Disclaimer: I do not own Death Note. I do own this story though, which is based on it. It isn't exactly AU... it's AC, altered circumstances. Rated for the language and eventual maybe lemon. If this does well, I'll write a companion piece from Matt's point of view. This is all just Mello rambling in a "fecking" diary. Thank you for the reviews, once this is done, the companion "Betchin' Blog" or something of the sort shall certainly commence.
Fecking "Diary"
Day Four still.
Dear Fucking "diary",
Matt's playing his gameboy, if I make it look like I'm making notes at the computer, he hopefully won't notice. If he does I'll...oh gods just... anyways...we played brawl for the rest of the day, and Matt pwnd my ass more than usual. I blamed my eye and he bought it... I was thinking. That's the thing about having a brain like mine. It likes to analyze things when I want it to shut the fuck up.Anyways, I couldn't get my mind off of my hug with Matt. It was different this time. I mean, we never were all touchy feely as kids, I was too cold and Matt's still rather shy...but of course we hugged...but...when we were kids...I never felt compelled to stare at Matt's ass like it was a chocolate bar.I never wanted to make sure he never let go. I figured...I made myself figure, that it's just that Matt rattled my brains when he punched me. I actually had myself believe it...so anyways, When Matt went to bed, I was too jittery. I'd already eaten five chocolate bars.They weren't helping. You know you're screwed when Chocolate just makes you hyper. It hasn't done that to me since I was what...four? Gods...so anyways...Matt went to bed, so I took a shower. Something's wrong with me. I was...y'know...doing what guys do in the shower. Ugh this is awkward...but no one will read it so...yeah...I was having some fun...by myself. And since I was by myself, I let my mind wander... I started of thinking about Hal, Near's little bitch, when...it didn't work. Sure, she's pretty and I've seen her naked and..it wasn't doing anything for me...and then...oh God I don't know why...my minds drifted to the sleeping red head down the hall and...my hands wandered and...his face was in my mind and..it was the most goddamn fun I've ever had! I ...will spare the details...but...I was exhausted afterwards. And very happy...and then I started drying off and realized what the hell I'd done. I'd gotten off thinking about my GUY roommate. my STRAIGHT GUY ROOMMATE. Who has been my friend since I was ...since EVER. Who is my only friend right now. Who I love. Like a BROTHER. er... something. Oh Gods I was so confused then, it's only worse now. I'm GAY? I can't be gay. I'm a Fucking registered member of the Mafia! I'm legally dead in ... a lot of countries... just...NO! I hate pink, have no affinity for small dogs, only shop when it's a necessity. I suck at decorating and...and...I can't be gay.
Matt just asked what wrong and I started swearing up Kira. I think he bought it. I hope he bought it. if he asks to see this, I'm screwed, and not in the fun, slightly sticky way. not that I would know... Anyways...there's more. I finally went to bed, and just as I was drifting off, I swear I heard Matt groan my name in his sleep. which wouldn't be weird, at all, if it weren't for that husky tone he was calling out that girls name in from a few nights before...it wasn't "Mello" as in "GODDAMNIT MELLO MY GAMEBOY!" or "Hey Mello" it was a "Ohmigod Mello ;pant; I'm almost there ;pant; a few more seconds and..." you get the picture, I'm sure. and I got that flippy feeling from eating too fast again. but...I know I'm kidding myself. It isn't indigestion.
Anyways...there's more. After grinning myself to sleep from Matt's muttered comment, I had a dream. I...good dream...I...oh gods it was so...I mean... I'll be frank. I've seen Matt naked tons of times. So seeing him between clothes in a dream wouldn't be that far fetched. but...for him to be walking towards me and ...giving me a hug and then...us... oh gods I'm turning red...making out and ...it didn't get any farther then that before I woke up but...me. and Matt. Making out. Naked...I hope Matt didn't just see the shiver go down my spine...naw, he's too busy playing Gameboy...aw fuck. I hate how tight my pants are these goddamn leathers make everything so goddamn obvious...I'll...be sitting here for a while, it seems...-ANYWAYS-. that's it. I'm done. Goddamn. hmmm I wonder...
O.O I just searched pr0n on the net. Girls officially turn me off. I'm fine now, down in the leather. FUCK THIS! I'M GAY! I'm a fag...I ...I... I...I'm signing off now. Matt got me a chocolate bunny...I'm going to devour it all, now, head first.
signing off to gorge myself.
M