Chapter 5: So much to absorb
Its time…to free myself of the secrets that I had clutched to my heart.
Leah's POV:
I was waiting for Adriana to come home, she had left a message on the landline that she was going out with her friends for bowling and will be back around 7. I decided to have dinner knowing she would eat and come, as I had dinner I started thinking of how I should reveal the secrets. I knew she would be hurt…but I felt like she had to know! She must know!
"I m home!" I heard her voice.
She came to me, gave me a hug and kissed my cheek…I could tell she was very happy, it broke my heart to think that I would be the cause of her pain soon.
"How was your day?" I asked cheerfully.
"It was greeeeeeeaaaaaat! I had so much of fun! And also Camille got asked out by Jack! She is so happy and I m happy for her!" she smiled widely.
"You are not interested in anyone?" I asked.
"Nope…no one yet, though I think Aaron likes me," she gave a mischievous grin.
"Ahem…nice," I laughed.
"How was you day momma darling?" she called me mom usually but 'momma darling' that was new.
"It was really good daughter sweetheart," I giggled.
"Elaborate," she ordered.
"Well, the kindergarteners were really good and later Evan and Shane asked me to spend sometime with them, we had lunch and then ate cadies," I sighed.
"You know, Shane is single," she nodded teasingly.
"Really? I didn't know…" I played along.
"Maybe you can go out with him, sometime?" she asked hesitatingly. This was one topic which was awkward between me and Adie-'me dating'.
"No," I simply said.
"Okay…guess what?" she asked changing the topic at once.
"What?" I asked.
"We have no homework today!" she said moved her hands as if she was dancing.
"Ha-ha., enjoy kid," I smiled.
Adriana went to her room to get changed, I went and locked the doors, and I always did at this time of the night, and then went and sat in the living room switching on the TV. I didn't really feel like watching anything, I was waiting Adriana to come and join me.
"What's on?" she sat beside me.
"You see," I handed her the remote. She took it and started switching the channels.
"Let's watch make it or break it?" she asked.
"Sure…" I said absent mindedly.
"Mom, you okay?" she asked.
"Yeah," I nodded and gave her a small smile.
"Like I don't know you, spill the beans," she pressed the mute button on the TV.
"I wanted to tell you something," I hesitated.
"Sure, go on," she seemed curious.
"It's about me," I nodded.
"Okay…" she said.
"About me before you were born," I swallowed, it was hard for me to speak but she was my daughter and I had to tell her everything!
"Oh…you want to tell me that?" she seemed surprised.
"Yes, I just feel that you should know," I told her.
"Thanks mom," she said squeezing my hand. "But you don't have to tell, I know it hurts you," she added.
"I know…but I also feel that you should know the truth," I explained.
"Go on," she smiled.
"I don't know whether you will believe me," I confessed.
"I will, I don't care how crazy it gets, I will," both of us laughed at the little joke. But in my heart I knew it will get crazy….literally!
"Okay, I didn't tell you anything about my family or where I came from but now here is all of it, I m a Quileute, it a tribe of the town La Push, I used to live there with my parents Harry and Sue and with an irritating but adorable brother Seth," I smiled at the old memories, "everything was going on fine for me, and then I entered high school, La Push was a small town, we knew each other by names at least, I found myself famous, senior guys would ask me out but I would always say no to them, and then in my freshman year itself, I found a guy who I could relate well too, he didn't just want to hang out with me because I was popular or beautiful, he wanted to know me, I at once fell for, we were so much in love, every one guessed how we would end up…married of course, I dreamed that too…" I smiled bitterly. Talking about Sam was going to hurt me, but I felt a strange strength support me.
"Who was it?" Ade asked in a small voice.
"Sam Uley, he was everything I dreamed of, and the best thing was that he loved me more than anything! The high school years passed in breeze! They were the best years, I had Sam by my side and couple of close friends, and we had lots of fun. But almost at the end of the senior year Sam vanished," I blinked back the tears as I was closing to the horror. It was the very beginning of the end of my fairytale.
"Vanished? What happened?" she asked curiously.
"He didn't tell me, but he was gone for two weeks, his mother and I organized for search groups and did everything we could to find him but we couldn't find him, all the town people, even his mother thought he was up to no good and had left the town, but I knew Sam…he would never do anything bad, I trusted him…I knew he would come back. And soon enough he did, but he was different both in looks and behavior. I remember everything clearly.
"He had grown really tall, his body temperature was abnormal, it was very hot, and he had developed a muscular body, I pestered him to tell me what had happened but he never did. So trying to forget that we started working on our relationship, we loved each other very much, after graduating from School, Sam opened a garage and worked there, and I helped my mother in the family store. Everything was back to normal…Sam was still mysterious, his would always look like he needed sleep, he used to tremble whenever he was angry and start acting weird like taking deep breaths and mumbling something to himself. We continued working, then one day I got a news, that my cousin Emily would be coming to La Push," I stopped there for a while collecting myself and holding back the tears, I didn't want to break in front of Adriana.
She squeezed my hand knowing the hard part was coming.
"Well, Emily and I considered ourselves sisters, best friends, I was so happy that she was coming that I would speak only about her with Sam and he would just sit there smiling and amused. And that's when Sam and I slept together, and it was then he gave me a promise ring, saying that he would always love me, never hurt me and stay with me forever, and I knew he would propose soon. Then Emily arrived, we were at the beach, Sam was waiting for us there, I introduced them but it seemed waste because the way he was staring at her I wasn't even sure of he had heard me…he looked at her and never away," a tear rolled down my eye.
"Your cousin? He left you for your cousin! Mom…" Adriana hugged me, she was crying too.
"Yeah, I was shocked too, first he didn't tell anything but the next day he broke up with me saying I wasn't the one, and then guess what, a week later, Emily moves in with him!" I spat out the words.
I looked at Adriana, she was shocked.
"And then I was a total wreck, I missed Sam terribly, I wanted him back. I changed completely, I hardly ate, hardly spoke, hardly slept, I cried in the nights and I if I did sleep for sometime I would get nightmares of them getting married so I was scared to sleep. I couldn't bear the pain anymore; I didn't want to live any more. I got a blade and cut my wrists, everything started feeling better, everything was ending, but someone found me, mom I guess. I was taken to the hospital immediately, and was brought back.
"The Doctor gave them few instructions and they never left me alone, I was still broken, I had no reason to carry on but I never tried to kill myself. I was always followed by them, but they didn't know that I would never do it again! I didn't have any instruments to help me. Anyways, one evening I was just laying thinking and wishing that Sam would come back, I was addicted to him! I heard a knock on the door, I was sure it was mom or Seth, but it was a different voice…it was Sam; I thought he had come back! I was so very happy, I told him that I knew he would come back, I was so sure…but he told me I was wrong, he hadn't come back to me…he had come just to reason with me and make me se sense.
"He told me the 'Emily' is the one, I argued saying how can someone fall in love by just looking once, and he kept repeating that it was her! I started talking bad of Emily and then Sam said that I should stop, he was so angry that he was trembling again! And then I told him that I ad no reason to live and I would die, but then Sam took a complete turn and asked me about our tribe's legends and whether I believed in them or not," I said.
"Legends? Is that a joke?" Ade asked, of course from where would legends come in my heart break story, well they were the cause of it.
"Yeah, the Quileute tribe has got legends related to it," I said.
"What kind of legends?" she asked.
"Magical…it is about Vampires and werewolves, and how werewolves are the enemies of Vampires and protected normal people from them," I was feeling like an idiot.
"Ooh…" Ade nodded.
"So, Sam asked me that and then he told me that, they were true and that was what he had become…a wolf!" Finally the secret was out.
Adriana was shocked, she didn't even laugh which surprised me, and she swallowed and asked, "My father is not human? He is a wolf?"
"You believe it?" I asked surprised, I thought it would be harder to make her believe.
"Yeah, I do," she whispered.
"Well, yes, but he is not an entire wolf, but can change into one whenever he wants to I guess, but he is as much as human," I nodded.
"Why did he choose Emily then?" she asked bringing back to the story.
"He told me that that was one of the weird things of being a wolf, finding his soul mate…and he knew Emily was the one! He called that nonsense Imprinting!" again I cried.
"I hate her mom," she said.
"I do too…she stole my future, she stole your dad from you Ade," I whispered and hugged her tight.
"So what happened next?" Adriana asked holding my hand.
"Well, after what Sam told me, I was desperate I told him no one could fall in love just by looking once, and said that our love was true but he denied again I spoke bad of Emily, his was beyond angry, I saw hatred in his eyes for me, he asked me to stop but I was hurt and I didn't, and then he shouted at me saying he cannot love me now, and I wasn't the one, and he told me that he didn't want me in his life…he told me that," my voice was trembling.
Adriana wiped the tears of my face but she was crying too.
"I asked him to get out, and then he left, I was hurt at whatever he had said but I loved him still…and I hated Emily, I wished something bad happens to her…after that Dad came to me, he was on Sam's side too, and I hated that. And then I realized that Sam would never have told me about him being a wolf and explained to me, if Dad hadn't asked him to, he never had the intentions of doing it," I concluded.
"I m sorry," Ade whispered.
"I m too…but after that Carol came back, she took me to her home I told her everything except the legends coming true. I had morning sickness then, I told her not to worry and that I had been having it for quite a few days and Carol kind of guessed what was wrong, she asked to go for a check up, I did. And then the results came out, I was shocked! I was pregnant…Carol said we can get an abortion, but there was a new hope in me, I knew I would die, but with you I wouldn't! You were hope in my life Ade, I wanted you…but Carol told me that Sam wouldn't come back even if I was pregnant with his child and I knew that too, and also the council would never let me keep you. They would force me to end you, both of us knew that, but then Carol offered me to be with her and I agreed.
I decided running away from La Push was the best thing! I wouldn't have any memories to haunt me in a new place, and now I had a reason to live, and I found love too, you know? A different kind of love, I learnt to love you, you mean a lot to me Adriana, my baby girl…you mean the world to me…more than anything, anyone. I love you," I smiled while the tears fell down my eyes.
"I love you too mom," she hugged me again.
This was what I had lived for, the hope in my life. And now after telling her everything, I felt free.