Trust me, there's a pretty good reason why Spike left. Just aquick note: in this version Angel is already a CO of Wolfram and Hart.
"I won't bloody turn her into a monster. Giving her eternity with me would mean taking all that matters away from her and I won't let that happen."
Dawn felt broken. Completely lost. She couldn't think while she closed the door or when she sat on the sofa. Things had happened to rapidly for to register. She tried to think clearly.
"First things first. Willow came to kill Spike because Xander told her he'd … raped me?! Then I saved and healed him with some new weird powers."
She tried to move a book with her gaze but it stayed stubbornly in place.
"And then ... he left me," she felt dizzy.
She didn't need the bond to know he was holding back something but she was too tired to concentrate on the exact thing he was hiding from her. She tried to figure it out but when her head started to ache in confusion she decided a good night's sleep might help. She took a quick shower, already missing Spike. Then she went to bed and curled with the blanket pulled way over her head because she still missed him. She slowly doze off into a trouble sleep. Faces and voices mingled in her mind until she could hardly tell who she was. She was driving in a car, listening to some weird rock tune and tapping on the wheel with the rhythm. Her gaze wavered over the road pass two dice hanging from the mirror. She missed… Dawn. Wait, she missed herself?! Dawn woke up, her forehead sweaty. That was definitely Spike that was driving. And he missed her. That was a good thing. Whatever made him leave must've been that "Dawn'd be better off on her own," thought he always had. He was driving, but where was he going?
"Hello, this is Harmony, Angel's secretary. I mean secretary of the CO for Wolfram and Harts' LA office."
"Hi… is Angel there? I sorta need to talk to him about somethin'," said Dawn nervously.
"Well, he's sorta busy with the Cazaa De--- Would you like me to pass a message?"
"Yeah, could you tell him Dawn wants him to call her as soon as he can?"
"Yeah, sure thing. Hey! You're Buffy's sister! How is the old slayer girl doing?"
"Dead…",Dawn thought.
"Uhm, I gotta go now. You won't forget the message will you?"
""Nah, I already sent him an e-mail. Oh, wait I must've sent it to Gun, by mistake. Don't worry, I'll sent right off."
"Yeah, ok, bye," Dawn hung up, hoping that some law of the universe could explain why on earth Harmony of all people was Angel's secretary.
"Now I have some work to do," she thought.
She went to Xander and Anya's place, not even bothering to call first. Anya opened the door to her brisk knocking, a big smile on her face.
"Hey, Dawn! You can't imagine what we just--"
She quickly shut up, seeing Dawn's darkened face.
"Uh… do you want some cookies? Xander's mom sent some and they're really--"
"Did you know?"
Anya stepped from foot to foot, looking away.
"Did you?"
"I tried to stop him, okay? I thought Willow won't believe him. I mean with all the chemistry between you guys."
"Where is he," Dawn hissed through gritted teeth.
Anya sensed trouble so she put her hands on her hips and tried to look as threatening as possible.
"Xander's not here. You can leave now."
Just as she'd said that Xander came out of the bedroom, his shirt open. When he saw Dawn he quickly buttoned it up. Both Anya and Dawn rolled their eyes.
"So, Dawnster, what brings you here?"
"Oh, nothing much. Revenge, mostly," said Dawn brightly. But the smile hardly reached her eyes.
Xander's face paled. "Now, Dawnie," he started.
God, how angry he made her. She closed her eyes in frustration. Suddenly Anya gasped as a large read ball of energy left her body, landing in Dawn's hands. Anya fainted and Dawn finally realized that she could manipulate others' energy.
"Wh--What did you do to her? I'm warning you, I..."
Dawn looked at the large ball in her hands and at the weak men who tried to destroy her Spike.
"Why?"
"Dawn, I'm sorry….I… I just care for you, you know that. And Spike…"
"Oh, don't give me the care speech," she mocked him, "You lost Buffy. She's gone and I'm the only part of her left. You couldn't bare the fact that I rejected you in choosing Spike. What? You thought I'd have a crush on you forever, did you?"
Xander opened his mouth to say something but nothing came out.
Dawn sent the ball… and it exploded, making a large hole in the wall behind the terrified Xander.
"You are pathetic," she said, leaving.
She cam home, sitting slowly on the couch; the thought she was really alone hit her painfully. Suddenly the phone rang and it was Angel.
"Dawn, I've been calling for some time now and I got worried. What's wrong? Are you ok?'
"Yeah, Angel I'm… good."
"Harmony said it was urgent and I got worried. What is it?"
"Mmm nothing much." She took a deep breath. "Look, Angel, Spike's gone and I need to know where he is."
"Why on earth would you care where he's off to?"
"Well, we are sorta … we're together."
"Spike… Dawn?" Angel caught his head in confusion.
"Angel I love him and I'm sure he loves me. I know this comes as a shock to you but he must've left for a pretty good reason. I need to know what it is."
"I'll do what I can."
"Angel! When you find him, promise me you won't hurt him or anything."
Angel groaned.
"But… alright… I'll try not to stake him."
"Thanks a lot, Angel."
Dawn sighed. That was difficult. She turned on the TV, and guess what. Passions was on. She went to the kitchen for a bag of chips and curled on the sofa watching one of the most boring soap operas she'd ever seen. God, how low could she go? She must've dozed off because she woke up when the phone rang.
"Dawn Summers," she said, her voice husky with sleep.
"Hey, Dawn, it's me."
"Yeah, Angel, did you find anything at all."
"Yeah… I don't know how to say this…"
"Is something wrong? Is he okay?" Dawn felt frantic.
"He's fine, I guess. But he's pretty much gone from the States."
"What does this mean?"
"He went to Africa. He went to get his soul back."
Told ya, he had a pretty good reason, didn't I. ;) Review, review, review. I'm a selfish person, what can I say. Cheers.