So i have been super sick also i celebrated my 21st birthday over the weekend so i have not updated do to drunkeness and a flu from hell.

but now i am back and hear is the new kinda short chapter

Trouble is never hard to find in purgatory but these guys are like trouble freakin magnets, and when they haven't had trouble in a while they hunt more down. I mean I have had my fair share of trouble but golly they just can't catch a friggin break. The best part I am useless in a fight

This was discovered the other day when the Leviathans decided to pay us a visit and I was up shits creek with out a paddle. I was pinned to a tree literally holding it back by its neck so that its giant chompers wouldn't reach me. Dean finally finished of his foe he noticed my situation and quickly beheaded my adversary.

"Well we are going to need to fix this problem " Dean laughed as I fell to the ground I decided to stay down I really hated almost dyeing.

"Are you ok" Cas leaned over me

"fine I think" I was shaking hey I could hold my own running and hiding but these guy wouldn't run or hide.

"You know you have a knife use it" Dean stated

" Won't kill'em though, I have seen it nothing but a bone in the neck"

"how do you know that"

"I had to… well I did it" I kept looking at my still barefeet. Why I felt ashamed beat me maybe it was because I new I was worthless in this world or maybe it was because I very very deeply down wish I had never stabbed that thing and instead died, but then so would the children and that was why I was hear.

"You have killed a leviathan? I thought we took them all out with Dick?" he asked you then Cas.

"well most I think were destroyed but clearly not all Dean Leah is proof of that" Cas was so calm but I knew I should have never even spoken up.

"How did you even get the bone washed in the three bloods?" he now looked at me. He had the untrusting look in his eyes again it meant danger for me.

"A woman stabbed him with it but it didn't work so I grabbed it and tried again after he… well ate her." I looked up and tried to keep eye contact with the men " It was self defiance I thought I could maybe distract it, but instead we both blew up."

"Well you are going to need to be able to watch your own ass we don't have time to be constantly saving it" Dean seemed satisfied with my answer and was back to himself. Not exactly your best friend but not about to kill you either.

I was then shown multiple ways to kill and decapitate with my small knife. Nothing fancy just useful. The tough part was then I was forced to practice. Dean was the only one with any real experience training apparently and I was forced to try to take down the much larger man with a stick that was supposed to represent my knife.

It was not fun I eventually got the basics but I really am not a fan of getting tossed around like ragdoll, and Dean took no prisoners. He would demonstrate then go straight into attack mode and I had to fend him off. When I was finished though I was deemed "not bad for a civilian." I was no Dean, Cas or Benny but I was not bad. This made me feel well stronger I was not as useless.