Hello again. I am really excited about this chapter, no idea why, I just am.

Questions:

Q: Why does Bella keep going to sleep?

A: I know, that was horrible the way I made her go to sleep again. The point is that whenever she uses her 'gift' she becomes physically exhausted. Sorry if that annoyed any of you.

Q: I'm confused, does Bella have two gifts?

A: No, she does not. Bella has one solid power, she 'borrows' from people. Only humans are too weak, so it in turn stops their heart. This will pose as another conflict for future chapters.

Q: Are Edward and Bella still together?

A: This question was messaged to me by a reader. Yes, they are still together. Just because I do a minimum of fluff between them doesn't mean they aren't still together. Personally, I don't like too much fluff between them because in the book there isn't too much. Now, don't contradict me, I realize that Edward was always holding and caressing Bella, but that doesn't make it fluff. There's a diference between fluff and romance. Fluff is flashy affection. Romance is quiet and more meaningful.

Q: Am I getting my inspiration for Bella's gift from Rogue of X-Men?

A: Well, now that I think about it, probably so. Only partially, because I only use that with vampires. Another question I would like to answer is whether she wears gloves all the time. If she wanted, she could take them off while at home because (for those of you who paid attention) she only has their power when she concentrates. But, if you knew that your hands had taken innocent lives, would you want to take them off? I know I wouldn't. Incase this question comes up, yes, she takes them off when she bathes.

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And I am flawed

But I am cleaning up so well

I am seeing in me now the thinsg you swore you saw yourself

Vindicated- Dashboard Confessional

I stretched my arms and opened my eyes, welcoming the minimum of sunlight the peaked in through the curtains. I sat up and saw Edward sitting on the couch accross the room. He was leaning forward with his legs crossed and his chin perched up on his fist. He smiled warmly.

"Good-morning," he said. "Have a nice sleep?" I nodded.

"How long have I been out?" I asked as I rubbed my eyes. Not that I really needed to, I just didn't seem awake if I didn't.

"I'd say about three hours. Not very long." I nodded and then groaned. Edward cocked his head to the side. "What?"

"I haven't got any clean clothes to wear. This is just perfect." I laid back down and put my hands over my eyes. I had borrowed some of Rosalie's pajama's last night, but I doubt any of her casual clothes would fit. I glanced at Edward who hadn't moved an inch but was grinning like a Cheshire cat. "What...?" I asked skeptically. He stood and opened a closet which, to my immense surprise, was filled with clothes.

"Compliments of Alice and Rosalie. They went... shopping last night." I took the hint in his voice. Shopping my ass, there was most likely a mall missing half of their stock. I walked to the closet and looked through the clothes. The whole wardrobe was probably worth the price of a large house. It was full of designer jeans, cashmere sweaters, and tweed coats in addition to other things.

Okay, so there was an outlet mall missing half of there stock.

"Thank you, Rosalie. Thank you, Alice."

"You're welcome!" I heard Alice call. I heard Rosalie grunt from somewhere in the house.

"I'll leave you to it." Edward said in my ear before kissing my cheek and dissapearing. I shook my head of daze. I wasn't even human anymore and yet he still affected me in the same way. My mind went back to the closet. I looked out the window and saw the overcast sky as always.

"...And we're looking at a high of maybe sixty-four with a low of forty-three with a 55 chance of rain. Later in the day there should be mild winds of I'd say ten miles an hour heading towards East..." I grinned. Life was good to be able to hear better. I pulled some items from the closet and laid them on the bed while I undressed myself.

I had never realized all the upsides to being immortal. I was always too busy wallowing in the negative points to even realize any good could come from it. I began to count the reasons in my head.

Great hearing, no more clumsy falls, never need to worry about my eyes adjusting to the dark, can now preform awesome stunts without any risk whatsoever...

I slipped on my gloves and combed my hair before racing downstairs and cannonballing onto the couch in the Media room. Everybody looked up at me in surprise, but none of them were startled. Alice and Jasper were playing a game on the computer while Emmett and Edward were playing pool in the next room. Edward grinned and leaned against the pool table.

"Now, that's a trick nobody in this house has ever done." Edward said. Everyone laughed and even Rosalie looked up briefly from her Cosmopolitan magazine I leaned forward and read a title next to a brunette celebrity I didn't recognize.

"'30 ways to drive him wild'." I quoted. Emmett snapped his head up to me. "Does that stuff really work?" I asked Rosalie. She shrugged her shoulders.

"Ask him." She pointed her thumb behind her to Emmett. I looked up at Emmett who had an innocent look on his face. Edward, hoever was staring at me with intense interest.

"...What...?" I asked tenatively. Alice looked at me briefly and snickered. Rosalie smirked slightly but didn't look up all the same.

"I was just curious was to why you would want to know if they work." Edward said blatantly. I shrugged.

"I just wonder if they work. I mean, it's somebody's job to write them, but has he or she actually tested these out? Because if they haven't, then they're just theories." By now Alice was leaning over Rosalie's shoulder and reading.

"'After making love, gently stroke his--censored-- and then get up, dress, and leave immediatly. This will make him crave your touch.' Hmmm..." Alice looked thoughtful while I sat with wide eyes. "Interesting. I never thought of that." All eyes went to Jasper who was playing solitare. He shook his head but didn't look away from the screen.

Everyone snickered and even Rosalie smirked. I stood and stretched.

"Well, see ya guys later." I said and began to walk to the door.

"And where do you think you're going?" Edward's breath was cold on my ear as he wrapped his arms around my upper half. I smiled and turned to look at him.

"I," I began while I played with a button on his shirt. He leaned his forhead against mine. "Am going to my house." His eyes lost their softness and was replaced by skeptisism. I wasn't unaware that the entire room had gone silent.

"Bella..." He said. I already knew where he was going with this, but listened reluctantly. "Are you sure you want to do that?" I frowned. "I mean, do you think you're... that you're ready?" My eyes softened and a put on a wide smile, as fake as it was.

"Don't worry, I'll be fine. I just want to go check it out. Unless, of course, it's been knocked down or something." The room was silent. "Was it...?" Edward shook his head.

"No, it's still there. I just want to make sure you can handle it." His eyes were searching mine. I nodded and he let go.

"I think I'll walk." I said thoughtfully. "It's been awhile since I've taken a walk in Forks." I opened and closed the door, my fake smile fading.

Was I ready?

I could only hope I was.

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(sorry, my computer did that weird thing again. it cut off right here. which sucked, because i had a whole lot typed. so yeah, this is part of the reason this is late)

There I was. Standing before the sad sight that had once been my home. I felt my imaginary heart shatter as I gazed up at it. The windows were dirty and some were broken. Roof tiles and shingles lay around it and soggy toilet paper hung from a nearby tree. Some people must not have been very fond of my father, because crude words and phrases were written in dripping letters of malice.

Pig

It stung to even look at it. I averted my sight briefly but glanced back immediatly. I took a hesitant step onto the porch and froze dead in my tracks when I felt someone behind me.

"That's private property, Cullen." I felt an eyebrow shoot up. Cullen? Maybe they thought I was Alice. I turned around and felt my lips part in a silent gasp. Standing about a yard away from me, in all of his tall glory, was Jacob Black. At first i thought it might have been Sam, but there was no doubt that it was Jacob. His eyes widened before turning angry and leaping another two yards back.

"You're one of them." He hissed. He brought his hand over his nose. "Ugh, you reek of them." I just stared.

"Jake--"

"So that's where you've been?" His voice was quiet, but I could hear the anger in it. I bit my lip. "Six years, and all this time you've been with them?" He gave a humorless laugh. "Did you even know that Charlie died? Yeah, he had a heart attack. Most likely because you just up and vanished. Do you have any idea how long I was looking for you? How I drove my pack insane how how much i was worried? I didn't sleep, I didn't eat, I just searched. I must have looked all over Washington for you. How could you do this to me? To Charlie!" He stopped and shook his head disgustedly. I felt tears well up in my eyes. "What am I saying? You obviously don't care about me, or anyone for that matter. Bella, I honestly can't even bare to look at you anymore." That was it.

I was pissed.

"Would you just shut up, for once?" I asked through gritted teeth. He looked at me, astonished. I took a step towards him. "Don't talk about things you know nothing about. Don't pretend like you understand what happened."

"Oh, don't I?"

"No," I yelled. "You don't! You don't understand anything but how you feel. If you actually understood, then you would know that I didn't choose this." He let out a growl and I growled in return.

"Don't you lie to me, Bella. You told me yourself that this was what you wanted, so don't stand there and fabricate!"

"Even so," I said. My voice was wry and edgy. "That wasn't how it happened." He became enraged.

"You mean they did this without your permission?" I let out an exhasperated sigh and took another two steps forward.

"NO!" I yelled almost in his face. "It wasn't them."

"Then who?" he screamed back. I sighed.

"It was Victoria!" I closed my eyes as soon as the words left my mouth and mentally kicked myself for saying anything.

"And they couldn't protect you? Useless things! They know all about taking a life, but when it comes to saving one--"

"Yeah, well I was murdered in your forest, Jacob, where were you?" This shut him up. I continued, "Would you like to know the details? Okay, I'll tell you. I was the most unstable person in this town and you wouldn't even return my phone calls." He didn't say anything and just looked at the ground.

"Edward was gone, Charlie was gone, and as far as you were concerned, you were gone too. I must have called you at least five times that night but you didn't want to talk to me.

"She chased me all through your God-forsaken forest and tossed me into a tree, which by the way dislocated my shoulder, before killing me." Jacob didn't even look at me. "I laid there for three days, screaming my head off. And you never found me. So stop looking for someone to blame, because you didn't help much at the time."

"So you're saying it's my fault?"

"No, I'm saying that it would have helped if you were there." I said sharply. "Why did you do it, Jake?" He looked confused.

"Do what?" I grasped my hair in frustration.

"Do what? You isolated me!" His eyes went wide and he gasped. "I was in love with Edward and not you. You forced me to choose between you two. When I chose Edward, you punished me. You made me suffer over something I had abosolutely no control over. You should know better than anyone that we can't choose who we fall in love with." My voice became quiet. "It just happened. You claimed to love me..." My eyes watered and I looked up at him. "But if you loved me, why did you cause me so much pain? You said you didn't like to hurt me, but how could you put me through that?" His face was tortured but he didn't say anything. I rubbed my face with my sleeve and sighed heavily.

"I don't need this." I said venemously. "I don't need to stand here and tell you where you went wrong because you should know. And if you truly have no idea what you did, then all I have to say is that you are completely ignorant. You have ridiculed and insulted me in every way possible and I'm not goin to put up with it. Good-bye, Jacob." I pushed past him and bolted in an inhuman speed. I needed to get away from him.

I knew the perfect place.

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I stepped into the sun and gave a blissful sigh as I felt the sun kiss my pale, cold skin. I tugged my turtleneck over my head and laid it on the ground before lying over it. I held my hand up and watched as it sparkled and glittered in the warm light. I closed my eyes and listened peacefully.

It wasn't long before I felt a cold head lay in the crook of my neck.

"You look so beautiful like that." A velvety voice said. I smiled and opened my eyes. Edward kissed my temple and we switched positions so that I was laying on his chest while he had his arms wrapped around me. "Let's stay like this forever." He murmered into my hair.

"I agree, let's." He let out a laugh and I propped my head up on my chin so that I gazed into his eyes. "What?"

"I wasn't serious, Bella." He said softly. I rolled my eyes and laid back down.

"Well that's too bad, because I was." I heard a bird sing in the distance as the soft breeze swept through the trees. I never really appreaciated how wonderful the world was until I was given the ability to. Another thing to add on my 'up-side' list.

"So how was the visit?" I could tell he was trying to change the subject.

"You should know," I said with a tinge of playful annoyance in my voice. "You followed me the whole time." He laughed again.

"I had to make sure you remained safe."

"Stalker." I mumbled. He hugged me closer.

"Only for you." He whispered in a wave of cold breathe that sent shivers down my spine. He placed another kiss on my temple. It was feather-soft and bearlt felt, but the meaning was there. He proceeded to kiss my eyelids and then my nose... all over until he got to my lips. He captured them softly and cupped my face in his slender hands. I wrapped my arms around his neck as he continued to ravish my lips.

Edward, Bella!

"Go away." Edward mumbled against my lips. I smiled as Esme continued to call us. I knew she was probably standing in the backyard, but we could still hear her.

"Yo, Edward, quit eating Bella's face and hurry up." Emmett's voice was amused as always.

"Emmett..." I whined as Edward sighed and sat up.

"Yes, Emmett," Edward said wryly. "Don't you have something to do?" He shook his head.

"Nope, Carlisle wants to talk to you two." Thunder boomed and a streak of lightening shot accross the sky. He smirked. "And then, it's baseball time." I felt a grin spread accross my face. Edward laughed at the sight of it.

"Bella," He said as he kissed my neck. "Darling, your eyes are twinkling." I gave a sheepish smile.

"Sorry, I just finally get to play. It's exciting!" Emmett shook his head.

"Jeez, Bella, you sure are easy to please." Emmett gave a laugh. "I'll race you both home." I snorted.

"I'll pass." I replied. "I was never a good runner when I was human, and I'm not much better as a vampire. The only thing different is that I don't fall down when I run."

"I'd say that's a big achievement." Edward said with a crooked smile. I scowled and crossed my arms over my chest. "Well, I'll race you, Emmett." Edward hoisted me onto his back and wrapped my arms around his neck. Edward reached up and grasped one of my hands and kissed the inside of my palm. I responded by kissing his neck. "Bella, you call." I nodded.

"On your marks," They both crouched down. "Get set," I looked between the two of them. "Go!" They both sped off like bullets. Edward went so fast that I nearly flew off his back but luckily he grabbed my legs in time.

In almost a split second we were back home. The rest of the family were sitting on the lawn chairs save for Carlisle, who stood behind Esme's with his hand on her shoulder. Alice was grinning wildly. She leaned back and folded her arms behind her head.

"Told ya." Alice said. "Edward won." I jumped off of Edward's back and brushed some grass and twigs off my clothes.

"Well, of course, he won. Edward's always been the fastest runner." Jasper replied. While Alice and Jasper had their own little conversation, Carlisle inclined his head towards the door. Edward and I followed him automatically.

Carlisle closed the door to his study and sat behind his desk.

"Please, sit." We both sat down. I'm not sure what Edward felt, but I was feeling a bit nervous. What if he was going to tell me I couldn't stay? That it would be too dangerous to be around them?

"Bella, Edward, relax because you aren't in trouble." I relaxed a fraction of a bit. He said I wasn't in trouble, not that he wasn't going to kick me out. "I would just like to lay down some events that have occured in the past six years. Bella, this meeting is more for you than Edward."

Oh. My. God.

"You see, Bella, some things have changed since you've been gone."

A part of me dreaded what he was going to say next.

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OMFG!

This took me sooo long to type because my homosexual computer wouldn't save it. I would also like to warn you, that I just found out today that I'm flunking Biology. Which is totally retarted, because I passed it last year! Anyway, I'm not sure when the grade will be sent home, but when it is I don't think I'll be able to go on the computer for some time. I'll try my best to fudge my way out or intercept the letter, but should I fail this is my appology.

ps- to me this seems like the longest chapter I have written so far.

Praises are adored

Critisizm is valued.

And flames will be used to burn Aro at the stake