Over the next days Damon did what he knew best. Sex and feeding essentially meant killing. What did he care what the witch thought of him or anyone for that matter. It was out of sheer boredom that he had pursued her. It was the typical concept of wanting something that you seriously can't have. That's all it was and all it would remain. He simply did not get these mystic falls women. A lot of girls were smart he thought amused. They knew how to have a good time with the bad boys instead of the quiet poetic ones like Stefan. Where was the fun in always playing it safe?

He continued to ignore Stefan questioning him about his behavior and his excessive intake of scotch. He was bored with just talking about ways to put a stop to Elijah and Klaus. He wanted to take some damn action. He was thinking that very thing as he was swirling the drink in his hand heavily laced with blood when Elena came barging in being a typical woman in a fret over something, with Stefan behind her. A smile instantly took over his face when Elena looked at him accusingly and snatched up the TV remote turning to the news.

"Those damn animal attacks" he said trying not to laugh. He looked at the screen, "Hmm up to five people dead already in only two weeks? Well that's not good. They really need to catch this thing. Whatever it is" Damon said with what could not even pass as even the most fake sincerity adding that sinister trouble making smirk of his.

"This isn't funny Damon!" Elena told him acting like she could actually get through to him and stop his fun. She looked at Stefan which amused him. As if Stefan could actually do something to stop him. Now that was a laugh.

Damon sighed. "Don't you two have anything better to do? I'm sure there's someone else you could bore. I'm not doing anything...at the moment" he said smirking at the end. "I've already fed" he continued, taking a sip of his drink.

Elena just shook her head knowing Damon was going to continue doing what he was doing with complete disregard to what anyone had to say.

"Well I'm going to head out. See what trouble I can get myself into" Damon said smiling getting up and handing his brother his unfinished drink and left the house.

Stefan looked at the content in the cup, smelling the blood and then looked at Elena sighing. He stared after his brother wishing there was some way he could get through to him. The last thing they needed was for him to start killing more frequently again. The people of mystic falls would catch on again just like before if they already hadn't….

That evening at Bonnie's, Elena was still thinking about the Damon situation now that it had become one again and Bonnie could tell.

"So what's wrong girl?" Bonnie finally asked deciding Elena had enough brooding time and that it was time to talk.

"It's Damon of course" Elena answered sighing and telling her friend what had been going on with him lately.

"Oh…" was all Bonnie could say, thinking about her own Damon situation.

After a while Elena looked at her phone sighing. Well Stefan is here to pick me up we're going to go out and try to get our mind off things she said looking unconvinced that it would work but giving an unconvincing smile. "Damon's at home hopefully he'll stay put but Stefan can't get to him" she told her and Bonnie nodded giving her friend a forced smile.

"Well, try and have fun" Bonnie said giving Elena a hug. "It'll be okay" she assured her with a more sincere smile causing Elena to smile for real and nod.

After Elena had left a little while later Bonnie somehow found herself in front of the Salvatore Manor with the intent to talk to a certain Damon Salvatore to see if she could get to him. She had to, she was not just going to stand by and allow him to go on a killing rampage especially if she was somehow the cause of it. She knew it was a bad idea and completely insane as she took a deep breath and entered the house when she realized the door was unlocked.

Damon groaned smelling then seeing Bonnie enter the house. He was nowhere near in the mood for her; he just wanted to be left alone and allowed to sulk in peace for once without any nagging. "What do you want witch?" He spat out sounding extremely annoyed. "You're little friend isn't here" he said in reference to Elena.

"What are you doing Damon these are innocent people" she said cutting straight to the chase.

Damon smirked "Well, better to help them die then, way before they start having those sneaky little thoughts to corrupt themselves" he responded amused.

All Bonnie could do was look at him in pure disgust and that just pissed him off even more as he downed his drink and poured him another.

"You're drunk" she stated quietly once again realizing it was a bad idea coming here alone and not letting anyone know where she was. She hadn't even realized that vampires could get drunk.

Damon just sort of glared at her. "So you came here thinking that what you could get to me?" he asked sarcastically amused. "After our little heart to heart well forget it" he informed her dryly.

"Damon if that's what this is about I- "but she couldn't finish Damon was on her in a heartbeat, she could almost hear the snap in him and suddenly not only he was on her, he had his hand around her throat and she was once again backed against a wall with his body pressed into hers. He looked absolutely livid. "Don't" he growled slow and menacing, his eyes enraged and serious. "That was nothing witch. I thought you could be something to do. The allure has worn off so don't make this about you. He told her slowly and coldly.

She was scared now and her heart was beating way to fast and they could both hear it and for some reason she couldn't muster up any spell he was too close and strangely his masculine yet sweet scent was making it all too hard to concentrate on anything at the moment but his pissed off expression.

He seemed to calm down though but still didn't remove his hand from her throat or back off. His eyes lost the rage and became a bit emotionless as he lowered them that seductively uncaring way he always did. He put on that arrogant sarcastic smirk of his but it didn't touch his eyes this time, that air of amused arrogance he always carried with him wasn't present. He took a long swallow of the drink he was holding in his other hand and looked back at her. "Don't flatter yourself witch" he said in sarcastic uncaring manner but she could still sense something off about him.

"Want to hear a secret? I miss it okay" he nearly spat at her. "Humanity…" he spat like it was disgusting. "I'll never be what she wants what you want, what anyone wants it" he continued. It was getting more and more apparent that he had to obviously drunk but his confession still shocked Bonnie. "So I play the part" he said giving a hopeless insincere smile. "The monster" he whispered with exaggerated unfelt humor.

He let out a sighed. "Again, why are you here Bonnie?" he asked, seeming to have more control and seeming more like himself as he loosened his hold a bit. His face was still dangerously close to hers and causing her with no intention what so ever, to look down at his mouth which was causing him to do the same.

Before she could do anything or even fully comprehend it, his mouth was on hers, kissing her hard and passionately rough and without even realizing it she was kissing him back, but Damon surely realized it and neither of them comprehended or heard the cup in his hand hit the ground and shatter, so that he could pull her more to him tangling his hand in her hair the other one around her throat going to her cheek and then down her body gripping her side.

The kiss suddenly turned unbelievably tender which was so unexpected and uncharacteristic for Damon. Bonnie would have thought he was capable of such tenderness, but she willingly and almost hungrily accepted it without thought and she actually reached for him and pulled him to her like she was intoxicated herself.

Suddenly Damon was the one to come to his senses. He wouldn't have her like this. He couldn't resist peppering kisses along her jaw and down the side and front of her neck to her collar bone causing her to reflexively bare her neck to him and as if magnetically pulled, her body arched toward him and suddenly his body disappeared away from hers. He was away from and across the room. His back was now to her so that she couldn't see the turmoil of emotion shadowing his features.

"Go home Bonnie "he said, his voice void of emotion, to a very shocked and confused Bonnie Bennett. She couldn't say or do anything. Her mind was struggling to try and wrap around what had just happened. With trembling fingers she brought her fingers to her lips that had just touched Damon's so willingly and without abandon. The thought caused her to shake as she looked at him afraid of her lost of control just now. 'Why hadn't she stopped him, fought him done anything?' she didn't know what was wrong with her.

On shaky legs she managed to leave the house and make it to her car just barely in her confused and frightened state.

She somehow managed to start up her car with trembling hands, but nearly screamed or at least jump out of her skin when Damon suddenly appeared in the passenger seat and put his hand over hers and turned the ignition off and then moved her hand completely, taking the key out.

"You shouldn't be driving" he said dryly and quietly not even looking at her just looking straight ahead.

All Bonnie could do was look at him, her body pressed against the door, trying to put as much space between them as possible. She visibly relaxed when she saw his defeated posture and his hopeless vulnerability as he just sat there not even looking at her.

For some reason she felt bad and she could feel something in her softening. 'Was she feeling sorry for Damon Salvatore?' How could she be feeling anything toward him except hatred…but some reason she almost wanted to comfort him. It was twisted to her considering everything between them.

Damon finally looked at her. "We can't" she suddenly blurted out before she could stop herself.

"Can't what Bonnie?" he spat coldly. "What is it we're trying to do? He asked her seeming pretty darn annoyed again. His mood changes were making her head spin.

"My Grams…"she started quietly unable to finish.

"Oh I know trust me" he said a smile threatening to form on his lips, but a sad one. "You know what's so ironic? You blame me for something I didn't really have anything to do with. Sure I wanted it but I wasn't the one to personally go to your Grams and ask for her help or encourage her to push herself further it was good ol' saint Stefan and Elena" he said with a smirk. "You should really look at the big picture, you're a smart girl. But it's always the better solution to blame it all on the elected bad guy isn't it.? He asked sarcastically, yet un-amused.

Bonnie couldn't accept it even though in her heart his words rung true…Elena had begged her Grams to get Stefan out of the tomb after he ran in to get Damon and…if Stefan had went to her Grams…

"No! she suddenly shouted in denial, angry tears spilling, with her unable to help it, as she began pounding her fists against Damon out of her and anger and all the confused emotions coursing through her. She didn't want to accept it, she couldn't. Suddenly Damon grabbed her hands stopping her from hitting him any further even though it didn't hurt in the least. He would have been amused by it at any other time.

All Bonnie could do was try to struggle free as her tears fell freely now, as she shook with them feeling the pain of Gram's death all over again. It was too overwhelming and she couldn't seem to get a grip. It left her unaware when Damon suddenly wrapped his arms around her and pulled her to him, comforting her. All she could do was move more into his comforting embrace that she needed more than anything right now, as the tears continued to rack through her and she literally fell apart in his arms feeling more alone than ever.

But how could she tell him that? how could anyone understand how utterly alone she was without Grams not to mention confused.

She had to face this all on her own now, this witch thing, and be there for everyone because they all needed her. So she had to force herself to be strong for everyone. No one was there to help her understand what was happening to her. No one was there to go through this with her. S=She couldn't even tell her own father. Everything was just crashing down on her and to know that it was true that her best friend and her boyfriend were responsible for it was too much. It was true it was easier to blame Damon but it wasn't fair to him.

Damon just let her cry stroking her hair, feeling his shirt become wet with her tears. He didn't say anything he knew there was no need to right now. He'd be there for her and they would suffer the repercussions of what was happening between them later.

Finally she calmed down enough to stop crying and wipe her tears and looked up at Damon with all the confusion she was feeling evident on her face. "You're in love with Elena" was all she could say to break the silence after they just stared each other for a while.

Damon gave an irrigated snort. "Don't you think that scenario is getting old, Fighting good ol' Stefan for the love of the same girl? I'm going to let him have this one…he wins" was his answer.

Seeing this vulnerable and almost sweet side of Damon was unnerving to Bonnie and added with his brutal and bare honestly, it was almost too much for Bonnie to comprehend, let alone experience first hand.

She realized that his arms were still around her but she made no move to move out of his embrace. As hard as it was to admit and especially accept she needed it right now.

She sighed not having it in her to say anything else, she was emotionally just laid against his chest. To be honest they both could use this right now. Maybe he did understand how lonely she felt in this world.

Damon was shocked by her action but just placed his chin on the top of her head not saying anything just accepting her willing affection. He knew she was just probably a wreck and confused and this was the result of it but right now he didn't care, he was tired himself mentally.

After a while Bonnie began shuffling uncomfortably and she made to move away from him. Damon wouldn't admit it but it got to him in a negative away, but he obliged and let her go, figuring she had come to her senses. He kept his face emotionless preparing to replace that barricade he kept around himself to keep people out.

"It's kind of uncomfortable..being in the car like this" Bonnie stated quietly getting his attention.

"…maybe we should go inside" she said even quieter, shocking Damon more than he thought possible for a human, but he had to remember she wasn't exactly human.

He just nodded unable to help the cocky smirk. It was who he was. In a flash he was out the car and getting her door. She hesitantly got out of it and followed him inside. Damon already had a fire going.

"Take a seat, do whatever you want" Damon said taking a seat in his favorite chair, not expecting her to exactly want to cuddle again. But again the little witch shocked him when she squeezed into the chair alongside him more on his lap then anything and laid against him, wrapping her slender arms around his waist. He didn't say anything he just put his arms back around her.

For some reason Bonnie felt comfort and the security she had been lacking for months after Gram's death and she wasn't ready to let that go just yet, even though her actions were completely uncharacteristic right now. But she needed this right now after all she had been through these past months and she wouldn't admit it but she envied Elena and Stefan because at the end of the day they had each other to go to after everything was said and done. Her and Damon had no one.

She would think about the consequences of all if this later. She still wasn't sure rather or not she could just forgive him for everything or even accept him, but right now that didn't seem to matter she was tired of fighting with herself and her emotions. She just was tired. She closed her eyes and just decided to save it all for later…

A/N: Okay so im still alive and totally into this story. I wrote a nice long chapter to make it up to you guys. Hope you like it :D

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