Thank you so much for the reviews and I once again apologize for the lateness. And for those of you who read this one and Patp I promise I will update soon, these Ch's for Sacrifice are generally shorter so they are faster to write. I will warn that this Ch and the next will be full of facts about angels in this 'verse, I apologize if it's confusing(feel free to ask me anything on tumblr or dA or wherever my username pretty much everywhere is k8y411). It was hard to figure out how to write, because I understand it, but that is because I made it up, so its hard to tell if others can...oh I am rambling again...just read...ill shut up (oh and was being evil so it took a while for it to finally post. I seriously spent all week trying to get it work. Oh and again ill say its a late night fic so I apologize in advance for grammar/spelling . ok I'll let you read for real now)
Kurt managed to keep his mind off death for the remainder of the long weekend, but the second he no longer has Blaine to distract him, his thoughts come crashing down around him. Lucky for him, Monday night gave him a dreamless sleep, but he couldn't help the lump in his throat and the knot in his stomach as he found his way to go see Cassi.
Kurt stared at his the white phone with the address on it and at the sad looking rundown building that held it's address. "Well...either these guys are really good at undercover, or I have been inception-ed by a serial killer." Kurt took a breath and pushed the door open.
The interior was surprisingly neat and organized. There were several cubicle like stations, a kitchen type area and even a room in the back that had beds. Kurt stopped at the single lonely desk at the front, a blonde teen chewing gum looked up at him. "Can I help you?" She continued scribbling on a pad of paper as she talked.
"Yes," Kurt was surprised how hoarse his voice sounded. He cleared his throat and continued. "I'm looking for Cassi." Her expression changed immediately and she stopped writing. She stood up and pointed in an almost concerned manner.
"End of the hall, her names on the door."
Kurt was a bit confused by her behavior, but nodded, "Thank you."
"Take care." She smiled at him.
Kurt gave her an uneasy smiled and hurried off down the hallway. As he was about to knock the door opened abruptly causing Kurt to let out a small gasp.
"Oh, sorry, Kurt I didn't mean to scare you." She took his hand and led him right in.
"Are you like the boss here or something?" Kurt put down his bag from school, but stayed standing taking in the emptiness and blandness of her office. White walls, beige furniture, a phone and old computer on her desk, and a blank picture frame on the wall behind it.
Cassi laughed, "Not, the boss, but one of the best employees as they keep telling me." She opened her desk drawer to reveal a countless amount of ribbons and certificates. "Anyways, I really am sorry about running out on you like that. Some...stuff has come up with the people upstairs and had to be...taken care of..."
Kurt gave her a curious look, but was cut off. "So, let's get down to business." She rubbed her hands together. "You ready?" she put out a hand for Kurt.
He just looked at her, her office hardly seemed like a fitting training room, for angels in training. "Umm..." She noticed his confusion.
"Come on, Kurt."
He sighed and took her hand, they were facing the blank picture frame. She pulled him with her towards it, Kurt was definitely sure they were going to smack into the wall. "Cassi, wait!"
He shut his eyes and braced for impact, when there was none he opened his eyes. They were in the white space, or perhaps just a white space. Kurt wondered for a moment if all white spaces were the same.
"This will be our training room. It allows me to manipulate how big or small it is and what is in it."
"So like that room in the Matrix?"
Cassi was a bit surprised, not expecting Kurt to have seen it.
"Step brother made me watch it." Kurt waved his hand as if to brush the subject away.
"Right, lets get started. Is there anything that you have done so far on your own?"
Kurt thought for a while. "Well...I saw the 'X'" Cassi nodded. "I had sort of a vision of..." Kurt didn't want to remember the image of Blaine dying. Cassi nodded in understanding so he could continue. "Then when I got there, I had what I can only describe as super speed and then I had wings, then just like that it all went back to normal." Cassi looked shocked "Is that not normal?" all Kurt could do was stare, it's not like he had any idea was normal was.
"Wings..." was all Cassi said to break the silence, now Kurt sensed sadness. He just nodded. "Wait, you already had to rescue your charge?"
"Yeah..."
"It's not supposed to happen that fast..unless..." Cassi stared at Kurt her expression strange. She suddenly looked extremely concentrated and her eyes flashed a lighter more neon green for less than a second, but Kurt noticed. Cassi shook her head, returning to her normal self.
"Unless...?" Kurt was far too curious for his own good.
"Never mind that, we need to get you started for the next time something happens, not to mention you need to learn how to conceal yourself and learn the rules."
"Wouldn't those have been helpful before things got this far?"
Cassi sighed, "In all honesty yes, and that is how this are supposed to go, but nothing about your death, nor afterlife has been normal. No more questions just listen."
Kurt crossed his arms but nodded.
"Okay. For the most part you are granted the powers necessary for your task at hand, and then they disappear."
"Like the super speed?"
"Yes, but you also have the default powers so to speak. Usually depending on your charge and status you have different powers, but from what you have told me, you seem to have quite a few...all angels can see the X's and a sort of sixth sense. Other more specific powers are visions, empathy, intelligence, light manipulation, the list goes on, depends on what Karma grants you. Anyways, all angels eventually get their wings. And angel wings as well as angel blood have magical properties."
"Eventually?' Kurt couldn't help from interrupting.
"Yeah..." Cassi looked a but sad, but continued.
"You seem to have quite a few powers thrust on you, rather quickly. These things are supposed to take time." Cassi paused and Kurt felt the urge to ask another question.
"What powers to do you have?"
Cassi sighed. "Knew that was coming. Well I have highly skilled empathy, and on occasion I'll get a helpful vision...but it took me years of training to get to my skill level, so we need to test yours. If you have too much power too quickly things will get out of hand. Especially since our powers are tied to our emotions."
"Right...so what's first?"
"Well let's start with something we both have. Empathy."
"How do you know if I have empathy?"
"Part of my skill of being an empath, I can sense other empaths. Now while the power seems ok and tolerable at the beginning, it can be quite paralyzing when it gets stronger. You'll have to learn to focus and be able to block it out when needed."
"Ok...how do I do that?"
"Focus. Right now you can feel my basic emotions, yes?"
Kurt instinctively closes his eyes, realizing that is why he could understand her feelings so well before. "Yes."
"Ok. Now calm your mind and picture the white space. Blank and empty, no one near you, nothing but silence."
Kurt concentrates, but Cassi knows he is less than successful. She makes a pillow appear behind him. "Sit, like you are meditating. It helps trust me."
Kurt sits, cross legged, back straight, his eyes closed. "Still not working."
"Imagine the empty room."
"I am."
"Now make it change into someplace or something that makes you the most calm."
The room suddenly changes to the shimmering colors that make up Blaine's eyes.
"It's...It's quiet...I don't feel anything."
"Good, fast learner as I thought. Would you like to try the other way? Tuning into deeper emotions?"
Kurt nods, keeping the room the same honey hazel color.
"Open your mind back to the feelings, and concentrate. Feel out the different emotions that combine to make the one."
The colors of the room shift slowly sorting themselves into neat piles as Kurt slowing starts to levitate, with the pillow. The white space is suddenly filling with red. Kurt let's out a pained gasp and opens his eyes falling back to the ground, "Ow" he realized he was floating.
Cassi backs up and falls to her knees a little shaken. "Kurt. Wow...you should not have been able to see that. You are way more powerful than you should be at this stage."
Kurt is unsure if he should be frightened or flattered. "Wh-what happened to you?" In the last moments of his session Kurt could feel great pain and sadness. Cassi stood up shaking her head.
"This not a first lesson conversation. How emotional would you say you are?"
"Umm..what?" Kurt felt like she was just trying to change the subject.
"Your powers are linked to your emotions. If you get too angry or sad or excited, parts of your powers could surface and expose you."
Kurt knew he could hide his emotions well, he had done it for years, but he could also recall times when he had snapped in different directions. Sometimes sad, sometimes angry, sometimes happy, but he didn't want to answer.
"Expose me?"
"You can't have the world finding out that you are an angel Kurt."
"Well it's not like I was gonna broadcast it to the world."
"Remember when I said angel wings and blood have magical properties?"
Kurt nodded.
"Well there are some mortals and some...fallen souls, or demons. That would want to steal it and use it for their own demented purposes."
"Whoa, whoa I don't remember this is the job description."
"It hasn't been a big problem for centuries...well up until around the time you died...There are few humans who know of us, and the few that due are swore to help and protect us as well as destroy those against us. Not the mortals of course. Any kind of murder still taints your soul."
"Why do I have a feeling there is more to this than you are telling me?"
"Because your empath powers are strengthening far too quickly. I need to give you some tests, if you pass I will tell you everything I know."
Kurt crossed his arms, his inner diva trying to break free. "Look, I need to know whatever will keep be...alive, and Blaine safe from the rest of these attacks."
"Please let me do the tests Kurt, there is a chance that you could be a very special type of angel."
Kurt cocked his eyebrow at her backing away instinctively.
"The tests are harmless, you just have to listen to me, okay?" Cassi whispered to herself, "please be false..." She cleared her throat. "Ok, think about Blaine."
"What?"
"Just do it. Think about everything you love about him, spending time with him, how it feels when he's in your arms or when you are in his."
Kurt closed his eyes, the room turned to a cozy pink color and moved to a passionate red. He thought about the love they shared, the comfort he found just be seeing Blaine or feeling his warmth near him. There was a glowing behind Kurt, bright and white suddenly there were a pair of flawless white feathery wings sprouting from his back.
"I'm sorry to do this, but I must. Think about when you dove in front of the car, what was going through your mind."
The red turned darker, angry, a panicked color flickering from red to yellow. Kurt remembers the worry the anxiety the feeling of never seeing Blaine again, the loss of that warmth. His wings glow again this time the lilac shimmer as they envelope him in a ball like shape, protecting him. The faint shimmer is like a forcefield coating on the feathers.
Cassi takes a shaky breath. "Now think about the boys that hurt him...the boys that...that killed you."
Kurt remembers the rage from that night, his eyes tear from the memory his fist clenched so tight his knuckles are white. The red got even darker, until it was an unsettling black. His wings stiffen and darken to a shiny grey, each feather looked like a sharpened knife.
"Go back to the peaceful place, the one from before where you pictured yourself most calm." After a few shaky breaths the room went back to the honey hazel and Kurt opened his eyes. His wings still there at their calm state.
"Did I pass?" He let out his last shaky breath.
Cassi looked sad as she made a mirror appear before him. "Yes..."