Chapter 6

I woke up Tuesday morning still at Valentine's house. I found a good nursery that Jay would only need to go to for four hours now that I am not at school. I have enough money saved to pay for anything the baby could possibly need for all summer so if I wanted I didn't even have to go in to work, but I couldn't risk loosing my job, because I would certainly need it in September when I would have to pay for more hours of babysitting. Everyone has tried to call me asking what the hell I was thinking, but I never answered only listened to their voice mail. I have actually only talked to Iz, Si and Maia from when I have been at work, and besides it wasn't their fault any way. They told me that my family has been in more than once looking for me but some how I am either in the back or not there at all, so I have been really lucky. They don't know my scheduled and the rest of them won't tell so I am more than lucky actually.

Jon understands why I am mad at him and not once has he tried to apologise the bastard. Mam and Luke didn't know I over herd them so they have been calling saying that it was unfair that I am keeping Jay from them because of Jon. Well I'm not, I am doing it because you think I can't look after my own daughter and I am proving you wrong. Them even calling and only asking about Jay and not me and how I might feel just shows they are only calling so they can take Jay away from the irresponsible little teenager that can't look after her own daughter properly. That is what I hate. I can look after her fine just by myself, Jay is perfectly happy but all they care about is her, even Jonathan said I needed to give her back to mam even after he said that mam basically raised her and I was selfish for doing that.

The only call actually that I have had, that has been someone actually asking about me was from Jace. Jace of all people, the person who isn't even related to me. He asked if I was okay and If Jay was okay and said he would help at any time and that Jon had just been a drunken idiot. He clearly wasn't being a drunken idiot though because he still hasn't apologised for what he said and he obviously remembers if everyone else knows what happened, because I sure as hell didn't tell them. It is just so typical of my brother to never see what he did wrong, even when it is so clear.

Today I am doing a shift from eight to twelve so I had to get up at seven in order to get there on time. Jay was still asleep when I got up but I had to wake her and feed her before she went off to her day care. She liked it there apparently because she rarely cried, but when she did the people there still couldn't quiet her, it seems me and Jace are the only people with that magic trick. She mainly just sleeps the day away though when I'm not there and they have given me many adorable pictures of her playing with other kids. She sadly is the only one her age being only two months and because she can't sit herself up yet she mainly just stays by herself because the older kids want to play with the toys she can't play with, yet.

I feel really guilty when I think that she is only two months old but I still spend most of the day with her when I am not at work. I take her on walks around the city and the park and buy her cute little outfits, when they get the Isabel's stamp of approval. Izzy has mainly been hanging with Simon though but we are all having a movie marathon tomorrow because it is my day off. I am really happy that I get to spend the day with my friends and Jay and not have to deal with Valentine because he will be at work from five am until ten at night tomorrow. I'm going to have such a nice day, if no one calls and ruins it.

I drop off Jay and get to work just on time. Only Iz is in today because Maia is having a little holiday with her grandparents for a week. She managed to convince them to let Bat come as well which in itself is a miracle. Sadly though because she is out Kailee is in today to cover her shift. Me, Iz and Maia try to always make our shift at the same time and not at the same time as Kailee. Kailee is an annoying person that flirts with everyone that comes in, in hopes to get a better tip. Once when I was too pregnant to drive, according to my mother, Jace volunteered to pick me up and he arrived an hour early because he mixed up the time. So he sat down and decided to order a meal instead of having to come back later. Before I could go over and take his meal Kailee was already over there and I noticed that one to many of her shirt buttons were undone. That was extreme even for Kailee. Having my pregnancy hormones I was in a really bad mood after that but luckily I stayed quiet a lot longer than I normally did. My last straw was when I was going over to deliver his food because Kailee had been busy with another customer. So I had picked up his order and started to walk over to his table. But before I got there she bumped into me almost causing me to spill his food. She looked furious with me and I had no idea why we always just took orders as soon as they were ready, the only rule was that who ever had them first got the tip. She had lent over so she could talk quietly into my ear and she spoke in such a venomous tone that I was totally shocked, before I started to understand what she was saying.

" Look you little slut why the hell are you bringing my table the food when it is my job. If you wanted to talk to guys like that and actually have them notice you, you need to loose the baby bump first." Undoubtedly that was my last straw.

I dumped Jace's spaghetti onto Kailee's head and everyone around me, and I mean everyone, looked up in shock. But I wasn't done, whilst Kailee was shrieking I grabbed a random drink off of a near by table and pored that over her head to and said, " Call me a slut again and you will get a lot worse." I then turned around and promised the table that I took the drink from that I would get them another one on the house and the guy just laughed and said thanks. I then turned to Jace and just shrugged as he sat there grinning at me. Kailee had ran to the toilet to clean herself up and as you can guess she has hated me ever since, and I her.

So when I got to work that day I was greeted with an evil eye from Kailee before she turned flicked her hair and went to her next customers who just so happened to be Jace and Jon, oh great! I quickly put my stuff away and wonder how they knew that I was at work this early in the morning. I know they have to know because they wouldn't be up at this time not during a holiday at least. I walk back out and a huffy Kailee comes back giving me another evil eye and muttered, " That table requested to have you as their waiter." she walked into the kitchen without a second glance and I sighed before going to see them.

When I got there I pretended I didn't know them and continued with how I would greet any customer. " Hello and Welcome to Taki's what can I get you today." I say with a small sweet smile just in case my boss is watching, she may let me off with a lot of things like what I did to Kailee but even she will have her limits if I randomly shout at her customers. They just exchange concerned glances, clearly they didn't expect me to be calm. God I am not that irrational that I would jump them both here at my work.

" Where is Jayden?" Jon said. No hi how are you or sorry, just 'where is Jayden?' are you serious, I mean I am your sister. Does he not care at all? Ass! But still I can't react I am not going to give him what he wants nope I am going to prove I am responsible and rational.

" I'm afraid nothing on the menu is named that." I turn to Jace." How about you?" Yes okay maybe that was a bit childish but I still was angry and refusing to answer was my way to gain power. Unfortunately for me though Jon wasn't done talking,

" I went to dads this morning looking for any of you and dad said you were at work and he didn't have Jayden, which leads to the question where is Jayden?" I don't acknowledge him but instead just stare at Jace waiting for him to say something, whether it is an order or just piling on the questions. They seem to get what I am doing so Jace sighs and talks instead.

"Clary seriously we are worried you need to tell us where the baby is." By this time people in near by tables started listening in, clearly this was good gossip for them. God knows what this will sound like to them, but who cares it isn't any of their business.

"Are you two going to order because if not I am going to go back to work." I say still as sweetly as I can muster for two people who are getting on my nerves.

" This isn't a Joke Clary you can't keep us away from Jayden just because of a few stupid things I said when I was drunk, it isn't like I meant any of them." he said trying to reason with me but instead he only pissed me off even more.

" Oh yeah, well were was the apology the day after, or even the day after that, hum? You had many opportunities to apologies and before you say that I didn't answer your calls you still could have left a voice mail or even asked how I was. But no all you cared about was Jayden, every last one of your messages was either, where is Jayden, how is Jayden, are we ever going to see Jayden again. Honestly not one person in our entire family gave a shit about me they all just wanted Jayden when Jayden isn't their kid, she is mine. So no I will not tell you where she is, I will not tell you how she is and I certainly will not let you near her again after everything you said to me and what mam and Luke said about me." I finish my angry whisper with a snarl and the last comment seems to really shock Jace and Jon.

"What? What are you on about what did mam and Luke say." Jon asked. Off course they wouldn't say anything they want to seem as if they actually care.

" Well they basically said the same thing as you but went one step further when calling me a slut and said that I wasn't telling who the father is because I don't know. What a lovely thing to say about your daughter isn't it?" I don't really expect an answer and tears are welling up in my eyes before I can stopped them. Damn why did my poker face have to fail now, I never wept once in front of Valentine when I told him the story, why is now different? Luckily for me though my boss had come in by this time and was now at my table with her hand on my back. I raise so I am no longer leaning over next to Jon and look up at Maggie my boss. She sees the tears in my eyes and immediately becomes concerned. This is what I love about Maggie, the fact that she cares about all her employees. She turns to the two boys in front of me and says stiffly.

"Is there a problem here gentlemen?" she raises an eyebrow at them. They look back and try their award winning smile but soon it is gone when they realise she won't budge. It is kind of funny when you can make two pro athletic guys scared, and trust me they are scared. They looked like they were about to wet their pants which is hilarious because Maggie couldn't hurt a fly even though she looks like she could especially with the looks she was giving them.

" No, no problem we were just talking to my friends sister here." Jace said regaining control first. She looked at Jace before dismissing him and staring right back at my brother.

" Sorry but Clary can't talk she is working." I know she is doing that for me and I turn and smile at her as she winks and walks away. I turn to leave as well, but before I can Jace grabs my hand and turned me back around.

"Jocelyn really said that?" he seems confused and I just turn and glare at him. Why the hell would I say it if it wasn't true? That would be totally pointless to make up and you could clearly see I was upset. I don't show my emotions easily, they know that.

" Yes her and Luke talking saying how irresponsible I was how I couldn't be trusted with Jay because I was a bad mam and I will be to preoccupied to look after her just like you said," I spat and him then turned to Jon and said." and like you said. Now if your done bitching at me I need to work and get back to being an irresponsible parent who can't look after her own child, which is totally bullshit by the way. I can look after her just fine as you can see, and I haven't even asked for help from Valentine so you and everyone else can go stuff themselves. She is fine and I never needed any of your help I just thought it would be nice if she was surrounded by her family, I wasn't trying to pawn her off on to Jocelyn like everyone seems to believe." I go to turn again but Jon gets out of his seat and stops me.

" Stop trying to leave we are going to talk this ou..." I interrupt him before he can go on again.

" No we are not, I am at work, and I am going to work. Goodbye." I try really hard not to scream at him so I ended up spitting it through my clenched teeth and this time managed to escape and told Maia to take their table so I don't have to go back. I see Iz go over and I feel so thankful that she went over and I didn't have to. She took the order and came back, she then gave me a sympathetic smile and I just nodded smiled and went to the till to deal with the next customer. Who happens to be Ryder. That isn't necessarily a bad thing but with Jon near by it is.

"Hey there beautiful, how are you?" He smiles at me and I can't help but smile back because he has an infectious smile, the one you can't help but return. Everyone knows someone with that kind of smile and god is it beautiful. And he called me beautiful how nice is that, add that to the fact that he is still talking to me even after Jon punched him is a magic.

"Hey there handsome. Which table where you?" I ask giving him my best smile and he grins back at me making my own smile widen, and catching the attention of the boys a few tables away. Hopefully they don't do anything, or remember who I am talking to.

" Actually I haven't even ordered yet, I just wanted to come see you." My cheeks start to burn and I let off a little giggle. Now the boys are both down right staring at me and I feel a little uncomfortable. But they can get over it, a cute guy is talking to me and I am going to enjoy it.

" Well here I am, now what can I do for you?" now the boys are scowling at me. How the hell can they hear me so clearly I'm not talking that loud.

"Well I was wondering if you would like to go on a date with me sometime this week. When are you next free?" he is wearing such a hopeful look that I didn't want to say no but what about Jay. God! He may be cute but I need to prove to the peeping toms a few tables away.

" I would love to but sadly I am to busy. I have to look after Jayden, Friday was my last night out for a while sorry." I smile sweetly at him hoping that will make up for it, well at least a little bit. But at least the stalkers seem to have visibly relaxed, yay me.

" Well how about we just go for a walk in the park and you can bring Jayden with you and I can get to know you better. I could also get to know Jayden better." He said smiling again and now I am utterly confused. What eighteen year old would like to go out with someone with a kid, even if it was just one date.

I stare at him in disbelief before letting out a little laugh." Are you serious you want to go on a date with me even though you know I have a daughter?" I can't believe it no sane person would.

" Yeah when we talked the other day I thought we had a lot in common and I would like to go on a date, and I love children so yes I would like to go on a date even though you have a daughter!" He stressed the last part clearly trying to tease me as if I am over reacting. His smile also becomes brighter and I can't help but smile along with him as well. God can he be any cuter.

" Then yes I would love to. How about Thursday I am free after twelve?" I asked. I would love to have gone tomorrow but I have my day with Si and Izzy. So instead I get out my little note pad and write down my phone number and hand it over to him. He smiles and promises to call me later to sort out exactly what we were going to do. He then goes and sits down with his friends. I am smiling a way at myself before I am interrupted by Jace and Jon. Goody!

" Hello are you finished?" I asked trying to be civil again even though I know that he is going to bring up Ryder. The question though is who is going to say something first because they both give me the overprotective big brother routine and normally they take turns. I can't remember who did it last although I guess what Jon said on Friday counts so I am thinking Jace will. Luckily I didn't bet on it because I was wrong, clearly Jon had called dibs.

"What the hell do you think you are doing going out with him? You just give us crap because we called you irresponsible and here you are being irresponsible again!" is he serious.

" I am not being irresponsible at all, all it is, is me and him talking in the park whilst I walk my daughter. How on earth is that being irresponsible, the only person being irresponsible is you. I am sick of your over protective crap. You treat me like crap call me a slut and then you go all big brother on me and I am sick of it. Chose one be a dick or be my brother you can't be both. So leave me alone I am doing fine by my self and I will talk to who ever I want." I then turn to Jace who is looking at me like he is disappoint." And what the hell is your problem." seriously what is it, why is he so moody.

" We aren't aloud to see Jayden, your own brother Isn't aloud to see his niece but a random guy you met at some party can. That is selfish and Irresponsible. You can't keep her away from us." he said livid. He can't be serious he doesn't get it neither of them do.

" I can keep you away from my child because of the way you treated me. You have called me anything you can think of that will hurt me, called me a bad mother, a slut , literally anything you could think of because you know not much affects me. I can keep her away until you make up for that." With that I turn and go around the counter grab a tea towel and start wiping down some of the tables so I can stay away from them. But they follow like little lap dogs. Why can't they just leave me alone? I am clearly upset they should know that.

" No you are being selfish. Like you said she needs to be with her family. You are keeping her away for no reason." he was nearly shouting now. Again people were staring so I shut up and walked away again. I was really showing restraint but they would not notice, because to them I was just being selfish. I walk away to the next table to take their order, which just so happens to be Ryder's table. God please, please don't say anything Jon.

" Hello, welcome to taki's how can I help you." I smile at everyone around the table, and sadly some of them happen to be Jon's friends. I was so out of luck.

Jon walks over and starts talking to his friends totally distracting them from me so now Jace is going to have another go at me. Ugh! I hate when they work together like this. It is so annoying and inconvenient when they do this to back me into a corner.

" You know your being selfish, when can we see her?" Jace whispers into my ear and I turn around to him and glare at him. I'm so done with these two, they need to learn when to let it go. They are being so irrational, all I wanted was a sorry.

" No, stop. You need to quit it, my daughter will see who I see fit. You and Jon don't deserve to see her and why the hell do you even want to." I growl at him.

" You know we care about Jay and your being a brat by not letting us see her." He said this a bit louder now so the table near by can hear us and causing everyone to go quiet. Luckily I don't have to say anything though because someone else came to my rescue.

" Hey, man what the hell is your problem? Why don't you just leave Clary alone. Okay?" oh Ryder that may seem sweet to you but that is just going to get me into a bigger mess than I was already in. At least it is the thought that counts. But even with that Jace and Jon are both going to be ass-holes about this. Yup and there it is Jon has now stud up and crossed his arms over his Chest like some body guard. Ugh, this is going to be so, so, so annoying.

" Who the hell are you to tell me what I should do?" Jace asks and Jon stands there smirking down at me. Dick.

" Jace zip it." I turn to Ryder and smile apologetically at him. Why did my brothers have to make my life and work so friggen dramatic." Its fine Ryder he is just an ass-hole." I turn and give Jace a pointed look which leads to him scowling at me." Just sit down I can handle him." I am facing Ryder again and pleading him, with my eyes, to do as I say. But like the other boys in my life he doesn't get that I can handle my self.

" No he is being a prick for no reason. He needs to understand he can't talk to you like that," Ryder said not backing down which was nice and all but not when your brother is giving you a death glare as if to say control him. Not that I could control him even if I wanted to. I mean I did try.

" Aww, isn't that sweet this little man-whore has known Clary two minutes and already he thinks he knows her better than us." Jace said turning to Jon." Isn't that just precious." He said with a fake sweet smile, and hand on his heart. But even with that I can't help my self. I laugh straight away drawing all attention to myself again, not my goal but still it is better than them concentrating on Ryder. " And why are you laughing Red." Jace said using my annoying Nickname.

" Because you are such a hypocrite, both of you." I say gesturing between them." How many girls have you had one night stands with a party, how many times have you come around to my house bragging about your 'conquests'," I put air quotes around the word conquest because they both know how I feel about them referring to people as that," seriously you have a nerve referring to any one else as a man-whore." I say and they both have their mouths drawn and looking really moody that I was sticking up for Ryder. Well they could deal, and I am going back to work.

" Right so what would you like to order." I say to the boys on the table and they can tell not to mess with me right now because they all place their order, even Ryder. I smile and walk away leaving the two angry boys to follow me yet again. God they need to get a clue, not like I wasn't throwing multiple of them at them. I quickly whip around face them and as politely as I can possibly muster tell them to go back to their seats.

For the rest of my shift they sat their ordering anything just so they could stay until I got off of my shift. Ryder left with his friends and told me he would call which earned him glares from Jace and my brother. I get off my shift at twelve and leave from the back trying to sneak away before they could notice me. I walk to my car unlock it and drive quickly away and toward the day care Jayden was at. When I got there she was asleep and I take her out without even waking her which I am proud of because she can be a really light sleeper. Unfortunately for me though I didn't make the clean get away I thought I did as Jon and Jace were waiting out-side the doors for me. They look really pissed, which gets me pissed that they are still angry at me over Ryder. They need to get over themselves.

" She is going here instead of being with her family." Or maybe they are still talking about the fact that they haven't seen Jayden. I keep her in my arms and walk to the car. I place her inside carefully and close the door making next to no sound, whilst doing so. I turn around to the two angry teenagers in front of me and sigh.

"Yes she is going here because no one else can look after her and I am not going to let you lot do it again because you probably won't give her back because I am so irresponsible and can't be trusted." I growl.

" Don't be ridiculous of course we would give her back you can't have her here with a bunch of strangers though." Jace said. Why is it him talking and not Jon? Jon should be more concerned about Jay than Jace. Jon knows he is related to the child, Jace doesn't.

" Why are you volunteering to give your time up and look after her. I don't think so you will want to drink and party to your hearts content; it is the holiday after all." I say to him but surprisingly he nods and starts talking again.

" I would. I have four years of college to party. And I love Jay and she doesn't need to be with a bunch of strangers. I would honestly give up my time for you." he said smiling at me and Jon gives him a funny look before shaking his head and turning to me.

" I would as well, sis. Okay I am sorry, you know I didn't mean it." He said pleading and as much as I want to believe it he doesn't actually mean it, and I can tell. I can always tell when he is lying he has a tell. The left side of his lip twitches when he lies, it isn't really noticeable only I have been able to tell, not even Jocelyn seems to have noticed. So again without giving myself permission my eyes water again.

" You do mean it and I know that." I said a tear escaping." Don't deny it, your only apologising because you want to see Jayden and fine I will let you see her. Just don't lie and pretend your sorry when your not. I'm sick of people lying." I say more tears escaping and Jace starts moving to comfort me, I think any way, but Jon puts his hand on his chest stopping him. He looks at me and just sighs before talking.

" Your right I don't mean it." He said and Jace looks at him shocked." You were being irresponsible and slutty going out with that guy." he continues and more tears are escaping as he goes on. " You were always smart and responsible and I am not saying that I'm not happy that you have Jay but it was stupid and I hate that you did that. But what I hate even more is that you won't tell me who the dad is. Just tell me or maybe I will think like mam and Luke and think you don't know." I am full out bawling at the end of what he said and Jon is no longer holding Jace back so he came and hugged me as I cried.

" Jon, why the hell would you say that? You know Clary isn't like that and you know she knows who the dad is she has told us a bit about him, She wouldn't lie. You know that." Jace said whilst rubbing his hand up and down my back for support.

" I said it, because you and I know it is true. Why the hell are you picking her side. You have to know I am right about this, she is being selfish." He said looking really angry at Jace. I try to calm down my crying so I can defend Jace but I don't need to because he is already talking for himself.

" Your not right. And I'm choosing her side because your not right. Clary was upset and yeah she was stupid for not letting us see Jay but she even said she would let us see her now. Your just holding onto a grudge because you still treat her like she is five." Jace says back to Jon and I am so shocked. Since when did Jace start sticking up for me, especially when I was against Jon. "Dude, just let go and move on it is done, why are you bringing it up now?"

" I am bringing it up now because I haven't been able to say anything because before she was pregnant and irrational, then she was dealing with a cranky baby and then at the party when I saw her having fun I just crack and said everything. I know I am way worse but then also hearing that mam said the same thing... I don't know. Please Clare just tell us who it is." he is begging and I am still crying and I have no idea why. Never do I cry over something as stupid as this.

" I...I...I... I can't y...y..you know that." I sob out and Jon glared at me again.

" You don't know do you!?" he accused causing Jace to stiffen beside me and I sob a little more.

" I...I...I do know...Its just that y..y..you would...d kill him. J..Just l...leave it p..please." I beg he has to understand, I have said it enough times. He has to know. He has to understand.

" No I won't leave it. The dad should know, I should know and our family should know." he nearly screamed it at me and some how that made me stop crying. Maybe I can handle screaming better than anything else.

"The dad doesn't want to know! How many times do I have to tell you this? I would tell you but you would kill him and end up telling him. There is no way you would keep your mouth shut. He doesn't want to know and telling you means telling him, so no I won't tell you."

" I won't I swear, I won't. Right now I rather know than kick the shit out of the guy." he is pleading again. God why does it have to be this difficult.

"I know you feel like that but I know fine well eventually you will break and do it. I know you." I finish, wiping my tears away. I smile gratefully at Jace and step out of his arms. I can see a little stain of my tears on his shirt and feel a bit guilty for crying on him. I should be hugging my brother and getting his comfort not his best friends comfort.

" Come on Clarissa you have to understand why we all want to know. Please, please, please just consider telling us." this is so hard.

" I have thought about telling you a thousand times but I need to tell him first. He deserves to know before any of you, but he doesn't want to know. So your gonna have to wait a while. I think he deserves the heads up before you kill him." I smile a bit trying to make a joke out of it but my brother just looks defeated. Maybe I should tell them. I mean I could make him swear not to tell. Although that will never work because he would kill Jace, just because it was Jace and he trusted him. God I messed up everything. If one day I do tell I know they will fall out over this, why, why am I so stupid.

" I need to get going I'm picking out all the movies and snacks for tomorrows movie marathon." I smile and look at my shoes before rising my head again as a thought popped in. " You two can come if you want then you can see Jay. It is Just me, Iz and Si." I say hopefully.

" Sure we will come. Are you going to come home or are you staying at dads?" I wish I could stay at Jocelyn's house but who knows how long they have been talking about me behind my back. Probably since I got pregnant, which is a long time. I just need them to understand how much they upset me and they haven't apologised either, although they didn't know I was mad at them. Well they will tonight because I can always count on Jon blabbing, he does it all the time and I mean all the time. He once told on me because I kissed someone for a dare in middle school. I still don't get how he found that out but after I had the worst conversation about the birds and bees and all I wanted to scream was 'god it was just a kiss'!

" No, I am still mad at them. I'll see you tomorrow." I turn around and open my car door but before I can drive off Jon said.

" Oh and one more thing. You will not be going on that date with the guy from the party. I don't care who he is but you will stay away. I don't want anything else to happen to you." I just roll my eyes and don't even bother with a response. I will be going on the date, just because they don't think it is a good idea doesn't mean it isn't. Jace clearly thought sleeping with me was a good idea at the time and that lead to teen pregnancy, so I think their judgement might be a bit off. Although by the same judgement mine could also be off as well. But oh well might as well take the risk, and he seemed really nice.

I wave as I drive off and go to the shop to buy all the different snacks we will need. Me and Jay are in there for only ten minutes and then we head straight home where surprisingly Valentine is still here. It must be one of his days off work, It is weird he didn't tell me, he normally does. I walk in the house and see a lot of beer cans spread across the floor and I sigh. Great he is in one of his moods again. I hate when ever he gets in one of these moods, he just drinks the day away and treats me like a slave. Well at least he will be out of my hair tomorrow.

I put away all the snacks and head upstairs to put Jayden to sleep again. She nods straight off and I smile at how cute she looks. I walk down stairs and pick up a plastic bag to throw all the cans into and start cleaning the couch. By the time I have got all of them done it is already half one. I grab my art book and head upstairs to draw and keep an eye on Jay at the same time. I sit on the floor near the window and just keep drawing until soon I accidentally fall asleep myself.

I wake to a screaming and at first I am confused until I see Valentine stalking towards me with a look of pure rage on his face. His face was red and his chest was rising rapidly as if he had just run a marathon. Before I could even react he grabbed a hold of my hair making me scream in pain. I think he was actually pulling some of my hair out but soon he lets go grabs a hold of my arm and swings me up until I was standing. What the hell has made him act like this? He stomps out of the room yelling "fix it!" before slamming the door and I finally realise he must have been referring to Jays screams.

Jay must be able tell there is something wrong and starts crying even louder. Dammit! I quickly pick her up ignoring the pain in my scalp, as well as my arm, and rock her back and forth, putting on a fake smile and talk in a baby voice to her. Please, please don't come up here again. By some miracle he didn't come up and Jayden stopped crying and instead went back to sleep in my arms. I don't want to let her go so I move my pillows so they are blocking the edge of one side of the bed and Jay won't be able to roll off. I stretch out on the other side and hold her in my arms. I fall asleep in the position and luckily stay like that until morning. For once I had a really long peaceful sleep. But what came after the sleep wasn't so peaceful.