A/N: Sorry it took awhile for the update. Last I had left it was Bella and her first meal. Once you read please read A/N at bottom and give me your imput.

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Edward

"Shhh. Everything will be okay." Carlisle says while he holds me in his arms in hopes to soothe and comfort me with his words and fatherly hold.

Anger and rage begins to build in me at his words. I push him off of me and begin to move away from everyone but Emmet and Jasper immediately grab my arms with force. "No the hell it is not okay Carlisle! Don't keep telling me that it is okay when it is not." I struggle in the arms of my brothers trying to free myself. "Don't fucking patronize me about something you know nothing about. None of you can fathom the pain and heartache I am going through. You didn't have to visually witness Alice's vision. I did. It broke my heart and also pained me physically to see Bella hurt to that extent. So don't tell me everything will be okay when it won't."

In my peripheral vision I saw Jasper's head snap up looking at his wife. In his thoughts I heard that he sensed a great amount of anger from his wife.

I turn to face Alice at the same time she screams "STOP IT!" Her tiny fists are clenched by her side and she is trembling from her own anger. "I am tired of you thinking that you are the only one who lost Bella and the only one who is suffering. SHE WAS MY BEST FRIEND! We lost her too Edward. We lost a daughter and a sister so you don't patronize us. We are hurting just as well as you."

She was panting from her outburst. Jasper quickly ran to her and wrapped his arms around his wife's waist and pulled her to him. I could feel a heavy dose of calm being administered throughout the room.

I can hear in her thoughts about how upset she was for leaving Bella after her birthday. How she knew then that leaving Bella would severely impact all of our lives.

I slowly rise to my feet and somehow they carry me to Alice. I again drop to my knees and pleadingly look at Alice. "Please, forgive me. I am so sorry for making the decision for you to leave your best friend and to never have contact with her again." I look at everyone else with the same pleading eyes and ask for their forgiveness as well.

"I'm sorry to you and everyone for taking Bella out of your lives after that disastrous birthday party. I know I could have disappeared and all of you stayed behind and remained close to Bella. I just really thought at the time that I was making the right decision and that by taking ourselves out of her life she would be better off. I know now it was the worst mistake of my very long existence, and will do my very best for as long as I exist to make it up to each and every one of you and especially to Bella."

Jasper was struggling to maintain the calm that he was throwing out to everyone due to my strong feelings of shame and guilt. While on my knees with my head hung low I say, "Please forgive me everyone. Alice, again I am truly sorry."

Esme glides over to me and wraps me in a tender embrace and then says "Son, we forgive you." To reiterate her point, she tightens her hold on me. I decide I can't take much more of their love and compassion when all I deserve is their contempt. I run off to hunt hoping to escape all their thoughts of love and pity.

After my hunt, I seclude myself into my room so I can obtain atleast the illusion of privacy. While I was listening to Debussy I heard Alice approach my room.

"May I come in?"

"Yeah."

She walks in and then comes to sit in front of me where I am on the sofa. "I am sorry about my little outburst earlier. But I am not sorry for what I said although I should have done it differently."

"Alice, you don't have to apologize to me. I deserve your anger and probably much more than that."

She lets out a sigh and then just looks at me with sad eyes. "I really wish that you wouldn't be so hard on yourself all the time. You are not a bad person, and you above all else deserve happiness. I know you just wanted to protect Bella and I understand that. Yeah you hurt her and the family but you're sorry, apology accepted move on. All you are doing is tearing yourself up inside by dwelling on the negative and Bella needs you to remain optimistic and positive. In regards to your relationship with Bella, when we get her back please just make sure that you include her in decisions that you guys need to make together. You definitely need to communicate with her better, and I bet so does she. She is and always was your other half so you need to make sure to include her. Edward, whether or not you realize it or not but she loves you with the same intensity as you do. Well with that being said, hurry up we have school."

As she gets up to leave I grab her hand and squeeze it. "Thank you Alice."

Each day of my return to Forks High School was getting harder and harder to endure. Memories of Bella still haunted the halls. Also, I would hear from the thoughts of the other students about Bella and their theories as to her whereabouts.

With her disappearance and now vampirism, we decided to stage her death and had located a body from a hospital not close to here that fit Bella's description perfectly. Emmett and Jasper were going to put the body way out in the woods and then shred it so it appears like a bear attacked her. Most people wouldn't think anything odd about her wandering in the woods since she had done it on the same day that I left her.

Charlie was included in on the plan since he was chief of police and it was his daughter. Once Em and Jasper finished with the scene, they were to call him and let him know where the body could be found. Charlie had faked a search for her, and we knew which part of the woods the police and volunteers haven't searched so it wouldn't look suspicious. This time tomorrow everyone in Forks would believe that Bella Marie Swan was dead. That thought made my non beating heart constrict with pain.

Newton, he annoyed the shit out of me the most with his thoughts on Bella and her disappearance. I still really wanted to back hand him because even though for all they knew she was dead he still had impure thoughts of my Bella. He also thought that I did something to her. When I wasn't looking, he would glare at me when he saw me and I would return the glare back. But when I glared, he would quickly look away shivering.

Alice was chatting with Angela during lunch today about dress ideas for prom. Poor Angela, Alice had plans to do her hair and makeup. Prom was a while off but Alice being Alice wanted to have a fashion project. Plus, I think it gave her the opportunity to not have to think about Bella even though in the recesses of her brain she wished it was Bella's makeover. Angela was such a sweet person to allow Alice free reign over her prom. Her thoughts were always friendly towards Bella so Alice was thanking Angela for being Bella's one true human friend.

After lunch, I drug myself to my next class to listen to the monotony of it all. During class, I act as if I am paying attention and taking notes but I am listening to Alice's thoughts hoping that she will get a vision of Bella. Unfortunately, nothing happens. I take pleasure in seeing her in these visions even though they are horrific. I just know that she still exists and is still out there and that comforts me.

While listening to her thoughts, I see her hands suddenly clench the desk for support. She has vision of Victoria. I see Victoria trying to make her way to Bella's home but only to find Charlie and proceeds to deliver him a cruel and unusual death. Then the vision shifts as decisions are being made by Alice. I then proceed to see Alice seeing different outcomes by decisions that are made. It appears that as long as we try and intercept her he will be safe. She looks also at possibly having one of us stay with Charlie to see what happens as well since we will be down a person to see what the outcome is and still the family and Charlie are safe.

"Edward, I know you can hear me. After school we need to call Carlisle and tell him what is happening. It looks like this will happen tonight. We can have Esme watch over Charlie. I'll talk to you after school."

I go back to my act of being student, and begin to wonder what would happen if while we try and approach her I just tell her that Bella is dead. Maybe that will slow her down enough someone could catch her then. I'll talk to Alice about it later.

The rest of the school day went by in a haze as my thoughts were constantly on Bella and for our encounter tonight with Victoria. I really wanted to be the one to rip her to shreds. I would hurt anyone who even contemplates harm to Bella so Victoria's thoughts and actions alone enrage me.

After school, Alice and I rode in silence. Both of us are in preparation mode for the upcoming night. Again, she is running different scenarios in her mind to see what the outcome would be by those decisions.

Alice finally breaks the silence with an idea that she has continually been mulling over. "What do you think if we involve the wolves? I keep seeing Victoria by the Quileute border. Maybe we could let the wolves know that she is coming so they can patrol their lands and possibly be put to good use and help. I know how bad you would like to be the one to take Victoria down but honestly do we really care how she is destroyed as long as she is destroyed?"

"Yeah, I guess you're right."

"I'll tell Carlisle about it. He should be home in three hours so we all need to go hunt to build up our strength."

"Alright. Hey I was wondering something today. What do you think Victoria will do when she sees the article in the paper tomorrow saying that Bella's body was found and her apparent death or if maybe I just shout out while we are pursuing her that Bella is dead?"

"Edward, you know I won't know for sure until she sees or hears it and makes a decision about it. Honestly, she wouldn't believe you.

For some reason Victoria is really good at blocking me. I have had a hard time seeing what her next move will be sometimes until she actually decides something. I have been looking for Victoria for days and could never find her until now. And even now it is like she is blocking details of her plans and all I could catch is that she plans on trying to reach Charlie's house."

"Hmm, that is strange. It's as if she knows about your gift."

"Dammit, that's it. She does know!"

"How would she know about how your visions work?"

"Think about it. Bella said that Laurent came looking for her on behalf of Victoria. Laurent was still aligned with Victoria. And who has Laurent been staying with? The Denalis. He could have easily found out about all of our gifts from them."

"Alice, I think you are right."

"I know I'm right" she scoffs.

We were pulling up to the pull off and she sped down the drive to the house. She went on in the house while telling me through her thoughts that she was going to inform everyone else about the vision and our discussion on the ride home. She also told me to just go ahead and hunt so with that I flew to the back of the house and to the woods.

After my hunt, I run back to the house to find that everyone else is still out hunting. To pass the time, I decide to play the piano. I sit down and run my fingers up and down the keys. It has been sitting untouched for awhile, and will more than likely need to get it tuned. I play through several pieces that I wrote and some of my favorite compositions written by other composers. But I avoid the one piece that matters the most.

After playing for half an hour, I sit here debating on whether or not to play Bella's lullaby. It is my most favorite and treasured piece but during this time of separation from her it is very emotional for me to play. My fingers begin to play on their own will and then my heart and mind get pulled under the spell of Bella. When I complete the piece, I feel loving arms being wrapped around my neck and then Esme bends down to give me a warm hug.

"Son, know that I love you, and know that one day we will get her back. You just have to have faith and believe."

I raise my hand up and place it on her arm and offer her a loving squeeze. I then play the piece that I wrote for her. After I am done, she gives me one more hug and kisses the top of my head.

"Come on Edward, everyone is waiting for us on the back patio."

We exit through the back door onto the patio where everyone is standing there quietly but they all pity me in their thoughts. I just shake my head and say "Please, I don't need your pity."

Carlisle changes the subject by discussing tonight's tentative plan. Rose and Esme are going to guard Charlie at his house. Carlisle had already informed Charlie of what was happening. He had refused to leave his house because in his own words "no one was running him out of his own home." Apparently, Carlisle thought it wise to inform the wolves of Victoria's presence so they are on high alert and patrolling the area. The rest of us are going to the baseball clearing and wait for Alice's instructions. After being given our instructions, we all head off to hopefully finally rid this world of Victoria.

While waiting for Alice's instruction, Jasper decided to work with us on our fighting skills. Since we were after a skilled opponent, he felt that we needed to brush up on incorporating strategy in our fighting technique. Of course, he also wanted us to know basic skills as well. We each took turns fighting Jasper while whoever was not fighting studiously watched. He would make note of someone's fighting style to help fine tune their ability as well as show everyone else what was good or bad.

Emmett kept getting pissed because he could not pin Jasper, and Jasper kept telling him that he fights closest to a newborn which would piss him off even further. We were all rolling in laughter, and the laughter was much needed. It was very refreshing to be able to let loose and just have fun. Emmett finally just gave up fighting and started wrestling him.

They were wrestling when all of a sudden Alice took off running saying "It's time!" We all immediately caught up with her and flanked her on both sides. Then she veered off to the right, and then seconds later I could hear her. A growl erupted from my chest at her thoughts. Her ideas for Bella were unfathomable, and would never see the light of day.

My feet propelled me faster towards my long awaited prize—Victoria's slow and painful death. I finally could see her in the distance. I launched myself into the trees so that I could stalk my prey from up above. She had already sensed our approach and had been dodging us.

We were quickly coming to the Quileute border, and I could smell and hear the wolves. They were running along the border and were easily keeping up with our chase. She would flit from one side to the other. My irritation level reaching an all time high, I roar out, "She's dead Victoria!"

My words cause her to stutter enough where I lunge for her and barely graze her with my fingers. Her self-preservation kicks in and she weaves in and out of the trees. Somehow her thoughts go blank and I cannot hear her mind. She then finds her escape by crossing the border line so my family and I cannot follow. But I can follow her in the minds of the wolves. She is faster and is able to escape their numerous advances. She finally looses the wolves in the trees after creating an elaborate web of false trails.

I am so pissed at our failed attempt that I uproot the nearest tree and throw it as far as I can. My family finally catches up with me within a matter of seconds.

"We will get her one way or another" says Emmett.

Just when I was going to ask Alice about Victoria's response, she gasps and says "Rose."

She quickly heads towards Charlie's house in a sprint while relaying to us that another vampire showed up there. I had never seen Emmett run as fast as I did in this moment.

When we got close to Charlie's house, I could hear Esme in the house with Charlie but Rose was in the woods fighting with a young vampire boy.

Rose sensing our nearness taunts the boy. "Oh, now you will die because my husband is almost here."

Emmett's growl is ferocious as his innate instinct to protect his mate kicks in.

I can hear the confusion in the boy's thoughts, and he can hear us quickly approaching. Victoria always had taught him that running from a fight would allow him to fight again another day so he flees before Emmett or any of us can get to them.

Emmett finally reaches Rose and the boy is long gone. He runs to her and wraps her securely in his arms smelling her in order to calm himself down. Once he has her in his arms, he does an inspection of her to make sure she is not hurt.

"Baby, are you okay?" he shakily asks.

"Yeah, I'm okay."

Carlisle then hurriedly says "let's go check on Esme and Charlie. Alice, do you see Victoria or the other vampire trying to come back?"

"No."

We rush back to Charlie's and Carlisle knocks on the door. Esme answers the door and she rushes into his arms. Charlie walks up behind Esme and asks "Well, did you get her and the other one?"

Carlisle just simply shakes his head and states "But we will next time. Charlie, if you don't mind we would like to head home to the comforts of our home."

He just grunts and nods his head.

Right as we enter our house, Alice is hit with a vision of Bella. This was the one vision that I dreaded—her first meal. I could see her in shock at what she was witnessing and grabbing a small girl to hide her behind her. Then, I could see Aro approach her with a woman and Bella drinking from the woman. I growl as Aro strokes my Bella's cheek the way a lover would. The vision ends with Aro escorting the child out of the throne room and the shocked face of Bella turning into a pained one.

I fall to my knees and yell out to the world for its unfairness at Bella having to take a life knowing that she will be forever riddled with guilt.

Alice places a hand on my shoulder and immediately Carlisle's phone begins ringing while Alice says "It's Aro."

A/N: Alright I am tired of typing and proofing. If anyone would love to Beta for me or even maybe just read it to let me know what they think before I post it would be greatly appreciated.

Also wanted to give some rec reading. If you haven't read drotuno on fanfiction her Angel stories I would highly recommend them. On TWCL I would recommend Never Say Never by Wombat. Both are awesome stories. I would love to hear some of your rec reading.

I am also going to start a new story. I love stories where Bella starts out as the vampire so I am going to do an alternate Twilight where Bella and Jasper come to town as the vampires and the rest of the Cullens are human. It probably has been done already but just had some ideas with it.

A great story where Bella is the vampire and Edward is human is Unto a heart of stone by Jackiejones on fanfiction.

I hope all of you guys are doing well. Please review.