Renesmee's POV

October

It had been two weeks since I last saw Austin. Ever since the kiss I've been avoiding him because I didn't feel the same way about him. Right now I should be in school but I snuck myself out to go see Jake. He wasn't home and I was really tired because I was up all night studying for a test I didn't even take today. So, I fell asleep in his room till I felt someone shaking me awake.

"You kissed Austin?" Was the first thing that came out of his mouth.

"Jake? What are you talking about? No, I didn't kiss Austin." Feeling a slap on my face at least it wasn't hard as his other hits.

"Don't lie to me." He held me in his hands, gripping me tight. "Tell me the truth."

"It is the truth!" I cried out to him.

"You only talk in your sleep when your hiding something now just tell me or your going to regret lying to me."

"Fine, just please don't hit me." I begged.

"The truth." He didn't make any promises this wasn't going to be pretty.

"Remember when I was with Austin the day after my birthday, well after he brought me home he kissed me. He kissed ME I did not kiss him back. My father saw us. I'm sorry Jake." I stuttered.

His grip was beginning to hurt me. I let him held me tighter and knew that I deserved this. "I don't want you talking to him anymore, you hear me! No friends Nessie I'm serious."

"What? No, you can't tell me that I can't have friends please don't make me do this. I have done everything for you, I even skipped school for you! That is not something I do, Jake and you know that."

"I really don't care what you want right now, Nessie. All I want is for you to be mine and only mine you got that. No more Daddy's Little Girl either!" He picked me up off the bed forcing me to look in his face with his rough hands. "I never want to hear Austin's name ever again." He let go of my face roughly. I couldn't help but cry.

"Jake please. Don't do this. I love you."

"I love you too, Ness but I can't have you talking to people it only makes this worst. Don't you understand that. If it weren't for your stupid best friend we wouldn't be in this mess!"

"Can I at least have one friend?"

He narrowed his eyes at me, "Who?"

"Lizzie, she's like a sister I never had. I don't want to loose her."

"What would you rather have, me or her?" He questioned once again grabbing me too tightly.

"You." I lied.

"Good answer." Then he kissed me. "You need to go, school is almost over."

"Jake?"

"Yes?"

"Do you really love me?" I needed to ask because our relationship was now based on hitting on one another, sure I fought back sometimes but learned not to because I was only making it worst.

"Of course with all my heart." He told me. His strong gaze right into my eyes didn't make me feel any stronger about his words, I would think direct eye contact would make me feel more sure of him, but it was becoming harder to believe him.

"Well I have to go, talk to you later."

I ran back to school, crying. I wanted the beatings to stop. Sometimes he leaves a mark and had to hide it with make-up or cover up my whole body to hide the bruises he left me. Then, there was no one to talk to about this. I would tell my friends but they wouldn't understand that Jake does this because he loves me.

As soon as I reached the school I saw my parent's car parked in the parking lot. I didn't understand why they were here so early. Looking at the time on my phone it said 2:30, there was plenty of time for school left, and why did Jake lie to me. Maybe he thought I wanted to walk to school, yeah that probably was it. Going straight to the nurse I saw my friend Lizzie.

"Hey Lizzie, umm…can I talk to you for a second?"

"Sure. What's up?" She walked out the nurse's office and towards class.

"Do you know why my parents are here? Have they been looking for me by any chance?"

"Nope. Maybe its just a conference with them because there hasn't been any calls on the intercom all day today. Since you skipped school." Of course she knows I skipped we had the same classes instead for first and second period which I was here for.

"So, I didn't get caught?"

"I told the teachers you were at the nurse my mom talked to them for you."

"Your mom is a lifesaver. Remind me to thank her."

"No problem, now lets get to class before the teachers suspect something."

She opens the door, "Sorry Mam for coming in late, my mother wanted me to make sure Nessie came back safely. She still feels a little sick."

"Don't worry, please take your seats."

The bell rang for last period another class I didn't have with Lizzie. This class was really boring, I hated Biology. Raising my hand, "May I go to the restroom?"

"Yes, you may." My teacher said.

Getting the restroom pass before walking out, spotting my parents walking out the front office. Oh that is just great. When I turned to where the restrooms where someone rudely bumped into me.

"Hey! Watch where you are going!" It had to be my enemy.

"Oh sorry, rich girl. It's not my fault you bumped into me."

"You are just jealous I have money and your flat broke. And where did you get those clothes, the trash?"

"You bitch." She knew I was calling her a slut.

"Girls, enough." The security guard said getting between us.

"I was just going to the restroom until this slut insulted me." Actually I was the one that did the insulting.

"Miss Cullen, please stop with the vulgarity or you'll be sent to the principle."

"But she called me a bitch!" I yelled at her getting more upset by the minute, not only that I saw my parents looking over here.

"Just walk away I know your parents raised you better than this." The security guard told me and she was right.

"Fine." I walked into the restroom not wanting to come out afraid they still be out there. I had no choice each student had limited time in the restroom, the longest was 10 minutes but usually it was 5 depending on the security guard themselves. When I walked out they weren't there. Whew. I felt relaxed. I texted my parents that I was going to get a ride with Lizzie after school, they agreed.

After coming home my parents called me to the living room.

"Hey Renesmee, how was school?" Dad asked.

"It was good, just really boring."

"You do know we saw the incident at the restroom, right?"

"Yes, I know that behavior was unacceptable. Don't worry it won't happen again."

"Your right it won't, care to explain this?" My father handed me my report card. Three classes were borderline while others had C average.

"I don't understand. I thought I was passing all my classes."

"Renesmee one thing you should know, you're a bad liar. This report card was issued last week, we were called to the office, did you not know we have to sign your report card to show proof we saw it."

"No, daddy. I didn't know."

"Don't daddy me, Renesmee. I am very disappointed in you and top it all off, skipping! We know you skipped class today, so don't try lying to us. Where were you?"

"Everyone does it, and I am not telling you."

"You know what, just go to your room. I never thought I had to do this, but you are grounded. No friends, no Jake, none of it. Your mother or myself will drive you to and from school. You will only be allowed school and homework. That's it!"

"Dad, please that's really drastic. What am I going to say to Jake?" Tears starting to well up in my eyes.

"Renesmee you will just have to tell him you are grounded. You two need some time apart anyway. When he was over here two weeks ago he seemed controlling when you got home and I really don't like it. You need to figure out your grades Renesmee, this behavior and these grades are unacceptable." Dad's eyes level with mine.

"How long? How long are you grounding me."

"Until we see improvement." Mom's gaze disappointed, as she looks away.

This made me so upset one little mistake and my parents are really upset with me. Instead of trying to defend myself I decided to listen what I was told and went up to my room. They didn't ask for my cell phone which was a good thing. Seeing my Dad driving out the driveway and to work, I knew he was going to work really late. So, quickly I dialed Jake's number waiting impatiently for him to answer his phone.

"Sorry can't come to the phone right now, please leave a message and I'll come back to you."

Damn it, Jacob. Answer your damn phone. I tried again, again, and again till he finally answered.

"What Renesmee, I am really busy right now?"

"Jake, I need to tell you something really quick."

"What is it?" Frustrated with me.

"My parents found out about my skipping and my grades are really low…"

"Let me guess, they grounded you?"

"Yes, and went to extreme. They took everything away from me-"

"Well not your phone."

"Not yet, they didn't ask for it, anyway this means we can't see each other unless you don't mind seeing me at school or sneaking into my room. I wouldn't mind, just giving you the heads up. Okay."

"I'll see you around midnight, leave your window open okay."

"Try not to get caught by my father, I don't know when he is coming home. And can you do me a favor?"

"What?"

"Tutor me. I have no clue what I am supposed to do on my homework."

"I'll try, Renesmee."

"Thanks, see you later."

"Bye."

"Where are you going later on, Renesmee?" My mother asked in the doorway. Catching me by surprise.

"Nowhere."

"Really, it didn't sound that way. Hand me the phone." I gave it to her immediately.

"You don't believe me do you, Mom?"

"No, honestly sweetheart I don't. You lied to us, kept many things from us. And I know there is more your keeping from us."

"I am not keeping anything from you. I only did what every high school student do, skip class and procrastinate on their work. That is it." Suddenly I was feeling guilty but couldn't understand why.

"Not everyone does it, and you aren't going to skip class anymore. Understood? Or there will be consequences."

"I don't care, mother. Don't tell me you haven't done it. Oh right, you couldn't because you were the 'chief's daughter' and could do nothing wrong and dated dad the goody-goody." I covered my mouth quickly realizing that I just talked back to my Mother.

She didn't do anything but nod looking very firm, walking away and closing my door. Why didn't she yell at me for talking like that to her? I was alone in my room feeling regret. Did I just do that? Was my relationship with Jacob causing me so much anger? There was only one person I wanted to talk to, but he was very far away.

I exited my room, hearing my mother's voice. She was obviously talking to my father because she mentioned my name and what I did. Along with 'I don't know why she's behaving like this, she never talked to me like that. What do you think is wrong with her, Edward?'

I heard my father's voice saying, 'She's probably PMSing, sweetheart.'

"You're right. I didn't think about that. But that can not explain all if her behavior." Feeling myself getting really hot from the blushing, it was embarrassing that my father knows about girls having their period. It really freaked me out.

Well at least they blame my PMSing for my behavior today.

Jake didn't come by my house last night and I spent all night wondering why he didn't come over. My homework was undone and it was due today. Before school started I saw him outside signally me to come to him. I went through the school doors and outside to where he waited.

"Where the hell were you last night, Jake?" I couldn't hold it in much longer.

"Get in the car." He ordered.

"What? No. I have school."

"Get. In. The. Damn. Car. Renesmee."

"I told you, no. You can't order me like that, Jake. I'm not your property."

"Don't make me drag you inside the car with everyone watching us."

"Why are you being like this?"

"I'll tell you once you are inside the car."

"Fine." I roughly opened the door, and slammed it shut.

"Oh and just so you know. You are skipping school today." I heard him as he presses on the gas hard and out the school parking lot.

"Jake take me back. I can't."

"Just shut up. I thought I told you I didn't want you talking to any of the guys in school."

"I wasn't."

"Oh really, it didn't look like that from where I was standing."

Who was I talking to? I tried to remember but couldn't. "Is this why your mad?" I asked.

"No. I am not mad. You should know better to get me upset." As he said that he gave me a hard back hand slap across my face. It hurt so much it felt like he cut me.

"What was that for?" I yelled at him. "I didn't do anything you bastard!" He spun the car to a stop and grabbed me by the neck.

He was literally choking me, "What did you call me?" He was lucky his car was tinted dark no one can see what was going on inside his car. I considered myself unlucky.

I was barely able to grab his hand that was choking me and bit him hard. I heard him curse out loud as he let go of me. That was when I tried to escape getting out the car but I failed when I felt him pulling my hair. I screamed. "Why are you doing this?" I cried out to him. Begging for an answer.

"I'm sick and tired of you that's why."

"Then, why are we still together?" I questioned him.

"Because…" He started the car again, "I love you."

"No, you don't because you wouldn't be doing this to me."

"I marked you as mine when we made love. Now, you have to do everything I say. You should've learned that by now but you have to go around disobeying me."

"I didn't disobey you I am not a damn dog, and did you do this to all your girlfriends before me."

"Yes, but at least they listened and they didn't have to suffer one bit. You on the other hand seem to like the punishments which I don't mind because your always getting in trouble with me. Since you already know I like it rough."

"Fuck. You." I told him, biting my lip as tears start to prick at the edges of my eyes.

I didn't care that I was pushing his buttons anymore. Sometimes the pain he caused me made me feel better. That was something I really needed.

"You are really asking for it, Renesmee."

"That was the plan, Jacob." I told him confidently.

I noticed right away we already arrived to his house in the middle of nowhere. He got out of his car, opening my door, and then grapping me forcing me inside the house. As soon as we entered the house he threw me to the floor, when I fell I hit myself on the desk in the front hall. Hurting my arm, I tried to get up before he could start beating me. When I was about to look at him, his foot connected with my stomach causing me to loose my breath in one hit. Trying so hard to catch my breath I couldn't because it really hurt to fill my lungs with air. He would usually wait for me till I was able to react but this time he pulled me by the hair once again dragging me to his room, as I tried gripping my hands around his arm that had ahold of my hair, but not quite enough to make the pain in my scalp go away. When he stopped with consistent kicks to my sides and back, I got up weakly to my feet and looked him straight in the eye, showing him that I wasn't afraid of him.

"Wow Renesmee. I am impressed you took that like a pro." A half smirk, and fire like look in his eyes.

"Well, I think I am pretty used to this kind of crap by now." Everything in my body was hurting so much, since was far the worst pain I've been went through with Jake.

"Are you in pain?" Looking me over I tried as hard as possible to not wince at the pain in my abdomen.

"No." I lied. I knew if I said yes, he'd continue anyway so there was no point in giving him the admission he wanted…

A knowing look crossed his face, "Good, because I'm not done."

He took off his belt he had on, then grabbing both my hands into one of his and starting hitting me on my backside. I moved away from him this was something new and I didn't like it.

"Move again, and I'll straddle you."

"It hurts."

"That's what it's for. Now turn around."

"No."

He forced me to the ground, pinned my arms above my head while I lay on my stomach when he was holding me tightly.

"Because you moved I have to start over again."

"Now count."

"Hell no."

SMACK.

"Count."

Hit. "One." Smack. "Two." I continued counting for him reaching to fifty. My butt and lower back felt numb now when he finished he rubbed my back and kissed me. "Good girl."

I couldn't stop crying. He picked me up carrying me to his bed laying me on top of him. My crying didn't stop and I knew I stained his shirt with my tears. Jake then brought my head up to look at him, "Stop crying. Your punishment is finish." I just nodded at him trying so hard to stop. Till I didn't realize I fell asleep in his arms. Maybe since the pain was too much for me.

I looked around, he wasn't in the room. When I look out his window to see his car, it wasn't there. Then, I saw his note: Renesmee I went to get some dinner so wait in my room till I get home, that's an order. I'll take you home after you eat or drop you off wherever you want to go. Love Jake.

When I got up, I was defiantly really sore. It hurt too much to sit down or even lean on my back. I roamed around his room, looking through his photo album while I stayed standing up. Seeing pictures of himself as a teenager and others with a girl I never seen before it looked like they were a couple in the pictures. Jake never talked about his ex-girlfriends, but he told me he only had one before and didn't live here so I didn't worry about competition when it came to his ex. Although he told me he had sex with a lot of girls and it was only for one night. Of course I still loved him because he told me the truth. I finally found a name and recognized it somewhere but didn't know where. Emily Young she looked so beautiful I wished I was her, she looked so happy with Jake. I put it away trying to remember where I heard that name before. I looked to his deck he had his computer on, so I decided I search her name. That was when I remembered, this girl committed suicide due to an abusive relationship she was in. She told her parents that she was depressed in her suicide note, and that they didn't know who the boyfriend was because she kept it secret from them. I looked at the date, it was the same time they were dating, and I put the two things together... Jake was the boyfriend. I felt scared, what if I got to the point where I wanted to kill myself, I couldn't let that happen. I won't. I erased the history off his computer and any evidence on showing that I was on it. Jake came home around five and brought me some pizza, after that he dropped me off a mile away from my house since I wanted to walk to clear my head.

Before I got off his car and I checked to make sure their weren't any bruises showing on my face, the bruises were mainly on my arms and stomach probably mostly likely on my butt as well as my lower back. I walked slowly to the house since I was still sore from all the hitting but by the time I reached the door I was able to hide the pain I was in.

When I closed the front door it had shut too loud and then I heard my father yelling, "Renesmee Carlie Cullen, living room. Now!"

I winced. Here it comes I told myself.

"What do you want, Dad?" I said rudely. Entering the living room.

"Where the hell were you all day, you were supposed to be in school. I thought I told you no more skipping."

"And I told you everyone does it, now get off my ass."

"What did you say?"

"You heard me, Dad. I don't need to repeat myself."

"What has gotten into you, Renesmee? You never use to talk back to us."

"Guess I can say I changed, now will you excuse me. I have homework to do."

"How? If you didn't even go to school today?"

"I still have last night's homework I didn't do, happy now. Little Miss Renesmee didn't do her homework! Gah." I walked away heading to my room. I threw my bag on the bed, and finally realized I need to tell someone about what Jake does to me. It wasn't good for me keeping this secret too long. I grabbed a jacket taking off the sweater I had on and walked back out of the room. Going straight to the front door.

"Where do you think your going?" I spun around to see my father behind me.

"I need to do something. Its important."

"Nothing is more important than doing your homework and focusing on school right now. Now go to your room."

I ignored him going for the door, he grabbed my arm. It was a reflex reaction I was so used to Jake forcing me to do things. I slapped my father's hand away from me. "Don't touch me." Flinching away from his touch.

When I barely opened the door, he slammed it shut with the palm of his hand. "Ugh! Fine I'll go to my room." I walked around him and up to my room, slamming my door and locking it. When I looked over to my window I figured I might as well make my escape now out of the house by using the window. When I finally made it out, I ran as fast as I could with the pain I was in, it still hadn't stopped and my stomach hurt the worst. I had to stop and throw up the few bites of pizza Jake had brought home with him. Continuing on I stopped at the gas station and found a pay phone. Putting the correct change dialing a familiar number and waiting for an answer.

"Hello?"

"Austin." I asked.