Author's Note: Twilight and all its characters belong to Stephenie Meyer. Also please keep in mind that this is my first fanfic and I'm not a native speaker. The song used in the beginning is "Hurt" by Johnny Cash.

Chapter 5: Liar

If I could start again
A million miles away
I would keep myself
I would find a way

Chapter's Summary: Jasper talks to Edward who tells him to leave Forks immediately. Suspiciously enough but when he gets personal Jasper loses it. Running to Bella's, Jasper confronts Alice.

Jasper's POV

Before me stood my "brother" as he himself had called it. His boyish figure appeared out of the shadows, casually approaching me. I had bared my teeth the instance I noticed his presence. Still crouching I looked up at him and snarled. He should know better than to creep up on me. Years with new-born vampires made me cautious and once in a defensive pose I had to scan the whole area before feeling safe again.

"Jasper really there's no need to snarl at me like that," Edward chuckled, "Relax already. I just want to talk to you."

Letting my eyes wander around the room I reassured myself that there was no immediate threat.

"What do you wa...? How did you kn...?" I hadn't used my voice in almost three months and although technically that shouldn't matter for a vampire, my voice was hardly above a whisper. Clearing my throat I tried again.

"Edward. Why are you here?" I fixed my gaze on him, taking in how carefree he leaned against his piano. I couldn't place his expression, but his emotions were all over the place. He was bemused but deep down I felt a lot of anger, betrayal and hurt. That made no sense to me, especially because I felt those emotions directed at me. I hadn't betrayed anyone and although I knew my departure had hurt my family, I didn't think Edward would be affected at all. I knew he was in my head again because as soon as I thought about his emotions I couldn't feel a damn thing from him. That asshole was pretty good at masking his feelings. I wished I was just as good at hiding my thoughts.

"Get out of my head!"I breathed.

Again he chuckled.

"As soon as you stop monitoring my emotions," his tone was dead serious now, "You know it's just as easy for me to stop listening to other people's thoughts as it is for you to stop feeling other people's emotions."

In other words: it wasn't easy at all. Whereas I could tune them down a little I could never fully turn them off. It was like not focusing on a tv-show. You still see snippets and hear scraps of a conversation.

"You still didn't answer my question. What do you want here?"

He let his hands travel over to the piano keys, playing them ever so slightly before he took another step towards me.

"Well, it's just as much my home as yours," he snickered "In fact it's more mine than yours. I lived here before you even joined us. But I guess.." he trailed off with a sigh.

When he didn't continue a low growl built up in my chest. If he didn't tell me why he'd followed me and if he didn't do it fast I might explode.

"Jasper really. There is no reason. Alice saw your decision to come back here and I thought I'd come by." he gave me a pointed look. "You know it's been three months. Esme is devastated."

I contemplated his answer. Did Esme really feel as much despair as he made it seem? How would she feel if I told her that I wanted to leave the family? At least for a few years.

"If Alice saw me coming here.. why isn't she standing in front of me right now? Or Esme for that matter."

Closing the distance between us, Edward stared up at me. His eyes were coal-black and there was a dangerous glint to them. I had seen that expression at least a thousand times. He was about to make his move. A move I thought wouldn't involve a brotherly hug.

"Jasper, you misunderstood. I'm not here to make you come back. Frankly, I encourage your decision to stay away from us."

"Then why are you here?" I felt a shit-ton of anger from him. It was so strong that even Edward couldn't rein that shit in.

"Because I don't want you anywhere near Forks."

His voice was barely above a whisper but his words cut right through me.

"It's not like I want to be here. I'll just grab my stuff and go."

Taking a step towards my bags I shook my head in disbelief as a thought suddenly popped into my head.

"Wait.. why do you want me to go so badly? You're not coming back to live here. It's not for the family. I could stay here as long as I wished... unless... it's because of Bella."

I cocked my head at him, remembering Bella's scent in my study. Her little hideout. The spare clothes she'd left folded neatly on my leather chair.

With a roar as loud as thunder Edward flung himself at me. He might be quick but I was stronger. I hadn't served in Maria's army for naught. My reflexes were fast and I skilled. I knocked him to the ground easily. Holding him by the throat I hurled him into his precious piano which crashed under him. Standing above him I sent him as much terror and weakness as I could muster.

"Don't you pounce at me like that." I snarled, towering over him and letting him feel powerless.

"You are nothing but a child to me," I spat. "You come to me with all your rage and fury, you attack me for simply being here where Bella was. I didn't bring her here! She came on her own. Chose my study. Took my things. You are the one that left her alone and vulnerable. What if those nomads came back, seeking revenge? You left her here Edward! AND NOW YOU ATTACK ME?!", I yelled the last bit at the top of my lungs.

Through the emotions I pushed onto him came a fresh wave of anger and hatred. I pulled my emotions back so he could face me with his own strength again. As soon as I had no hold on him anymore he launched himself at me once more, flinging his arms around my torso, and snapped his teeth at me. I freed my arms and threw him back into the shreds that, just minutes before, had been his piano.

"I told you not to pounce at me like that."

He snarled angrily, venom dripping from his mouth down his chin and onto his shirt. He didn't look so pretty now.

"You have no right to be near her," he began "I wanted to protect her. From you and your bloodl.." I had him pinned against the wall before he could finish that sentence.

"My bloodlust?" I roared, my face only mere millimeters from his face, "Hadn't it been for your bloodlust I wouldn't have attacked at all. For gods sake Edward! She is your singer! I felt your need to drain her just as much as you did."

I let him drop to the floor, looking down at my brother remorsefully. I wanted out of that. I thought I could just run from it. But here I stood again. Her scent still present in the air around me. I once loved that scent, now it suffocated me. My guilt was nearly drowning me again. I never intended to hurt anyone.

"I will leave. Not because you want me to." I breathed out a sigh "I want out.".

Standing up he brushed the dust and wood from his trousers and moved to stand before me once more.

"What about your journal?"

Fuck. I hadn't thought about my journal. I wanted it back. Badly. Not only because it was precious to me but also because of the content. I couldn't let Bella or possibly Edward see what I've written.

"Yeah, Alice thought so as well." he muttered under his breath "You're not going to give up on that stupid diary. I'll give her a call. She'll get it for you."

Just as he flipped open his mobile everything clicked.

"Wait, wait, what?! Alice came with you? She's at Bella's right now?"

Before I finished the sentence Edward had dropped the phone and advanced on me. He must have read my mind again but this time I was prepared for his launch, and before he could even touch me I had him on the ground, wincing in pain.

"You're not going to keep me from going over right now. I don't know what you two have been doing lately but before I left you were having these silent conversations." Edward wheezed, I was nearly crushing his windpipe under my foot. "You planned something and it involves me. I'm not going to stand by and let everything happen around me. You two kept me down and submissive long enough. It's time I break free from those chains you put me in. I'm going over and I'm going to talk to Alice."

Looking down at my little brother I put a little more pressure on his throat.

"And Edward. Don't you think you can outrun me now. I'll be there before you even find the strength to move again."

With that I flashed out of the house and ran straight to Bella's. I knew Edward would recover fast and he'll be at my heels in a few seconds. I just liked to intimidate him some more before I left.

I arrived at the little cozy home, spotting Alice Porsche just around the corner. So she's really here. I slowed down to a human pace and knocked at the door. I could hear Alice swear and tell Bella to go out of the backdoor. Stubborn little Bella didn't comply though and opened the door anyways. Before me stood the human girl that caused all that trouble. Not that I minded. The moment our eyes met a smile pulled at the edges of my mouth. I could hear her heartbeat quicken as she took in my form. In that moment I realized that I had missed her more than I liked to admit. Her sole presence soothed the pain inside my chest. Before I could say a word Alice pushed her back into the house, blocking me from entering.

I could feel Bella's distress when Alice told her to stay away from me.

"He's dangerous right now Bella. Please stay out of this."

Those simply words spiked my fury even more. How could she? I may be dangerous but never would I attack Bella.

Suddenly I felt a rush of air and heard Bella's shriek followed by the sound of another door opening. Edward must have taken Bella out of the backdoor. When I entered the kitchen Alice stood alone there, the backdoor ajar, swinging slightly. Alice looked at a spot just beneath my face, avoiding my eyes as she spoke up.

"Hi Jazz..."

Before me stood my wife. The woman I once loved. My companion and mate. Or so I thought. I could still feel her love towards me. It was faint but still there. I had a feeling it would always be there, but that wasn't enough. Not for me and not for her.

"You know Alice.. I'm not angry anymore. We were great. But now it's time we moved on. I'm sorry I ran away."

She just nodded. Hanging her head she whispered something too low for me to hear.

"Alice. I'm sorry. Really."

I could hear her dry sobs. I didn't want to hurt her like that but I couldn't comfort her right now. I was hurting as well and if I held her now I might change my mind and stay with her.

I was hit with a hot wave of rage all of a sudden. Not only mild anger but full grown fury. Despair, hurt, grief, loathing. It was the beautiful rainbow of feelings only Bella could feel. The intensity of her feelings forced me to my knees. I was seeing white spots and my whole body seemed to ache. I had to get to her.

"Jasper!" Alice was besides me as soon as she realized that I no longer stood.

I fought for control but I couldn't block out Bella's emotions. I had to get her. Edward that bastard.. I couldn't form a coherent thought. I just jumped up and out of the door. Following Bella's scent until I found them. With each step the pain in my chest lessened. But it wouldn't go away until I had her save inside my arms.

Of that I was sure.

Author's Note: Chapter 5! I'm sorry it took me longer to upload this time. I don't know how fast I can upload in the future but I try to have a new chapter ready every week. As always read, fav, follow, review. It's always a pleasure to wake up to new PMs as well. I'd like to thank:

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Next: Bella and Edward have a nice little chat in the woods ;)