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September 1996
There she was laying on the floor with a blanket over her shivering body. It was dark and she could hear the raindrops falling down to the earth.
Darkness. Rain.
It fit her mood perfectly. She had no idea how long she was lying there. She had no idea why she was lying there. All she knew was that her life was over. She was 19 now and thought that she had such a bright future ahead of her. That had been her wish. Her goal. Her dream: A bright future.
When she attended Stanford almost two years ago she was sure that she would be doing something great someday. And now? Now she was laying on the floor in her fathers cabin and looked back at what has happened the last one and a half years.
She was devastated when Rick left her just like he did. All he's left behind was some stupid note and money. He left her like she was a piece of trash, like he hadn't really cared about her as a person at all...but despite of everything...she was able to move on. The first months at Stanford were hard, but not because of her classes. Like expected she aced all of them, but the more time she spent there, the harder it was for her to forget about him. But she also knew that she couldn't dwell in the past for too long. She needed to move on...and that is what she did.
She was getting better. She had Lanie. She had her goal to become a great lawyer. Everything started to fall into place again.
But one fateful night 6 months ago destroyed everything for Kate. She remembered this moment like no other. Her father and her were waiting for her mom to come and meet them for lunch. All of them were looking forward to spend some much needed time together. With Kate in Stanford and both her parents busy with their jobs it was very difficult to meet each other on a regular basis. They wanted to catch up, make plans for the next holiday they'd spend togehter.
Kate sobbed when she remembered hearing those words: "I'm sorry but your wife Johanna was found dead."
This day changed everything. It had destroyed her, but it was her father who took her mom's dead the hardest. He turned to alcohol after what happened with Johanna and she couldn't recognize him anymore. He stopped talking to her, he came home late every night piss drunk and cried himself to sleep. And Kate? Kate tried to move on, tried to distract herself...she knew that there would come a time where she was going to break down, but the first days after her moms death she felt nothing. She felt numb. She tried to forget about everything that has happened. During that time she didn't even know how her beloved mom died. All she knew deep inside was that she wasn't coming back.
She did alot of stupid things during these days. She went to parties, slept around and did things her mom wouldn't be proud of. But that was how Kate handled things. She handled them HER way.
The day she met Rogan O'Leary really wasn't her finest hour. She had ALOT to drink and was desperate for some body heat, desperate for a pair of strong arms...Rogan was the right choice. He was nice, good-looking and open for flings. It wasn't supposed to be more than that.
When she woke up the next day he was gone...of course. He didn't leave her the way Rick did but she wasn't suprised that he was gone. She wanted ONE night and she got what she wanted. What she had with Rick was different though...it still hurt so much...
She started vomiting a week later. Day after day. At first she thought it was just the flu. Never did she think about being pregnant despite of the one night stand with Rogan. She has always been careful. Boy was she wrong...
How could she be so stupid? So blind?
"Honey...have you ever thought of taking a pregnancy-test? You've vomited the whole week, you have HORRIBLE mood swings that are starting to piss me off..."
"Lanie..."
"Girl...just to be sure, ok?"
A few minutes later she was looking at a little stick with shaking hands and once again her world turned upside down.
Ethan Gregory Beckett was born on May 7th 1997.
Her light.
Her savior.
That day changed everything. Once again. After her mom's dead she decided to go to the task force and become the best detective in NYC. She wanted justice. She wanted to know who took her mom from her and the grandmother from Ethan.
Present: (2010)
"Beckett?"
"Mom?"
Kate opened her eyes and growned. What happened? Where was she? She blinked her eyes and tried to sit up after she realized that she was laying on the couch in the rest room.
"Careful girl. You just fainted."
Kate looked around and was confused.
"Lanie? What are you doing up here?"
Lanie rolled her eyes.
"Kevin texted me. Gosh, you really scared me here. What happened?"
Ethan who was standing next to Lanie looked at his mom with a worried expression on his handsome face.
"Mom? Are you ok?"
"Ethan what the hell are you doing here? I told you more than once to not come here. This place isn't save for you."
"But mom-"
"No more Ethan."
"Detective Beckett? Everything ok?"
Captain Montgomery entered the room and was suprised at how many people were there.
"Beckett fainted", Espo told him and turned around to look at Castle, who was awkwardly standing a few feet away. He clearly felt out of place.
"Everything is fine sir but uhm...could I have the rest of the day off? I-"
"Of course Detective. I think the boys will be able to handle one day without you. That's what I hope"- Montgomery added and throw a pointed look into Espos and Ryans direction.
"Sure sure", the both of them answered simultaneously.
Kate smiled at her boss thankfully and slowly started to get up. Ethan tried to help and held her hand while she took a deep breath and tried to focus.
"It's ok baby", she whispered to her son, who smiled at her.
"See ya later guys", Ethan chirped towards Ryan, Espo and Lanie and left the room with a confused look on his face when he noticed Castle standing there. Kate didn't even spare him a glance. She just ignored him.
"Later buddy. Was nice to see you again."
Castle watched Kate and the youngster as they left the room. He knew the room was tension-filled the moment this boy appeared and he had no idea why. Everyone else would've been happy if they saw their kid and yeah, she said she didn't want him here because it was dangerous but it seemed like Kate wasn't pleased at all about the fact that Ethan was here.
Why?
"Not a word until we're in the car", Kate said sternly to the boy whose arm she was grasping.
"But mom, I just wanted..."
"I said not one word", she insisted through gritted teeth as they walked out of the precinct and towards the parking lot.
The boy sighed and looked over at her nervously. He knew she wouldn't like the idea of his showing up without a word, but wow...she was REALLY pissed right now. He might be almost as tall as her but he knew better than to argue back when she was in this mood. So they marched across the parking lot until Kate clicked her key ring and the locks of her silver Audi flipped up, allowing their entrance.
"Buckle up", Kate told her son as her seat belt clicked and she started her car, backing out of her space and starting for the street beyond.
"Now would you like to explain to me why you came all way to me from your grand-father? Does he even know you are here? Gosh, I really hope he doesn't think that you ran way..."
"Mom if he thought that I ran away he would've called you by now."
"Right", Kate mumbled.
"You really shouldn't be here."
"Why mom? I haven't seen you in a month."
Kate glanced back at him and sighed. This boy sure was something. No matter how often she tried to steer him in the right direction, he would undoubtably snag her plans and head off in a direction of his own liking. She had watched him grow from a cherubic newborn with the brightest and most beautiful green eyes she'd ever seen to a confident boy who was always determined to go his own way.
No matter how angry Kate would get at him for his little indiscretions such as taking her laptop apart just to see if he could put it back together again (he could) he was always able to charm his way out of trouble. He was good at that.
He was so much like her and thank god, nothing like his father. God knows where he was right now.
"Look mom, I just wanted to spend some time with you. When was the last time we did something togehter?"
God...she felt horrible.
"Honey...I know...you are right, but it is really not the right time at the moment."
"When will it be then?"
"Soon baby...soon."
By the time they reached Kate's apartment neither of them had spoken more than 5 words to each other. With another look at his mom, Ethan knew that it was better to wait till they were inside before he asked her more questions.
Kate went to the kitchen and put on a pot of coffee, then after asking if Ethan was hungry, she returned to the living room where her boy was waiting for her.
"Mom?"
"Yeah?"
"Who was that tall guy who was standing in the rest-room?"
Soooo that's it. What do you think? Please let me know! :)