Usual disclaimer I don't own glee or any of its characters. So I got a couple of people asking me to cover more of Quinn's accident so I thought I would oblige. The requests definitely got the inspiration flowing. It was always my plan to cover it more and there will be more chapters about it later on. I was just worried about bombarding the story with only that. But send me stuff you want to hear about. I already have some ideas about what I want to cover. Like I have the ideas about how they all got together and those chapters will appear eventually and I have other subjects that I want to expand on, but if you have something you really want to read about leave a review or send a message. Otherwise I'll just continue writing where the inspiration takes me. And of course thank you for taking the time to read my story and I hope you enjoy it.
This takes place two days after Can't Breathe.
As We Wait Together
It has been two days since the accident and Quinn still hadn't woken up. Currently it's just her and Rachel in the room with Quinn right now. It's almost eleven o clock at night and Rachel had nodded off about an hour ago and Judy and Santana had briefly stepped out to go grab some coffee. Normally they wouldn't be able to stay this late or with that many people but there were definitely perks to dating the daughters of two of the hospitals doctors, especially when one of those doctors is the chief of surgery. So all three of the girls got to wait and watch over Quinn. Brittany gets up from her chair and walks over to a sleeping Rachel and drapes a blanket over the sleeping girl's shoulders and then walks over to Quinn's bedside.
Looking at Quinn is so hard for Brittany right now. Even in her current condition Quinn is still the prettiest girl Brittany has ever seen but she looks so broken and frail, not at all like her usual strong self, that it's nearly impossible for Brittany to reconcile how she sees Quinn in her mind and how Quinn is now. There are all sorts of tubes and wires connected to the injured girl and Brittany has a hard time keeping track of what they are all for. She has one attached to her mouth that is breathing for her. Another is going into her chest and is draining excess fluids from her lungs. She has IV's going into her right hand that are for medicine and nutrients. Those are just the ones that Brittany remembers. She had been curious about what all of the things did but it was just so much and so overwhelming that she had just stopped paying attention after a few moments. Besides it didn't really matter what they did as long as they did it and it helped Quinn get better.
That was the important thing, recovery. And it would be a long road to that as well. First Quinn had to wake up and all of her bones and muscles and organs had to heal, then came the hard part. Quinn's spine had been damaged in the crash, so badly that there was the possibility that Quinn might not even walk again. Of course they wouldn't know anything for sure until Quinn woke up, which was why it was so important that she did. Brittany and the girls prayed every night and all through the day that she would wake up and that the spinal damage would only be a temporary thing. All Brittany wanted to do was climb into the bed and cuddle with her girl, tell her that it would all be okay. But she can't, because if she climbed into the bed she would hurt Quinn.
'She shouldn't be lying in some hospital bed with all kinds of tubes coming out of her and looking like this. She should be at home in bed, preferably my bed with her hair all mussed up, eyes half lidded and a goofy grin on her face.' Brittany allows a smile to cross her face at the thought. The first real one she's had since this whole thing happened.
Brittany gently reaches out and moves a strand of hair from Quinn's face and ever so lovingly tucks it behind her ear, being careful not to touch any of the medical equipment. As she looks at the sleeping girl tears begin to pool in her eyes. She just doesn't understand.
Brittany leans in and presses her lips gently to Quinn's forehead and then pulls back and begins to softly speak. "Hey Quinn it's me Brittany. I don't… I don't know if you can hear me but, but I miss you, we miss you. So you need to wake up okay. We're all…*sniff* we're all feeling pretty lost without you, so you have to wake up now."
"I don't know if I have ever told you this but I've always looked up to you. You're kinda my hero. You never let anything keep you down and you're never afraid.*sniff* I mean I've never met anyone who can stand up to Coach Sylvester like you can." At this Brittany chokes out a sound that is somewhere between a laugh and a sob.
"Even when you got pregnant and were kicked out you still stood so tall, you just raised your head and did whatever it took to survive. I always admired that about you, that no matter what the world threw at you, you always fought right back. And I know that last year you were so sad because you couldn't keep Beth but still *sniff*…still you put on a brave face and did everything you could to put your life back together. And you did it, but then this last summer San and I weren't there for you like we should have been and you got really sad again. When you came back to school you were so different… *sniff* you were so sad and so angry and it scared me, almost as much as I'm scared for you right now. You were just so different and I didn't know how to help you or how to reach you." By this point the tears were freely falling down Brittany's face.
"I thought I had lost you for good and it broke my heart because it would have been our fault, because we weren't there for you. But then San found you again and we got you back, and not only that but we got you back in a way that we never even thought was possible. And it's been fantastic. You've been fantastic and you complete us. I can't imagine what it would be like to not have you, to not be able to call you mine like I can now. You're amazing and I am so lucky to have you in my life. You're the bravest person I know. And I love you so much, and, and… and I can't do this without you, I can't do… anything… not without you. And… and… why did this have to happen?"
Brittany was fully crying now her face scrunched up in agony and powerful sobs wracking through her body. "Why?"
"I don't understand! How could you do this?"
"Why God!? What did Quinn do…*sob* do to deserve this!?"
"I don't understand… *sob* why is this happening!"
"It's not fair, she doesn't deserve this and you have to make her better. *Sob* you have to or you're just being mean and… *sob*it's, that's not fair!"
"Please, please… *sob* I'm begging you, please…*sob*… just please… make her better."
"…Please."
Brittany is surprised when she feels arms wrap around her and turns around to find that Rachel has woken up at this point. Rachel's eyes are watery and she's trying not to cry. Brittany returns the hug and begins to cry into the smaller girls shoulders. Letting out all of the pain and despair and confusion she feels. She feels Rachel run her hands up and down her back and hears her whisper and cry comforting words in her ear. Both girls breaking down again, and trying to draw comfort from one another.
"Why?" Brittany manages to choke out.
"I don't know, I just don't know." Rachel manages to say. "I wish I had some sort of answer for you, or something that would make this whole situation make some sort of sense but… I'm just as confused as you are. I wish I could take away your pain, I wish I could make Quinn better. But I can't, I can't do anything. All I can do, all we can do is be here for each other and especially be here for Quinn. Because, our girl is going to have it so hard when she wakes up, and we're going to have to be so strong for her. Stronger than we have ever been before, and it's going to be tough and it's going to suck but if we stick together and lean on each other and help each other we can get through this and we can get Quinn through this."
"Can we though? What if we can't, what if we're not able to? What if we're not strong enough, or… or what if Quinn never wakes up, what if she doesn't make it!? What then, what happens then!?" Brittany continues to cry into Rachel's shoulder.
"Oh sweetie, don't think like that. Quinn's going to make it, she's too strong and too stubborn not to, she's going to make it she has to. And when she wakes up we will be there for her. We're going to do this, we can do this, because we love each other too much to give up, I know this with all of my heart."
"I'm scared." Brittany whimpers.
"Me too." Rachel says.
"I just keep having all of these bad thoughts. I keep picturing Quinn in her car and getting hit, and I keep seeing her on the operating table and then I see us at her funeral…*sob*… and then I keep imagining bad things happening to you and Santana. And I can't sleep and I'm scared. What if something bad happens to you guys too, what if I lose you guys too?"
"You can't think like that, you haven't lost Quinn she's going to be okay and nothing bad is going to happen to-"but Rachel is cut off by Brittany.
"You don't know that! We didn't think that something bad would happen to Quinn, but here we are! So don't tell me it's not possible, because it is possible and it has happened! So don't… don't say it can't!" With that Brittany buries herself back into Rachel's shoulder and begins to cry with renewed vigor.
Rachel doesn't have a response for this so she just continues to hold her girl and run comforting hands up and down Brittany's back, holding back her own tears, trying to be there for the crying blonde. A few moments pass the only sounds in the room are the quiet beeps of the machines and Brittany's cries which are slowly quieting down. Rachel uses the time to gather her thoughts and waits until Brittany has stopped crying and then finally speaks up.
"You're right I don't know that… and I can't promise something bad won't happen. But, sweetie, we can't live our lives in fear. We have to try and stay positive, it would be so easy right now to give in to despair, but we can't. We have to be strong. I know what you're feeling right now because I see the same things you do every time I close my eyes too. But right now, we're here and we're safe and Quinn is alive and is going to get better and we just have to focus on that, okay?"
"You're right, I'm sorry… I wish… I wish I could be brave like you…"
"Hey none of that, you're doing just fine all things considered. And I'm sure we'll be switching places a couple of times during this ordeal. The important thing is that we keep trying."
"I love you." Brittany says and gives Rachel a small smile.
"I love you too." Rachel replies and then gives Brittany a gentle kiss on the cheek. They both then proceed to give Quinn a kiss on the forehead and then they head over to one of the chairs and cuddle together. Both drawing as much comfort as they can from the other and both trying to reassure each other that everything would be okay.
"Hey guys, room for one more?" They look up to see both Santana and Judy have returned.
"For you? Always." Brittany says with a smile while Rachel nods her agreement. They adjust themselves as Santana joins them. It's a tight fit and not the most comfortable but they make it work.
"So, any changes while I was gone?" Santana asks.
"No, still sleeping." Rachel responds.
"And how are you doing?" Santana asks Rachel. "Is there anything I can do for you?"
"I'm okay as I can be given the circumstances."
Santana then turns to look at Brittany. "And you are you okay?"
"Not really, better now though thanks to Rachel and now that you're here." Brittany says with a small shrug.
"Well if you guys need anything…" Santana trails off. The three girls lean their heads forward and touch their foreheads together.
"You girls are so cute together." Judy says. She is standing next to Quinn and is absentmindedly running her fingers gently through Quinn's hair as she looks at the trio. She looks so tired and she hasn't slept in two days but she still manages a smile for the three girls. "I am so grateful that Quinnie has you girls in her life and thank you so much for being here for her."
"We love her Judy. There is nowhere else we could be." Brittany says.
Judy then gives them a very serious look. She is silent for a couple of seconds but then begins to speak. "I thought I had lost her again this past summer. She came home from New York and she wouldn't speak at all. For almost a week there was just nothing. I was lucky to even get a grunt or a nod. And then suddenly everything changed. She died her hair pink, she wore those dark close, the smoking, and the tattoo, thank God it was a fake, and just the attitude and all of the anger."
Judy then shifts her gaze over to Quinn and it softens. "I didn't know what to do. No matter what I tried she would just rebuke my advances. I was so scared for her and I wish she would have come to me and talked to me, and I know why she didn't. One year of effort doesn't make up for sixteen years of neglect, but still… Anyway it was pretty rough and I had no body to turn to."
Judy then looks at the trio again this time she is smiling at them. "Then out of nowhere three beautiful guardian angels come out of nowhere, they realize that Quinn is worth the effort and they save her. After that first night, the sleep over she had with you, she came home and she… she hugged me and said she loved me and that she was sorry for how she had behaved. She asked for my forgiveness, mine!" Judy laughs quietly with joy at the memory and shakes her head.
"For the first time since she came to live back home she told me she loved me. And I have you girls to thank for that. So thank you, thank you so much for being there for her. Thank you for knowing that the tough front she puts up is just that a front. Thank you for taking the time to break the walls she puts up down. And thank you, thank you for loving her. I don't know how I will ever be able to repay you for what you have done for my Quinnie, but know that I love you all as much as any mother is able to love her daughters and that if you girls ever need anything I will always be there for you."
Not for the first time since they've been there the three girls have tears in their eyes. However unlike all of the other times, the tears were happy. "Judy." Brittany whispers another smile making its way to her face. The trio stands up and slowly makes their way over to Judy. Once there they envelope her in a group hug.
"Of course we fought for Quinn." Santana says. "What other option was there, she was and is an inevitable in our life and no matter what we will always fight for her."
Both Rachel and Brittany nod their agreements. And Judy nods her head in gratitude. "And on a side note, we love you too and thank you for being so awesome about this." Santana says as she gestures to herself and her three girlfriends.
"Yeah totally, what San said." Brittany agreed.
"You're a wonderful parent and Quinn loves you so much and so do we." Rachel throws in.
They stay like that for a while longer once again drawing strength from one another as they stand vigil over Quinn's bedside. But for the first time the air isn't so heavy in the room and for the first time there is a sense of hope and comfort that wasn't there before. Brittany is the first to break the silence. "When do you guys think Quinn will wake up?"
"I don't know, but it's got to be soon. I know Quinn can't stand to be away from you girls for too long." Judy says to the girls.
"I agree." Santana says "Q will be up before we know it. And when she does we'll be right here waiting."
