What's up Fanfiction universe! I am so very sorry for not uploading sooner, but you know, I'm here now, so um, LOVE ME! I noticed I'm shipping a lot of Jandré, when most of you are Tandré fans, so here is a bit of ToriXAndré love! This is an AU story where Hollywood Arts never existed.

I call this, 'Flashback!' (Recently renamed from Save me).

Warning: THIS STORY IS HEAVILY RATED AS T-M FOR SUBSTANCE ABUSE AND SEXUAL REFERENCES! PLEASE DO NOT READ IF YOU ARE NOT COMFORTABLE WITH SUCH MENTIONS! THIS IS NOT A COMEDY IN ANY WAY, SHAPE OR FORM!

Enjoy and please Read and Review.

I don't own Victorious, the characters or the destinations mentioned… well most of them.

Tori age 30 sat at the edge of her bed in a pair of bright blue boxer shorts and white tank top as she fished through her dreams for a moment, she knew it had happened sometime before. Tori sighed in frustration and got up to go to the bathroom, looking in the mirror she noticed how much her appearance had changed over the years. She became thinner and paler, her lush bouncy brown hair now lay limp and motionless upon her shoulders. Looking at the person staring back at her Tori saw a tear escape her eye, as she slowly opened up her medicine cabinet and reached for her favourite razor. Taking it in her hands she seemed to smile as she saw the glimmering that has been violated with dried red stains, looking down at her shoulder she slowly raised the blade up to her flesh, and slowly applied pressure as she felt her nerves screaming for her to stop; biting her own lip to refrain from crying out she finally got her reward as she happily chuckled from seeing her own blood running down her shoulder and slowly going down her small bicep, tickling her white forearm then finally reached her hand as it started dripping on the floor beneath her. Turning around she started running the shower as she turned once more to sneak a peek at her crimson shoulder and smiled. Removing her now stained tank top and boxer shorts she stepped into the falling water only to wince as the water hit her paining shoulder wound.

The day seemed to drag on for Tori as she slowly walked into her manager's small office, well it wasn't really an office at all, it just a supply closet with a small desk in it. Walking in, Tori's manager Randy Stan's face split in two, "TORI! Who's the best manager in the entire?" he asked her beaming, "Not you." She muttered as she reached across his desk, grabbed a cigarette and lighter and started smoking in the confined space. "Oh come on!" he pleaded, "I just booked you to sing with thee André Harris!" he said puffing his chest out. "André Harris?" Tori repeated. "Sounds familiar. Where have I heard that name before?" she thought to herself, not paying attention to Randy who had swiftly moved behind her. Suddenly she was snapped back to reality as Randy waved a small plastic bag filled with a powdery white substance in it in front of her eyes her eyes went wide as she broke out into a huge grin, "You got some! Oh Randy, you do have your rare moments of greatness!" Pouring a small heap on the desk Randy reached out and used a ruler to separate the heap into 4 straight lines, reaching into his pocket he pulled out a small straw leaning forward he snorted up two of the lines then laid back and let the drug do its work. Giving Tori the straw she quickly bent over to get her fix, meanwhile Randy who had already started feeling the effects, couldn't help but notice how Tori's skirt raised slightly as she bent over his desk, his face broke into a devilish smile as he went to work unbuttoning his pants and sliding his pants down his waist. Tori on the other hand started snorting the second line when she felt Randy pushing against her, with a heavy and uninterested sigh Tori just stood there and let him do what he wanted to her.

After a while Randy had stepped away from Tori who had numbly pulled her skirt down and grabbed her purse to leave, "Be at Legendary Recordings! Tomorrow at 12!" Randy yelled after her, but she just waved him off. Tori walked out of the shabby building and straight to her car, a broken down, rusted piece of metal, but it was all she could afford. Tori had never given much thought to her lifestyle; she lived in an old apartment building which didn't have a heater, hot water or decent electricity. Many had wondered what had happened to her, she was Tori Vega! The most talented girl they had ever met and yet here she was outside a broken down building where her music manager had just sexually harassed her. She learned at an early age that you never got anything in this career unless you kept your mouth shut and did what you had to do to climb the success ladder. Chuckling to herself she started her car which stubbornly refused to start but then roared to life with a loud cough and she was off to her dusty apartment. The entire ride she kept trying to figure out where she had known the name André Harris from. Finally arriving at her home, she shut off the engine and made her way up to her room, finally arriving she shut the door and locked it tightly behind her as she made her way to the bathroom to repeat her morning routine; blade, blood, bath she smiled and made her way over to a bed which creaked horribly under her light frame. Shutting her eyes, Tori just wanted the day over so she could wake up and once again, punish herself for something she had no control over.

The morning light shun through Tori's boarded windows as she blinked her eyes open and checked the time, "OH SHIT!" she screamed, "11:38! Crap! Looks like I'll have to skip you this morning." she said in a slight whisper as she slowly ran her fingers over the medicine cabinet. Not worrying about showering, Tori brushed her teeth and put on a pair of skinny jeans and long sleeve shirt to hide her scars, grabbing a stale piece of bread she quickly ran out her apartment and practically flew into her car, which from some grace of god, started on the first try. Bolting down the road she arrived at Legendary Recordings with 2 minutes to spare. Running into the building she asked the lady at the front desk where the duet with André Harris was being recorded, to Tori's dismay it was the 7 story and the elevator was out of order so she made a dash for the stairs, 4 minutes pass 12 and she came through the door only to run into someone, "I'm so sorry!" she said breathless, "Oh it's no problem, I'm André by the way." The stranger said. Looking at him closely Tori knew she had seen him somewhere but still couldn't place her finger on where. Seeing that he was staring back she shuffled on her feet, trying to avoid looking directly at him, André was taller than her and had broad shoulders where his long dreadlocks rested on, but it wasn't his body Tori was interested in, it was his eyes, those eyes that managed to show warmth and happiness other than the cold and lonely eyes she was used to seeing.

"Shall we get started?" André asked her. Nodding slightly Tori made her way over to a small couch as André quickly took out an electric guitar, and strummed a few chords. Looking to Tori he asked, "So any ideas on what we should write?" "Anything you like, I don't mind." She replied shyly. Smiling slightly the other musician started plucking the guitar which Tori thought sounded amazing, but she wasn't feeling it. "Okay no, you have an idea, let's hear it." André pushed on. "Well the guitar sounds amazing, it really does but I don't know it just feels too chipper, how about the piano?" she suggested. That's when Randy had decided to speak up, "Tori! Don't just suggest things like that, this is his song as well!" he snapped. Looking at Randy André's eye brows furrowed as he thought, 'He kinda looks familiar.'

Looking back at Tori, André suddenly broke into a smile as he grabbed Tori by the hand and dragged her towards the piano in the corner, "Great idea, I mean do you have a song we could try out?" Tori gave a small smile as she reached into her handbag and pulled out a small black book; giving André a cue to start playing, Tori started singing.

"The situation turned around,

Enough to figure out.

That someone else has let you down,

So many times I don't know why.

But I know we can make it,

As long as you say it.

So tell me that you love me, yeah!

Tell me that I take your breath away.

Maybe if you take one more,

I will know for sure.

There's nothing left to say,

Tell me that you love me any way!"

André watched closely as Tori had her eyes closed and sang, she sounded amazing! He couldn't believe someone actually had a voice like hers, it was so full of emotion, not like most singers who only sang to sing she sang to live and André couldn't help but admire her for it.

After a long day of playing and replaying the song, the duo made their way outside while talking and laughing, "No way!" Tori cried while gripping her stomach, "No I swear my grandma once charged at me with a hairbrush telling me how it was trying to make her go bald every time she combed her hair." André laughed. Staring at her André could see that the girl in front of him hadn't had a good laugh in a while and was happy he could put that expression on her face. She looked up to meet his eyes as she got her car keys out her bag and said she had better get going, opening the car door, Tori gave a happy sigh as she started the car only to find that her old faithful car given up on her today and was refusing to move. Beating her steering wheel she caught André's car etching forwards towards her own, in a desperate attempt she turned the key in the ignition one more time but it was futile as her car just rattled and failed once again.

"Car trouble?" the voice caused her to blush a scarlet pink as she turned to look at André, "Don't worry, come on I'll give you a ride." "But my car?" "Didn't I say not to worry; I got a friend who'll take a look at it for you. I'll call him, now get in here." He finished with a friendly smile. Thinking it over, Tori stepped out her old 'VW Beetle' and got into André's 'Aston Martin'. Taking off away from the parking lot Tori gave a soft "Thank you" André smiled and turned back to the road.

The drive was quiet none of them spoke a word, suddenly the pianist gave a violent turn as he stopped the car and shut off the engine and got out of his car, Tori sat in shock, why did they stop? But André simply smiled at her as he opened her door and helped her out. "Um, what's going on here?" she asked him, "Come on, let's get something to eat." He said leading her into a nice little restaurant. Nothing fancy but still very nice. Leading the way André held the door open as the young Latina made her way in followed by her new friend.

After getting a table and ordering they sat talking while they waited for their food, "So, Ms Vega, tell me about yourself." Cocking an eyebrow Tori leaned back as she started, "Well I was born and raised in Hollywood, my sister; Trina became a lawyer at a large firm, I love music, obviously, um… that's about it, you?" Tori said as she took a sip of her water. "Born in Miami, moved and raised in Hollywood, Parents are um… doctors, My grandma raised me; good woman, just mentally she's a little loose. Um love learning new instruments have a sister in her last year at boarding school." "Oh, that sounds really cool." Tori said at a loss for words, she stared at André fishing through her memories trying to remember where she'd met this guy. "I'm sorry," she started as she noticed him staring back, "it's just have we met before?" Laughing, André replied, "I've actually been wondering the exact thing, it seems that I've met you sometime before but I just can't put my finger on where." Just then their food came; Tori had ordered a Greek salad with some soft rolls while André had gotten a large hamburger with a side of fries.

After finishing their meals and feeling very happy they reached the dark man's car; Tori had reminded André of her car with a slap to the forehead he reached for his cell phone and dialled a number, connecting it to a device on the dash board the car was suddenly filled with the sound of soft ringing which came from the car speakers. After 4 rings the ringing stopped and was replaced by a smooth, voice "Hey André what's up?" "Hey Beck bro, I need a favour." He replied. "Sure." "Ok well remember the new artist I told you about, Tori Vega?" "Oh, yeah?" Beck's voice had a hint of curiosity echoing from it. "Well, her broke down outside the studio, think you can fix her up?" there was a sudden crashing sound in background followed by a loud "DAMMIT!"

"Jade babe, what happened?" Beck's voice echoed. André and Tori shared a look as Jade's voice was heard once again, "I'm gonna kill this bloody dog!" then they heard a sigh, "Babe, you know how much Cat loves Toby." "Fine!" Jade yelled back, "I'll be there in 10 minutes." "Thanks man." On that note the phone called ended. André started his car and made a U-turn back to the studio.

Tori sat in silence as she started getting fidgety; she hadn't had a proper fix in a few good hours, looking at her watch only made her more irritable as she noticed it had been exactly 5 hours. Holding her purse closer to her side she wished nothing more than to make a line on the dash board, snort it and go to her happy place; where the coldness of the world and the judgemental look on people's faces simply disappeared, but she doubted André would allow such behaviour and would get her off the recording deal instantly.

The ride was short a few minutes, but felt like hours to Tori, her skin started itching and her mouth and throat became unbelievably dry.

Getting out of André's car, Tori made her way up to where her car stood motionless, and sad looking, she turned to see a man get out of the car that was parked next to hers but not just any man, an outstandingly handsome guy with lush dark wavy hair and olive coloured skin, his dark eyes looked straight at Tori as she started feeling very warm, then on the other side of the vehicle she noticed a very pale girl with jet black hair with blue and green highlights in them, her hypnotic blue-green eyes looked over at Tori, taking a sharp breath she realised that this must be the ill-tempered Jade who had been yelling in the background of the phone call.

After explaining what had happened to her car Beck tried everything he could think of to get it to start meanwhile standing with Tori, André who she assumed knew the gothic woman beside him as they spoke about something that confused her, "How's Cat?"

"You'd know if you went to check on her." Snapped Jade,

"You know I can't, not after what happened."

"Stop being such a little bitch and see her, she's not brain-dead you know! She still asks about you! You were her best friend!" Jade turned to him with tears in her eyes but seemed to be steaming mad.

Looking away from her, Jade made her way to Beck who was admiring his hard-work and dragged him into the car, "I want to leave now!" Jade's voice echoed through the parking lot. Beck gave a small smile and a wave as he drove out of sight, Tori noticed André had tears forming in his eyes as well, "André…" was all she could get out before he turned to her with a huge smile, "So your car's fixed, um you can go home now and knowing Beck, he probably tuned that baby to her very best." Seeing that he didn't want to talk about what had just happened, Tori grabbed her bag from his car and made her way to her car, before she got in André called out to her, "Hey, um Tori, today was fun right?" she nodded towards him with a very happy smile, "So um, do you, want to do it again? You know go on a, um, a da- date." He stuttered looking away in an overload of shyness which Tori had to admit was cute.

"Sure!" Tori said with a smile as she extended her arm out the window, "Um?" André froze not knowing what she wanted, "Your phone silly! For my number." Tori said with a small giggle, "Oh right, um here you go." She quickly punched her numbers in as she really started feeling sick for her powdery escape. "Call me." She called happily as she drove off into the unknown.

Reaching her house, Tori was happy her car had made it the entire way, and silently thanked André's friend. Finally reaching her room Tori walked into her bathroom and got her favourite razor blade and stripped off her shirt, bringing her razor mere inches away from her skin, her phone started buzzing; sighing heavily Tori reached into her pocket and answered, "Hello?" "Um, yeah hey Tori?" came a very familiar smooth toned voice. "Oh hey André, what's up?" she asked nervously, there was silence for about 5 seconds before Tori spoke, "Um, André?" "Uh sorry, I wanted to know if you, you know, wanted to maybe, possibly, wanted to um, you know, go with me to see the new Thor movie tomorrow night." Tori was glad they were speaking on the phone cause she was now blushing so violently it had actually reached her fingertips. "Yeah André, I'd love too!" They made plans for tomorrow evening and then hung up.

Tori looked towards her razor and set it down where it sat before, "I don't think I need you anymore." She said with a sad smile as she closed her cabinet door and rushed off to bed so she could wake up the next morning.

The over the next two months Tori and André got to know more about each other, slowly revealing their secrets to one another gaining one another's trust. This went on for a period of a month; Tori had admitted that she used to cut herself and the use of drugs and to her surprise André hadn't yelled been disappoint or even broke up with her but he simply hugged her and told her that he would help her get cleaned up and live a life she deserved, though she never told him what lead her to do what she did. In return André told Tori about how he's parents had died in a very vicious car accident and he was raised by his grandmother, but the shock caused her to become mentally unstable, but he hadn't told anyone about it, because he knew they'd take her away, that explained the look of saddens when Tori had asked about his parents on their first unofficial date.

Tori was over at André's house asleep when she heard a faint buzzing, turning over she reached for the source of the noise and discovered it had been his phone, looking at the sleeping man beside her she answered the phone call for him, "Hello, this is Tori, André's asleep." She said worried that it might be André's manager. "Oh hey Tori, its Beck, the guy who fixed your car a while ago, well Jade and I are having a small get together and were wondering if André could come. And you of course!" "Oh, that sounds like fun, I'd love to, and I'm sure he could make it as well." "Great! It's this afternoon at 12. See you then." With that the conversation ended. Two hours later when André woke up, he noticed Tori hadn't been there, his eyes widened as he burst through the bathroom door and sighed a breath of relief that she hadn't been there doing her 'morning rituals', heading downstairs he found her in the kitchen making breakfast, while wearing his old UCLA which seemed to look like a large mini skirt on her. They hadn't had sex yet but after everything she had been through he decided that they wouldn't be at that stage of their relationship for a while. "Morning beautiful." He said as he approached her and kissed her cheek softly, Tori smiled warmly at him and pointed to his plate of bacon and eggs with a side of toast, knowing that he didn't usually have breakfast. Tori sat down with him at the table and started on her egg, looking at the time it had been 9 am, she thought it'd be a good idea to bring up the get together now, "So? Can we go?" she asked hopefully, seeing the excitement in her eyes André knew he would never be able to refuse her, "Yeah we can!"

Time seemed to have then doubled as Tori now found herself in André's car and then it seemed as if she blinked and they were at the Oliver residence. Walking towards the front door, following André she found that she was beside herself with nervousness what if they don't like me, what would they do if they knew I did drugs, or sold myself at 15 to finish school? The questions didn't seem to end; she felt André hold her hand and gave it a reassuring squeeze as he knocked on the door.

Beck answered the door and greeted them with a hug and warm smile as he ushered them in, handing the wine they bought before heading to the party to Beck, he thanked her and showed them to the back yard where she could see a small child playing with another person with dark red hair and beautifully tanned skin, turning she noticed the goth girl she knew as Jade, sitting with another man with dark curly hair and large glasses, André went over to greet the two dragging her along with him, "Hey Jade, Robbie, I want you to meet Tori. Tori, Robbie and Jade." He finished with a smile, Robbie the nerdy looking man stood up and shook her hand with a very genuine smile while Jade seemed to stare at the girl blankly before she stood up and put her face right in hers, "You hurt my brother, I hurt you." She said bluntly, as Robbie looked away and André facepalmed. Then she stepped back and gave Tori a surprisingly tight hug before walking away to stand with Beck, she looked up at André with a shocked expression, "You didn't tell me you were adopted." She said slightly hurt at the lack of information, "Oh, I'm not, she is." He said looking back at Robbie, then a high pitched squeal was heard from behind them, "Dré!" André gave a happy smile as he turned around, Tori followed suit and saw the red haired girl from the yard stand up, the sight caused Tori to lightly cringe as she held back a gasp at the sight, the tiny woman with red hair had an arm missing and she had a very vicious scar going down from her right cheek bone to her neck and collar bone, "Hey Kitty Cat!" said André with a hint of sadness that everyone but the red haired seemed to notice. Then Tori understood, that moment when they were fixing her car at the recording studio,

Flashback

"How's Cat?"

"You'd know if you went to check on her." Snapped Jade,

"You know I can't, not after what happened."

"Stop being such a little bitch and see her, she's not brain-dead you know! She still asks about you! You were her best friend!"

'Cat? They were speaking of a person not an animal!' Tori thought as the girl unevenly ran towards her friend with a huge hug she started crying into André's shoulder, "I've missed you so much Dré, it's not your fault you did all you did now stop feeling guilty please, please Dré you're my best friend!" she wailed in to his collar bone, "I'm sorry Cat, I'm so, so sorry." André replied as a few of his own tears fell down his cheek. The rest of the day had actually gone down pretty well as Tori was told that Beck and Jade were happily married and the little girl was there daughter Aubrey Vanessa Oliver, Robbie and Cat were engaged and that he'd been in love with her over 10 years. Everyone seemed so happy, and they seemed to have taken a liking to Tori, even Jade who seemed completely bitter to the girl decided to give her a chance.

At the end of the party André and Tori were about to leave as everyone came to say goodbye, hugging and the shaking of hands were handed out then Cat stepped up to Tori and wrapped her arm around Tori's neck, "Thank you for coming, because of André's able to smile and I also got my best friend back!" Pulling away Tori smiled at the girl and made her way out the door "Come back soon!" Beck called back, "But not too soon!" Jade countered with a sly smile.

The ride back to André's place was filled with the explanation of what happened to Cat,

Flashback

"Woah! Those guys were awesome! Thanks for bringing me André!" Cat said excitedly as they walked down the road together, neither of them could drive and Cat lived close to the venue, so it would be quicker.

Further down the road it became dark and isolated; out of nowhere three guys cornered the two friends as they made a grab for Cat, André punched the guy and told Cat to run but next he felt immense pain as he got stabbed in the leg multiple times and then got continually kicked in the stomach which weakened him then one guy swiftly went down and picked his phone out of his jeans pocket, next thing he knew they were dragging cat off to an alleyway…

André's voice started wavering at this point as Tori placed a reassuring hand on his shoulder he continued,

… "André! Help me please! Someone plea- no, stop! Don't please just let me go please! Mommy, someone André please!" Cat's voice was heard along with a few sniggers, then before André could stand he saw Cat running towards him, then she tripped and began crawling closer to him then the five criminals came to follow her, seeing her on the ground one guy picked up a huge brick, then, CRUNCH! CRUNCH! CRUNCH!

The sound of bone being pulverized and the sounds of Cat's pained screams filled the air as the guy proceeded to crush Cat's arm with the brick so she wouldn't escape, the others took the signal he gave them to drag her off in the alley way again, with her arm dragging limply behind her, then the sounds of protests were heard again, then finally. The sounds died and 20 minutes later each guy walked out laughing and commending each other as André swore at them one last time, the one man turned around flashing his phone and tossing it towards him it hit the ground and slid towards him, then another took out a rather large pocket knife as he made his way towards André but was stopped by the leader who pointed down the alley way as the 'knife guy' gave an evil smirk and made his way to Cat. "NO! LEAVE HER ALONE YOU SON OF A BIT-" André's voice was cut off by Cat's screams, then silence fell, and the man walked out of the alleyway showing the others the blood on his knife. Then they all began laughing as they walked away.

After calling the police they would allow André to see Cat and told him she needed immediate medical attention.

End of Flashback

"Well after about an hour my leg was fixed up, after another 3 hours the doctors came by and told me that due to the massive amount of damage her shoulder joint took, it was impossible to heal, and they had to amputate…" Tori could hear André was having trouble finishing his story as his eyes were still locked on the road but his tears hadn't stopped over flowing from his eyes. The rest of the ride back was quiet and filled with quiet sniffs.

The next couple of days a lot of extra things had happened, Tori and André had their first official kiss, they announced their dating on a very popular talk show and the biggest is Tori moving out of her ratty apartment and moving into André's house and being the fantastic boyfriend that he is, André went to help his girl move her stuff. Getting the last of her things, the door burst open as Randy stood in the door way André had been in the bathroom when he heard the door but stayed put when he heard, "Torray! Hey babe!" the crooked manager slurred, "Randy, go home, you're drunk." Tori replied quite annoyed, "Nah, babe, I'm good, say you know we haven't banged in a while, how about we go urm renew our contract." Randy said with an even more slurred speech, "No! I'm in a relationship, besides, it's only banging when both parties participate or otherwise it's known as Rape!" Tori said getting even more irritable, "What did you say to me you little bitch! I made you who you are! Oh wait I get it, I know what you need," he said slyly as he reached into his jacket pocket, "look here babe, I got some more, this'll loosen you up a bit."

That's when stepped out of the bathroom, "No it won't, now leave or I'll call the police!" he threatened.

"Please! I can get around police, it's you I need to get rid of!" screamed Randy as he pulled a pocket knife, André knew he had recognized then, stared straight at Randy and recognized his face.

"It's you! You the one who gave Cat that scar!" André screamed.

"I think you gonna have to be a little more specific sonny, I gave a lot of people a lot of scars!" laughed Randy.

Before he knew what was happening André threw the closest thing to him, which just happened to be a chair, across the room and hit Randy in the gut, causing him to topple over, old age wasn't agreeing with him. André throwing caution to the wind stepped over Randy and started punching him repeatedly, until Tori grabbed André's arm and held him "STOP! You gonna kill him! I've lost enough people in my life please don't let me lose you!" she screamed as she looked at André with eye's filled with sadness and worry. His mind raced through years and years of memories, André knew that look, he had seen it before, then it came to him, he had met Tori Vega before years ago but they left a mark on each other, André stood up and called the police telling them where the emergency was.

The police arrived on the scene and arrested Randy, "You got very lucky man, that guy was part of a notorious gang, and claimed that they forced him to do all those horrible things to those girls, they got a life sentence while his sentence was reduced. Bet after the judge hears this case, he'll be reunited with his very unhappy friends." The police man smiled and walked away.

Turning to Tori André pulled her into his arms and started chuckling, slightly shocked she asked, "What you laughing at?" "Well, remember when we said we had met somewhere before?" he asked and Tori nodded, "Pre-primary, a six year old girl was being teased and a certain little boy pushed the other kids away and punched the bully teasing the little girl, the little boys name was André Harris and the little girl," he said as he moved closer and took her hand in his, "Tori Vega." Tori's eyes suddenly flashed as she remembered the scene, and her knight in shining armour, a small black boy with long dreadlocks, standing over her and smiling as he hugged her. "How do you remember that?" "When you stopped be from killing Randy, the look in your eyes, they kinda gave me a flashback."