Author Note: I know I'm making this totally different from the original but I had this idea of Jamie meeting Esme before he is turned. He will be turned still but not by Carlisle or Esme. This story I seem to like a lot and I wanted to switch it up from my original. I hope y'all like it. Do what you do best.

Esme makes it the hospital and with Carlisle guiding her to the room. He explained what condition Jamie was in and Esme wanted to cry for Jamie and kill Charles for attempting to kill him. She thought Jamie was safe now because she was believed to be dead which should have made Charles stopped looking. When Esme gets to Jamie's room she wasn't prepare to see the condition he was in. She was crying venom tears when she grabs Jamie's hand. She hasn't seen him with wires and a machine since he was born. She is blaming herself for this. Jamie would be safe if she didn't take her own life. Esme seeing her son again was bringing back the memories of a smiling Jamie with no worries in the world. She was hearing him say in her head that everything will be okay and that he loves her.

Esme sits down on the chair next to Jamie's hospital bed and holds his hand, squeezes it while she was crying.

"I don't know if you can hear me baby boy but its mama. I'm so sorry for leaving you, for what Charles did to you. I shouldn't have left you. I should have stayed and protected you. I'm your mother it's my job. You needed me and I wasn't there. There are no words to describe how much guilt I feel for leaving you. All I can hope is that you forgive me Jamie. I love you my baby boy."

Esme lays her head in her arms while Carlisle comes over and rubs her back to comfort her. Jamie heard his mother's voice while he was in his own world. He thinks it's a dream but when he opens his eyes and looks to his side, he sees the one person he believed to be dead, his mother.

Carlisle sees his eyes open and he was breathing on his own again. Carlisle knew they were no getting around this and Jamie will have to know the truth. He is Esme's son. He deserves to know his mother is alive, well as alive as she can be. He takes out the breathing tube and helps Jamie sit up and coughs a little bit. Jamie is in shock right now. Mother and son look into each other eyes for the first time since Jamie was eleven.

Jamie takes his hand away from Esme, not believing this was true.

"H-How are you here? Y-You're dead."

Esme didn't know how to explain this to him. She didn't even know if he can handle this right now. Carlisle locks the door so they can talk and no one comes into the room to disturbed them. Esme tries to grab Jamie's hand again to comfort him but Jamie backs away from her.

"Answer me."

"Jamie, I know this is hard for you right now but it's really me."

"How is it you? You died."

"Jamie I need you to listen to what I say and have an open mind, okay?"

Jamie nods her head at her, unsure of what she is going to say. Jamie clams down a little bit so she can explain. Esme and Carlisle look at each other and Carlisle nods his head, knowing what she was asking. Jamie will have to know.

"Do you believe in vampires Jamie?"

Esme asks him not sure if he does or not. This wasn't something they talked about when he was younger. He is older now so he might know about them or doesn't pay attention to that stuff at all. Jamie bites his lip and nods his head at her. He hears older kids in his school talk about them. Jamie didn't know why she was asking that of him.

"Jamie I did die when you were eleven but I was changed, turned into a vampire by Carlisle Cullen, your doctor."

Before Esme can say anything else Jamie interrupts his mother. He really couldn't believe his mom was turned into a vampire but made him believe she was dead for 5 years, her own son. Jamie was upset at his mother right now. She left him for a different life and didn't even bother to tell him she was still out there.

"I was made to believe you were dead for five years, five years and you were out there the whole time! You left me for a different life. You lied to me."

"Jamie I wanted to come back to see you. I wanted so bad to see you again but I couldn't. If I did I could have killed you and I wasn't going to risk your life. I know your upset with me Jamie, you have every right to be but you have to know I didn't stop thinking of you. I regretted what I did and wished I stayed in your life. You needed me and I only thought of myself and I' am sorry."

Jamie sees tears coming down his mother's face even though she was trying to hide it. Jamie didn't know what to think of all of this. He was happy that he was able to see his mother again and just talk to her. He hides all of his pain and all of it was about to show. He missed his mother more than anything in this world. It got so bad he wanted to die himself and was actually hoping he was killed. He wanted Esme back in his life and now he gets the chance. Jamie understood that she was trying to protect him but deep inside he also felt abounded by her especially since he needed her when Oscar died. He didn't talk for three months after his mother died and felt alone since he had no other family expect Juliana. Everything he does is to keep the pain hidden and to channel it the only way he knows that can help.

Jamie bites his lip with tears falling down his face and can't even look up at his mother.

"Did you re marry?"

That is the question on Jamie's mind. She started a new life which means she might have re married.

"Yes I did Jamie. I married Carlisle."

Jamie looks up at Carlisle and doesn't feel anything off about him. Jamie didn't know what to say. It made him feel like Esme didn't care about him or loved him anymore since she started a new life without him. Jamie didn't want to be in the same room as them right now. He moves his feet off of the bed and tries to get up but was in too much pain. Esme grabs him from falling and sits him back down but Jamie pushes her away from him.

"Don't help me. I don't need your help anymore. I've been helping myself since you left me. Why try to be there for me now when you have a new life. Go back to your new life. I don't mean anything to you."

Esme was hurt by him saying these words but she understood he was upset with her. What he just said wasn't true. She wished she can make him understand that but Jamie was stubborn. Esme decides it was time for her to leave. Even though it hurt her, she needed to give him time. Carlisle follows his wife into the hallway so they can talk. Esme was hurt inside but she deserves it for leaving him, for breaking a promise to him.

"He is angry love, he will come around."

"I never saw him this angry before. He hates me Carlisle, he has every right."

"He is your son, he doesn't hate you. Five years of anger is showing."

"He held it all in and now it's showing towards me. I will give him time but I want him back in my life. I don't know if he feels that way but I can't just let him after finding him again."

"I know love, I know. If we have to we will have him come live with us if that is what you both will want."

"I would love that but I'm not going to decide on anything until I talk to Jamie. He might not want that."

Carlisle hugs his wife in comfort and she goes back home where Edward was. She was going to explain everything to him just in case Jamie decides to live with them. Esme wanted that more than anything right now.

The Next Day:

Juliana and Michael were not allowed to see Jamie. Carlisle was telling them that he is not awake yet and once he does he will let them see him. They wanted to fight him on it but he was the doctor so he knew what he was doing. Towards the end of the day and Carlisle's shift he checks on Jamie. He doesn't look towards Carlisle, he looks out the window. He processes all the information about his mom and Carlisle being her new husband. He also was thinking about everything his mom said to him. To Jamie she had a light in her eyes like she did when Jamie was younger. She seems happy to see him. He felt guilty about what he said to her. Jamie came to his senses and knew his mother wasn't in the right mind when she did what she did and regrets leaving him. He should take this chance to talk to her, to re connect with her as her son.

Jamie looks over at Carlisle and clears his throat to get his attention. Due to the wound in his stomach he can't really move around since it hurt him still.

"I-I want to talk to my mom. I want to apologize."

"She will be here soon to see you. You two can talk then."

"Do you love my mom?"

Jamie asks Carlisle out of the blue. If he is married to his mom then that makes Carlisle his step-father. He wanted to trust him. He wanted to be happy for his mom. He doesn't want a repeat of Charles.

Carlisle sits on the space on his bed and looks into his green eyes that made him look more like Esme.

"I love your mother very much. I care for her a lot and would never hurt her, physically or emotionally. She means a lot to me Jamie. I know your concern because of what happened with Charles but I'm nothing like him. I wish you both didn't have to go through that because no body, especially a child, should have to endure that."

Jamie didn't expect that answer from him or for him to say what he did. Jamie did have trust issues but with Carlisle he was already trusting him and believing every word he just said. Jamie can tell he was telling the truth just by looking in his eyes he can tell every word was true.

"I didn't mean what I said to her. She was just protecting me but I was too stupid to realize that."

"Jamie, don't call yourself stupid because you are not stupid. You were angry and of course it doesn't excuse saying what you said but she understands you said that out of being angry."

Jamie lays his head on his pillow and bites his lip, looking up at the ceiling. He wanted this chance and he finally gets it. If they talk and everything gets better Jamie would want to live with his mother. He couldn't believe he was saying that to himself but Jamie has missed his mother more then he thought.

When Jamie looks over at the door he sees his mother walking into the room. Jamie sits up a little bit expecting to talk to her. He will try to control himself and listen to what she has to say. This is his chance and he will take it.

"Can we talk, Jamie?"

"Yes we can."

Esme sits next to him, not really sure how to start this out. Jamie takes a deep breath and looks straight at his mother, trying to control his emotions.

"I-I'm sorry for saying what I said to you. I shouldn't have said it since it's not true."

Esme was seeing the son she has raised. She expected him to yell at her some more but he isn't doing any of that and he doesn't look angry anymore. Jamie wanted his mom to know how he felt all those years with her gone. She needed to know he wasn't the same because he lost her.

"What I'm trying to say mom is that I understand you couldn't see me. I understand you were protecting me but I was eleven. When I was told you were dead I didn't believe it. I thought Michael and Juliana were playing a joke on me but it hit me when I went to your room and saw the note that it wasn't a joke. You were gone. I stopped talking for three months and changed because I was made to believe you were gone for good and now I find out you were kind of alive but turned into a vampire, it made my mind more confused but I do understand."

Esme has tears running down her eyes because of how much pain he went through when he was told she was dead. She knew Jamie wouldn't believe it but to know he stopped talking because of her death made her know it didn't make anything better for her son but everything was worst for him. Esme grabs her son's hand and surprisingly he doesn't move it away. Jamie takes his other hand and wipes his eyes, refusing to cry anymore, he was tired of crying. She has Jamie look at her in her now golden eyes. His green eyes were showing Esme a side of him she hasn't seen. His pain and hurt were showing in his eyes and Esme feels more guilt now.

"I' am sorry for the hurt I caused you Jamie. As your mother I shouldn't have left you and thought everything would be okay, that you would get over my death but I knew it would be hard for you. I feel guilt and regret for leaving you. I don't want you to believe I do not love you because I do love you. I was not in the right mind when I did what I did. It was not your fault. It was my choice and I'm sorry I did it and caused you nothing but pain."

By the end of what she says Esme was squeezing her son's hand and has tears coming down her face. Jamie can see she wasn't lying to him and believed her. Jamie squeezes her hand back and does something that Esme didn't expect. He leans in and hugs her. Esme was surprise he is hugging her, she takes her arms and puts them around him, holding him for the first time in five years. Jamie starts crying since he wished for this again and it is happening.

"I love you mama."

Esme was so happy to hear him say that. It brings a smile to her face. Esme lets go of him and looks at him and wipes Jamie's tears away. He is still the same boy in Esme's eyes but more grown and handsome. His hair was longer then when he was eleven, close to his shoulders and it showed his curly hair more now. His green eyes is what makes Esme remember of being a human. He looks like his mother more now than when he was an eleven year old boy. Jamie was 15 but didn't look it which did worry Esme but doesn't worry much about it. Jamie was the young boy Esme imagined.

"I love you too baby boy. I missed you so much Jam."

"I know mama, I missed you too. I'm happy I can see you again."

They hug each other again and Esme places a kiss on her son's forehead and lays him back in the hospital bed. Carlisle comes back in after they finish talking and can see they are better now. Carlisle was happy for his wife and his now step son. Carlisle can have one look at Jamie and can tell he is a lot like his mother; his skin color was the only thing that made Carlisle knows he wasn't fully white like his mother. He was glad Esme has this chance to see him again because she needed this and so did Jamie. She was happier and so was her son.

"Mom, can I ask you something?"

"Yes, anything baby, what is it?"

"Can I come l-live with you?"

Jamie mumbles to her but she heard him. She smiles at him, pushing some of his hair out of his eyes and nods her head at him.

"Yes Jam you can."

Esme and Carlisle did talk about this last night and talked with Edward and he said he wouldn't mind him living with them. Carlisle knew they will have to fake his death because Juliana and Michael can't know about Esme being a vampire. The only thing they need to know is if Jamie will agree to this. Esme knew how much he loved Juliana and Michael and she was nervous he wouldn't agree and won't be able to live with them.

"Sweetie there is something you have to agree to if you want to live with us. You do not need to agree and if you decide not to I will understand."

Jamie looks at Carlisle and his mother and can tell what he would or would not agree on won't be good at all. Jamie nods his head for her to tell him.

"Sweetie, as a vampire human cannot know of us. There are rules for our kind and one them is humans cannot know of our extisance and I broke that telling you but I don't regret telling you Jam because you're my son and it will be no more lies between us. Juliana and Michael can't know of us or that I'm living as a vampire. If you come to live with us we need to tell them you died."

Jamie looks up at his mother and she wasn't joking with him. He didn't know that he needed to agree to something like this. He wanted to be with his mother again but he didn't want Juliana and Michael to believe he was dead. His loving and caring nature won't let him do that but he wanted this. He wanted his mom again. Jamie bits his lip in being nervous and grabs his mom's hand, squeezing it, hoping he is making the right choice.

"I want to live with you mom, with Carlisle and if you guys have to make them believe I'm dead then do it. I want you in my life again and I won't get that if Juliana and Michael don't believe I'm gone."

"Okay Jamie I will tell them when they come back. I will released you tonight and take care of you at home."

Carlisle tells him and Jamie nods his head at him while he walks out of the door. Esme puts her arm around him and moves him closer to her and kisses the top of his head. Jamie and Esme were going to be mother and son again finally.