Chapter 6

Control

Alice tossed me the keys and I got into the black Mercedes. She sat in the passenger seat next to me and I put the keys into the ignition. I put my hands on the wheel and took deep breaths.

"Relax," she said.

I nodded my head and started to put my foot onto the gas petal.

"Put it in drive," she told me.

I did what she said and Alice opened up the garage door.

"Are you sure about this?" I asked.

"I'm positive," she answered.

"Ok, well as long as you're sure," I replied.

She smiled one big smile and I slowly pressed my foot onto the gas. When we were out of the garage my heart started racing. I was nervous about crashing, though it wouldn't hurt me or Alice it could hurt a human. So it's still dangerous.

"Take a right here," Alice said.

I started to turn the wheel and felt the tires hit the curb. I suddenly hit the brakes.

"Damn it."

"It's ok just turn your wheel to the left and you'll get off of the curb. You're doing great Caroline don't stress over one little mistake," Alice encouraged me.

I turned to the left and felt the car drive off of the curb. I finished the right turn and sped up a little bit.

"Keep going straight," she said.

I did what I was told and made sure not to step on the gas too much. We took mostly side streets and didn't even bother with going on the highway. I would probably wipe everyone out with my bad driving.

"Ok now make a three point turn up here," she told me.

I took one deep breath and started to turn the wheel making sure I didn't hit anything or anyone. I slowly turned to car around and started driving again.

"Excellent," she commented.

I smiled at the praise I got and kept driving.

***

I pulled into the garage and pulled the keys out of the ignition. Edward was in the doorway and seemed to be waiting for us.

"So how did you do?" he asked.

"Ok I guess, I kind of messed up a couple of times," I answered.

We walked into the house and I sprinted up the stairs and into my room. I went to the couch and sighed as I laid my head on the pillow. Everything seemed ok for now. I would just have to start learning how to control myself and how to concentrate on talking to William when I needed to.

I thought about how I would be able to do it once I actually started school. I wondered if it would be so much harder that I wouldn't be able to go. I mean I wanted to go to school so I could try to be normal for once, but who was I kidding I wasn't normal. I wasn't normal at all. I mean I could do freaky things and I wanted to be normal.

I heard a knocking on the door. I quickly opened my eyes and saw Edward standing there.

"May I come in?" he asked.

I nodded my head and he sat on the couch.

"What you can do isn't freaky," he said.

"Prying into my thoughts again?" I asked.

"Just a little," he replied.

I chuckled and rolled my eyes at him.

"Sorry, but I was curious," he said.

"Sure, sure that's what they all say," I kidded.

He laughed.

"Well I just wanted to tell you that I can help you with keeping control if you want," he offered.

"Yeah I would like that."

"And I can try to help you with your telepathy, even though I don't know much about it," he added.

"Well that's ok I think I pretty much have most of that down," I replied.

He grinned.

"Try it then," I turned my head towards him and shot him a quick glance.

"What?"

"Try to communicate with him," he repeated.

"Ok."

I closed my eyes and concentrated on William now.

"William?" I said.

"Yes, my one and only love," he replied.

I chuckled out loud and started feeling awkward.

"Edward is prying into my thoughts right now so don't say something you wouldn't want him to hear," I kidded.

I heard Edward laughing at my thoughts. I knew that he was listening so I figured I would joke with him.

"It's ok, Edward seems like a good person," I heard him say.

"Yeah he's alright," I joked again.

"I love you," his voice said.

I started feeling embarrassed.

"As do I," I replied.

I looked at Edward and saw that he was just staring.

"I'm just alright huh?" Edward asked.

"I was only kidding Edward," I replied.

He chuckled.

"You're right it seems like you pretty much have that under control."

"I told you," I rolled my eyes.

He got up from the couch and held out his hand.

"Shall we," I took his hand and got off of the couch.

"Let's go," I replied.

We walked down the stairs and went out the door. Alice came behind us.

"Can I come with? I can help," she said.

Edward sighed and rolled his eyes.

"Just try not to be annoying," he told her.

She smiled and walked beside me. We started to run into the woods, going left and right. The breeze felt refreshing against my pale skin and I ran faster to feel it even more. We kept on running until we finally came to a clearing in the middle of the woods. I stopped dead in my tracks and waited for my instructions. Edward turned towards me.

"The first thing that you want to make sure to do is not breathe. That will help with the scent. The only reason you should breathe is if a teacher calls on you to answer a question," Edward explained.

I nodded my head.

"You also need to remember that we're acting like humans so we can't really show off our strength or speed or anything like that," Alice added.

"Got it," I said in agreement.

"And if you ever feel like you can't take it tell the teacher you don't feel good or something and go home," Edward explained.

"Ok," I nodded my head again.

"During lunch we have to buy food and make it look like we eat it, maybe you could take a couple bites," Alice said.

I looked at them in disgust. Food did not sound appetizing to me, but blood did. No surprise there.

Edward chuckled at my thoughts.

"You will probably need to go hunting often, because it will be hard at first," I shook my head in agreement again and started to walk back into the woods realizing that I was actually pretty thirsty at the moment.

"Where are you going?" Edward shouted.

"Hunting, I'm thirsty and I promise to control myself," I started running and went into the woods avoiding the trees.

If Alice saw me doing something bad then they would come after me, but I knew I had to learn to tell the difference between animal and human blood. I stopped in my tracks and sniffed on both sides of me. My head quickly turned to the right and I knew what I was smelling, another human. I heard the voices of two men, probably hiking through the woods. I started to creep towards the right and then I knew that this wasn't the right thing to do.

"Turn the other way Caroline," his voice echoed through my mind, as if it were my own thoughts.

"I know," I replied.

I started to back away and stopped my breathing, I knew that this would be the wrong thing to do this time. I turned around and ran the other way. I smiled as I realized that I just stopped myself from killing another human. There were two of them this time and I finally knew what to do. Soon enough I found a group of elk. I finished off at least five of the elk there and once I was finished I licked the blood off of my lips and started to run back to the Cullen house.

"Yes," I whispered to myself.

When I reached the house to my surprise I found Jasper waiting for me at the door. He seemed content while he watched me getting closer and closer to the house.

"Welcome back," he said.

I smiled at him.

"Did I do it right?" I asked.

"You did perfectly, I'm surprised that you actually pulled it off," he answered.

"Well I didn't do it on my own, you all helped me," we both walked into the house.

Esme greeted me at the door with a hug.

"Great job," she told me.

So apparently everyone knew what happened. I knew Edward wouldn't be able to keep his mouth shut for long. It didn't surprise me.

"Thanks," I whispered to her.

After I was greeted by everyone and praised for how well I did I decided to play the song I was writing up, just to keep me busy I guess.
I picked up my piece and sat at the piano bench, and then I started playing the chords of my piece thinking about what would fit next. I pondered about it for a while and finally came up with something that could possibly work. I eventually came up with a couple more lines. I heard footsteps coming towards the piano and I figured it was Edward.

I turned towards him and saw that he was looking over my shoulder.

"Sit," I told him.

I scooted over on the bench a little bit and he sat down.

"Do you have a name for it yet?" he asked.

"No not yet, I'm really not sure about what I should call it," I stared at the piece in front of me.

"May I hear what you have so far?" he said.

I nodded my head and put my hands on the keys for the first chord.

"Mind you most of it I just came up with so don't laugh because it's probably not that good," I added.

He nodded his head.

I started to strike the keys with my fingers, hitting everyone note and chord and trying not to mess up so it wouldn't sound even more worse than it probably sounded. When I came to the end of what I wrote down I started to come up with more and kept playing until I found the perfect chord for the ending.

I quickly wrote down what I just did and almost forgot that Edward was next to me. I turned towards him and waited for him to burst out laughing and saying that was the worst thing he's ever heard.

"It's good Caroline," he commented.

"Really?" I asked.

"Yes really, and don't just assume that I'm going to laugh or think it was the worst thing I've ever heard because it's not true it was really good," he explained.

"Sorry I don't know what I was thinking," I kidded.

He laughed.

"You should know not to think certain things when I'm around."

I chuckled.

"I keep forgetting," I admitted.

He got up from the bench and I did the same.

"You did great today," he told me.

I grinned.

"Thanks," I replied.

He nodded his head.

"If you can do that a couple more times than we'll probably be able to go to school by next week."

"Seriously?" I was surprised that they decided that already.

He nodded his head again and smirked a smile at my excitement.

"I'll see you later Caroline," he said.

I smiled and he ran up the stairs and probably went to his room because I heard his door close. I picked up my piece from the piano and started to walk up to my room. I stared down at the notes that I wrote down as I walked up the huge staircase. When I reached my room I put the piece onto my desk and stared at it for a moment. Then I picked up my pencil and started to write on the top of the piece.

"There," I whispered to myself.

I read over what I wrote down and it read "My Hero" across the top.

I smiled and went over to the couch.

"My hero meaning you William," I thought.

"I love you," I heard his voice ringing in my head and it sounded perfect.

"I love you too," I replied.

I smiled and looked over the piece and admiring the name especially. Then I got up from the couch and stared out the window and into the forest, thinking about everything that went on today. I actually restrained myself from killing a human today, which seemed to impress everyone since I killed someone the day before.

I chuckled.

I shouldn't keep my hopes up though because tomorrow was a new day and anything could happen.