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Chapter six

Ichigo's POV

I couldn't help it, I cried. The tears kept falling down my face, hot, wet tears, like waterfall. Kish held out his arms and I buried my face in his chest, taking in his warmth against the harsh cold winds and his soft comforting smell, if you asked me I won't be able to describe it but in that moment it was crystal clear and strong yet hazy and soft and the same time.

"Come on it'll be all right, were still fighting right? We haven't given up, and besides it's not over until we lose hope and give up. Come on what happened to that smile I know and love hey?" he looked down at me and lightly pulled the sides of my mouth into a smile. The tears stilled slightly and I gasped silently for air. He removed a hand from around my waist and reached out to wipe my tears.

Who would've ever thought, (every Kiichigo fan) that Kish would be the only one to really understand me, that I could grow to lov… uh care about, him. I felt my heart crumble a bit when I realised he probably wasn't doing this because he still loved me, I was probably just a charity case to him, somebody to be pitied, comforted, but not respected or loved; he was just another person to leave me. He looked down at me and smiled softly, "it's okay kitten, I'm here, you're not alone, never again."

Much as those were the words I wanted to hear, they just proved my pity theory. I pulled away slightly and turned away and started walking away from him, until my temper got the better of me. "You can stop pretending!"

He looked at me genuinely confused and hurt, "Pretending? I don't under…"

"That you care about me, okay? I get it nobody does. I'm just somebody left to be pitied, comforted, but not cared about, I'm just broken, probably beyond repair."

Understanding dawned across his face as he said, "kitten I'm not pretending, I do still care about you."

"No! No you don't, nobody does, not really. I'm alone, I'll always be alone. Just don't try and change that out of pity!"

A look of anger and exasperation crossed his face as he snapped back, "well it's not like you were ever all kind and sympathetic when you hurt me all those times, its not like you've ever carted about my feelings!"

"But you're not alone! I am! You have your brothers, I'm completely alone, and I'm terrified all the time. I just want to go sit in a corner and never leave, never get up, you don't get it! No one really cares, the others just pity me, their concerned about me, but they're still always putting themselves and the others before me. I'm first for no one, NO ONE!

I'm stuck in this pool of darkness, and there is nobody there too pull me out. no one will put up with darkness just to love me there isn't anyone insane enough to do that. So please don't pretend to love me or care about me because its hurts too much!"

The anger drained away from his face leaving a soft expression I couldn't read. "Why, why does it hurt so badly, why does it hurt you as badly as you hurt me?"

"BECAUSE I LOVE YOU!" silence; did I really just say what I thought I said?

Kish's POV

Silence; did she really say what I thought she said? Wow. "L-Look, I um… I just uh…" I looked at her in astonishment as she tried to give an explanation for what she just said. When she couldn't say anything, let alone look me in the eye, she gulped and I could see tears forming in her eyes as she turned away. "Wait!" she didn't stop walking so I ran forwards and grabbed her waist making her turn to face me.

She glared up at me through her glossy, tear filled eyes. I bent forwards and faster than lightning I captured her lips in mine. I felt a deep powerful heat all the way down to my feet in their converse. I slowly started to hover with my arms still around Ichigo making her rise up with me. I put all my desperation, feelings, hurt, confusion, happiness and love into the kiss letting her into my deepest feelings and emotions. I smiled into the kiss as I felt her slowly start to kiss me back; I felt her tears, her passion, her anger, pain and sadness at the same time as happiness, joy and love.

All those emotions that had been pent up inside her and me came out in the kiss. I deepened it, my tongue entering her mouth, I felt her move her hands from her side to place them around my neck and pull me in closer to her and the kiss. We stayed there for about five minutes kissing as though our lives depended on it.

I broke the kiss softly and moved my head back a little to look into her eyes, "my feelings aren't fake, I love you." She smiled slightly at me, a real smile, not a sardonic, sarcastic one or a smirk, not a mask of pain but a smile. I felt a bubble of happiness rise up from inside me as I grinned back, she had left her dark corner.

"I know I love you too," I grinned at her one last time and kissed her again. And we stood there kissing softly on the windy rooftop. I was happy, for now.

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