Chapter 6: Old memories and Gins odd behavior
A/N: I watched episode 301 today and caught a scen with my print-screen button. It's a beautiful picture of gin show off his beautiful blue eyes. Then I really fell inlove with that guy. I'm so sorry that he don't exist :( But I can at least dream :) So I had wrong about his eye color so now on I will write it that he has blue eyes. Very beautiful blue eyes... *drool*
I sat quiet in my chamber as all thoughts ran through my head. Gin wasn't there to support me, but I wished that he was. Kai had given me the Dragon Empress old diary, or rather my old diary so I could retrieve my old memories. I held the beautiful scroll and my hand shook as I opened it. I watch the lines of word that ran through the paper. The ink was over 5000 years old, and yet it stayed clean and net. I started to read.My former life circulated around tea, flowers, swordsmanship and my son. As I reed the scroll, more memories jumped up in my head. My kingdom hadn't been large at all but it had have the strongest of armies in the Asian territory. I remembered birthdays, my old family. Our mother and father had died young so my older brother had to take of me and my younger sister. Then he died in a war, and after that I was crowned the Dragon Empress. I was a fierce fighter in the battle field and I was surely the one to take many life. I had the command over a two headed golden dragon and my armies won many battles. I remembered my romance with Chinese crown prince, and I gave birth to my son, Kasumiseirei. My life in all was ordinary for an Empress. I got my son before I was crowned an empress. Many thought that I would marry the Chinese crown prince but he left me later. I then met Bi'Ai Ling, he became my bodyguard and later my lover.
I sat in my chamber and took care of my sword. Suddenly Bi'Ai Ling came in with my son on his shoulder.
"Mom! Mom! Look what B'ai made for me!" I looked at the bamboo sword he held in his tiny hand. I smiled and when Bi'Ai let him down he ran straight for me. I took him in my arms. He was such a beautiful boy. I couldn't believe that the gods had blessed me with such a joy.
"I see my young warrior. I will learn you later how to use it, but now all little warriors need a nap before the fight. Run to the maid and say that for me" My son looked at me and smiled happily.
"yes mom! I will!" and he ran of. I giggled as saw it. Then I felt a sudden kiss on my lips. I looked my beloved Bi'Ai in the eyes and smiled gently. He was so beautiful. And so strong. He draged the hairpins out of my hair so my crimson strands fell down to my knees.
"I hope I wasn't in the way today at the field?"
"Of course not, your Highness. As always he works hard and helped us bring in the wheat. He will become a great leader one day. "
"Don't call me that in private... Please my love..."
"As you wish, Pan'An Long..." Our words then drifted of to the eternity.
I felt Kais present in the rooms.
"You said to me that everyone else called me your Higness, but you called me by my name..." He came forward out of the shadows as a true ninja. "Why is that?" he sighed as I asked him that.
"I... I was her, your, bodyguard at the time. And you asked me to call you by your name."
"You were my lover at the time?"
"Yes"
"You must be quite disappointed now when you see. From what I can remembered I was quite the beauty." He then came to me and took my hand and looked me in the eyes.
"I'm not disappointed. I'm glad that you have returned. My love for you have won over death." He told me. I now knew why I had those feelings for Shuhei. "Please let me escort you to the dinner tonight."
"Kai..."
"I know your feelings are not the same anymore. But just let me have this one night..." I just nod.
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"You tried to murder my son!" I yelled at my younger sister. She didn't look at all like my only living relative. The guards held her tight so she couldn't move.
"You don't deserve the power, neither your son! If he died, I would become the ruler after you!"
"If your interests are so shallow, I will teach you the lesson of humiliation and kindness! Send her on the road to China! Just with a pair of shoes and the clothes she is wearing. Let her work for her meals!" She looked frightened when I spoke out my words."Take her away from my sight!"
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Kai led me through the palace and traditional chinese music was played. I wore an old garment, something that would resembled my old ones from my past life. But I felt uneasy in it. The color matched my hair and brought forth the green color of my eyes. A servant had laid a beautiful makeup on me so I really looked like an old chinese princess. We entered the hall and all the people in there stopped talking and bowed for me. I felt embarrassed. I looked at Kai and he smiled at me, and now I really could see that they were filled love. In my heart I felt an aching feeling. Deep down, th old me, still loved him.
We sat down at a table and then I saw Gin. Sitting next to another beauty. I felt suddenly irritated and looked away. But soon I gazed upon him again and I met his eyes, but just brief. Because he then returned his attention to lady next him. I felt kind of rejected.
The dinner went on and there was lots of food and music and alcohol. The night was late and I felt Kasumiseireis presence in my mind. He was comforting me. I felt a bit nostalgic to the fact that the one who was my son in his last life, now was my zanpaktou.
"Isn't that your captain over there, your Highness?" I looked at Meili Jia, captain of the Tiger squad, and then I looked over to Gin. His lips was locked at the lady next to him and she held him tight to her.
/That bastard!/ I thought. I clenched my fists but then realized what I was thinking. He was my captain and no more. He was just my companion in this journey and not my partner.
"I need some air" I told Kai and rose from my seat. He just looked at me as I walked away. Little did I know that Gin looked after me as well.
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"Run for your life! Take your son and go!" Bi'Ai yelled at as he fought of the soldiers, breaking through the palace gate. "Defend the Dragon Empress! For her Highness!" he yelled. I ran through the corridors and in to my son's chamber. He looked scarred and ran into my arms. I had my armor on me and my sword in my hand. In my other arm I held my baby boy. The whole palace was on fire and I ran for the hidden tunnel. We could make it in time. Just maybe...
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The evening was warm and calm, but still my body was shivering. So many memories came rushing to my mind and gave terrible headache. I gave my temples a massage. The moon was up gave the garden a beautiful glow. Couldn't resist and walked down the stair to a nearby pond. Some frogs played their songs to attract their mate. The trees branches reached down and barley touched the surface of the pond. It was so magical. I looked down in the pond and saw my own reflection, with all this makeup, my scar vanished. I was beautiful. I touched my own face. Those scars were the results of burning ruble that fell on me when I saved my little boy in the tunnel at an ambush.
I took of my heavy garment and pulled out my zanpaktou.
"Lead my dance..." I whispered and I let the music coming from the palace lead my movements. I felt like the wind blowing through the branches of a tree. I felt like the water, bending my body around the stones in my way. I felt like the fire, with a passionate speed I burned everything I touched, and I felt like the earth, steady and secure in my movements. I was one with the nature, and my blade danced in my hand. Under my dance I had my eyes shut.
And suddenly I felt a resistance against my blade and I opened my eyes. Looked in to Gins lightblue eyes. He wasn't smiling. I sheeted my sword and started to walk further into the garden.
"Please Tsukiko, stay..."
"So now it suits you to talk to me?" I said to him. "And where is your lady? It seemed like she couldn't wait to get you to bed."
"Tsukiko..."
"Enough! I have had enough already! First you treat me like a little girl, then you treat me like your friend, and then you treat me like garbage! And now you think I will forgive you? You freaking douchbag!" I yelled at him. Suddenly I was pinned downed to the ground. Gin held my wrist tight. His head was tucked in at my neck.
"I couldn't bear it... To see his eyes on ya. How he caressed ya with his eyes... How he touched ya in a familiar way... Like he knew some part of ya that I didn't... It really pissed me of ya know... Girl if ya only knew what ya doing to me..." I felt my heart crush in my chest. The tears built in my eyes as I told him to let me go.
"Let me go! Let me go" he kissed my neck and sent shivers through my body.
"Let me go, Gin!" My tears started to fall. I kissed them away as he talked to me.
"Ya have become strong Tsukiko. Ya'r giving orders like a true commander." He came to my lips and his pools of blue looked deep into my green ones.
"Let me go..." I whispered as I cried, but I didn't know why. The he kissed me like never before and I felt that he declared me as his own.
"I will never let ya go. Will forever be mine and mine alone..."
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I saw my own sister breaking my sons neck. I attacked her and our swords met. The energy that was released was tremendous. Her white garment was stained with blood and one part of her face were covered with a bone like mask. She laughed at me frenetically.
"Is that all you can do big sister?" she yelled. I attacked with a new strength and let all of my power gather in my sword. She would die for killing my hand, for betraying her family and land.
"I will kill you and you know that" She laughed when she heard those words. A bright light was released from her body and felt it like a pressure to my body.
"You can always try your Highness! But I've become stronger! I have conquer death itself and a mere human like will never defeat me!" She attacked and I blocked her sword with mine and I tried a low kick but I missed as she moved away. She was much faster then me. She must have sold her soul to the devil for that strength.
I fell forward and felt the pain in my side. It was wide open and my blood poured out. I needed to end this now. I gathered my last strength and surrounded myself with it.
"What are you doing? Stop that!" She screamed. I just looked at her as I let the words ran over my lips as water.
"From the deepest of hell I command the you to enter the face of the earth! Enter in to the human world and take my opponents life! Kill my enemy! Shuãng tóu lóng cóng dìyù!" (Two-headed dragon from hell!)
After that my mind went blank and I woke up with a tremendous pain in my body. My sister was gone and my sons body lied just a few meters from me. I rose from the place and took him in to my armes. I walked to a tree and sat down there. I started to sing his favorite lullaby. My face was bleeding and the wound in my side too. I knew my end was coming. And as the sun rose at the horizon my life slipped away. And the last thing I saw was a shinigami with his black suit and lihgtblue eyes. I just smiled as I died there on that spot. For me, the sun would never again shine upon my son and my kingdom. I had fallen, but the revenge would someday be mine again...
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Gin closed the door behind him. His lips were looked to mine. This time no one would disturb us. He took of his shirt and my hands caressed every centimeter of his bare chest. As I did that he help me of with my clothes. I stood naked before him and his hands were all over me. For me it was like Ecstasy and moaned as he touched my burning skin. He took me to the bed and laid me down there.
"Don't let me go..." I whispered to him.
"Never... ya are mine and only mine. I need ya... I desire ya..." we then lost our self in the desire we both felt. We were clinging to each other, as if there was no tomorrow. We drove each other to insanity, to edge where we were joined together in a rhythmical dance. He was me, I was him, we were one...
I woke early in the morning with Gins arm wrapped around me. The moon was still up and gave my room a silver light, making Gin magical. I sat up and looked at him. He was still asleep. I stroke him over his chin and then I got out of the bed. I dressed my self in my shinigami uniform and walked back to the bed. I bent over and kissed him.
"Thank you for making me strong. I think I can do this alone now... And... you healed my heart... I'm your until the end of times..." I walked to the door and looked back at the sleeping man that my heart was beating for.
"Farewell... Gin..."
A/N: This chapter was hard to write. I think I will rewrite later on. But now to the funny stuff... THEY DID IT D: How dare she sleep with him XD
Just kidding. I pretty pleased with this chapter. I hope you will guys were satisfied with this chapter ^^
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