CHAPTER 4 REVIEWS
Nickygirl: nah, Matt is Sora's permanent tutor.and they are going to have tons of fun…well Matt might and we might but I don't know about Sora…
Scorpion05: I must admit I try to make my chapters as "cute" as possible. Where the ideas come from I have no clue…wait a minute probably the caffeine. Matt might go to Sora's room…shrug…je ne sais pas. hehe
Calilover: ahhhhh, a hard core riley fan. I'm honored. Lol. I'm really glad that you like my two fics. Say…have you read my two other ones? "Slow motion" and "Three Weeks" check them out if you have time, they're different tones…both on hold. Three weeks is a one shot but I'm going to make a sequel so…yeah…enjoy.
Inconnu: dude! Have I mentioned that I'm waiting for your new fic? I'm considering going to your place and like…tying you to a chair and threatening you with gummy bears to update. If you need some ideas though, feel free to email me or something and I'll help out if I can.
Moppy: I've said it before and I'll say it again. You're so cute!
Jyourakoumi: lol. Sorry…don't worry Stupid ends Koumi…you just have to be patient. haha
Starfish: oh mang, I'm really sorry. I didn't mean to offend you, actually I'm asian too, Korean to be exact but yeah. I didn't mean to offend you. I was just talking about his select group of people that I know…but love who hate their asianness and dye their hair blond and whatever to get rid of it. Sort of sad but I swear I didn't mean to offend you. I'm really sorry.
RavenluvsBB: lol. Why don't you take a wild guess. But then again if you take a wild guess then I'd have to tell you whether you're right or wrong…so nevermind.i hope you enjoy this chappie
Kat: lol, I hope you don't die before I finish the story…heck I hope you don't die pd.
Theladyknight: ahhhhh alter-ego…I hope so. Skipping a whole year of college…but then again college is you know where we could act like complete idiots and get away with it…just blame the frat party you went to the other night, lol. What schools are you applying to? I'm applying to…Emory, Georgetown, NYU, St. Johns LIU, Villanova, Dickinsons, Bucknell, Brandeis…and crap I forgot. My parents wanted me to apply to a few Ivy's but…blah. Didn't feel like it, too much competition.
Mellyrox: lol, I'm glad I've got you hooked…not it wouldn't be too hard to convince you to sell me your soul…(no clue where that came from…sorry)
Ky: haha, hey…you wouldn't happen to be a new riley fan…would you? If you are…WELCOME. If you aren't…WELCOME anyway….haha
Emily-is-strange: I try and I'm so glad you like it
RK Buddy: haha, yeah actually when I first saw the word standoffish I had to look at it twice just to make sure that it was actually a word.
Outxofxemotions: all will be told in time. (insert evil laugh here)
A/N: thank you so much for your patients and your reviews, I sincerely hope you like this chapter . you have no idea how happy your reviews make me.
Chapter 5 reviews are down there…after the story.
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Don't Go
"I'm surprised that you suggested that we go back, did something happen between you and Matt last night?" Mimi asked me as she checked out her nails.
I was once again driving. It felt strange, because I haven't touched the wheel since I hit Matt.
"Sora, you don't have to clench the wheel like that. You holding it any tighter is not going to help you if you hit another unfortunate soul."
"Mimi, you're really not helping."
"Oh Sora darling you know I love you, so spill. What happened between you and Matt yesterday?"
I shrugged, "Nothing really, Meems, check that side for a spot?"
"What do you mean nothing really? There has to be something! I mean you wouldn't be all 'MIMI LETS GO TO THE KNITTING FACTORY' if it was nothing…oh right there," the girl beside me pointed at a parking spot half a block away.
"I'm telling you, NOTHING happened. He just took me home because somebody was too busy with a certain Joe."
She threw up her hands. "Girl did you see Joe last night?"
I pulled into the parking spot. "No,"
"If you saw him…wow…"
"Okay there Mimi, let's go in. I don't want to miss Matt's set."
"Oh yeah, Sora, what happened to Matt's pet name? Yamo, Yami…Yama? Joe said something about it."
"That was a one time thing, come on Mimi. Let's go!"
"Someone's excited to get to a certain some-"
"MIMI!"
"Alright alright, I'm coming."
CHAPTERRRRRRRRRRRRRRR SIXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX HAHAHAHAHAThe lead guitarist of the band walked up to the band and offered the crowd a large smile.
"Hey, I'm sorry but…Matt won't be joining us today, instead his female counterpart will be. We can only hope that she sings as well as he does. Matt apologizes for letting everyone down." A shy smile graced the guy's face, as he ran his hand through his black spiky hair. "Anyway, introducing…Kathleeee-na!"
A girl with startling blue eyes and raven black hair stepped on stage. She wore a pair of tight jeans and a top with a black leather long coat over it. She grabbed the bass guitar off of its stand and slung the strap over her shoulder. She was beautiful, her height was enhanced by the platforms that she wore, and her long legs accentuated by the jeans that clung to her. Her long coat gave her an aura of mystery, magnifying her sex appeal. Not that I was attracted, it was just that she was beautiful…I couldn't tear my eyes away. The stage lights danced across her pale skin, blue mixed with green and yellow. Black lights were turned on as the lights on the crowd dimmed, Kathleena looked supernatural under the dancing lights.
Even though Kathleena, I'm sure sings just as well as Matt, I couldn't help but feel a bit disappointed. I was really looking forward to seeing Matt go drag. There's no way that Kathleena is Matt, She's just too…what's the word? It just wasn't possible, she's, I'll be the first to admit, beautiful. There's no way that Matt could end up looking like her no matter how hard he tried…
"If I needed someone to control me…"
Or could he?
My jaw dropped when Kathleena began to sing.
There was no way that Matt could disguise his voice and Kathleena was singing in a pitch too low for any woman to sing.
You're beautiful Matt, I thought as I watched him.
"If I needed someone to push me around…"
I watched Matt as his body moved to the music, as his lips parted in this ridiculously seductive way as he sang. His voice, no matter how hard he tried, could not be disguised.
I watched in awe as him and his band transposed into the next song, and the one after.
I was hypnotized by him, the way he moved, the way he looked…everything. Despite the black hair that reached down to his waist and the fake boobs and tank-top he was wearing, I couldn't take my eyes off of him.
"I'm sorry but…I can't do this anymore!" Matt said after the last note faded into oblivion. "All you ladies out there I feel you…I'll be right back."
Matt put his bass down and disappeared backstage. The rhythm guitarist stepped up to the mic.
"Helll-oooo ladies, how are you doing tonight?" He asked flashing a flirtatious smile. "My name is Jeff, and I am single. I enjoy long walks on the beach curling up by the fire place and well…making out…uh…I could be really sweet if I want to be and my phone number is-"
"Sorry about that," Matt came back wearing a pair of baggy denim jeans that hugged his slim hips and a black wife beater that clung to every muscle on his upper body. He ran a hand through his nappy hair and grinned. "My-uh…alter-ego Kathleena…felt that performing live wasn't her thing. She sends her apologies."
Jeff grinned at Matt and went back to his spot after winking at the crowd.
I laughed, they were quite a bunch
"We have a special treat for you tonight, this is a new song…called Dare Me." Matt said into the mic, I shivered in response to hearing his delicious baritone voice.
"Take off your shirt and cross the street,
I
swear that I won't watch
you seem like a good little girl
but
I know you're quite the catch
So let's make a little
deal,
just between you and me
let's play a little game
I'll dare you and you dare me
So we'll play innocent
We'll play real
bad
I'll dare you and you dare me
wanna see me
go drag?
My jaw dropped. He was talking about last night…
Matt's eyes scanned the crowd and when his gaze met mine he held it with a smile. His eyes never left mine as he leaned into the mic and began singing again.
Close your eyes, I dare you to kiss me
I swear
that I won't mind
As long as you make it really good
I want to lose all sense of time
So let's play a little game
with our own
set of rules
I'll dare you and you dare me
Kiss me, I know you want to
So we'll
play innocent
we'll play real bad
I'll dare you and you dare me
You don't stand a
chance
He repeated the chorus twice more before the music faded out and he began singing a cappella. He was still holding my gaze…
"We had a deal
we
do whatever is dared,
come on up and kiss me
I won't
mind, I swear
(I WROTE THIS SONG! NO STEALING...please?)
"I'll be waiting back stage," He said with a smirk. "Thank you, that's it for tonight."
He winked at me before he unplugged his guitar and left the stage.
"SORA! We have to find out who that girl is! That bitch is stealing your boyfriend!" Mimi screeched when I made it back to the bar.
Joe only smiled at me knowingly. "Why don't you guys go back stage and find out who she is?"
I looked at the boy in horror. "NO THANK YOU! Mimi, I'm feeling a bit sick I think I'll just you know leave…"
Mimi grabbed my wrist and pulled me along after her. "No way, we're going to find out who this slut is…the nerve of her-stealing your boyfriend!"
"He's not my boyfriend!"
"Yeah okay, I saw the way you guys were checking each other out!"
"We were not," I said attempting to get my arm back. "That was the lighting, it makes you see things. Come on Mimi, I don't have time for this…just let me go!"
"NO! I told you that I was going to find you a boyfriend and I intend on doing so. There is no way I'm going to let some hoe waltz in and take him from you!"
I slapped my forehead with the palm of my hand. "Mimi you don't understand, I really don't want to see him right now."
"I knew it! You guys did have something didn't you! That's why you don't want to see him because he just dumped you and told some other girl to kiss him!"
"MIIIIIIIIIIIMIIIIIIII!" I shrieked as she pulled me along back stage and into a dressing room.
"MATT! You have a lot of explaining to do buster!" Mimi said yanking my arm, the momentum caused me to run into Matt.
He wrapped an arm around my waist and steadied me. "Explaining?"
Mimi only raised her hands, silencing him. "I'm not going to get involved, you guys settle your little lovers quarrel."
"Lovers quarrel?" Matt's arm was still around my waist.
"Ah-ah…I said I'm not going to-actually screw it! What kind of jerk are you? You and Sora obviously have something going on and then you dare some girl to come up and kiss you!"
The proximity of our bodies was too much for me, I felt my knees going weak and knew that I had to get away from him. I slipped out of his grasp and stood a few feet away from him. He glanced at me and smirked.
"Look at that! She's pissed at you! You owe her a big-no HUGE apology. I'm talking roses-she likes sheer pink, boxes of chocolates, don't forget the teddy bear and you getting down on your knees and begging for forgiveness!"
Matt looked between Mimi and me with this adorably confused expression on his face.
"What am I apologizing-"
"Nuh-uh, I'm not saying anymore. This is between you two." With that Mimi turned on her four-inch heels and walked away, presumably back to Joe.
"That was…interesting." Matt said as he sat on the couch. "So…about my final dare…"
"That was not fair!"
"You're the one who said that we have to do everything the other person dares."
"I didn't think you'd dare me to kiss you!"
Matt laughed and grabbed a bottle of water from the coffee table. "You shouldn't assume things like that Sora."
"Then what am I supposed to assume-that you'll play dirty?"
"I am a guy after all…"
I let my eyes wander over his body.
A great looking guy with an amazing body…"Hey, is this how you feel when guys are checking you out like meat?" Matt asked with an innocent grin.
"Huh?"
"You're checking me out as though I were a library book…"
"Yes I am, you should be flattered that I even bother." I muttered under my breath as I eyed his biceps and triceps.
He snapped in front of my face. "Hey, Guess, my eyes are up here…not...near my chest."
I looked at him dumbfound.
He just chuckled. "I should charge you every time you check me out."
"If you did that, you'd be making good money."
"I would…now back to the matter at hand. Someone owes me a kiss," he hooked a finger onto my belt loop and pulled me to him. "I believe that someone is you."
I covered my lips with my hands and shook my head wide-eyed. "No way, I am not kissing you!"
He pulled me onto his lap so that I was straddling him. I braced myself by holding my arms out against his chest so that we didn't have a Sora-Matt pancake.
"Okay, well I want my kiss…and since you won't kiss me-I guess I'll have to do the honors."
I felt my heart beating faster as I peered into his deep blue eyes. He cupped my face and pulled me to him until our lips were just caressing each other. I didn't have the will power to resist.
Breathe Sora, Breathe"Have you ever been kissed?"
"No," I replied without thinking.
He pulled back shock etched into his features. "You've never been kissed?"
"Didn't we go through this already?"
"You're in college…"
"Great, so are you!"
"You've never been kissed…"
"Yes! I know I've never been kissed, I just told you that!" I snapped, gathering my wits and climbed down from his lap. I shoved his hands off of my waist and put as much distance between us as possible.
"Why not? You're definitely attractive…"
"I've never had a boyfriend, and I'm not ashamed of it," I said with a shrug. "I don't think I need one."
Matt rubbed his face with his hand, "Man, I'm really sorry-If I had known-"
"It's cool, you didn't know…although I'm guessing Joe told you something because you asked me."
"I didn't think it was true."
I shrugged. "Never assume anything, I think a little yellow birdie told me that once."
"Smart bird." Matt looked tired. His eyes lacked the luster of an alert person and he kept rubbing his eyes. The impishness I saw only moments before was extinguished, replaced with severe fatigue and pain.
I nodded. "Yeah, but he has a big head…kind of reminds me of you!"
He smiled at me. "Hey…pass me those pills over there?"
I turned around to see what he was pointing at only I couldn't spot it.
"Huh?"
"Over-never mind. I'll get them."
He got up and immediately braced himself against the arm of the couch. The other hand held his head as his eyebrows furrowed in vertigo and pain. A moment later he was slumped on the floor.
"Matt?" I rushed over to him and shook him. "Matt?"
OMG! Sora what is it with you and causing Matt near death experiences? I panicked as I got up and rushed out to find Joe.
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Joe was making his way back stage to ask Matt if he could cover an extra shift that night. One of the bartenders had called in sick last minute and their manager was desperate. He had just walked into the hall that led to the cluster of dressing rooms when a frantic Sora ran into him.
"JOE! Omg…Matt-he…Matt…passed-out." Sora stuttered frantically.
Joe reacted immediately and rushed to Matt's dressing room door, just as he was about to open it, a thought occurred to him. "He's going to be fully dressed when I step in there right? I mean you had the decency to cover him up after you guys-"
Joe was silenced by a kick to the shin. "Okay-okay I'm sorry. Don't kill me you need me to take care of Matt."
Sora glared at the taller man but didn't say anything as he opened the door to the dressing room to find Matt in a slump by the couch.
"Jebas, I'm going to kill you Matt," the blue haired man uttered under his breath as he rushed over to his side and hoisted him over his shoulder.
"He's going to be okay right?" Sora asked with concern clouding her eyes.
Joe looked at her with an arched eyebrow. "Yeah…he is. What exactly went on here? Do I want to know?"
He winked at the red head while the girl silently fumed.
"We were about to have hot sex before he passed out! What the hell do you think happened Joe?" She demanded as she crossed her arms over her shoulders.
"That's just great darling, help me get Mr. I-need-Viagra here to the car?"
Sora continued to glare at the blue haired man but did as he asked.
"So…he really is going to be alright…right?" Sora's voice took on a more passive tone, laced with concern.
Joe nodded. "Yeah, it was bound to happen. Over-working-penny-scraping-suicidal-blond bimbo…he'll be fine. I wish the guy would take a break…"
"JOE! Where are you going? We need you! Did you get to talk to Matt?" A short brunette called. Her brown hair was up in a messy bun and she wore the club's uniform. The tight black shirt and tight denim jeans.
"Ah…crad. Sherry…about that, Matt is in no condition to work. He sort of passed out again. I'll tell you what, let me just drop Matt off at home and I'll come back and work that extra shift."
"But don't you have work tomorrow morning at the-"
"Matt needs his rest more than I do. Besides I'll be fine with about five cups of coffee." Joe said with a wave of his hand. "Now, Sherry…we gotta get Matt home. I'll be back."
"I would so fire the kid just so he'd get some rest, but the club really needs him," Sherry said in a tone full of concern. "Tell him he doesn't have to come in tomorrow, I'll get someone else to cover his shift."
Joe smiled appreciatively at Sherry. "Thanks, I'll be back."
With that Joe shifted Matt higher onto his shoulder before exiting through the back door.
"So…he passes out regularly?" Sora asked in a timid voice as she shifted Matt into a comfortable position in the back seat.
"Yeah, hey can you stay with him? I would but…I have to come back." Joe said uneasily.
Sora nodded. "Sure,"
"He overworks himself. His dad died a couple of years ago, and its been hard on him. Him and his dad always had this weird love-hate relationship, I guess he's feeling the pain of all the bad things he's said to him. He throws himself into work and studies because he can't handle the pain…know what I mean?"
Sora shook her head. "No…not really."
"The stress and exhaustion that comes with working and studying doesn't give him time to think about his bad relationship with his late father. I wish he'd get his act together and just face it."
"Doesn't he have any siblings?"
"I don't know, if he does he never talks about them."
"Oh," Sora turned to look at Matt, and brushed a strand of blond hair out of his face.
I wish I knew what was going on in that thick skull of yours, Sora thought as her fingertips caressed his face.
Joe caught this interaction in the rearview mirror and smiled.
It's about time he got a girlfriend
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(Sora)
I helped Joe get Matt into their apartment and took off the blonds shoes so Joe could tuck him in.
Just like a child"Thanks again for staying with him. If you ever need a baby-sitter let me know and I'll so be there." Joe said his tone saturated with gratefulness.
"Hey, don't worry about it. Sherry looked like she was about to die, you'd better get going." I said with a small smile as he walked backwards to the door.
He flashed me a smile and was gone.
Sora sighed and wandered into Matt's room. The moonlight shone on Matt's head, creating a crown of light and casting a halo like figure around the blonds head.
Nobody's perfect…although you came damn close, I thought as I stood by his bedside and watched him. I felt like a stalker, but I couldn't help it.
He was beautiful…
So beautiful
It wasn't fair to the world that he could be so beautiful…as both a girl and a boy. I leaned over and traced his lips with my fingertips. They were a bit chapped and I had the urge to go out and buy chapstick and apply it for him.
Hm…that's not a bad idea. It doesn't look as though blondie will be up anytime soon.
I started to pull back when a hand reached out and grabbed mine. Matt's eyes snapped open and peered at me.
"Hey," I said. "I was just about to-"
"Don't go," he said softly, his eyes were pleading with me and recognized the look.
bl0org
"Daddy, don't go. Don't go! I'll be good I promise!"A man with flaming red hair knelt down to level his daughter.
"Sora, I love you. I love you, Sora did you know that?" "Is that why you're leaving?" The man only nodded. "Yes baby, that's why I'm leaving, you and your-""NO!" the little girl screamed. "Don't leave me, if you loving me is leaving…then don't love me! HATE ME DADDY…just don't leave me."
"Sora…"
"Daddy don't go…don't go daddy. I'll be good I swear. I'll eat all of my vegetables…I'll clean my room. Don't go daddy." A six-year-old Sora grabbed at her father's leg as he turned to walk out the door.
"Sora, let go!"
"NO! DADDY DON'T LEAVE ME! I'LL BE GOOD, SORA WILL BE GOOD I SWEAR! DON'T GO!"
The man unraveled his daughter's limbs and continued to walk out into the cloudless night. It pained him to leave, but it was for the best.
bl0org
I snapped back to the present. Thanking the night for shrouding my tears in its darkness.
"Sora, don't go…" Matt said again.
I quickly wiped my tears away and shook my head. "I won't go."
Matt parted his blankets and invited me in. I accepted the invitation and settled in next to him. He wrapped his strong arms around me and pulled me tightly against him. He buried his face into my hair and let out a contented sigh.
"Thanks," he breathed before going back to sleep.
I snuggled into his warmth and breathed in his scent. For once, my hormones weren't racing, instead a different feeling came over me.
I felt like I belonged.
CHAPTERRRRRRRRRRRRRRR SIXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX HAHAHAHAHAA/N: chapter 5's reviews will be replied here…
A/N#2: omg, your reviews make me so happy, I'm so glad you guys are enjoying my story. You guys are a pleasure to write for and hopefully I'll improve and provide you with better writing. THANKS SOOOOOO MUCH
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don't worry I plan on continuing this story til I hit a block I
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