Pairings: 1x2, 3x4 and 13x5x6.

Rating: R, drama, angst and sap. TWT

Warnings: R, violence, darkness, madness, bad language and some sap. To those whom actually likes Relena I must tell you that I plainly hate her and this fic is a real big Relena bashing, don't flame me for it because you have been already warned. All flames will be made fun of! Since I had a big problem about Wufei's honor and loyalty to his comrades I send the timeline to fly far away and our dear Treize will not die ^^V

AN: Well, this is my first fic about Gundam Wing so I ask you to please not be too harsh with me ^^! Even when there's 3x4 and 13x5x6 the main pair is 1x2. Maybe you could think Heero is OOC but I don't think so... He's in love; you know how that affects people. OOC Relena? Don't make me laugh, I don't think there can be an OOC Relena... I hope you understand what I mean. ^.~

Disclaimer: I got all the 7 Dragon Balls and asked Sheng Long to let me own them. Later I discovered that Kamisama had been arrested for plagiarism and fraud ^^!



Again, All the answers for those who reviewed are the end of the chapter.


Insanity
By Black Komagoro

Chapter 7

"Now Relena, is my turn to explain some things to you"

Heero took the lid and opened the box.

"Do you see this? THIS is Duo"

She was on the floor, her clothes wet from the cold shower Zechs had given her to wake her up; the pain on her face was a clear sign that there must be something broken, probably a rib or two. At the sight of the blood-covered braid, together with the smell she threw up, but Heero didn't close the box.

"Look at it! Look at what you have done!"

In a final effort to show him how much she loved him, she looked at him with teary eyes an a pleading look.

"But I did it for YOU! So you could be free from his spell! So you could see that you actually loved me and not him..."

Heero spit her on the face.

"That's the only thing I can feel for you Relena. You don't know what love is about, you can't force someone to love you!"

His tears fell into the box mixing with the blood.

"You say you love me, but you took the most important thing away from me. You destroyed Duo the exact moment you cut his hair, and with it you destroyed my life. Duo was like the elixir of life for all of us, he reminded us that besides of being gundam pilots we were humans too"

Unknown to all of them, the boy on the couch was awake; he had been awake since the moment Zechs has yelled that she wasn't a Peacecraft anymore, but for some reason he didn't want to let them know.

"I understand your reasoning now, you cut his braid because you thought I liked him because of it"

It wasn't a question, it was an statement.

"You really are stupid. What do you think I am?! I love Duo because of what he is!! If you had taken just a minute to get to know him you wouldn't have done this!! He's the most amazing person I've ever known! He went through awful times, he survived things you wouldn't even stand to see!! He's a assassin and a terrorist!! But he's also someone with a heart of gold! Even when he had a horrible childhood he was always so alive!!"

They all were crying now; they all were what Heero mentioned, they all had been called terrorists and assassins and they all have had rough times, but they had never endured the things Duo had. After all, he actually was the God of Death; they all knew they would never completely comprehend the implications of that truth.

"But what would you know about living in the streets, having to steal to feed yourself. Not knowing if you'll survive another night sleeping in a dirty street with the cold asphalt as your bed. Having to sell yourself to at least get some money, so time to time you could get some dirty clothes"

Heero paused, he knew he was revealing things the others shouldn't know but he wanted her to see the magnitude of her crime. His tears where flowing down his cheeks.

"You don't know what is it, when you have finally find a place you could almost call a home, to see how it was burned up to ashes and not being able to help the ones you once called you family. You don't know what is to see how the person you came to call a mother, die in your own arms. He lived all of that and even more worst things, and still was showing us a smile, conforting us when things seemed to hard to bear..."

Heero turned to look at his lover, laying on the couch so still that if it weren't because of the soft movements of the chest, you would think he was dead.

"Duo..."

He turned again to her; he took the braid from the box and shoved it in front of her, making the blood to splash all over her face and body.

"You killed him!! You killed the only light in my life!! He was the only one who kept me going on, he was my reason to keep living. He made me forget there was a self-destruct button in my gundam!! And if you think, that just because he's not here anymore I'm going to run to you, you're seriously deluded! I LOVE HIM!! Love him so much that if he never wakes up I'll kill myself just to be with him!!"

Relena had her eyes wide open and her mouth hanging. This wasn't what she had planned; Heero was supposed to forget the stupid fag and come with her, proclaiming his love for her and asking her to forgive him for his mistake.

"But Heero..."

"SHUT UP RELENA! I don't want to hear you talking! Just your voice is hideous to me!! I HATE YOU and I'll do whatever is needed to see you pay for what you did!"

Quatre could feel everything inside of Heero, his rage, his pain, his hate, but most than anything he could feel the way he slowly lost his wish to keep living. He didn't want to lose another friend, but there was almost nothing he could do.

"There's something else I'll tell you before I kill you"

"WHAT?! But-but you said that you wouldn't kill me if I cooperated!"

Heero smiled, and it scared the hell out of them all.

"Sadly the only one who never lied is dead... I can lie and I did"

"You can't kill me! You would be a murderer!!"

Heero's smile got even wider.

"I'm ALREADY a murderer, all of us are! Now shut up and listen"

She was so scared that she didn't even notice the warm feeling on her legs or the dark spot on her pajama's pants.

Ha! And she always was asking him to kill her... now she pee in her pants when he's actually going to do it... How pathetic

Quatre thought, unknown to him that all of them were thinking exactly the same.

"You say you love me but you don't even know me. I'll give you that 'pleasure' before you die. I don't know who my real parents are, I only have memories of Lowe, of my training and all the missions I had to do with him and then for Dr. J; I was never taught what love was about, I was told to not let emotions get in the way of missions, that the future of people was on my shoulders. I was a cold bastard who didn't care if he died or who he killed, and then I met Duo"

He took a deep breath, he was giving the longest speech he had ever done in his entire life.

"He bothered me, I thought of him as a nuisance because he distracted me. He made me feel and I was taught I shouldn't feel, but then he showed me that feelings made you even better; I had something even most important than the world or the colonies to fight for. He gave me the option of a future I never thought I actually could have. He taught me to value my own life, that I was as important as the people I was fighting for. Duo, in his own peculiar way, digged deep inside of me and showed me I had an empty heart eager to be filled, and he filled it with his friendship and later with his love. Something you could never have done, I saved you because I thought you could made a difference in this war, but I was amazingly wrong; you're not only useless to our cause but you now destroyed all his hard work... He worked himself so hard for me, and now it's wasted"

He pressed the braid to his chest.

"Heero don't..."

All the eyes turned to the couch, the boy was trying to balance himself. In less than a second Heero was at his side, with he braid still in his left hand.

"Duo? It's really you?"

Duo half smiled, the only sign that indeed it was him were the bright amethyst eyes.

"Yes Heero... but don't know for how long"

Duo turned to look at the people on the room, he already knew who were there but even when he had been awake all the time he hadn't opened his eyes. He was too calm and that worried his friends, all the others times Duo had woken up he had been screaming or too weak.

"Duo, how are you feeling?"

"Fine I guess, well as fine as I can be giving the circumstances"

Duo looked down and saw what once had been his braid, he took it and lifted it up. It was then that Relena decided to give him a piece of her mind, not that she had one to start with.

"YOU!! You fucking son of a bitch!!"

Heero was about to stand up and kill her when Duo stopped him.

"No Heero, let her talk..."

They all were scared at the way Duo was acting, because they had a feeling that it was Shinigami the one making Duo be so calm. Relena continued with her talk

"You are the responsible of all my suffering!! You took Heero away from ME!!"

He looked at her and shook his head.

"I didn't take him away from you, because he was never yours to start with"

"NO!! You did something to him, you made him believe he loved you!! I can't believe he would go to you by his own free will!! HE LOVE'S ME!"

Duo's eyes darkened.

"I don't lie Relena, and I would never force someone to be with me if they don't want to. Heero came to me because he wanted to"

He stopped and took Heero's hand in his and then continued.

"And stop talking of something you don't know the meaning of. You will never know what love is because your heart is rotten; you did this to yourself Relena"

She didn't know what to answer, so she kept repeating the same she had been saying all that time.

"He can't love you! You're a monster, look at you!"

Duo looked at his hands, the long black nails and pale skin. Then he looked at her again.

"The only monster I see here is you!"

They all noticed the change, Shinigami was losing the support he was giving Duo and this one was starting to become every time more and more angry. The reality of his situation and what she did to him taking over him more and more.

"Did your deluded mind think that my hair was the only thing that attracted Heero to me?!! Did you really think that he would come to you if I disappeared?!"

Stubborn as she was she kept believing her own words.

"Yes! If he still hasn't done it it's because you still have a spell on him!!"

Duo stood up and was now looking down at her.

"A spell?!! Do you think we're still in middle age?! Spells don't exist Relena!! What is keeping Heero with me is called LOVE! But what do you know about that?! Nothing, everyone in this room had told you the real meaning of love but your clouded mind didn't want to hear it... They opened their heart and told you their most deep secrets, but you didn't care. All you thought was that the scum from L2 lying on the couch had taken what supposedly was yours"

They all were shocked, they all with the same thought.

Had been Duo awake all this time?!

"Love is not about possession, love is about giving all you have to make the other happy. Did you think about Heero when you cut my braid? No, you were only thinking of yourself. You were thinking that finally Heero would be yours. You don't know anything about suffering! But all of us DO! All of us had suffered the loss of more than one person we loved! Trowa lost all his family, Quatre lost his parents and all his COLONY! By his own hand, do you even have the slightly idea of what that must have been for him?! Or for Wufei for that matter?! His whole clan decided to sacrifice their lives to save HIM, how do you think he feels?! Treize had lost a lot friends who gave their lives for him and his cause and he's definitely NOT happy about that!!"

He was crying by now; he knew his words were affecting all of them, but he needed to take all of it out of him and make her open her eyes before her death.

"Zechs lost his whole family and he even had to renounce to his name so he could make justice!! And this is how you pay his efforts!! Making of your family name a joke?! I'm an war orphan, I had to live on the streets and take care of myself at an age when most children should be in school enjoying life and playing with other children! I didn't have a childhood and when I finally found a place I could call home it was destroyed because of the war!! The man I called father was killed protecting me together with the other orphans!! Sister Helen died in my arms and I couldn't do anything to help them!! No one wanted to adopt me and if they did they always ended taking me back at the church!!"

"Duo, please... you don't have to-"

"Yes I do! You don't have even the slightest idea of what was for me to find all of them dead when I was actually trying to save them... And then, when I met the guys I felt that I had finally found my place, and you took it away. And Heero... Heero never knew what was to have a family, Lowe took him and trained him to be a soldier when he should have been playing like any other normal child. When Lowe died he was completely alone again and then Dr. J found him and continued his training... But in a way I should thank them, because I could meet him. He started to learn what was to be alive, REALLY alive"

"You say you love him, but you don't even know him. Do you know how much I had to work to make him open up and trust in me? Do you know how many times I ended with a black eye because of that? No, you don't know. But I took the hard work happily and I showed my black eye and bruises with pride, because I knew I was making him change to be a better person. I have always loved him, but I accepted that if he never loved me back I at least would be his friend and I would be happy to see that he would be happy when the war ended... because he would know how to live afterwards"

They all were in a total silence, Duo's words had gone deep inside all of them; so much that even Wufei was crying now. And then Duo collapsed, he fell to the floor but before his head hit the floor Heero took him in his arms; but it was so fast he lost his balance and fell with Duo over him and in the process the hit the box still full of liquid blood. Why the blood wasn't still coagulated was a mystery none of them really cared about; Duo's blood covered Heero's and Duo's hands.

"Do you see this Relena?"

Heero said raising his hand covered in glistening red. He caressed Duo's face and closed his eyes.

"This Duo's life and it's all spilled on the floor. Tell me... how I'm gong to do to put it back and bring him back to me?"

Relena was crying, Duo's words made what any of them could.

"I'm sorry... I'm so sorry, I really didn't think-"

"That's right... you didn't think. You never thought of what kind of consequences your act would have, and now you'll have to pay for it"

She looked into those eyes as red as the blood that covered the face of their owner, and felt that the end was close. Shinigami stood up and made a scythe appear in his hand, the blade was made of light; it was very alike as the one Deathscythe used. He pointed the sharp end of it towards her.

"You must die"

And just when he was about to pierce her heart and hand stopped him.

"NO! You can't, if you do that duo will never come back! Please... I beg you to let him come back. Please"

Heero had never pleaded to anyone, except Duo. And now he was willing to let go of all his pride to save him.

"Why do you love him so much?"

"You should know, you live inside of him"

Shinigami lowered the scythe and looked at Heero with confused eyes.

"I don't understand"

"You are the god of death, you take souls with you. Look inside and see the soul of the one who lend his body to you"

Shinigami closed his eyes, they waited and when he finally opened his eyes again he smiled.

"You're a good person, I understand now... but she still have to die"

"I know, but please let him to be the one who do it. He's the only one who have the right to do it"

It was amazing how they talked about killing her as if they were talking about the weather; she was scared and of course she didn't want to die, but deep inside of her she understood that they had to do it.

"I'll give him a chance, but if he have only one moment of doubt I'll come back. No matter what you tell me"

Heero thanked him, Shinigami closed his eyes and when they were opened again Duo had came back with them. By now he and Shinigami had formed a link that couldn't be broken and he had heard him. He would do it, besides he wanted to make her pay for what she did not only to him but also to all of them.

"Du... Duo?"

"Now you remember my name, ne Relena? And don't even think about telling me to not do it. You'll wish that it had been Shinigami the one to take your life... because I'll make you pay for each one of us"

With that he tightened his grip on the scythe and lowered it fast, ripping clothes and flesh, making the blood pour from the wound on her side.

"Ahhhhhhhh!!!"

"That one was for Treize, whom had suffered the lost of so many in the battle field"

He cut her again, this time ripping apart the flesh on her right leg; the wound was deep and the muscles could be seen easily. Blood smell spread through the place, together with her screams of pain.

"That one was for Zechs, who even now thinks of you as his sister... he won't stop me, but it still hurt him to see you suffering. Because of his pain of knowing he lost all his family and having to disown himself to get justice!"

Zechs eyes were full of tears, he would lost the last member of his family. He knew he couldn't do anything and he didn't want to do something to help her, because he knew she deserved what she was getting. But he wasn't a heartless man and it affected him to see her being punished. Duo chopped one of her arms, it was kind of logic she would have passed out by now, but Shinigami wouldn't let that happen.

"This is for Wufei, whom suffered the lost of his colony and the woman he respected so much, and whom you insulted with your actions as a member of the female gender"

Duo cut the flesh and muscles of the other leg, so deep one could see the bones this time. They all had closed their ears to her screams.

"This one was for Quatre, whom will never forgive himself for destroying his colony and for not being able to save his father's life"

He kicked her so she was now laying in her stomach and then he slashed her back, making a large wound that went from the right shoulder to her left hip.

"That's for Trowa, whom suffered at the hands of the mercenaries. Who lost his family even before he could have a good memory with them"

He pierced the skin on the left shoulder and slowly dragged the scythe to her right hip, making an X on her back, by now she didn't have a voice to keep screaming.

"That one was for me, for taking my memories away together with my life. For making me lost the only thing Solo left me, he told me to keep my hair long and I did as a way to never forget him; I did it in his memory"

He took her by the hair and made her seat again with her back to the wall.

"And this one..."

He said while ripping her chest in different places, the pool of blood under her was bigger every time.

"This one is for Heero, for making him hate himself for not being there for me and for insulting the memory of that little girl he compared you with, because you in some way reminded him of her and he saved you in a way to fix his mistake from the past. The last one is for taking his happiness away and for making him to want to be dead"

With that he pressed the tip of the scythe on her neck and pressed lightly.

"Bye Relena, I'll pray for you to be a better person in you next life"

With that he finished; for a moment nothing happened, but then her head fell from her neck and to the blood covered carpet.

"It's over..."

With that, Duo let go of the scythe and fell to the floor.




"NOOOOOO!!!"

Amethyst eyes opened, his face and naked body were completely covered with sweat. His hand looked for the end of his braid and to his relief he actually found it; it was then when he noticed the glint of something in front of him. He looked up just to find that it was Relena, witha pair of scissors in her right hand. But she wasn't moving, and her hands were trembling.

"Relena..."

Then he noticed the other person in the room, behind her there was Heero he had his arm extended but firm and he was pressing the end of his gun on her nape. His eyes were determined and full of hate.

"Drop the scissors..."

She did and before she could even tell something to him he had hit her making her to hit her back hard against the wall. She was going to say something but Heero gagged her before she could.

"I definitely don't want to hear you voice right now Relena, besides everything you say will be used against you"

She looked at him with pleading eyes, but he had closed his mind and senses to her; his only worry was in the bed, naked and obviously agitated.

"Duo? Daijobu?"

Violet eyes looked at him and they were afraid, whatever he was dreaming must have been really bad.

"Heero... I"

Duo hugged him with strength and started to cry.

~tbc~

Ok, this chapter was a real pain in the a** for me, and still is, because I don't know if you liked this sudden change or not. I really hope you did, because this is how I first planed the fic, there are still another two chapters... at least.

And the winner of the contest is *sound of drums while she opens the envelope*...chibidark angel!!! So you have won a lemon, just let me know if it would be 5x6x13 or 13x5x6... there's a difference! ^^!

Well here are the reviews of the new account, then I'll post the answers to those few reviews I could save before ff.net could have took my account.

Reviews of the new account.

Deathscythe_Hell_Akira
-Thanks! I'm really happy you like it! Well, Quatre actually has the 'Space Heart' remember he felt Heero's pain when he self-detonate? Well, you already now who woke up; just a question... that 15x5x6, you meant 13x5x6? Because the only one I could think of with 15 is Quinze and no thanks! There's no way I could even imagine that! ewwww... brrrr *hoping she hadn't offended anyone*

chibidark angel
-Do you know by now that you're the winner! Congratulations!! You'll have your 5x6x13 lemon!! Just one thing, do you want Zechs to be the uke?! I mean, because of the way you put the numbers... ^^! I'm very, VERY happy you liked it so much, I hope this chapter were of your like too, I was a little doubtful about it ^^!
-About Lady Une... I kind of like her, the one at the end of the series and then in Endless Waltz. She's nice, she deserves something good ^^
-As you can see, Duo 'killed' her and the fic is still ongoing... I just hope you people liked this part.
-Oh God... by now not even my mother would be able to make quit smoking, too long doing it. Besides sometimes it inspire me, but I'm a demon, demons doesn't die... hehehe...
-Oh! *blush again* Sorry can't help it... It's just that this is the first fic that get so much reviews. ^^! But thank a lot for your encouragement, I'll try to keep this level to not disappoint any of you.
-Quatre rules!! Especially when he's into Zero system!! Hehehe...

justaname
-I'm sorry then, I'm too used to talk with girls in the Internet when it comes to yaoi. ^^!
-I hope you didn't get disappointed with this chapter, there's still more and of course there's more Relena torture.

Daishi
-Well, I got a little delayed because some problems with ff.net, but now that that's fixed I hope to post next chapter soon.

sweetalexial
-O.O You gave the higher grade?! I feel honored, but I think there's one of my teachers who wouldn't think the same... but he's a "%"ยท$% too so I kind of don't care what he thinks hehehe... Teachers, they live to make your life horrible! TT
-Well, I want to know what do you think of this chapter then, as you can see it wasn't the braid what woke Duo up ^^!

Lone Wolf
-You can kick you know who for that, I wanted to kill someone when I found my account had been deleted TT
-But now I'm back!! And stronger!! Never forget that a saiyajin always get stronger after a hard fight, or after being beaten ^^!

Lain-Fujimiya-Tsukiyono
-^^! Oh my then I hope you actually liked this chapter!

oracale
-TT It wasn't my fault!!! They deleted my account!! *snif* I respect my readers, I wouldn't take down a fic without finish it first!! *sob* *crying on her dark corner* I didn't do it, I didn't do it.... I WASN'T ME!!!

Aberness
-Then... did you like the way he killed her?! At least I hope so... next chapter may be ready in a few more days...

Me
-Come on! There's some fics that are WAY better than this one! But I'm very happy you liked it so much ^^
-I'm working as faster as I can to post next chapter ASAP!

Empress of Existence
-Hehehe... I'll guess you actually liked this chapter then, if you liked the psychological torture so much then the physical one you enjoyed it better? I hope I'm not wrong in that one!

loki shifter
-I'm not giving up my writing at all! But I am not posting anything else in ff.net at least not for now, I'm still too pissed. You will be able to read all my stuff at my site, it's still under construction, but I hope to have it ready soon, you can see the address at my personal info.
-You know? The more I see the series the more I hate Relena, especially because she kind of gives herself a certain right over Heero, and every time I see her screaming, and I quote: "Heero, come here and kill me", I just can't believe someone can be THAT pathetic. ^^!
-God you're so RIGHT!! If they needed someone to represent peace, there was always Sylvia Noventa, she has even more reasons to be a representative than Relena. She only was there because: 1) She's a Peacecraft, the family name helped her... 2)She had the amazing luck to know Heero, not that Heero was lucky, the poor guy never even guessed the problem he got himself in when he didn't kill her the first time... but oh well.
-Well, Trowa was shoot with a damn gigantic beam and he survived, I don't think there should be a reason for Treize to not to. ^^V

Hyperbole
-Well, what do you think? Was his speech good enough?! *crossing her fingers*

Dami
-Yeah, and I would like to knw who was the one who said I had NC-17 fics, speacially when those were R. TT
-Well, if I'm not wrong there's nothing against bashings, but the day that appears I'll delete the site from my favorites, and I know there's a lot of other people who would do the same...
-If I'm not wrong there's a group called VALL (Virgins Against Lemon and Limes) ^^! Who had somethin to be with it, get your own conclusions...
-Well, here's the next chapter... hope you enjoyed it!
-^^! Thank you!!
-There's an adress that will lead you to the first chapter...


Reviews of the old account.

Sakura-Mako and makoto
-Heero's you niichan?!! Then you should know he's my cousin, and Duo too... but they're from too different sides of the family so there's no problem!! ^^V
-Did this chapter was bloody enough? I hope so... ^^!

Dami
-If pocky ruled the word, it would be definitely a happier place ^^! But then my demon side wouldn't be happy ^^! You just can't satisfy everyone! TT
-God bless gundamium, and you can use it to cook too! Things doesn't stick to it and it's easy to clean!! ^^! Me and my ramblings... oh well, that's something I can't help...

xxkureanixx
-O.O *getting scared* You didn't like them? Because if you didn't, please tell me why. You may be helping me to be a better writer ^^!

Ms. Talon
-Don't worry!! Get carried away!! As long as you don't want to kill me there's all ok... ^^V

Akennea
-O.O Your life is in my hands? *really evil smile* You should never tell that to a demon-saiyajin, it's not good for your health.
-Well, I updated, but I'll take your words and someday, when you less expect it, I'll come for YOU!!! NYAAAHAHAHAHAAA!!!!

oracale
-I liked it a lot too hehehe... And if you feel that this chapter left you with a bad taste on your mouth because of the ending, then wait for the next chapter because this still haven't ended!! MWAAHAHAHAAAA!!!
-I wouldn't let her go just like that, please!! I have a lot waiting for her.

chibidark angel
-*looks at the answer at the first part of the reviews*

Chara
*before Chara can even notice it, she takes all the pocky* I'll take care of this problem don't worry ^^V And as you see here's a new chapter, I would never forget my readers, it's just that I had been a little busy and then ff.net closed my account and I had to open a new one TT

justaname
-That would have been a real trouble, for Heero at least. He wouldn't know if he's kissing duo or Shinigami... and I don't think he would like to kiss Death. ^^!

The Black Gatomon
-*walks away slowly* Ok... calm down wolves. By the way I kind of didn't get that well, did you meant my fic was bad? Or that they were looking just for Relena to kill her and eat her? Because if it was the last one, I feel sorry for them, they will get a really ugly stomachache... I don't think eating Relena is healthy. ^^!

Bleeding Soul
-Hihihi... I take you liked this chapter too then... at least until you read she wasn't really dead?

Nae Nae Yuy-Leonhart
-I'm really surprised, I really thought people would side with Duo more than with Shinigami, but as you could see it was Duo the one who woke up first.
-Heh... everyone had told me that he should re-attach the braid, and I always saw that kind of impossible ^^! But at lest he still have his whole braid!!

x2Angelofdeath
-^^! I thought I would have a hard time about that contest ^^!
-In the place I came from, evilness is a way of life!! Nyaaahahahaaa!!!!

Dragon Slayer
-Well, I hope you liked this chapter too!