Edward's body was a violent streak across the horizon as he flew over the ground with exceptional, inhuman speed. He wished his lungs and legs would burn so he could feel physical pain that would distract him from his thoughts, but as always his thoughts were merciless. He could never stop some part of his mind from thinking of… her. He didn't know who he was anymore or what he wanted, but she was a habit he kept going back to. This pain had consumed him and it was all he knew how to live for. In someway it gave him purpose, something to overcome. It validated him, gave his love and passion validity and shaped him into who he now was.

He let his instinct guide him westward to Alaska. Running through Canada so as not to pass too close to Washington, although his heart pulled him that way. He did not pause to survey his surroundings. He was sure several humans witnessed a streak of white, but could they see it looked human? It really didn't matter anymore. An accidental or forced death would be the easiest way out. Death is easy. Living is much harder.

He was in West Canada when he was startled by a familiar scent. He stopped abruptly and tuned into the thoughts around him for the first time in awhile. The clearest, bell like voice was far off on the flat landscape, coming from a small, pixie like vampire. Alice.

The brief moment of relief he experienced was only a spark of light in a dark night but something nonetheless. She ran toward him and he was suddenly locked in a tight embrace that he was warmed by. It was enough to pull him above water for a moment. Her thoughts were scattered, she was overjoyed to see him but painfully flashing to the future and distractions, hiding something from him.

He was not trying to intrude into her thoughts, but her evasions were screaming at him and he couldn't help but seek out the truth. Of course, a lot of time had passed since he'd seen her, she could be hiding any number of things. He really didn't know what to listen for or where to start so he settled for trying to listen only to the voices outside of his head.

"Edward," Alice started cautiously, "Are you ok? I had a vision, you were upset and heading for Alaska? What happened?"

Those words nearly brought a thought to the front of her mind, but it was blurred so he once again tried to focus.

"I heard."

Alice just waited, her golden eyes hard with concentration.

" About the vision. Bella."

Alice exhaled quickly. Did Edward know she was ok? Was he headed to check on her? How did he find out?

Edward answered her unspoken questions, "Rosalie had called about your vision. I called Bella's house and heard her in the background. I know she's ok so I won't go near her."

Talking about Bella finally let one of Alice's confessions slip to the front of her mind. Should I have gone to visit Bella?

"YOU WENT TO CHECK ON HER?" Edward roared. The only emotion besides depression he'd felt in months surfaced and the anger was tangible and heavy. A pressure all around him, but Alice's face was unworried. He's just angry at the situation, not at me. I've done nothing wrong and I told him this would never work but maybe…..

Edward listened to her thoughts and realized he did not need to abuse her. To be honest with himself, he realized it was not so much anger, but jealousy he felt toward Alice for being able to see her, smell her touch her… He probed into Alice's mind for glimpses of her, but he was struck by Alice's segmented thoughts of Bella being happy with,.. Edward's eavesdropping was interrupted by Alice's complicated calculations, in Arabic.

"What are you hiding from me?" Edward's curiosity was overpowering, he was starving for news of Bella.

"It's nothing you need to know." She chimed. "Will you come back with me? To Alaska?" The question was rhetorical as she looked to the future for the answer. After a brief moment, Carlisle and Esme will be so happy. We all want you to come back, we don't want out family separated. I told you….

Tired of her mental chastising, and hoping to pry information from her mind eventually, he resigned, "Ok, let's go."

Alice took in Edward's haggard and starved appearance, "Maybe we should hunt first," she suggested.

Edward's eyes turned to her and the pain their seemed to say maintaining a quality of life was the least of his priorities. There was absolutely no drive to do anything, but he meekly nodded in agreement.