[NOTE: THIS IS SET IN THE 2003 UNIVERSE AND IS AN OC INSERT! I DO NOT OWN TMNT IN ANY SHAPE OR FORM…though I wish I did. Lucian is mine though…AND DO NOT GAIN ANY PROFIT FROM THIS WORK OF FICTION]

A/N: Admittedly, this is almost like a filler between episode 24 and 25 but, this I what turned out while I was typing so…yeah…hopefully it's not too bad. Characters may be a bit OOC so I apologise for that…Anyway, read on and enjoy!

The Fifth Turtle

Chapter 6: Confusion and Trust

Lucian let out a low growl, letting his head fall into his hands. No matter what part he tried to focus on it just wouldn't clear! He looked up as the doors hissed open. He rose up slowly from his sitting position (he'd slipped off the couch when trying to meditate lying down had failed) and peered over the couch, watched the red banded turtle making his way through the lair towards the table where his brothers and friend were. Suddenly he stopped, Leo looking over asking

"Raph? You okay?" Raph didn't say anything before Lucian cried out, ducking as a sai embedded itself into the top of the couch where his head had been just prior. Raph chuckled as he said

"So our sleeping beauty is awake is he? Bout time…" Lucian stood up, hands on hips.

"It's nice to see you again too, Raphael." The dark green turtle smirked, yanking his sai out and ignoring Leo telling him off as he asked

"And you are who?" Resisting the urge to tackle the smug looking turtle, Lucian didn't bother been polite as he said simply

"Lucian." He found himself thrown back then as Raph tackled him to the ground, legs keeping his arm pinned to the ground as Leo yelled

"Raph!" Raph looked up, glaring as his brothers approached.

"We don't know he can be trusted yet and yer just letting him roam free!" Lucian just stayed quiet, understanding the hot tempered turtles actions. He had been working for their enemy after all which made him their enemy…yet none of the others seemed to mind as much as Raph did. Don had stopped beside them, tapping his foot with his arms crossed impatiently as he asked Raph slowly

"What are you doing to my patient?" Raph blinked up at Don whose eyes were narrowed down at him. Whether his patient was an enemy or not, you didn't mess with Don in his Doc Mode.

Raph growled, standing up and allowing Lucian to sit up, eyes still locked on him. The fact the mint green turtle hadn't blinked yet was kinda creeping him out. Suddenly Lucian blinked and smiled slightly, standing up with Don's help as he swayed a bit, his headache and dizziness returning full force now he wasn't actively ignoring it. He sat back down on the cough, breathing slowly before looking up at the turtles and April standing around him once again. Staying silent, he laid back down, Don motioning for everyone to leave him be before he too left the black banded turtle to mull over his thoughts.

Later that night…

Lucian silently folded up the blanket, putting the pillows back in order before he cast his eyes around the lair again, smiling slightly. Letting his smile fall, he headed toward the door. He wasn't one of them…he couldn't stay… The doors hissed open as he approached before he froze, a deep voice echoing through the dark lair,

"Where do yer think yer going?" Lucian turned to look over at the red branded turtle leaning casually against a pillar, twirling a sai between his fingers. He frowned and said

"You should be happy, I'm leaving." Raph frowned back, watching as Lucian left the lair, heading out into the sewers. He tsked to himself before groaning, pushing himself off the wall and going after the turtle.

"Oh for shell's sake!"

Racing out the lair, Raph set off after Lucian, following the sounds of his footfalls. He smirked, so much for being a ninja. He was so easy to…track…Raph stopped at a junction, listening carefully and casting his eyes around. The only thing he could hear was the dripping of water, the scurrying pitter-patter of rats and other usual sounds. He growled low in his throat, hearing it echo through the tunnels before he grumbled under his breath

"I'm meant ta be searching for Splinter yet here I am looking for a no-good black shelled midget of a turtle instead! Gah!"

"That's not very nice."

Raph spun, sais in hand instantly before he stopped, sai barely a centimetre from a mint green neck and one amber eye locked with his. Raph growled again, sheathing his weapon and taking a step back before Lucian tilted his head asking

"May I ask why you are following me, Raph? I thought you'd be glad I was leaving." Raph grumbled again before he suddenly reached out to grab Lucian's headband tails like he did with his Mikey but only found himself grabbing air. His eyes narrowed, it seemed Lucian wasn't a foot Ninja for nothing, he was quick. He threw up his hands and yelled

"Look I don't know why okay?! Donnie'll get mad if you're not there and Leo will blame me cause that's what he does! I sure as shell don't care if you stay or go, you can't be trusted anyway!" He crossed his arms, turning his back and storming back toward the lair before he stopped as Lucian said quietly

"…you're right, I can't."

"What?" Raph looked over his shoulder at the other turtle whose expression was rather forlorn even as his amber eye blazed with anger…but there was a hint of loneliness under it as well and it was that that made Raph turn around as Lucian yelled at him. It was something Raph knew all too well so he just let him yell, let him vent everything he had been building up inside over the last few days.

"Why should I be trusted? I worked for Oroku Saki. He was the one who raised me, he was the one who trained me, he was the one who let me live after I became a freak! I followed my Master like anyone else would theirs, I watched him die and I never asked to be saved by you guys! So, of course, because I was loyal to MY Master I can't be trusted!" Raph blinked as Lucian huffed loudly, anger dying down before he continued speaking in a lower tone,

"I watched you, you know? …that first night you fought the Shredder…I was there, watching in amazement, thinking to myself I was no longer alone…I thought that, if I found you guys, I'd find that something I was missing…" His head lowered before he turned as if to leave adding

"I guess not."

With that he left, racing off through the sewers leaving Raph behind with the sounds of the sewer tunnels. Raph blinked and frowned, rubbing his head muttering

"Aw shell…"

Lucian stopped, bending over as he breathed heavily and his eyes stung. Damn it, he'd never gotten so worked up before! Was it because his Master was gone? Was it because he wanted to be accepted by the turtles? Was it because he didn't know what to do anymore? Lucian frowned and then tilted his head back and screamed. Slumping against the tunnel wall he slid down, drawing his knees to his chest.

"I shouldn't have yelled at him…he had every right not to trust me after all…" He closed his eyes, wrapping his arms around his legs before sighing loudly and murmuring

"Now what?"

Lucian blinked himself in wakefulness, yawning widely as he sat up, rubbing his head as his vision cleared slowly. He didn't quite remember when he fell asleep but he certainly felt better now, even his head wasn't hurting. Standing up he stretched, listening to his joints crack before he suddenly froze. His eyes were the only thing that moved, swinging from left to right before he stuttered out

"W-what in the shell?" He was back in the lair! Lucian looked around, slowly putting his arm down as his eyes landed on the olive skinned turtle calmly reading a book in the armchair, legs hanging over the side. Don looked up from his book, his eyes locking with Lucian's wide ones before he smiled saying

"So you're finally awake. How're you feeling, Lucas?" Lucian blinked again replying slowly

"…Fine thanks..but how-"

"Raph. He didn't give us the details but he said he found you collapsed in the tunnel and brought you back here." Lucian just blinked in surprise again before he simply smiled and asked slowly

"How long was I out?" Don stood, putting down his book as he too stood replying

"A few days. We've taken turns staying to keep an eye on you while the others have been out looking for Master Splinter. We're down to two sections of the city…" Lucian cast his eyes down, knowing by the tone Don used that they hadn't had any luck so far. Then he looked up, determination shining in his eyes.

"Let me help look for him! When you guys go next, please, let me come with you…I can help…we'll find him." Don looked at him and then nodded, a small smile returning to his face.

"Yes, we will."

I'm back! Sorry bout that, I was a little out of it but I'm all good now. The last two chapters have been a bit slow but, it's a bit of a confusing time for myself at the moment…I'm good now though! Going to prove myself to them, you'll see! And I get to show Raphie's just a bit softie! Haha *ducks sai* I think he heard me :p Now we move on to the search for Master Splinter!

See you then

-Lucian