure hand being kissed by this lady-killer.
"Get away from my sister." Syaoran advised coldly, plus an explanation: "He's taking codex, I'm taking medicine, and we are not mates." It is a shame to have a mate who's interested in girls so much, Syaoran really wants to throw Eriol away thousands of miles.
"How did you guys know each other then?"
"This shameless person didn't have any money to buy lunch, he dare be a thief, stealing my bread."
"Hello? It happened millions of years ago, why didn't you talk about that now? Withal, you really admire my not sticking to little problems right? Otherwise why don't you care that time?"
"Wrong! I was only thinking, I'm already so poor, and there's still people who's POORER than me, who can't even afford bread, I just felt sorry for you, don't exaggerate my mind."
"Oh, how rude, waste the whole point of me taking you as a friend…" Eriol put his hand on his heart as he tried to look broken hearted.
It sure decreases your appetite to look, Syaoran turned his face away not dare to look.
"What's after?" Sakura asked curiously.
"Than he came to me almost everyday, and one day he said to me, our friendship is harder than stone, and invited me to live with him, so that we could look after each other. I didn't recognize the right person, and stepped onto a thief's boat, after a while I found out the truth, it was because he cannot pay the rent, so he put all his ideas on me! Do you think there's this type of flagitious human existing in the world?"
Eriol put his hand behind his head, and laughed awkwardly. "Friends share everything! I don't want to do this either, but this is really funny, every time I need money, I always found that there's only a few dollars left in my pocket, that feeling really hurts."
"When spend money on girls, I never saw you heartache."
"That's because God is not fair, I'm not perfect when I was born, so I have to work harder later. I'm not the same with you, Syaoran-dono, you don't have to spend anytime thinking, and those will just come like water."
Sakura smiled slightly, looking at him. "Syaoran's really popular with girls?"
Syaoran's expression froze, looking at his roommate uneasily. "You are not perfect when you were born? Should I say my enginery doesn't work! Are you a baka?"
"NO, NO, NO!" Eriol hold out his index finger and swayed it. "You may desecrate my personality, but you definitely can't desecrate my body, I promise my "enginery" works perfectly, you can see this clearly through the happy expressions of my girlfriends!"
Syaoran's face darkened. "Don't you dare talking about those "yellow" stuff in front of my sister!"
"She is not a jailbait, why can't I talk about it? You bring girl's back, and let me listen to those "vague voices" for nights, I am really generous that I didn't ask you about it."
Right after Eriol said this, Syaoran froze to the very top point.
He could feel Sakura's eyesight looking at him; but he doesn't have the courage to look at her expressions.
"Enough now, you knew that we haven't seen each other for a long time, couldn't you just leave us some personal space? Stop talking about those "yellow" junk of yours, which pollutes Sakura's ears."
Feeling that he's getting angry, Eriol was surprised.
All the people who knew Le Syaoran, knows how low tempered he is, low tempered until he didn't even want to get angry. Even when he lost his lunch for no reason, he didn't really have any reaction. Some people said that he has a good nature, but according to his accurate observation, it feels like that he didn't care about anything, just like a pond of dead water, walking through life numbly.
Numb? Impossible! He's only twenty, the professor likes him, girls admire him, his future has no end, and so does he have a reason to make himself icy cold?
Intuition told Eriol, this girl means a lot to him in his life, because when she appears, it seems Syaoran came alive again, he developed emotions.
Not understanding this pair of siblings, Eriol shrugged, leaving the room.
Syaoran waited until he left, closed the door softly, a feeling of warmth touched his back, and his waist was hugged tightly. Sakura buried her face deep inside his waist; her voice came through low and frosty. "Syaoran, I miss you……"
He numbed, lower his head to look at her soft black hair, the hands on her shoulder doesn't have any strength, he couldn't push her away, he couldn't hug her either.
"You are too old for coquetry now." his voice is cold, turning around uneasily; he pulled a distance away from her with the reason of getting her hair drier.
"Syaoran help me do it." It was the same long ago, every time she washed her hair she ran around the room, been lazy, wanting it to dry by itself, but he will always take her back to her room, put her on his thighs and dry her hair for her, so that she won't catch a cold.
"You are eighteen, not eight, dry it yourself."
"This has nothing to do with age; it is your love for me."
Her eyes showed her remorseless mind, which made him cannot look straight into that emerald color.
"Don't say those childish things, I couldn't stay with you forever, you have to learn to be more independent, take care of yourself by yourself."
"Why not, Syaoran? Isn't that you who said you will look after me the whole life?" she stood up suddenly, chasing after the view of his back.
Syaoran opened the window, the soft rain came through and hit his face, and it looks exactly the same as three years ago, the night before he was leaving…
"Did okaaa-san know that you are coming to Tokyo to see me?"
"Why don't you tell me that you are leaving, and you came to Tokyo by yourself?" she asked back.
"I was first, Le Sakura!"
"I want to ask that three years ago, Le Syaoran!!"
He rubbed off the rain o her face. "It was decided temporarily, I don't have time to tell you."
"That is not a reason, I don't believe only a few days is that important, Onii-chan, you are fooling me around right?"
"You are right, Le Sakura-san." He smirked, no one knows it is true or not.
She's angry. "Syaoran!!"
"Do you still take me as your brother? If so, why are you interrogating me? And, I don't believe that okaaa-san actually allowed you to come."
Her expression turned into a gloomy color. "Syaoran, can I stay here with you? I don't want to go back."
"Are you joking?" he was frightened by what she said, didn't see that her expression is not right. "You see, I'm not living by myself, this is the place where two boys live, it is really discommodious for a girl to live, and that kaijuu dive into girls when he saw them, this is no reason for that, aren't you afraid?" if Eriol knew that he called him kaijuu, he won't leave him alone, but now he doesn't care, he would sacrifice his roommate's fame for now.
"I will hire my own house then. I'm graduated, so I can found a job and help earning money, I'm not going to be your burden." She promised hastily.
"Do you think living in Tokyo is really that easy? This is not Tomoeda; do you think High School graduations can have a job? You just keep on studying for me, don't think about other things."
"But I want to stay with you, Onii-chan, please, let me stay! You don't know that those three years……"
"I knew that I left three years ago without letting you now had given you resentments, but lots of stuff doesn't not go the way we want them to. if you really did come, what about Otou-san? And Okaaa-san? Who's going to take care of them? We can't only think about ourselves sometimes."
"Demo…" I cannot go back! That family couldn't hold me in, do you know?
"Don't be so selfish, Sakura. My situation is really hard to, be sensible, OK?" he pressed his temple hard, looking tired.
So……she made Syaoran really troubled, is this what he means?
Is this the reason why he left without telling her? He is a big bother she cannot take care of, right?
She couldn't tell him what she want to tell, Brother couldn't help, it she did, it will make him more ashamed, that is not what she wanted to see.
She bites her lips hard, crying silently.
Syaoran's heart aches from just watching; he went towards her and hugged her. "Gomen nasi, Sakura."
"Isn't there any other solutions? Syaoran, I really don't want to leave you…" she choke with sobs, asking.
"Gomen nasi, Gomen nasi. Sakura just take this as helping me, help me take care of Otou-san and Okaa-san, OK?"
Help…Syaoran?
She sniffed, looking up at him, scraping the tears off her face, nodding bravely. "Right, I will help Syaoran."
She had promised, she will listen to what Brother says, Syaoran said no, then it is a no, if there's any other solutions, Syaoran won't leave her along, she has to consider him.
"Sakura…" her expression made him heart broke and couldn't bear. Just a flash, he nearly lost him sense, wanting to ask to stay…
"Never mind, I will wait for Syaoran." She smiled, really soft, really lovely…
Syaoran was shocked, pushed her away like he was bite by a viper.
"Syaoran?"
Knock, knock!!
The knockings made Syaoran bumped onto the corner of the table, Eriol looked in. "Have you guys finished talking? I'm hungry." Follow that, looking at Syaoran strangely. "Syaoran-kun, what are you frightening at? You look like you had stolen something."
He aspirate slowly, looking at Eriol. "You appear and disappear mysteriously, who won't be frightened?"
"You didn't do anything wrong, what are you frightening at?" if he didn't know they were siblings, he will think that he got caught when carrying on a clandestine love affair.
"No more nonsense. Sakura, are you hungry?"
"I'm alright." Actually since she got on the train in the morning till now, she didn't eat anything, but she didn't feel hungry since she wanted to see Syaoran.
Syaoran walked out of the room, opening the fridge door searching for staffs that they can eat.
"No need to search, did you forget that is only because we have nothing to eat at home, so we went to buy some fast noodles, and our umbrella got stolen?" Eriol remind him looking disappointed. No use, it's the end of the month; all the poor students could only tighten their girdle, live with fast noodles.
How could he let Sakura eat fast noodles?
Syaoran didn't say anything more, taking the keys. "Lend me your motorbike."
"Don't, Syaoran, it's raining outside, I will eat fast noodles with you."
He pretends that he didn't hear that, walking straight to the door.
"Even you brought it back, I won't eat it!"
Syaoran stopped, turning back, staring at her.
"I'm serious, when you come back, I'm already full." She emphasized.
Syaoran stared at her for a couple more seconds, surrendered putting the keys back. Took out the fast noodles, helping her cook it, and put the only egg at home in there.
"What about me?" Eriol blinked, looking at him with expecting.
Syaoran didn't even look at him; he threw him a pack of fast noodles. "Do it yourself."
"What discrimination." Eriol mumbled, opening the package resigned.
Syaoran couldn't be bothered looking at him, walking towards the balcony.
"Syaoran, aren't you going to eat?"
"You eat first, I'm not hungry." He lit a cigarette, putted it in his moth.
Sakura frowned. "Syaoran, when did you learn to smoke?"
Eriol explained enthusiastically. "It was my cigarettes, he don't usually…"
"Will you just shout up, and eat your own food?" Syaoran glared at him disfavored.
Eriol shrugged, went back to eat his own food.
Who knows what's wrong with him today, his mood is terrible. Should it be really happy to see his sister? How come he behaves in a totally opposite way? Will the bad weather influence a person's mood?
Half way through eating, the phone rang, Syaoran didn't move, so Eriol stood up and picked up the phone, when he put down the phone he went to Syaoran. "Syao-kun, we are buddies right? Should buddies share what they have?"
Syaoran put away the cigarette, and pushed him away, what is that Syao-kun for? "What do you want from me?"
"Nothing. Is just… that beautiful Kohai-san of yours, she's here."
"Meiling? What about her?" Does he need to show a look of flattery?
He got an answer for his question soon.
When the door bell rang, Eriol fly to the door. That speed, only shows when he's chasing a girl, but the beautiful lady had showed clearly that she doesn't like him, so she is not in his hunting list……
"Fast noodles? I was right. You two guys begin to abuse your own stomach at the end of the month. " The girl laughed, holding up the plastic bag to him who was standing on the balcony. "Luckily that I bought some food for you guys, come and eat when it is still hot!"
He frowned, didn't move. "Like I have said, you don't have to do this."
Li Meiling's smile froze, but soon she tried to smile again. "Just pass by, noting bother."
This pass by is really far away.
Syaoran knew it, but he didn't tell.
Refuse only make her more awkward, he didn't say anything more, walking straight to the kitchen to get some plates, looking up and saw Eriol's flattery look again. "What are you looking at me for? I didn't pay for the food, ask Meiling."
You didn't pay, but she came because of you! Eriol mumbled in his mind.
"Meiling-chan, you know, human are not suppose to have partiality. Though I'm not your direct senpai, but I also need your caring……"
Li Meiling blushed. "I didn't say that you couldn't eat."
"YUPPY!!" Eriol jump to the food in the first time. "You are really the angel from heaven!"
How ashamed!
Syaoran felt shamed for his roommate, turning away, took some food, and handed the bowl to Sakura. "Don't eat that, Sakura."
"Demo…" she wanted to say something, but he already took over her half finished food.
Meiling stand in amazement, looking at them.
This is her regard, but he just took her caring heart, and past it onto another girl, just a sample caring act, but it showed the type of caring that words cannot describe……
She felt……so awkward.
"Don't show that heavy danger consciousness, that's his imouto-san." No help, he took her food, Eriol lisp out between his mouth fulls.
"Really?" Meiling look between both of them. It felt……not true.
Sakura put down her bowl, nodding to her politely. "Konichua, wadashi Sakura Le, thank you for looking after my onii-chan."
So that's it. Meiling smiled. "That alright. Senpai never told any of us that he has a sister, so I'm just a little bit curious when I saw you. You came to Tokyo this time to see you brother, how long do you prepare to stay? I was born in Tokyo, if you have enough time, I could show you around!"
Sakura looked at Syaoran, he didn't look at her, didn't even say a word.
She signed. "I don't know……"
"This is a great idea, get his sister's favor first, then there will be no worries on chasing your love……" Eriol held up his thumb to praise.
Meiling's face turned red, didn't know what to say.
"Eriol Hiraguizawa, I wonder why you don't choke because you talk too much." He had known him for so long; this is Syaoran's first time that he felt his roommate need a really good pounch in the face.
Sakura looked at this beautiful and charming girl in front of her, and then looked at her brother, her eyes widened. So……is that so?
She put down her food, doesn't fell like eating.
After dinner, she insisted on doing the dishes, listening to the noises Eriol made, leaving the private time to Syaoran and his beautiful kohai-san……
"Your imouto is really beautiful."
"…"
"How old is she? Does she have a boyfriend? The type of girl like her is usually what the boys want."
"…"
"Senpai!" three times, he finally realized.
"Nani? Could you repeat that, I didn't hear that properly. " Syaoran lit a cigarette, turned to look at her.
Meiling signed slightly. "You mind is not focusing today." His body is here in the balcony talking to her, but his mind had flown away.
"Is it?"
"I was asking, does your imouto-san has a boyfriend? The type of girl like her is really attractive to lots of boys."
"I don't know." Really? Lots of boys like her? He had never thought, Sakura will be really popular in the boys' circle……
"It looks like you aren't a good onii-chan."
He lit another cigarette, smoking silently.
"Too many smokes are not good for your health." She frowned with care, but he didn't listen, keep on smoking, and felt like he wanted to spread out all of the unhappiness in his body……
"Senpai……"
"Meiling, you like me right?" A question suddenly came out of his mouth.
"Huh?" she stood there in amazement, blushing. "What……what's wrong……"
"You are really good to me, I knew that, but I rather change my girlfriend one by one, but I just couldn't give you a promise, because I don't know what I can give you. You are a good girl, you are supposed to be with a better person, but me, my heart does not settle on a particular person, I'm not sure if I can stop just for you, in the right way, I'm not sure if I can stop for any body, I don't want to make you complain." He stared at her, explaining.
"It doesn't matter!" she answered hurriedly, but she discovered afterwards she's too immediately; she lowered her head and said. "This is not complaint, because I like you, so I couldn't see anyone else, though there's better people, my heart can only take you. I knew your heart wouldn't stop for anyone, just like the wind, it is foreordained that I will have to chase after you, happy when you are happy, sad when you are sad, but even just like that, I want to try, even till the end, I couldn't get you to stop, I won't complain, because I once had."
A few drops of rain came into the balcony, put out the lit cigarette, Syaoran pinched it and threw it by his bin, turning around and said… "Do you mind a man who just smoked kiss you?"
Meiling's eyes widened, he held out his hand, waiting patiently for her decision.
Then, she moved, with the red cheeks, moving forward to him. He furled him arm, gently, placed his lips onto hers.
A wispy sound came from his back, he knew there is a pair of eyes not too far away, watching him since the start.
He tightened his arms, closing his eyes, closing his heart, doesn't want to think.
At this point, he let himself go completely numb.
Just from looking at Meiling's action, leaning in Syaoran's shoulder, even idiots know what happened just before.
But the atmosphere between these two siblings is strange, where is strange, no one can tell, there's just a type of random, sensitive tension in between……
Later, Meiling is leaving for home, she asked before she goes. "Wouldn't like to walk with me for a bit?"
Eriol said without even thinking. "Do you think this is good? His sister had just arrived, and you are starting to take her brother, you guys still have a long way to go…"
Syaoran didn't wait for him to finish. "I will walk you back."
Huh? Eriol stunned.
Sakura froze there, couldn't move.
This is not exaggerating, she came here to see him, but he just left her at the side, doing his own staff, which must feel so stuffy, Syaoran is really a bad brother.
"Syaoran!" she called.
"Tell me when I come back." He's opening the door, didn't turn around.
"Otou-san is really sick, aren't you going back to see him?" she asked hurriedly.
Syaoran turned around.
Sakura is really sensitive, she found it strange immediately. "My letters, didn't you receive them?"
"…Letters?" he stupefied.
"I wrote a lot, Okaa-san sent them for me, didn't you get any?"
He hushed…
"…Too busy, didn't have time to look, I don't know where I threw them."
"You…threw my letters out?"
He turned away awkwardly, took Meiling's hand, walked out of the door.
Sakura looked until he's out of sight, didn't move, didn't act, and didn't even have any expressions……
"Ano……" Eriol felt bad, wanting to comfort her, but she didn't say anything, walking straight to his room.
She stood in front of the shelf, touching every book. In the old days, she love to look through Syaoran's books, whenever she saw those staffs that she doesn't understand, she felt Onii-chan is great, incredible.
She felt Onii-chan is the anger, standing in a place high, high up, she must look up to be able to see him, but now, he's walking away faster, further, her tiny little steps couldn't catch up.
She bit her lips hard; tears couldn't hide any more, dropping onto the ground.
He, is he still the Syaoran that she knew?
Her Syaoran, always took her as the most important person, never left her out.
Her Syaoran, even let her to deal with his love letters, never hold any other girls.
Her Syaoran……really care about her, never forget about her birthday.
She came on purpose, just hope he can celebrate that day only with her.
She's waiting for him to remember, just like years before, bless her a "Happy birthday."
However, after all she couldn't wait……
Leaving a note, she didn't say good-bye to him, leaving silently.
When she came, she didn't let him know, when she goes, there's no need.
Walking into the train station, she bought the last train for today on purpose, standing in the corner all alone, taking the last hope, looking through the sea of crowded people.
She had this strange feeling, she felt he will come……
Time went past, trains leaving one by one, until the last train to Tomoeda parked by the platform. Eleven o'clock, if she misses this one, she will have to sleep on the street tonight…..
She signed deeply, moving her heavy feet, took the ticket, before walking onto the platform, keeping on turning around.
But, at the end, she didn't see him……
"Wa!! Syaoran, did you dropped into the river?" When he saw his roommate walking into the room, Eriol exclaimed.
Huh, he's wet all over, didn't they had a trip under the umbrella? How didn't he look like he just came out of the river?
Eriol looked at the untouched umbrella in his hand, looking up at him again. "Are you crazy? Not using an umbrella when there is one."
Syaoran didn't answer, walking straight into the room. Eriol followed, leaning by the door, calling out to him "Yo!"
"Stop annoying me!" Syaoran didn't turn around, burying his face into his hand. One second, two seconds, three seconds, suddenly looked up. "Where is Sakura?"
"You finally remember? I thought you are crazy with love, already forgot you still have a sister!"
"Where did Sakura go?"
"I thought you told me to stop annoying you." Bad manner of speaking, making him nervous on purpose.
If Eriol is testing on his patience, he is going to be disappointed. Syaoran took Eriol by the collar, shouting. "I'm asking you where is Sakura!"
"She left! She wants me to give you this. " Eriol took his hand away not happy,
Took the piece paper, there is only a few sentences.
Syaoran, I'm leaving.
I'm not stupid, used up all the days of my life to get to know you, I know what you mean.
Since we met this time until now, you are always trying to hit me, the past is not the future now the present, what is done and what is not done, what you want to do and what you don't want to do.
Actually, Syaoran, you don't have to, I said I will listen to everything you says, I will do as you said, so I left, waiting by myself, until you doesn't feel I'm a bit bother anymore.
I know humans cannot stay young; lots of things will change, even if we don't want to, but, some things will never changer, just like…the taste of this cherry.
He looked at the half grown cherry, some part is ruined. Refer back to the experiences of eating the cherries she pick, this cherry must be really sour, but sweet in the sourness.
A flood of fog formed in his eyes.
Just a sample sentence "the taste of this cherry", told him all her worries.
She knew he understand, so she wrote this sentence, to replace all the things she cannot tell.
The past went like a slide show, going through every scene in his mind, all after him and her, all the memories he had with her…
What is he doing? This girl is who he wants to look after with his life, he once afraid of looking at her sadness, but now, he pushed her away himself, let her face the lonely life by herself…
Eriol investigated his expressions, think aloud. "You are really hard to understand, you care about your sister so much, but why do you show yourself like you want her to go away…"
Syaoran held the letter tight, couldn't think anymore, he rushed out of the house.
He is going to chase her! If he can catch up with her, he will get her to stay no matter what!
Jumping onto the motorbike, he drive like crazy, the rain is pouring down, into his eyes, blurring his sight. He tasted what came down from his eyes, that salty rain drop.
Eriol was wrong, he's not crazy, not using the umbrella, is because if he didn't get some rain, he couldn't not explain why the rain drops outside of the umbrella fall onto his face……
A sound of choke came out from his throat, he is driving like crazy on the street of Tokyo, and there are no more traffic lights in his eyes, faster! Just a little bit faster, he will catch up with her.
The car light with into his eyes, he didn't have time to react, pain came straight to him, all he can hear is the deafening hits of cars, at the same time, it had took away his hearing and seeing…
But, his consciousness is still there, before he close his eyes, his hand is still holding the piece of paper she left.
Sakura, my heart, didn't change either, did you know?
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Well, that's the end of this season: when we were young. The next season is called Looking into the distance
AN: im so sorry for taking so long on writting this chapter. as i said before this is going to be the end of this season. im not sure about when im going to start the next season, so don't give too much hope on that. tehee. but review please.