ToriPOV

Why did I keep it in my bedside table? That was a stupid Jade knows,and she wont stop till I'm clean,I know her.I can't be clean though,haven't been for 2 years,how am I going to now? It's just so hard,and I don't know if I can do it.

Jade flushed my last bit down the tolliet.I'm metting my dealer right now and great,she's late.I'm behind a old buger place,it went out of business like 20 years ago, and no one ever reopened the place.

I can't help but think about ;s the best thing that's ever happened to me and now she has to deal with dosent deserve deserves much better,better than what I can give.I love her to much to put her through this,but I don't wanna loose her ,what to do.

I reach into my pocket and get out my pack of cigrettes.I'm suprised Jade didn't find those,but then again,she would most likely ask to bum one.I don't know how I kept this from her this long,shes a smoker herself.I pull out my lighter,take out one,put it in my mouth and light end goes red as I take in a long drag of smoke.I let it out after a moment of inhaling,and letting the smoke fly out of my mouth.

"Sorry."I hear.

I turn around and see her."Your late,again."I say,taking another drag.

"I know,my fucking car wouldn't start."She said.

"So?"I ask.

"Money?"She asked.

I roll my eyes and hand her two hundreds.I have to "work" to get this money.

She takes the money and hands me a bag about half full.

I put it in my pocket and turn to leave.

I walk back in front of the building and look down the street.I walk down the street till I find my 's a tall brown building,windows blacked out,but the music was bearing muffled.I walk in.

"Tori."I hear.

I smile a bit and look up."Hey,Sarah."I say.

Sarah has been my best friend through all of 's been through the same shit I have.

"You ready for tonight?"She asked.

"I guess so,got some help so."I say,shaking the bag in front of her.

Sarah laughed."Wow,you really get around don't you?"Sarah laughed.

"Well,my girlfriend flushed the last bit I had."I say.

"Damn,I'm she even know about this?"Sarah asked.

"No and I'm keeping it that way."I say.

"Okay,but it's gonne be better once she finds out."She said.

I sigh and nod.

We make our way back to our mirrors.I gott put my make-up on heaver than it here like heavy make-up and skimpy outfits.I sit down and take out the eyeliner I have.I start putting it on and after a while I look like a eyelashes are about as tall as a tiny tree and I swear I can feel the wind on them.

"Vega,your first."I hear.

Melissa,the also gives me the money I earn so i don't get on her bad side.I nod and get up from my chair.I strip of my regular clothes and out on the leather pants,the dark blue bra,the black jacket and the boots.I walk down the hall to the red cutins.I take in a deep breath as the song "Gimme More" by Britney Spears started playing.I open the curtins and begin my dance.

The men and women watch me and a few even try and touch me,and the horrible thing is I have to let them.I hate this place,and I hate working this way,but hey,it's money and I got things to pay for.

Finally,the song ended and I wave good-bye to the crowd and back out to sarah.

"Good luck."I say to her as she stands up to go out to the stage.

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Finally,work is over.

" ya go. job tonight."Melissa smiles,handing me the cash.

"Thanks."I say.

I've made more than this,but that's on the good days,or some special she's having or something along the lines of that.I really just wanna get home and talk to ,god damnit! Jade.

I take out my phone and see all the text messages and calls I have.I can't even count them all.I sigh and walk twords her house.

I get there and I knock on her door.

"Hello,Tori."Her mom smiles.

"Hi, .Is Jade home?"I ask.

"She's in her room."She says.

I walk up to her door is cracked open.I knock as I open it.

"Hey."I say.

She turns to face me and has the look of satin on her face.

"Where have you been?"She asked.

"I'm sorry,I left my phone at home.I was out."I say.

She crosses her arms.

"Babe,I'm sorry,I really was."I say.I walk up to her and kiss her,as sweetly as I arms fall down and fold around me.

"I just worry is all."She whispers.
"I know."I say.